I didn’t know you could die without dying but thanks to you get I get the  experience my lungs and heart gasping for air at the same time feels like I’m suffocating but some how i’am still breathing this is the closest I have felt to hell you have to be the devil in disguise you took my joy balled it up and made it tears I mean you could have fooled me I thought only magicians could do that but I guess satan had some trips up his sleeves for me , I’m sorry that someone hurt you but I don’t deserve this type of pain and for you to purposely try to hurt me because someone hurt you that hurts you knew what you were doing you disgust me I don’t feel sorry for you but I’m sorry that happened to you but still we all are accountable for our own actions we are not kids anymore you knew what you were doing you masked up for a while but eventually your horns start to poke out you couldn’t hide it any more a devil in disguise you were never the perfect guy  u claimed to be  , you sit on a bed of lies and I sleep in a bed full of tears and regret….. I may be drowning in my tears right now but I know that god is still watching over me and hoping I learned my lesson well if your listening god I have learned my lesson I know that you are here with me every step of the way but people  like him makes me wanna to over dose and come see you at least I know I’m safe with you ❤️🦋

No hood better than father hood

You were supposed to be my bodyguard and my Therapist
But instead your just a provider
A dad is supposed to be the  ride or die  for their child
A guardian angel
I don’t know who to be mad at you or my mom for choosing you
It’s clear as a crystal that you didn’t want kids it’s not like you don’t say it
I did my best to make you proud of me
But that wasn’t enough
But I made a promise to myself and my future child the father of my child will love his daughter or son unconditionally
A bond strong enough to never be broken

Intoxicated
His  love is in my system
My friends keep telling me to let him go and I tell them  
It’s something about the way he holds me
He never try’s to control me🌬
My friends tell me they miss the old me the old me wouldn’t have fell for him so quick
My friends don’t understand the love I have for him

Because of you I have been sleep deprived
Because of you my heart has a hole in it
Because of you “I love you” means nothing to me
😞

I want my best friend back
I miss staying up late talking about everything....there was nothing we didn’t talk about
We laughed in church even though we tried our hardest not to
Together we laughed anywhere and everywhere
I remember when we would not see each other for like a week and when we saw each other we would run to each other in slow motion

I just wanna drink till I can't feel anything .. but then again once I wake up with a hangover I will feel  everything again... So what would be the point of temporary pain relief? I would rather something that's forever pain relief... I don't wanna be the drunk mom you hate, I don't wanna be the auntie that comes in late , I don't wanna pass my pain on to anyone I rather just disapear, everything is temporary expect death it's a forever thing

Just gonna let love exist without me
I don't need it messing up my life all over again
Making me miss something i don't need making me feel like i need someone when reality i was born alone I'll be ok
But being heartbroken makes u think other wise
"I'll never be happy again" yes you will it all starts with you ❤✨
"I'm never gonna find someone like him or her" yes u will and they will be 10× better then him or her

Love never said i love you back
All it ever did was stab me im the back
Seeing others happy with being in love made me feel like i was missing out on something all i was missing out on was lies,hugs,kisses

There is this girl named depression
She doesn't care if I'm happy
She will bring in bad news when i just got in a good mood
She doesn't care if I'm with a good dude
She tells me he just wants me to send nudes
I tell her to leave her presence isn't needed she doesn't listen
She wants to live with me forever
Whoever this may concern if you see her avoid her

A girl you can trust with your heart
The highlight of your day
The thunder to your sunlight
The ketchup to your fries
The solution to your problems
The sizzle to your bacon
The diabetes to your heart

I tried to sleep away the pain that didn't work
I tried to cry my pain away that didn't work
I tried to over dose my pain away that didn't work
I tried to ignore my pain and pretend to be happy that didn't work

I'm over this thing called life
I'm over being depressed
I'm over people coming in and out my life
I'm over fake friend's
I'm over love
I'm ready for my life to end i try my best to hold it in but in the end i don't win

I cut Guy's off like it's my job
I rather be hurt by u then be hurt with u
I rather put the pieces together then let u destroy me
I rather love me

Him: Why are u so mean?
Me: Because I'm scared of love
Him: I'm not like them other guys
Me: that's what they all say before they break my heart
Him: I'm different i promise
Me: if u really want me u wouldn't mind working hard to find my soft spot
Him: i don't have time for games
Me: my heart isn't a game but guy's sure like to act like it

Where were u at when i just wanted to die
Where were u at when i couldn't breathe
Where were u at were u at when i was crying my eyes shut?
Where u at when i couldn't sleep because i was over thinking..
But here you are texting me at 3:am

Have them fall in love break their heart
Tell them lies
Say negative things to them 247\
Make them feel unwanted
Say i love u but don't mean it
Ignore them
Cheat on them and say sorry

If love was a pill what would be the side effects
depression
could **** u if u let it
* be careful because after the first one u could be addicted to the pain
warning this pill will have u feeling every emotion that exist
make sure it's the right pill

We could have been together forever but u decided to be distant
We could have been together forever
But u decided to stand me up
We could have gotten back together
But u decided to talk crap about me

I loved u with all my heart  seeing you with her makes me fall apart
How did  u move on so quick?
I still stay up crying over u...
It hurts to see u hold her hip like u did with me
True love will never make u question yourself
Fake love will though

I feel like a crack head with out their crack
Craving you more and more
I won't be ok until i get my fix
Me with out u is not a good mix

I know eventually we have to talk
But right now i feel like avoiding u until death do it's part
Part of me feels bad because deep down i know you are a great Guy
I let looks get the best of me
Which i regret i feel gulity
Knowing that i caused heart break
Takes me back to my last broken heart wondering why? What did i do wrong? Can we just be friend's??

Feelings i wish they could fade it would make things easier i know u just wanna smash me then pass me i was hoping i could change your mind you don't love me u just love what u could do to me so don't tell me u love me

Falling for u is hard because i know your no good for me but it all just feels so good to my body not my heart

I know what it feels like to be madly in love with someone,
And suddenly they hit u up with we need to break up,
It feels like your heart is ripped out of your chest,
It feels like your dying but in slow motion,
It feels like your being stabbed and shot at the same time

Guy-I'm no good for you please stay away!
Did u hear me i said stay away!
I've already did some damage to you
Heart broken people can only break more hearts so please stay away

Girl-Maybe i like the feeling of pain because all i want is you the way u laugh like there's no tommorow the way u hold me as if your holding a new born baby
When I’m with you all my worries go away

Boy-your not listening to me my love is toxic I have issues the way I treated you is wrong...go and find someone better than me

Girl-I only want you! Just because you have been heart broken before doesn’t mean your going to break my heart

You wasted my time
I can't get back the the time you wasted
As time go by all i can think about is you
Which is wasting time

life with out you was better
your like a night mare that won't go away
why won't these feelings fade?
I lied to my self for you
ignored myself for you
what did you do for me?
make me hate myself....
made me think the knife could help me
made me feel like the earth didn't need me
made me depressed and sad like you
are you happy now?I'm like you now mad at the world....

yes this was predicted but ignored
i just wanna suffocate my thoughts about you
i wish those thoughts would drown
like i wish i could because of you
my mind is racing for you and only you
but your mind is trying to destroy me
my mind is only trying to love you
i guess you   can't run away from your thoughts if you don't have the key...