Your name

It’s been two years.
And it’s still not clear

It comes to a point
Where I can’t see straight
The name that haunts me
Makes me feel great

I don’t know,
Why it won’t show
The days that I see
I forgot , to take hold
Now I’ve lost me

I stay here sad and alone.
I stay back and move so slow
Today’s high
Was a short one
The sky cry’s
And I feel over thrown .

What’s my issue .
What feels true ?
I can’t tell.
You say I
Don’t speak clearly
This isn’t new

I see you
In my dreams
And I try to speak
Words can’t come out
(And ) I don’t know how
I can live without

I stay here sad and alone.
I stay back and move so slow
Today’s high
Was a short one
The sky cry’s
And I feel over thrown .

It’s not real
I tell myself
It can’t be
No doubt .
But I can’t
Feel it
Now I
See it

It’s been two years.
And it’s still not clear

You dig my style
I like your sass,
You say that I make you laugh
Let’s go back
Have a few
I’ll show you things I want to do

Kick back relax
I know your kind
Make me forget my racing mind
I’ve got a couple things to try
Let’s bring it back until youremine

She asked me why’d you cut your hair
I told her don’t worry my dear.
She Kept on bothering.
Okay well you see,
Now People aren’t so afraid of me .  

Not going to stutter
You are my cover
Just one night if I get it right
Just stay and see some morning light

Yeah I got a little attitude
Its just I wasn’t that in tune
Now I see what I can do
People are always tangible

It’s just a cloak
it’s just a show
How many of you
Would try this ‘bro’
But not before
Maybe I wasn’t sure.
Let’s just say we’ll have some more

It's 4 am and I can't keep up ,
Thoughts in my head fill like a cup
Tragedy strikes and hunger kicks in
Closing the void we've crushed so thin

Oh baby it's fine
We all need some time
Something's are not so kind
⏯
Patience is cruel but rewarding
Throwing out all until the morning .

what sins are we in
Bathing our selfs with feeling so grim
What happened to the words that came so easy
Feelings we had were so appeasing

Just like the water, air and the sand
We shape each other like this ridged land .
Carving out for better or worse
Everything heals, it just needs work
But
      ↙️
What a horrible night to have a curse .

Back to black I chose this
I don't want to lose this.
Feelings are strong the love is there
We need to throw this in the air.
My darling so sweet I need to hear you say it again
I need to hear our creativity mend.
A whirlwind of love
A whirlwind of death
Show me what's inside that chest.
Lets clear I love you my dear .
Here's to a million more years

It's 4, nothing more
Time won't move
Feeling ******* .
Thoughts are sore
What'd you do this for

Easy on the east
Thunder in the west
Pain doesn't last for ever
Just like sever weather
Pain in my chest
Lungs feel like leather .
A Spiralling quest

Don't go out that much.
Feeling like my life's crushed
Creating scenes I've never seen
Your skin was shown.
Confidence is blown
Bag of broken bones

What will I do today?

Introducing fear untold
Things that weren't here before .
Don't wanna go outside
Don't wanna live this lie.
What will I do today?
Watch it slip away.
I dont know what sleepin is
Always feelin ******
Why'd you have to go do this.

Over my bridge
It's very murky over here
Shadows and nothing near
Grab the branch and take your chance , there's things I've seen
Take a second glance ,
The misty cloud is rising
An envelope
Thick smoke
the temperature is harsh
I am not lying
The sky on this side
Is mesmerizing
Take a dive in
You'll be burning alive and with the swift cut you'll soon be realizing that it's just a bad bad place to be
The simple joys of life are not here with me
On my side of the bridge I'll show you the cost of how a crushing cruel world will hang you on the cross
Leave you dangling, strangling
The dark arts will entangle
Run as fast as you can
Leave this god forsaken land
The Tainted roads puking Mold

Why does inspiration hit you at night
Is it because you’re alone and feelin no light
Or are you sad and not reelin’ it in
Is she the pull,
The  trigger that’s clean and driven .
A string to a heart
Will it hurt as bad
Will this one fade
Can you show me a safe side to this blade .
(Can you show me the safe side of a blade)
That’s the ignorance asking
Blind fold chatting

Two sides to every story .
You only get one taste of glory
Opposite pole
A different attraction .

