10,000 miles I can hear you calling
10,000 times I am still falling
Next to you that’s where I belong
Next to you that’s where I feel strong

10,000 days every day is still the same
10,000 nights every night you call my name
In your arms there is nowhere else to be
In your arms I am you and you are me

10,000 beats our hearts work together
10,000 steps we will walk in to forever
In your heart I know light shines for me
In your heart I know that’s where I need to be

10,000 kisses each like I’ve never felt
10,000 arms around me I think I’m going to melt
In your eyes I can see the light
In your eyes I know this is right

10,000 miles we have traveled up and down
10,000 times we’ll be coming back around
In your dreams just keep on loving me
In your dreams that’s where I will be

I couldn’t sleep the other night
Thought I’d get into a late night write
The words suddenly just started to flow
My pen and myself were both in the know

I wrote so many words, I couldn’t stop
I penned and I penned, putting titles on top
Happy words, sad words, words to live by
Words about love under the midnight sky

The hours passed quickly, more with each rhyme
I was lost on the pages, I was lost in that time
I just kept writing, every word I could find
Trying and trying to empty my mind

When I looked up it was six in the evening
I was so tired, my mind thoughts were leaving
I had finished and finally took a break
I had 38 poems without one single mistake

Follow up to 39 more pages to go

I’ve got a new pad and when I find the time
I’ll find my pen, fill this page with a rhyme
Now I can’t stop, my mind’s running wild
I’ll write every word and copy every file

Wow, this new pad has lots of room
I hope some new words will be coming soon
My mind is alert, write hand is ready
All I have to do is hold her steady

This page is done once I space it all out
I said what I wrote without even a shout
Only 39 more pages on this pad left to go
Until I’m on the cardboard where I write what I know

Dark
Night
Stars
Eyes
Love

I’m addicted to memories, they flood my brain
Some cause happy tears, others cry in pain
Long days in the sunshine, the nights we had
I try to remember good times, but there are some bad

Strong memories of family, for all the ones who’ve passed
Thoughts of all the love I felt, I hope those memories last
I remember the days of summer we all spent together
I try to forget the days of stormy weather

I can’t remember it all, I’m getting too old
I can still feel love in every memory I hold
Life is just a simple thing, we live, love and die
My addiction to memories, always makes me cry

A body loves a pleasured mind
Let’s see what pleasures we can find
One more “let me hold you tight”
One more time to get it right

Let me love your pleasured mind
See what pleasure your body can find
One more “please don’t stop”
One more or until you drop

A body loved and a pleasured mind
Not one feeling left behind
One more “can I kiss you again”
One more “until you say when”

A body loves a pleasured mind
I love you with all I can find
One more “don’t ever let me go”
One more “don’t ever say no”

I’m a working man, I’m licensed
Working with all three of my vices
Ones got a grip, the other a squeeze
That last one gets me down to my knees

At 14 I learned to like the buzz
Trip out wildly, watch out for the fuzz
I never shot up, only smoked and blew my nose
Forget all the highs, felt all the lows

Now I know better, what can I say
All the things I let make me that way
Should’ve known back then it was a mistake
Remember that when you dance at my wake

Birthdays and gravity, the cause of it all
The older I get the more often I fall
Too old to have nice long hair
Too heavy in the middle to fly through the air

Birthdays and gravity, you are slowing me down
Old and heavy, I’m stuck to the ground
Too many candles and too much cake
Birthdays and gravity, that’s all it takes

Love is a blind eye and a broken heart
Can’t see the trouble before the start

You see what you want to and it all looks good
Can’t show you anything but I wish I could

There’s trouble in the making; love doesn’t come cheap
You will pay for it all, even if there’s nothing to keep

You won’t see it coming, you won’t have a clue
There’s going to be trouble and it’s all on you

Love is a blind eye and a cold broken heart
You won’t find the pieces after you are torn apart

An empty hole where your heart used to be
A desperate soul just dying to be free

I can’t keep up with my muse’s ****
My write hand is dragging, like a catcher’s mitt
In such a hurry, trying to catch everything
You never know, my muse may make me sing

Words abound, no truth in any I’ve found
Still the words, they circle back around
Did they find my roots, am I buried that deep
The cold, dark ground, holds my secrets to keep

Wait just a minute muse, you’re going too fast
You have to slow down to make the pages last
Capture my heart, blurred between the lines
Uncover my soul, it’s inside these rhymes

What does it take to keep a good man burning
What does it take to keep a good heart yearning
I want to burn like a winter’s fire deep into the night
I want to be the flame that brings you morning light
I can burn for you, you set my soul on fire
I can burn for you, you are my one desire
A winter’s fire deep into the night
A burning flame until morning light
Burn me with you fire deep into the night
Burn me with your flame until I see morning light

