"finaly" poems
If only I could make you feel the pain that you cause me to feel.
Do you not understand that your screams make me feel ill?
I hate that we have no real relationship,
and that you treat me like a slave.
I'm at the point where I want to run away.
It's not like you'd take action after anyways.
You'd probably enjoy the attention you'd recieve,
Take me for granted.. won't you please?
Not only do I feel alone right now,
The people who said they'd be there are finaly slipping out.
That's probably my fault though,
I trusted them too much.
Complaint after complaint.
I shouldn't have told them so much.
I guess that shows to prove that it's really just you in the end.
I've begun to vent here.
It's as if words and rhymes are my only friends.
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 4:01 PM UTC
Are my eyes just fooling me again
Or is my time Finaly up
Is this a siege on my own head
Or revenge from far and wide
It seems so clear
But yet so far
The panic setting in
I was warned
But not enough
This is the time for fear
And as I stare below me
Crown tilted low upon my head
I could swear the forest's walking
Full of loathing, life and hate
It's pace is quickly speeding up approaching Dunsinane
Now what to do with my own throne
The battles lost
The battles won
And The branches click and whisper
As I look down In fear
But what choice do I have now
These woods will make the end
Jun 9, 2014
Jun 9, 2014 at 12:06 PM UTC
He fought, he raged through that dark, dark, night.
They fled before his fiury, his crimsom rage,
He searched ad searched, to find who made him feel, like he was in a cage.
He walked back amd forth, yet found not him,
Then he finaly realized, on that cold, bitter night, that the Enemy was not outside, but inside.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 10:52 PM UTC
here i sit, qlone and broken,
finaly my eyes are wide open,
it seems that i've been living in a dream.
my worst nightmare has come true.
the gleam in your eye is not for me,
but the destain in mine is for you.
you who con damsils in distress
with your fast talking lies, and your puppy dog eyes.
you, souless animal, monster in my disguise,
you are the one, i will forever despise.
as long as my heart goes on beating,
i will never open the doors for you,
i gave that key to somebody new,
after you toar my heart in two.
somebody amazing, who loves me,
cause i saw the light, you're nowher near a dark knight.
just an imposter, with a heart cold dark and ugly.
Oct 29, 2014
Oct 29, 2014 at 7:46 PM UTC
Exhausted
The Heavy Bronze Doors
Are Loudly Closing Down
Fading Away The Darkness
Which Was Giving Me Warmth
But I Do Not Care Anymore
I can Hear The Silence
Pounding In My Ears
Reminding Me The Fool I Was
To Have Ever Trusted
But I Do Not Care Anymore
I can Feel The Bite
Of The Words From The Cold
Even Bitter Than The Harshest
As Never Appearing
But I Do Not Care Anymore
I can Fell The Loneliness
Echoing From Within
Where The Hope Resided
Which Left Me Wounded
But I Do Not Care Anymore
Time Has Finally Reached
Tearing Apart The Intemporal
Finaly Exorting From Me
The Last Tear I Was Cherishing
But I Do Not Care Anymore
To Much I Have Cared For Emptyness
To Many Times I Have Shouted in the Void
To Many Times I Dreamed For Despair
To Much I Have Loved For Destruction
But I Do Not Care Anymore
I Am Just Exhausted
This Life is Just the One To Much
The One Which Will Finally Destroy
What Was Created To Ever Last
But I Do Not Care Anymore
I Just Want To Sleep
Silencing The Howls In Me
Forget The Ever Suffering
Close The Heart To Pain
But I Do Not Care Anymore
I Just Lay Down
Desire Of Peace
Begging For Relief
Praying For Retribution
But I Do Not Care Anymore
For I See Her Coming
Her Dark Wings Extanded
For Me She Is Crying
As She Was Not Meant To Kiss Me
Death
Warlock
Nov 29, 2009
Nov 29, 2009 at 11:38 AM UTC
I'm not interested
Is that so hard to say?
I'm not interested in you
Those words come out like butter and yet the thing you try and do
Is hold onto to me for later
Put me to the side
There I sit hoping and praying
I'll be the apple of your eye
But you're not interested in me
You know it
You're not interested in me
Let me go so at least if I cry my eyes will finaly see
Are you so selfish to keep me around?
