Sometimes what I have to write is more important than what I feel
And sometimes how I feel is more important than what I can write

So when those two meet
Poetry is birthed from my soul
Bleeding on paper are my emotions
Which I hope can take control
I have stood for all and I have fallen for all
Stuck in a dream with a heart full of feelings
If someone can make me feel what’s deep in
I promise to try to love again, if not I hope you can catch me while I am falling for these feelings

I used to fear love
Now I embrace love
I can’t eat, sleep, breath without thinking of love
So darling here you have it

I do not fear you anymore!

I would rather feel something
than feel nothing at all
Because death comes for us all
And the first thing it takes away is our feelings
in our souls

It numbs our spines and takes away our senses
Forcing us to live life senseless
As it welcomes us with open arms

Free your mind
Let your soul unwind
Smile, remember you are beautiful
Pick up your sorrow
leave that ground
Fly to higher emotions,
feel this glorious sensation

Love means nothing
if fidelity does not accompany it
Many love but fall out of love
Many love but run away from love
Many love but cheat on love
So don’t show me love
if you are not bringing fidelity with it

Without flaws
perfection would mean nothing
That's why I admire your ability to show me your flaws and insecurity
Letting me in and allowing me to build our loyalty

The stone holds no threat unless it’s thrown
Anger has no power unless it’s owned
Struggle has no ending
unless you sprinkle a little joy on it
Most who don’t fight with their fists
Fight with their hearts
Learn to tell them apart

Some surgeons come with no degrees
Hands that frees
Nails that cut deep, opening scars
That should be locked up in prison bars
Veins that flow venom
All we fear is a flatline a broken spine
A coffin that lays 6 feet away from life

Today our hearts won first place
We first confronted our deepest fears
Cried our deepest tears
Emotionally undressed each other
As we spiritually healed each other
We are all we need, the world will have to wait
In this moment love has allowed us to meet
Two strangers freezing time
As we search for keys in each other’s souls

As my words connected to this paper
my thoughts got heavier
feeling the pressure to impress you  
I tried to describe your beauty
but my heart felt jealous and didn't let me
it held that feeling captive close to my soul
and placed my mind as the warden
captured in an emotionless planet

I slept with my feelings
and birthed depression
the pain of knowing that I love you
but fear to tell you
afraid of your reaction

I hold on to pieces of you
through this perfect lens is the image I have of you
your beauty and personal view
When I find the courage, I fear it will be too late
you will have left and found another lover  
Now I write these words to my thoughts of you
From my hearts point of view
I tried moving on but my soul still points at you

Toughest thing I have ever had to do was grow up

besides that everything else has been easy

Life is mean
it will beat you up till you give up and die

But while it’s beating you up all you can do is keep on trying

Blah blah blah!!! one day at a time, wipe those **** tears and keep going

Who said it would be easy, well tell them that they were lying

Truth is, I don’t know the truth anymore
I’m just living this life while lying in truth

While having Deep rooted emotions,
that seek validation of my actions,
I am 1 in 7 billion guests on an earth filled with insecure hearts and lost minds

Those that think they know the truth lack vision and those who are blind know too much to tell us what they see

Growing up ***** the living daylight out of our souls
while painting a beautiful smile on our faces full of holes

While directing us to a floor
that’s dug 6 feet under

17 dead, school colored red
President parades hateful speeches
Gun control he says
Crowd yells impeachment
Mass murders roam school halls
Teachers lock shut doors
Please don’t shoot one yells
As the bullet penetrates her skull  
Bullied he yells
Mask on his face hiding his guilty conscious
Gun shot after gun shot
Bodies drop like dead birds flying in polluted air
Mothers outside cry tears
Afraid standing waiting for their child to run into their empty hands, comforted by emptiness
Clinching fists while raging in fear
Gun shot after gun shot
Cops come to the scene cause a scene
Victims rushed to empty hospital beds  
Now covered red
Mothers and fathers hold hands as they prayed
Faith becomes relevant when pain becomes evident
Gun shot after gun shot

The greatest thing I have ever fixed
Was my mind on never letting you go
I subbed out my ego,
and evicted pride out of my heart,
just to make room for you and you alone