I see you in your day, maybe with a touch of grey
In the kitchen with little faces, smiling on Christmas day
Baking treats and making memories, passing on the love for free
I see you laughing as the flour spills out; all the children jump and shout:
“We love you Grandma, you’re such a mess”, and in your heart you feel blessed
Cookies made on Christmas day can only be made a certain way
A kitchen full of love, that’s a grandma’s secret recipe
They make great cookies, moments and memories

I’m crazy, going out of my mind
Torn between what lies ahead
And what lies behind
Years and years, what do they mean
Lights and shadows is what I’ve seen
Crazy that’s how I feel
Out of my mind to keep it real
Yesterdays before tomorrow
Today is only time I’ve borrowed




2/12/21

flash back in a dream-
surreal haunting dark dream
cold sweat dry mouth wake

I’m gonna have to dig a little deeper, to keep the world away
Dig a little deeper just to have a place to stay
I’m gonna dig a little deeper, down past the underground
Dig a little deeper until there is no light or any sound
I can’t live up here; there’s too much noise and light
I’ve got to get down, down where it’s dark as night
Don’t need no sunshine or blue skies turning grey
I just need to dig a little deeper so I’ll have some place to stay
Dig down deeper where the worms might crawl
Dig a little deeper so I don’t have so far to fall
Maybe if I dig deep enough I’ll come out the other side
Dig so deep that I won’t have a place to hide

I need to take a rest down by the river,
        where the water runs deep
I want to lay on the bank,
let the waves put me to sleep
Down by the river,
let me ease my mind
In the sounds of the water,
my dreams I can find
Laying on the shoreline,
       peaceful in the sun
Waves washing over me,
       rinsing away sorrows
The sky in reflection,
       flashing like tomorrows
Down by the river,
       currents take me under
There in the water,
my soul can wonder

I went down to the water; I saw the waves washing by
They flowed and they swayed, in the ripples was the sky
Reflections; they danced, I saw the world in a dream
Every river flows to the ocean that started in a stream
No one sees what I see; the mind’s eye is each its own
No one feels what I’ve felt or knows the things I’ve known
Lost in the water I can find all I need
I can’t stop the water; only follow where it may lead
I went down to the water to see what I believe
I went down in the water and I’m never going to leave

It’s just another lonely night, I'm sure I'll have a drink or two
I'll spend the night, killing off the hours, wishing I had you
It won't take long, I'll be crying, sad songs do me that way
I'll sing along the best I can, when it’s over, I'll have one more to play

I can't get enough to drink, all my songs are sad
I can't quit crying over all the good times we had
Remember when we were so young and free
How could we ever forget about you and me

When I've played my last sad song, I stagger off to bed
I will have you in my arms again, at least inside my head
The sheets are cold without you there, to keep me warm tonight
But I can dream about you now, until the morning light

Dreams are all I have, since I don't have you
Dreams are all I need, someday they'll come true
Dreams will get me through the night again
Dreams will keep me going until then

Come on baby, you know I need you so
Come on baby, you know I’m ready to go
Come on baby, you know I like it on top
Come on baby, let’s drop, flip and flop

Come on baby, you know I love you so
Come on baby, we can do it fast or slow
Come on baby, I’m never going to stop
Come on baby, let’s drop, flip and flop

Drop, flip and flop
Drop, flip and flop
Don’t ever want to stop

Come on baby, you know you want me so
Come on baby, you can put on a show
Come on baby, you can skip and hop
Come on baby, let’s drop, flip and flop

Come on baby, let’s do it once more
Come on baby, you make me lose my mind
Come on baby, you can make it pop
Come on baby, let’s drop, flip and flop

Drop, flip and flop
Drop, flip and flop
Don’t ever want to stop

Come on baby, you know I need some more
Come on baby, you know I like it on the floor
Come on baby, you know I like it a lot
Come on baby, you let’s drop, flip and flop

Come on baby, I like to drop, flip and flop
Come on baby, you know I never want to stop
Come on baby, I’ll let you get on top
Come on baby, let’s drop, flip and flop

Drop, flip and flop
Drop, flip and flop
Don’t ever want to stop

The hand is slower than the spoken word
I write so slow, I’m barely heard
Each word is a careful choice
Each word my only voice

My soul in words I’ve written down
Quietly I rage without a sound
Baring ******* my pen to feel
What’s on the page, what is real

I get my emotional exercise jumping to conclusions
Working out, to weaken my delusions
My warmup starts with bad morning news
This day is going south, before I get my running shoes
My cardio is done when I get really mad
I have a cool down period, after I get sad
My endurance comes from running down my dreams
Jogging in the marathons, powered by my screams
My strength training routine is carrying my heavy load
I get my reps from hauling it, up and down the road
My form is rather rough these days, my core has gotten weak
I work on my reaction time, only when I have to speak
Getting stretched, I’m too thin from dodging all the lies
Repetition comes from all those tries
Hydration comes from crying all these tears
I’ve been working out by myself for many years
My well-being is based on my emotional exercise
I like to start the day early, just about sunrise
I exercise in my mind, workout hard most everyday
I sit and think, then I write what I’m going to say
Now I’ve had my workout, it’s time for me to rest
I know tomorrow’s routine will keep me at my best

