i'd pull every single star
from the night sky
if it would only bring
me back to you.

you've pulled away
taking all my sanity
and all i can do is wait.
i can still taste
your saliva on my tongue,
the memory burning
through the velvet night.
darkness falls,
my thoughts turn to you
grasping for even
the smallest morsel,
looking for sustenance.

i once thought soulmates
were the missing piece
the perfect fit
the calm after the storm
but then i met you
and everything that i am
everything that i fear
was mirrored back to me
and my soul sighed
at the feeling
of finally being seen
our eyes met
twin blues colliding
and i knew
it would always be you.

our love was a loaded gun
the beginning
and the end
your lips grazed mine
before swallowing me whole
one last bite
of the serpents apple
the sweetest martyrdom
and just like horatio
i'm aching
with the anticipation
of your ghost finding mine
waiting for sleep
just to hear your voice once more
each syllable
still the sweetest hallelujah
even if we're nothing
but the whisper of a memory.

the painful truth
echoes in your silence
and now i understand
that for you
the thrill of the chase
was sweeter
than even the ripest fruit.

i breathe you in
and just like that,
i'm intoxicated

you breathe me in
each stolen kiss
a sacred prayer
spilling from our lips
you say my name
and my blood sings for you,
evergreens blooming
through my ribcage
no moment
will ever be long enough
your fingers find my hair
crimson flames
dancing across water
your whispered confession
sealing my fate
as i scream your name
into the heavens
my own personal sermon
i will never be whole again;
for you have captured me
so entirely.

you consume me
so entirely
filling up my lungs
with each breath
dancing around my veins
with each beat of my heart.

in the gentle tangerine light of dawn
we entombed each other
in a mess of unmade bedsheets
and sweat soaked kisses,
foolishly sending
our wishes up to the stars.

despite it all
we effortlessly end up
drawn together again
your soul pulling me in
my bones still remembering
how your touch felt
on those velvet nights
you light up my existence
and swim beneath my skin
my blood is yours.

what if we weren't
so bound by time
what if, like the universe
our thoughts,
our memories were linear
burning, alive and electric.
what if we could swim
between what has been
and what is yet to come,
would our moments
underneath a summer moon
where our souls bled
and our demons danced
be the ones you go back to?

i will wait for you
until there is nothing left
but burning skies
and wilting roses.

before you
i didn't know
what fireworks felt like,
you set me ablaze
and it terrified me
now everything
dulls in comparison,
and all i have left
are memories
that tear through my bones.

i'll never understand
how you can both
light me up
brighter than the sun,
yet our memories
can still eat me
from the inside out
leaving me aching
like a black hole,
burning me completely.

underneath the gloomy morning dew
i would sit and dream of you
the bleeding hearts
would bloom and dance,
in remembrance of our wilting romance.

you told me
actions speak
louder than words,
now i hear more
in your silence
than you were ever
able to tell me aloud.

crimson hair on soft pillows
like flames on water
darkness felt like home to us,
spending each night
talking to the stars
your teeth tracing my veins
my touch
enough to contort you.
our nights became ritualistic
your pulse pushing out your skin
shadows finding shadows
your demons meeting mine,
the moon was burning
my heart on fire
you are my muse.

you've made me soft
that's what i'm told
took my sword and replaced it with roses,
showing me there's beauty
in being unguarded
now i stand in a blooming garden
flowers singing since i let you in.

you once said
our first kiss
felt like two lost stars
hopelessly colliding,
consuming each other
faster than we
could ever comprehend.
how then
after such an impact
can we fade to nothing
but whispers in the dark
just as easily?

we crashed together
so naturally
like the sea
against the shore
sandy lips
and ocean eyes
whispering promises
washed away
by morning.

my love for you
is like craving more oxygen
- essential for life.

the worst part is,
you felt like coming home.

you see the world
through a broken lense
if you gave me the chance,
i would've picked each star
from the velvet sky
to put you together again.

you might not
have been my first love
but you were the one
who hurt the most.

you wanted a match,
i gave you a wildfire.

there is an endless poem
burning in my throat
scratching at my bones,
keeping me awake
like a lover of the night
and it is only ever
howling your name.

maybe if i wrap our memories
in cellophane
they won't escape me
like you did.

lost are the nights
where i would breathe you in
feeling you slowly burn
as i held you close,
now all i can do is watch
as you fall back
into the void
i tried so helplessly
to save you from.

in the darkness i find you
your face forming so easily
despite the dawns between us
incense fills the air
and i'm back there
in that first moment
your eyes sparking like a glacier
the air between us dancing
with a million words unsaid
i knew then what i know now
with oranges staining my lips
the pain of loving another
would never be as sweet.

hand in hand
we ran down the cliffside
wind howling
the waves crashing
crimson hair
dancing in the breeze
we sat for a moment
lost in the beauty of it all
thinking that the ocean
hugging the shore so calmly
before violently
breaking at it's feet
is much like how
our love feels.

as i lay
in this eternal slumber,
i hear your voice
and my heart
skips a beat again.

you are,
you will always be
my sweetest haunting,
i loved you first.

my darling
my love for you
will outshine
any star in the sky,
until there is nothing left
but blackness
and the memory
of your lips on mine
you are the only galaxy
i never tire of exploring.

and now
when we are nothing
but dust
i only wish
that you let me show you
you were always
enough.

summer love
and your glacier eyes
grass stains
on silken skin
with the taste of july
staining our lips,
one look from you
and i'm on my knees
drunk on your kiss
each lie sweeter
than dandelion wine.

your love is both
the shining altar
and the smoldering
gates of hell,
i dance between
like a woman possessed
unsure if you will save me
or devour me whole.

we aren't all
still waters and roses,
we each have
our darkness to embrace
our deepest desires,
demons in the shadows
i wonder if yours
has crimson hair
and saucer eyes,
if they hit you
with burning kisses
while you sleep,
just like mine
have eyes of ocean blue
and writers hands
that feel like home.

your love is deadly;
only you
could break me twice.

we were but a myth,
you were the deity
that i wanted so badly to believe in.

just a foolish girl
letting nostalgia
fill her heart
and leave her aching
for a love
that never existed.

and i loved you
in a golden crescendo
of moonlit sunsets
sweet amber kisses
and honey soaked lips.

you picked me up
and spread me apart
over and over
leaving your notes
in the margins
and fingerprints
on my pages.
now no matter
who reads me
all they can see is you,
staining each page
with blue ink
and a hopeful heart.

i had a paper heart,
you played with matches.

the silence between us
deafens me
yet even in the darkness
all i know
is that there is a beating
behind these weary bones
singing just for you.