To trod on me and smile
Each time I am your turning point
When you cry tears of crocodiles
Just let me go!
Please!
Just let me go right now!
Tell me to my face that you dislike me! How?
With sincerity!
With bluntness!
With no sugar-coated words!
You've led me on for far too long to the point where it's absurd
Your killing me
You really are
My hopes and dreams compacted
Into the scene you've set for me and constantly reenacted
**** you!
You vile creature!
You deserve not a tear from my eye!
But here I stand with my heart in your hand and knife you put in my side
Oh dear coward
Just say it
Say you're not interested in me
So at least you and I can walk away with some shred of dignity
But you won't
Will you?
You'll keep me safely in a pocket
Not telling me a single thing, putting me in your secondhand locket
Just say it, please
I beg of you
Just for once say it. Please.
Tell me deep down you've always known you're not interested in me...
Oct 3, 2012
Oct 3, 2012 at 10:29 AM UTC
An American flag
Covering a box
With a fallen soldier
Who gave the ultimate sacrifice
Carrying a message of love
He fought and died
For his country
For his family
His freinds
He will be missed
And never forgotten
the men and women he saved
Now salute him
as he is carried off the C-47
He is finaly home
Nov 13, 2012
Nov 13, 2012 at 12:27 AM UTC
Your lying next to me.
I can hear your breathing, steady.
You are almost asleep.
A calm beauty.
Finaly you get some rest.
I can see you needed it.
For the days are long.
Bring so much pain.
But here you are safe.
Can get some rest.
So sleep on love.
My beautyful wife.
The love of my life.
The days might be hard.
But the nights your here.
Next to me.
And I will keep you safe.
Jul 19, 2015
Jul 19, 2015 at 5:46 PM UTC
cinderella layed in a dark and cold prison. awaiting her husband, her tormentor, and her captures return, tears rapidly falling down her rosie red cheeks as she looked at her broken arm. ¨
why would you run away from me like that? now look at you... your arm is broken.¨ she remembered him shouting. ¨you're pathetic.¨ staring at the rusty bars she began to feel hopeless. on the outside she had been silently broken but on the inside she felt as if she were screaming. screaming from the pain, screaming from the betrayal and deceit. screaming because what she had believed to be her dream come true had become nothing but a complete and absolute nightmare. screaming because she had fallen in love with a fairytale. a lie, a predator, a munipulator, a monster. how could i let myself fall in love with someone so incredibly evil? she thought. maybe i wanted to believe in him. maybe i felt as if i needed too. to believe in someone or something. to be rescued. i think that he sinced that about me. that i wanted to be saved by someone or something so he descised himself as my savior.. and i believed in him. and now here i am. maybe he was right, maybe i was pathetic and naive. maybe i just hoped that i had finaly found what i had been waiting so long for and that all of my years of crushing lonliness and longing for something more had finaly been over. but it was all a lie. and now im going to have to find a way to save myself.
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 4:38 PM UTC
impartial to war
i try to keep peace
motives still alive
i will survive
enemies don't help
as hard as they try
the sky is dark
clouds heavy tonight
i run like the wind
war close at hand
to escape from the wrath
i need to defend
i fight for the truth
keep safe all in sight
my entorage close
i leap for the fight
spreading so far
we fight in disperse
i'm running in anger
down mountains of bone
blood flowing thick
i hold nothing back
the full blow of fury
headed straight for the top
in mud caked clothes
the blood is stained thick
a sword in my right hand
dagger at left
archers fire in anger
i dodge behind rocks
they hit me in double
i ignore the shock
running now screaming
the serpent sees me
i spring for the ****
blade ready to run through
sword clashes ring
across hills and valleys
we stop in horror
a moment of silence
then blood all about
we challange each other
winner shall live
do as they wish
the looser will die
in bad honor at that
they die cold and still
on flat rocks of stone
clinking at first
we warm up the tension
the swords are flying
death drawing us in
the skill is high
you can't see it all
a blade here now
in one second gone
keep your eyes keen
to see the quick end
shoulder, leg, arm
slices death blowing
still not over
we fight until finaly
i stab the heart
his face melts in death
the fight below
turns into fleeing
we won the war
all tired and steaming
the casualty rate
is high on our side
2000 souls gone
of my 5000 here
the saddness goes on
never to end
home bound we go
leaving all wrath behind
home once at last
good conquered evil
we went for a fight
came back with no evil
May 24, 2010
May 24, 2010 at 4:13 PM UTC
I really want to marry her...