Now here is my heart
please handle with caution

Hashtag my soul away, so many can see it
I’m waving my hands saying hey look at me
Posting pics, statuses and videos
Can’t do it quietly
I want them all to See
Envy me and make me their fantasy
A few likes on this post is not enough
I deserve to get liked like I’m roylaty
adore me while you stare at the pictures
I spent hours cropping, adding more filters to guard my insecurities
Before I hashtag it, I dress it with perfection
Cut out any ugliness, clean up the mess
Show the world purity
because if they see the negative
their words will expose my insecurities
Behind this screen I found a secured me
That is the side I only want them to see
So I hastag popular tags so they can all see
The better side of me

Her: Hey how are you
Me: I am still a fool
Her: Why
Me: Because I am still willing to fall for you
Her: I just called to check up on you
Her: Heard you been facing a tough time
Me: Yes I have been facing a tough time
Me: I have been feeling empty inside
Me: I been feeling like a hole has been ripped in my heart
Me: Even though my heart beats,
Me: It still beats to the soundtrack of your voice
Her: I am confused
Her: I gave you my heart and you decided to break it
Her: Now you crying and facing regret
Her: I gave you my all, and you gave me just enough of you
Her: Enough to keep me interested
Her: While loving me from a distance
Her: As you fought the resistance, you never gave us a chance
Her: You ignored love when it came knocking
Me: I know, I was wrong for thinking you would stay forever
Me: I took you for granted, I took what we had and destroyed it
Me: You calling me shows me that we still stand a chance
Her: Some chapters are better left closed
Her: I am just keeping my promise
Her: I told you I would be there for you
Her: Even if it meant loving you from a distance
Her: I see the good in you
Her: But I can't be with you if you don't see it too
Me: I see what you mean, I still have a lot to learn
Me: I tried to find you in the last person who claimed to love me
Me: But failed to realize that a love that you gave could never be duplicated, a love full of compassion, desire, a love so deep the soul can feel it. Now I get it, I was numb at the moment because I was afraid to feel loved, afraid to lose myself in you, afraid to face my darkest fears
Me: I was afraid to let you hold my insecurities, thinking it would destroy me.  So I never gave you all of me. Because I thought it was impossible to love me
Her: Impossible is a word cowards use to ignore life's greatest opportunities. I believed in you and saw all that you could be
Her: I saw past your insecurities, I just hoped you saw me for me and stopped running away from me
Her: Your fear introduced countless hours of tears to me
Her: You left me outside your heart as I knocked for you to let me in
Her: Now that I healed from the pain and hurt you caused me, you want me to open up those old scars, those old memories
Me: I am sorry, that I hurt you so badly. I hurt myself too along the way for being ignorant of your love
Me: Your words were the closure I was looking for
Me: The piece to my peace I was missing
Me: I now undersatnd what it means to have had and lost
Her: I am sorry too... I wish you luck as you search for the real you
Her: When you find him please tell him next time to love instead of run, tell him its ok to feel too. Tell him true love comes to those who seek it with all of their heart and soul. Tell him its ok to fall
Me: Thank you for everything
Me: I now understand
Her: You are welcome, I will be here until the end

Who knew that there was a society of writers
Blind authors, who embrace one another
Hello poetry a bank of words mounted on a site for all to see
Hidden truths in words so powerful, emotions expressed like a waterfall
Hello Poetry to some it is a remedy
to others its pure therapy
Hello Poetry a book for all to see
tears shed full of empathy simple words fill spaces that are empty
These words I display would of been buried with me
But this place allowed me to fornicate with these metaphors  
and birth words so beautiful,
these words now live in the minds of readers and silent poetry lovers  
As you read my expressed emotions
remember that Hello Poetry let me nurture my emotions
before letting you see a part of me no one has ever seen

His biggest mistake is that he loved
his greatest choice is that he loved

Rain drops dropping on your dry soul
Wet hands now clap of laughter
Low in self-steem now flying higher
Weak in imagination
scared to see a future without her
She is deeper than the ocean floor
You shallow as a river filled with rocks
Emotions fueld by your insecurities
Now you are scared to be
who you are supposed to be
Stagnate in progression so you regress
Take a million steps backwards
Scared to move forward
Fearing the future
lacking the idea of growth
That one knee will never see the floor
Because you can't see a future with her
But you hold on to her like ransome
While her next one is dying to find her
Leave her be so she can be
free to find her one true love
Her next one

He said you will never catch me in my emotions

And then she came around,
now his stuck in his emotions
Deep like the ocean
She explores him

She comforts his insecurity
Protects and loves him with dignity
Shows Love and loyalty
She is his weakness
As he is her strength
They hold each other
as they dream of forever
True genuine lovers
Hidden emotions find comfort under covers
Whispering secrets kept between them
Love so strong and powerful it blinded them