Fatal compassion
Tasteless crash
Too much
Too light
Blacked out night

I just can’t get it
A whole new meaning to
‘Try to forget ‘ and
You’re only insecure when you know she deserves better and
There’s no cure but
She feels untethered and,

We could walk
See what’s right
I can almost taste all of  your tears tonight
No rules on a hearts desire
One day you’re here
and on another expired

What’s the point of doing all this
When you know you’re wrong
And not seeing all of this
And even writing a song
-
Woah, but her face is so pretty
A woman I’d bring to every single city
You know what I want
But it’s very very selfish
Close your eyes and come with
Anything you’ve got
I’ve crossed my line and now it’s time that I
get lost.

2 eagles circling in the air .
Effortlessly hanging
Slowly spiralling to the earth .
10am
Notice the moon still in the sky
Chilly but the sun provides a temporary blanket.
Loads of people walking for cancer.
It makes me reconsider my habits .
Amazed the moon is out and the birds are still slowly stalking what ever prey lies in the fields.
I glance over to the west and more birds are gliding. Together in unity
People marching. Together in unity .
All for a cause .
The moon and sun in the same sky
Together in unity .
I was thinking of the woman that loves me .
While she works so hard to keep afloat I'm here alone
But still feel like we are together in unity

I’m fading back
It’s achin’

Two times I cried
Times are changing
It’s a blue day  
wasn’t always that way
To see you smile
And be okay .
I’ll sip the vial
Goodbye I’ll say

Forget my stain
Bring ease
To my tired brain .
If only I
Could be so sure
That this could end what I’ve endured
Maybe no
Hard to tell.
Maybe so
But straight to hell

Know I’m wrong
but can’t deny
Being gone
But want to fly
See me here
On another ledge
Fall into
My sunken head

She leaves it open
Eyes are closed
Ignoring me
She’s leaving clothes

I guess it was the foul play
That made you think it was okay
Don’t treat me that kind of way
Did you forget what I did
Yeah You’re just a kid.

So she thinks ‘I’m in the clear’
Cuz I made the rules here
Did you really think
This was gonna end well.
I was a fool to really care right

Gave you my heart
gave you my Ear,

It wasn’t where I wanted to be
But when someone is suffering

I can’t let them free.


It didn’t mean anything right
For All those sad nights .
Wasn’t looking at your backside
Actually wanted you to be alright .
Who was the one that brought you there
I thought I was owed a thanks.
Turns out all your moods are blanks .

Conversations all fake
I did it out of hate
A rule that I’ll brake
To much to take

I guess I’ll catch you later
A broken record player
Thought that I’d hate you
Feelings couldn’t shake you

Hey, I was told to move on
Didn’t think a kiss would feel this strong
But you showed me red
And I knew all along
Didn’t know a smile could do me so wrong

But I’ll try again tomorrow
The feelings of sorrow
Can’t be looped into a fifty five scar no,

But it burns ,
Nice to a crisp
I’ll show you what happens when I break through the mist

How I cursed your brown hazel daggers
But I know you’re so sad,
A little broken rat
Please don’t come around looking for a man

Because when I saw it ,
I laughed
What a bad joke
Look at my face and you’ll see a open book

And she said we’d hang again
Yeah we’ll see I guess
Last time I saw her
She was in that yellow dress

I might just see
If I can go without
I see her in all my lovers
What happened to my plan
Undercover
Ruined by your eyes
And they way you loved me
At the end of the day
We could never be .

I saw you after a year.
I tried to replace you
It was very clear.
But then you came and I was struck
All my lies were all *******.
I know you have a lover
And so do I
But I’d drop it all in the blink of an eye.

The cycle is going to repeat its self
I’m not sure why but I need help.
Should I just be alone
Or can I take you
Be my very own.
I miss you
‘Beautiful’
What a fitting name

Hey
Come over
Are you free,
I’m just chillin, Cali an me
Yeah she’s cute mhm I know
I Give it some time
I take it slow
Wait patiently
Stalk silently
Is this really happening ?

Move like a panther
I wanna hear that answer
Oh yeah it’s cold
Let’s warm up
Totally a reason
Don’t get stuck

I’m just being nice
Watch your step
Hold my hand
But after you lose it
It’ll happen again.