But they say the more the merrier....
So I grab as much junk as I can maybe that will make me happier...
But All I really want is to marry her...
But I spent all my money on some junk...
that was finely pack inside a trunk...
Thinking that my little bit of bucks, finaly brought me luck...
but in my heart I want to marry her...
Society tells me bury her...
In pyrimads made for celopatra...
and ****** every woman that was created with her stature...
I'd be labled King...
With big bells that ding aling...
but all I get is singers that never sing, numbers that never ring...
But I do know a left hand thats looking for a ring..
And I just want to marry her...
Never seemed so scarrier...
I'd be giving up all this junk thats located in my area...
This pawned shopped ***** that i could get for cheap...
Goregous on the out side but the relationship is weak...
But see I found a strong bond, its bout time to cash in...
its like putting a penny up front and getting back a million...
See to me Love is wealth...
and being rich is in good health...
but if all i have is money...
then all this junk is pretty...
and I'll never find a diamond in the rough....
playing with all this stuff...
Cuz I really want to marry her..
.wake up everyday with her...
all I'll ever want is her...
Shes everything I need and more, and so with more then junk Im merrier...
I Marry Her...
Oct 22, 2012
Oct 22, 2012 at 1:02 PM UTC
I picked up the pieces of my shattered heart
and put them into my jar of fireflies.
Only way now to keep my heart-spark alive
To live healthy in the glow
I've left the lid open
Living with the fear that this light might leave me
I have to remind myself some days that dust still rises
So I walk like an oil well to keep your memory alive
I watched them bury you
and realised my biggest fear come true
Heaven can't be real
And coffins only trap our dead
I need to let you go
When I die I want to be naked
wet
and covered in seeds
Heaven is the transfer of energy
into new life
I don't wanna be a goddamm tombstone garden
I wanna be a real garden
With ******* roses
and lillies
And weeds
Weeds are hard to ****
Make me something strong again
Give me a reason to keep on going
Help me kick my own dust
I wanna make life
even after my life
and
I want you back
I want you back
Because I miss you so much some days
I drive sixty in suburban neighborhoods
Prayin the fire finaly takes me
and
I can't do it
I know I will wake up in the morning
and you still won't be here
Sent you an e-mail the other day but purposely got the address wrong
I just wanted your name in my inbox
Someone already has your cell phone number
I called them and cried
because when they answered
they sounded exactly like you
They've asked me to stop texting
Saying I have the wrong number
Did you know all the people on tv sitcom laughtracks are dead?
It is ghosts reminding us to laugh
Remind my smile
Remind my dust
Remind my firefly glow
To get bigger
Remind me that you're not really gone
Not gone gone
Even if you're just plant food
It means something
It's why grass itches your bare skin
Reminds you it's alive
I don't want to itch like your nightmares anymore
Just know
I am picking up the pieces as best I can
And I ******* miss you
Apr 30, 2012
Apr 30, 2012 at 12:03 AM UTC
as i stand here
in this pool of blood
i look at my wrist
i see the cuts
i see the scars
so many times
ive drug this blade
across my wirst
wondered if this is it
this time is diffrent
is this it?
was this my life
a sea of misery
moutains of pain
rivers of hate
finaly its all over
im getting cold
im getting tired
as this pool grows
at my feet
i think finaly
i get to leave
i collaps
evrything gets blury
i slip in to my slumber
never to wake again
Nov 23, 2013
Nov 23, 2013 at 9:54 PM UTC
This just in off the presses Eliot throws in the towel and sells Hello
for a pair of front row Jonas Brothers tickets.
In other news the pub the oldest group on hello is being forced to close
its doors due to noise complaints from the coffee shop
who claim they can bareley here there good awful music
or read there twilght books.
Gary La Buda is very short and writes lots of books
so he can use them to see over the steering wheel.
Many people have asked and finaly hello has answred
to what we do not know.
Yesterday a man died of boredom trying to actully read
all the poems on the charts at poetry soup.
When the owner's were awoken from there nap time
there only reply was Is it time to color yet?