She told me she loved me
While only using emojis
That’s when I knew she had the best of me
Hipster love, was so cool
To me it was therapy
Falling deeply as she saw the best of me
Forcing me to face my demons
Which came by the millions
But together we slayed them
She was my drug and I was her addict
I needed her in order to feel high
When she left depression came to comfort me
We song rock and roll
which later turned into blues
Melodies so deep they touched my soul
Abusing my emotions while she blew me
Hearts and kisses, pretty soon I would make her my misses taken her off of Cupid’***** list

How can you look for love
when Christ like love overwhelms your heart
Heals what tore you apart
Touches your soul, loves you more and more

Today and forever no one will ever fill the void like he does

He gives a love that materialism can never replace

He gives a love that heals,
a love that renews your spirit
You need to be in it to feel it
Read of it, pray for it, cry for it, live for it

Some look for it in wealth, and fame
But die never finding the peace to their existence

Sad to see a world full of young Kings and Queens, committing suicide just to feel loved

At the bottom of bridges lays bodies with empty souls, empty pill bottles, empty bullet shells
Crack and ****** needles

Bodies that searched for a Christ like love in the wrong places, fell in love with worldly addiction

Seek him and find salvation, his love knows no ending, his love runs on infinity, his love spells unity

Hopeless souls dance with pain
while sleeping with depression
seeking sensation while blind to their destination
Death welcomes them with open arms
smiling while showing off its everlasting charm
Running from dreams while walking with nightmares
Regret gives them energy, as they ponder on past enemies
Breathing anger while feasting on bad memories

Written poetry on ***** walls
Cleaned by tears of critics views
who choose to destroy your existence
by breaking down your words
stealing your flow while sleeping with your metaphors
destroying your credibility
while attempting to darken your ability
hungry ego's seeking compliments
starve when you pay them no attention
causing tension due to starvation
power is never in the eyes of the writer
it lives in the imagination of the readers
perception filled minds clouded by emotions
thirsting for your reaction, while choking on your analogies
hungry egos must be fed or else.....

Nothing hurts more than dreams that don't start
Memories that Don't end
Pain that wants to be friends
Lovers that always pretend
Opinions with no stand
Blind artists with with beautiful art
That they never get to see

While those who see never appreciate the beauty that's within

I could be the Next victim
Neck pressed on
as I smell the rubber of a cops tires
Forced to kiss the ground I walked on
As he expresses his power
He overdosed on anger  
A power trip with no sense of human decency
As he presses on my neck I start yelling “I can’t breath” !!!!!!
Me saying I can’t breath seems to be the words that comfort his heart, stroke his ego as he won’t let go
Like countless others he made it his duty to send me to my maker, to rid the world of my existence
Choking every ounce of air in my body
As he claims to protect and serve
Protecting his future and serving his needs
I just happened to be in the way of his agenda
Diabolical mindsets fornicate with his views
He births opinions of being the superior race
Encouraged by the media
He seeks to honor the heritage of his ancestors
Old time slave owners, it’s in his blood
A passage of hate, passed down to him by ignorant minds, he educates himself and his children, teaching hate no compassion, seek to **** with no solution,

What hurts the most is witnessing good cops sit in silence, muted in solidarity, silenced by unity
Standing and watching
for 8 minutes & 46 seconds
Let that sink in!!!!
Clock ticks as they result to their old antics
No accountability for their immoral actions
Which encourages them to keep killing and suffocating those with darker pigmentation

I could be the next victim, being black makes me a target, makes me a mark, makes me a reason for the graveyard never to remain empty
We all die, (I get that)
But he seeks to invite death to come meet me early

I could be the next victim
So before I become the next victim
I will fight and pursue justice
I will protest until my unborn child tastes freedom
I will honor my ancestors by my action
Resilient mindset, and dedication to create a better generation of leaders, supply love in a world where my worth is determined by my skin tone,
in this fight I know I am not alone
Looking at this crowd
I know we are together strong!!!
As we fight for my ancestors  
Their cries echo deep in our souls
Rooted deep in our veins is their pain  

I will know my rights, raise my voice, scratch and claw for equality, Until it becomes my reality
For 400 years of innocent blood is enough
Our voices can not be muted if we speak as one
Vote as one, fight as one, seek change and hold those in power accountable on all levels as one

