feels scary
trying to picture
the future

what else is scary?
walking down
the memory lane

reconnect to the past
making sure
all the hurts
are healed

to be brave
enough
to see
'us' as a possibility

stop
acting
like you're
just a supporting cast

when you're
actually
the main character

get up
dress up
change the world

She is the sunshine
Between the mountains

She is the calm
Before the storm

She is the cloud
On a rainy day

She is the dream
in your reality

She is
who she is

and not
everyone understands
that

One footstep at a time
I think I’m getting closer
to where I belong
Is this it?

I just saw the most beautiful garden
Can I stay here?
I know I want to

When people ask me
Why don’t you just pick the flower and go
I said, for what?
It’ll be dead in the next few days

I love this place
I want to see those flowers grow
Stand tall

Little did I know
Turns out the garden is mine
It’s a gift
From above

He left for no reason

So..
He doesn't have the right to
Come back with an excuse :)

You all single ladies
Might not know
How lucky you are

Yea! You heard me
LUCKY!

You got to learn
What being happy really means
When your happiness isn't up to
How your man treated you yesterday

You know what's your worth

You got to learn
What you deserve
From a man
Who hopes to spend
The rest of his life with you

Some people wish to turn back
The time to their single days
Really..

So I say,
   the chance of being single
is so **underrated

They said, think about it
One last time
I said, I've had enough
I have moved on

Your eyes can't lie
To say that you have moved on
is a bit exaggerated
They said

I realized
I've been livin
in a big chunk of denial
all this time

I need closure
we need to talk
This time, you must participate
Cause it turns out that
Making peace with myself
Just wasn't enough

So
Here we go again

one.last.time
I promise **

You hurt me once
Shame on you
You hurt me twice
Shame on *me

he was born an angel
lights upon his face
rose petals covered him
eyes sparkled with love

dreamed about flying
when he saw his brothers' wings
all smiles of excitement
oh precious wings
he muttered

he woke up the next day
everyone was lying down
on the floor
no flying no more

      the wings was scattered

the sadness can be seen
in his eyes, until now

I'll be waiting for that day

The day when I don't even care
whether someone really screamed your name
or it's just a stranger with the similar name

The day when I don't even bother to cry at night
when people remind me about us

The day when I put smile on my face
and you're not the reason behind it

The day when I can lay my head down,
without feeling sad
without sheding a tear

The day when I run
not because of the things I've been avoiding
but because of the things I've been pursueing - before I met you

The day when my world
doesn't revolve around you.

I'll be waiting

It was a peaceful night
You came knocking on my door
I peeked from the small hole to see your face
You smiled
I wanted to see more clearly
I opened the door carefully
It was you.
Someone that I once dreamed about
but now standing right in front of me

You asked if I was bothered
I just smiled
You started to talk about stuffs
I can't believe how comfortable I was

until one day,
you didn't show up anymore

I was confused
why? I wanted to see you

then I realize this strange feeling
I missed you

I decided to stroll around the lake
I froze.
You were standing there
looking nice, as usual

I patted your back and
smiled as you turn around

that's not the smile I used to see, I thought.

and I was right
he's not the same person anymore

Is it my fault?
What did I do wrong?
Where did it goes wrong?
When?
may be I was too busy adoring you to even notice

Everything was perfect,
feel like  e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g  fell into places

But turns out,
It's not good enough for you

You even lied.

You know what?
It's not your lies that made me cry
It's not your sudden 'non-existence' either

What hurts the most is . . .
the fact that you pretend 'us' never happened

when you really want to help someone,
it shows

when you really want to listen to people,
they know it

when you really want to understand what people actually said
instead of trying to argue (and win that argument),
they can feel it

when you really want to put aside any personal problems that you have
(cause people had nothing to do with it, they did nothing wrong to you)
and communicate well,
they acknowledge how mature you are

when you really don't want to hurt anyone on purpose,
you'll learn how to think before you spit out a word

and they will learn that  **.heart.matters.