******* WORDS,
A BUNCH OF ******* WORDS
THAT’S ALL I HAVE LEFT,
A BUNCH OF ******* WORDS

WRITE, ******* WRITE, WRITE,
WRITE SOME ******* WORDS
WRITE, WRITE, WRITE MY ******* WORDS

******* WORDS,
THEY’RE JUST ******* WORDS
WHY EVEN ******* BOTHER
THEY’RE JUST ******* WORDS

******* WORDS IN MY HEAD
******* WORDS ON MY PAGE
******* WORDS,
THEY’RE ONLY ******* WORDS

That last one burned a hole in me
My cynic was running wild and free
Together we ranted about who is smart
We talked at length, what is art
I told him things I’ve seen, what makes me smile
He said he’d get back to me in a while

I’m wondering about the state of my life
It seems as dull as an old pocket knife
No satisfaction in the work I do
No colors but grey and blue

I’m older now and maybe wiser somehow
Seen a lot of time go by up to now
Looking back, it was all so quick
Got a few memories that seem to stick

I remember love, I remember pain
I remember playing out in the rain
I remember people, time and places
I don’t remember names when I see their faces

How much older does one have to be
To understand the things, you need to see
Does age give you rights to win in a fight
Does it let you be the one to see the light

Now it seems that time goes by slow
And it moves based on what you know
Experience can teach you later on
It comes after the lesson is known

I don’t get too excited any more
There’s no mystery behind every door
Been there, done that and moved on
Seen everything I’ve been shown

Looks like old age is for looking back
Wishing for another crack
Wouldn’t do it all over again
Unless it came out the same in the end

So, I’m growing old just for fun
I got wrinkles from too much sun
Can’t say that it’s said and done
Any day just might be the one

let’s get *****
naked long and lanky
use our hanky panky
do the stanky stanky
here’s a hanky hanky
and thanky thanky

Awakening Moon
calls her tides to raise new growth-
wildflowers glow pink

Googled a bit, man I feel smarter
Spray can painting, operation of a lumber yarder
It showed everything, from shopping to the Walmart farter
How to be you, where to use cream of tarter

Google is so smart, it always answers back
Even us old folks don’t mind giving it a wack
Once we learn to point and click enough
We can actually remember a whole lots of stuff

Google got pictures, more shopping and life advice
All at our fingertips, isn’t that so nice
If you don’t get it, you can always ask twice
AI tightens its grip, now we’re in a smart vice

Google me this and search for all that
Sit in your chair and research why your fat
Learn to tie your shoes, how to wear a hat
Check out funny videos of some **** cat

Google didn’t help Papa talk to his friends
He didn’t need cell phones, dots and dashes he sends
Mamaw never used it to know how to make ends
Now we just all believe, whatever posts then trends

p.s. I” HAVE TO” use it all the time, that’s why I can write (*****) about it.

Santa Clause, I still believe in you
I know where your power is
It’s the love of children

Haiku – Wood
Today I bought wood
It took a week to get here
I like my new wood

Haiku – Layout
Organization
Everything is pure chaos
I like my layout

Haiku – I Wonder
Sometimes I wonder
Other times I just wander
Time now to ponder

Haiku – Rain Falling
I see rain falling
I felt the breeze blowing fresh
I smell rain falling

Haiku – Time
My heart is aching
Longing to remember time
Every minute passed

Haiku – Simple Thought
A simple thought…hum
How many times you mess up
Control the chaos

Haiku – Feel my Pain
Haiku, have no brain
So many syllables count
You can’t feel my pain

Haiku - Horizontal
Shelves hanging crooked
Horizontal on a slant
Half a bubble off

Haiku – Smell Supper
I smell some supper
I can’t wait to eat my fill
I will eat some

Haiku – Muse Fight
Watch me now, I fly
Words are coming, hold on tight
Me and muse will fight

Haiku -OCD Driving
OCD driving for me
Many the thought, keep writing
OCD, write on my page

Haiku – Random Thought
Take a random thought
Write it out in some good words
Words fly like the birds

Haiku – Crazy Momma
Crazy momma, you
What are you doing to me
You crazy momma

Haiku – Forever Love You
Too many so true
One time, forever love you
All I know is you

Haiku - Countdown
It’s now a countdown
Is there one missing or two
Count down, one, two, four

Haiku – Things that Last
Cool man stuff, I have
All kind of things from the past
I have things that last

Haiku – To the Point
Five, seven, five, done
A lot to say in short form
Get to the point quick