I could be the next victim
but before I am next
I will ask justice to do its job and protect my last breath and heart beat

Please don’t let me become the next victim

If love can heal
And pain can ****

What will it take to get over you

If anything know that this heart beats
Creating instrumentals, that have rthyms to your heart beat
Synchronized we swim to satisfaction
While multiplying genuine affection
As it Clogs our imagination
Thoughts so deep they drown in the ocean
you had 7 billion choices to love
But me is who you picked above
If anything know that my love for you will never die
Like a ghost I will hunt your thoughts, dreams and imagination

If love is blind then I lost my eye sight the day I met you
I have been blind since my eyes pierced your lovley soul

I know deep down she still has a heart that beats
But lately love feels so strange
cold and numb are her feelings  
beyond all the scars is a beautiful smile

her last lover buried her heart
he left her with a wrist full of signatures and a body full of insecurities
she is a product of failed relationships and broken promises  

If only she can let me love her
the way I know how to
if only she can let me heal her insecurities
if and only if she can let me in
then for this love
I am willing to give up all of me to gain all of her

But lately she feels distant
Every kiss misplaced
as if I am not her one and only
This feeling of numbness
leaves me feeling lonely
Wondering what happened to my lover
Is her heart being shared with another
Am I a victim of love or a hopeless romantic holding on to promises laced in beautiful kisses
Fake smiles, and cold hugs, counting down the time till she unwinds, walking on eggshells
Wondering when do I get to in hale while in hell
If only she knew how I feel

If you are going to leave
Leave

If you are going to love
Love

I am asking you
please don’t do both

Because you can not
break and fix a heart at the same time

That’s called emotional abuse
And my heart...
doesn’t have the time for that

I hope when I see you
You see you
Because if we are one
We become each other
Perfectly belt with flaws
Perfectly grown in love

I hope
I hope you
I hope you know
I hope you know how
I hope you know how you
I hope you know how you make
I hope you know how you make me
I hope you know how you make me feel

Loved....

I
Miss
       You
           Tonight
  And every second
             you are not in my
                                      Sight

Seeking refuge
only to end up being used
cheap labour, low wages
slammed in small cages
stereotyped due to my difference
I pray for deliverance
government blames our growth on their lack of security
just all lies hiding behind their deepest insecurity
afraid to see me be who I was meant to be
blind to your scrutiny,
I search for liberty
in a land where I get robbed of dignity
immigrant is what they label me

She wrote a piece that shook my soul
Every word was as if she uttered my name
Feeling as if my heart was burning in flames
She told me a love like hers can never be tamed
Regret ran through my mind
as my soul felt empty,
it was her reality I was living
Now death comes to comfort me

Woke up to a dream filled with limitless emotions, she never sought revenge
But left my heart feeling strange
A love like hers can never be found
Till this day I search for a dream like love
And only find it in my dreams

That's why I now sleep more...

I write poetry
To make sure I still have feelings
Living in a numb world
where all of our emotions are hidden
While being force fed other people’s insecurity
No matter why normal feels like insanity
And real seems fake
I pray that my words save me

Wind blows deep
Giving heart beats

Twisted leafs fall
Onto Cold grounds

Love whispered in insecure ears
Quickly turns into fear
Flowing deep enough to awaken heavy tears
Drowning in pain she floats her emotions to a loveless soul
Seeking skies but sleeping on empty floors
Staring at the mirror
Reflecting on the fact that she is insecure
Secured by depression and anxiety
Which comfort her with worrying
She sees no tomorrow
as she is comforted by sorrow

I have seen scars honey and yours are too deep

I fear I might not have the remedy to help stop the bleeding

Your emotions scream for love but your heart has seen it’s fair share of pain

open scars showing your battle wounds, a history of pain lives in your veins

Insecure within

A victim of repeated mental abuse
Heart misused, body destroyed

I have seen scars honey and your scars are too deep to love, I myself am a product of a few broken promises

I can’t promise you forever

But I can love you now
because tomorrow is not in the picture

Hidden emotions got you feeling captured
Like a prisoner
You are locked (in) (security)
25 to life, scared to face who you are supposed to be

This fear rapes your sense of security
As it Demoralizes your reality
Scared to be free, so you face burglary
Robbed of your deepest sense of emotions
As your feelings drown deep in the ocean

You are insecure about the way you
      Talk
          Walk
                Smile
                     Look

uncomfortable in your own skin
so you wear a persona that fits another