Fire now
I’m getting ready
But right now.
I’m alone and sweating
This ain’t me
This is clear
Wake up
I’ve spent my cheer
Blow over me

The figure
A beautiful silhouette
Bonded by eyes
Lamented in cement

I leave for the day
Her hair follows me
It feels eerie ,
I just want her near me

The stimulant clears My mind
Her body onto mine
Waiting for her to reach out
Trying to see
What its all about

Now I’m lost
The way she looks at me
I feel like a ghost
She summons when she is alone
New but old lovers, beautiful slumber

And she finally confessed
That my touch is the best
But honey you and I
Are out for blood
And only one of us
Will make it out
But either way
I can’t seem to leave her alone
And We resist emotions

You don’t have to
Stay with me
Misunderstanding
Fallen league

So sharp so fast
Time has passed
For ever scored
Too much report

They don’t wanna hear it
But I say how I feel
Ignoring my cries
Still foreign field

She don’t want to stay
Just take it away
Go **** yourself
For your own health

Two steps on the sidewalk
Chimes open
A wise mock
Take her home with me
A trip out of reality

Wow
What a day
You’re such a beautiful force
My hands froze but they’re so warm
I’m nervous and you know it
I’m willing to go for it
But I can’t
I’m struck
By the feeling of your touch
I tried but was skiddish
You call me out on my intentions
You try to make me feel okay
We laugh and smoked the night away.  
I rather not tell
The reasons why I’m glossed
The reason my head is all fog
I’d rather not pour my heart out again
I’d rather much reside in a friend
But I did what I came to do
And that’s be with you
Your next level sense of awareness
Is something new .
But it’s also your downfall,
Your blunt approach
Surprisingly effective
You’re just like me
But more collected
You’re attentiveness
More selected.
I was shy
You have me shook
You sat there and read me
Like a book

I’ve often been told
By many different souls.
That I’m hard to read
It’s getting old
Enough for me to forget it
Until it comes up again
And again and again.
Is it my glares to the top corner or the room
Or the stale air
Was it because I already told you ?
Worried about my feelings,
But it’s Your actions .
Do you not have any compassion
Or respect for yourself
Sour.
Here’s  another number
Take a guess
How I feel
Use your head
Tell me what’s real.
Can’t be looking down
Face glowing Up
Because you can’t talk
Like a ******* grown up
This mind game is too lame
I can’t stand your sad face but
You need a kick into reality
I told one time
Don’t you ever lash out at me
I’m a ******* inside
But I never let it out
I don’t wanna give you
Something to talk about
Everyone’s cool
Until they don’t shout
This is how
The truth comes out

Confide in me
Cry to me
Or just keep dying silently
Quietly, eyeing me
Steal pieces inside of me

I tried to see
Wildly
How you break me
So I tell myself
This is what she wanted
A boy to see romantically
Another to see casually
Im A friend to you,
A man to another
I cannot help
But I have been smothered
Your tight knit heart
I’m all covered
I know it’s a shame
That it won’t fit right
I’d rather have you here tonight
We say we do
we say we don’t
Our lives have changed
Up in smoke.

It’s funny
You’re name literally translates to
‘Beautiful’
But you’re far from that
A steep downhill.
Inside you’re ugly
Deep down you care
Maybe that’s why I was so unaware .

What happened to you
Was it all bad
are you all alone
Or with another man
Is it what I did
Or how I said it
Will this be the day
I lose my head and,
Will it be me
Who has the last laugh
Beautiful girl
Sharp lash

Why’d you stay
Why’d you go
What’s happening
To my soul
I shoot a message
And quickly retract it
Not trying to feel embarrassed .

Hey stranger,
You look sort of weathered
A simple smile can make your world better
But I wait .
I’ll try
I’ve put something together
Crying eyes and no replies will soon seem tethered

And that claddagh means nothing
Trust me I know
I got my own tunes that are running

She cries again
And I lost my head
Can’t wait till you tell me
This has to come to an end.

I’ll pretend it’s all good
And act all together
I’m just alone and I needed a friend
Once a day I can just see you again

It was a warm soothing October day
A nation mourned your loss
The voice of Canada
Soundtrack to everyone’s summer
everyone’s heartbreak
Everyone’s love
A reason to celebrate
It was a beautiful day
Tragically sick
It’s no joke
We miss you Gord,
We needed someone like you
Someone who told the world
What we can do.
Canada misses you
And a year later it’s still the same
So pick up the ****,
And light it up
The Tragically hip
Here to **** **** up.

(Canada legalized **** on Gords death day)

Festival

Summer night
Dewy sky
Sun sets and bus rides
Brought in
With a smile

We were there
But I was alone
Couldn’t touch you
Nothing to hold

And I felt so lonely
But I just couldn’t see straight
Shared the water together
Had me feeling a different way

Maybe it was the secrets
All the spent time
We did our thing
It was fine
And now I see
How it meant to me
One last touch
The feeling.

I still see it
I’m trying not to
Your complexion
Had me frozen

It was just a dream
But meant much more
The cool summer breeze
By the lake shore
Surrounded by trees

Maybe it was the secrets
All the spent time
We did our thing
It was fine
And now I see
How it meant to me
One last touch
The feeling.