Poets who get to the top of the charts yet only have two comments
my question?
who are they blowing.
Look for my next report when I let everyone know the poet
soon to be leaving this madhouse of a site.
Untill next time always seek the truth
Aug 13, 2010
Aug 13, 2010 at 1:08 PM UTC
The world was determined
To be where it was that day
And so each time sinned
Was inevitable in that way
The master of puppets
Thus the plot twister
Blows the trumpets
At the evil mister
Who killed a protagonist
Then himself hanged
Thus an antogonist
Inevitably becomes determinist
When he finaly does see
He is not free to be
While the protagonist
Rises up free
Into chaos
The arms of uncertainty
May 15, 2016
May 15, 2016 at 4:29 PM UTC
You say you understand but you don't
you think you know us but you don't
we feel trapped all the time
and alone
we're the ones that con you
not for evil but for companionship.
Have you ever hated something so much
you fantasize about going crazy
just to escape this horrible reality.
We're the ones that don't qualify as normal
we're the ones that see the world differently
and finaly we're the ones that finds society
STUPID
Feb 25, 2016
Feb 25, 2016 at 9:43 AM UTC
Just like your jug of milk in the fridge
we have and expiration date.
Now we have finaly seen eachother
and I must admit I might be falling in love with you.
Spending the night
and sleeping in your arms.
Just like bread on you counter
we have an expiration date.
Your going away soon to join the military
and I am going to miss you more than I will admit.
Im not willing to whisper the word please dont go
and mess up your future all for a girl
Just like that meat in your freezer
we have an expiration date.
Dec 13, 2012
Dec 13, 2012 at 11:48 AM UTC
paranoid chapter 1
Charlottes p.o.v
i cry until im sick, coughing and short of breath. i cry hysterically. i feel like i have been hit in the chest with a stray bullet. and i dont look up until i can't feel him there anymore. eventhough i know deep inside that the illousion of charlie will come back, it always comes back... nomatter where i am. busses, street corners, asylums. mom and dad think that if we move far away that everything will change. that i'll stop seeing charlie. that i'll be 'miraculously cured'. that they'l finaly have there daughter back. and that they will finaly be able to move on, and stop grieving the loss of their only son. i don't blame them, everything in the old house reminds me of charlie, too. but i know that when we move that nothing will change, that theres no hope for me, that i'm just as dead as he is. but thats not what hurts the most. what hurts the most is knowing that i'm going to let them down, and destroy any little bit of hope that they might have had for me. i am nothing but a burden. and there is nothing that i can do about it. i cry until im tired, and i slip into a deep sleep.
Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 7:00 PM UTC
Heart was bruised
...a little...
on the sides.
I tried to hold it in
...at least...
i have tried.
Body was denying,
...a thing....
you've left inside.
Thought i'll forget
...if i...
knew how to hide.
i finaly understood,
...the wound...
has been opened wide.
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 9:49 PM UTC
If I gave you all my air
Along with every single moment I could spare
If I exposed my everything, choosing both truth and dare
And encouraged you to take more than your fare share
If I were to wear my heart on my sleeve and allow you to rip and tear
If I gave you an entire life, without a care
Offered to carry both of our crosses to bare
While letting you name the time and place and going straight there
No argument here, I swear
If I submit before warfare and declare you ringmaster
If I kept the days I don't tell you exactly what you want to hear rare
And was able to turn a blind eye to every extracurricular love affair
Cause, ya know, buyer beware
If I pretend I'm not fully aware that you rather not be here
That you just take joy in being the puppeteer
If I could manage all that would you even care?
...could I ever consider it sincere?
©2024
Jan 10, 2024
Jan 10, 2024 at 7:09 PM UTC
In the land i've created all is unwell
its residents slowly decay
be it of starvation or a broken heart
one by one they whither away
no angel Hovers above above this dime lite sky
in fear they to will fall & lay broken on this crused ground
for wich I now walk today
this black gloomy land wich I have named
the stars too do not shine
for they've drowned in they're tears
watching helplessly knowing
we will NEVER be saved
yes the world I've cerated it's only hope is to be ruins
and finaly go up in flames
FALL let it FALL
be washed AWAY....
