Early it was on that humid summer morning
I awoke to complete silence and a dreadful forewarning
I knew it right then after a moment of thought
It was the eerie atmosphere which death always brought
My time was running out and I was no longer at ease
Now cancer had chosen me despite my prayers and pleas
No man will survive, I was no exception
And yet I was prompted by the doctor’s deception
There was no love left for me, I am done
My line is now ******, for I fathered no son
And now I will become dust and forgotten to history
My true purpose on Earth is forevermore a mystery.
I neglected my condition but nobody ever knew
My personal pain numbed while my disease grew
I needed to die and feel nothing for my body was weak
There was nobody to love, and I chose not to seek
I had lost my inspiration, and my mind became dull
I wanted to go and let my ugly face dry to a mere skull
My skin was on fire and I just hoped it would melt faster
Then maybe I could erase my life which had turned to a disaster
I sought no vengence and needed no instant savior
I am not an idiot who believes your pity isn’t a forced behavior
Where is their understanding, compassion, genuine concern
Everybody knows for their true loved ones they surely would burn
But not me, this I know sure
My true deadliest disease knows no cure.
I sat by the lake, thought of the past, and cried alone
I wrote on a rock my name, then into the water I threw that stone
I threw it so far and I yearned for my undeserved kiss
And like my Earthly legacy, my name sunk into the lake’s abyss
My existence obsolete and unknown with my name
My pain and misery will go down in history the same
And then she appeared
She sat by my side
She instantly cried
She knew of my fear
Yet she could not hear
She reached for my hand and held it tight
With her beautiful voice she told me to fight
And then my eyes dripped singular tears
And she wiped them away alongs with my fears
I knew she was deaf and could not understand
But I knew in that second that her I couldn’t withstand
I did not know her name, and I didn’t have one to give
But that didn’t matter because my old self no longer would live
It was love at first sight and my heart felt security
Though I was lost, I suddenly regained my purity
I accidently smiled and she knew it was true
I obviously blushed because she did too
She pressed me to her chest and hummed so sweetly
For the first time in forever I organized my thoughts neatly
I only thought of my newly found purpose in this universe
It was now evident that my cancer had become a curse
She followed me close and I began to worry
Her perpetually beautiful face began to go blurry
I wanted so much to tell her my affliction before late
I realized my demise would have no precise date
She brought me from sadness and I waited too long
Why has the Lord forbidden me to sing a deaf girl my song
And then the morning came where she kissed me awake
I was going to die that day, and I had to tell her for love’s sake
My cancer was strong, but my love was stronger
I needed to go then but she deserved one day longer
She expected a newer, repaired version of me
The look in her warm brown eyes was always my pleasure to see
And then while we stared in each others eye
At the very same lake that she saw me cry
The place our love burgeoned would terminate there
As my heartbeat faded away whilst we mutually stare
And then my last tear trickled down my cold cheek
I left the world as I came, crying and weak
And then she was there and deaf as she was
She was terribly distressed and watched in pause
And then she realized at that moment I was forever away
And so she knelt and knew it was my last day
She left me dead and never returned, all alone, dead, alone.