Dec 23, 2010
Dec 23, 2010 at 5:40 PM UTC
i love the freckles on your back,
the way you smile and just stare,
making me feel like i'm walking on air,
i love that goofy way you laugh.
driving around with you and acting stupid,
losing track of time, the amazing feeling that i get,
when your lips touch mine.
lying next to you,
feeling safe in your embrace,
i feel like my heart has finaly found a home,
blissfuly lost in time and space.
you, are the sid to my nancy.
the glen to my maggie.
you're the david to my darlene.
the ***** in my soda
the peanut butter to my jelly.
you came into my life like a beautiful sunset
after a tornado, and you never cease to amaze me.
& you're better than anything i've ever ever dreamed of my love,
it's our 2 year aniversary, and i've never felt so passionate, safe,
beautiful or happy. then i do, dancing & laughing with you. bullshitting and being lazy, smiling from ear to ear, shouting at random peole,
acting dumb having fun and being crazy, ane i pray that it's this way for an eternity, because nothing is better than when you and i are together,
or the way those big brown eyes light up when you look at me. i'm so happy that you're my baby.
Aug 14, 2014
Aug 14, 2014 at 3:14 PM UTC
Hey Mr. I used to say
Hows your morning
hows your day
Your my wisdom my teacher my caregiver
When I need you, you said you'd be there
I did my best as a kid to give you attention and appreciation for the simple life I lived
Presents and notes to show I cared
Thank you cards of admiration and words of ill always be there
I was a kid, it was pretty much all I could give
Mr. you said one afternoon were going out to dinner when I get home
then I remember how you bailed
That’s ok Mr. I know your busy
You would say then Mr., maybe tomorrow if time permits me
I remember Mr. a few times you said get ready in a while we will go shopping…
But we never did
Maybe tomorrow Mr. said
I know now its better not to hold my breath
Help me pick up this house Mr. said
But I am tired and on my way to bed…
Ill do it tomorrow I promise
To that Mr. replied tomorrow never comes
And he went on to explaine, tomorrow there will be tomorrow… And another one…
Out in the world now
No longer a girl...
Hey Mr. I hate to ask…
But I need your help and I need it fast
The bills are do, my checks on its way but I need to pay my bills today
I know tomorrow my check will arrive I can pay you first thing in the morning
I remember you were fast to say I'd help you.....
but you would learn nothing and then you would say...
you say you will pay me tomorrow…
but I know better if you need money now tomorrow you will be no better off
Sorry Mr. your probably right…
I'll be ok its just one day and one night...
you were strict all my life, but you taught me well to never count on anyone…
never…
not ever in my life will I be optimistic
I'll never be anything, but protected and shelterd
forever never free all my days...
when I was a kid...
I remember it all to well
you gave me what I needed…
and nothing els
no memories of fun
no memories of any extra attention...
sometimes I feel you as cold as ice
Mr. I remember I'd often look at you twice
You never smiled you were always in a rush
I was a child and in the way…
Way to much...
Mr. I wish I learned your lesson sooner
that you were a promise maker...
and most importantly a promise breaker
I know you may have not meant it,
but finaly…
I finaly learned your lesson, Tomorrow never never comes
And Mr. when you say Ill be there for you tomorrow…
I know now tomorrow never comes
Still Mr.
I love you today…
I love you forever,
but never tomorrow..
Never ever
Ill continue to wait though for you to come around to all the love I gave
All my love you never found
Ill wait today…
I'll wait forever
Ill even wait for you tomorrow again
even though I know tomorrow will never end……
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 12:04 AM UTC
AS SOON AS I CUT MY SKIN I DREW A PICTURE OF YOU WITH MY BLOOD AS YOU WERE THE ONLY THING THAT WAS COURSING THROUGH MY VEINS. EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, YOUR HANDS, YOUR LAUGH, THE TWINKLE IN YOUR EYES KEPT ME ALIVE AND WHEN THAT WASN'T AROUND ANYMORE I WAS PRACTICALLY DEAD. I NEEDED YOU OUT OF MY BODY AND THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY, AND NOW THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER INSIDE I CAN FINALY WASH YOU AWAY, BUT EVEN NOW MY HAND LINGERS AS THIS ****** SMILE IS THE ONLY THING THAT IS HELPING ME BREATHE.
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 3:08 PM UTC