Haiku – Syllables
Haiku, it’s coming
Rhythm, it’s how to play the game
Syllables that count

Haiku – Some Fun
Haikus are fun
You can put in a little
Something like a pun

Haiku – In My Brain
Haiku in my brain
I can’t stop I’m just insane
Haiku don’t complain

Haiku – *******
I see stars, I fell
It’s hot, am I in some hell
Get up you *******

Haiku – For You
Haiku just for you
Learned to count them 5-7-5
Now I’m stuck to you

Haiku - Till Morning
Last one for the night
I can only dream some more
Can’t wait till morning

One more pack to remind me
Just how bad you are
High prices, nicotine, tar

Haiku - I Love You
How can I love you
More and more every day
That is the only way

Haiku – What’s Good
I don’t know what’s good
I only know what I like
Maybe you like it

Haiku – Question
I had an answer
What question did you ask me
Can you tell me now

Haiku – Bring the Light
If the night is dark
Will the sun still bring the light
Where will the stars hide

Haiku – Old Poet
Maybe an old man
Might still learn some old tricks yet
An old poet writes

Haiku – My Style
Enough Haikus yes
I need to write more my style
Only what I know

Haiku – Words of Pain
Get back to rhyming
Let my words flow like the rain
Back to words of pain

Haiku – Save the Dirt
Put my head in dirt
Don’t know why it must hurt so
Maybe save the dirt

Haiku – OCD’s
OCD for me
Look at me now going now
OCD I see

Can’t catch the birds when they fly so high
You can’t see the world with tears in your eyes
You have to put your feet on the ground
To get your head in the clouds to look around
And you will never know unless you try

Now you might think you are above it all
Just before you take that call
But when you pick it up and say hello
You’ll be the one that has to go
And there will be no time left to stall

Right about then you’ll see the flashing lights
You can forget about all those lonely nights
You’ll be left with all you got
What you have and what you have not
And there will nobody cheering on your fights

When it’s all been said and done
You won’t be having any fun
You won’t get a second chance
You’ll be the victim of your own circumstance
And suddenly you’ll find out you’re not the one

When you finally come to realize
You’re seen through someone else’s eyes
You’re never as good as you thought
Can’t get to Heaven with what you bought
And you’re going to have to pay for all those lies

You’ll have to do some real explaining
Stop whining and stop complaining
Tell the truth to be forgiven
Admit the sins you’ve been living
And after that, in the Heavens will you remain
5/10/05

When I tell people I’m a poet, I say it’s my hidden talent
I hide my soul, page after page in a poet’s lament
Straight from the heart with passion too
I tell them my words I know are true

If they look closely, they can see me on a line
If they get between the lines, no telling what they’ll find
They might see me crazy, funny or see my depression
They may see that it’s just passive aggression

Sometimes when I share my words with them
They don’t know it’s my way of letting them in
To see me with my passion and heart
To share my pain from the start

I give some away in cheap picture frames
Memories of times, places and names
I hope that they read them with an open mind
I hope it takes them back to times left behind

How to read my poetry:

Read it with your eyes, they will show you what I say
See it with your heart, it guides the way
Read it with your mind, keep it open to the truth
Use your understanding to verify the proof
Let it get in your dreams, read it while you sleep
Let it get in your soul and I hope it will keep

When you finish, read it once again
This time with feeling, like blowing in the wind
After that, quietly reflect on the story
Did you find it sweet and nice or ****** and gory

Try and remember your favorite line
Maybe the one about yours or the one about mine
Dry your eyes, blow your nose, get to the funny parts
The one about true love and two broken hearts
You can read them over and over; they never get old
Some of my best lines are as good as gold

When you feel down
Don’t know what to do
When you need somebody
Hold on, I’m coming to you

When you’re lonely
And you need a friend
When you’re feeling so blue
Hold on, I’m coming to you

Hold on, hold on, hold on
I’m coming to you
Hold on, hold on, hold on
I’m coming to you


When you’re far away
And you want me so near
Whatever you do
Hold on, I’m coming to you

When we’re alone
And its only me and you
You can hold on
Hold on, I’m coming to you

Hold on, hold on, hold on
I’m coming to you
Hold on, hold on, hold on
I’m coming to you

There's a cross on the hill, by the old whiskey still
It marks the place where I found you
I was drowning in sorrow, no need for tomorrow
I was lost in that old mountain dew
I remember the night by the whiskey's firelight
I was sitting, while my head tried to swim
Suddenly I saw it through the light in your eyes
I found a way to forget all this sin

That old mountain dew runs deep in my veins
Now the Lord is my savior and in glory he reins
That old mountain dew is finally through
I've found my way unto you

The times have been hard, and the way has been rough
With you in my Heart I don't have to hide
Thank you, dear Lord, for the strength that you give
And for the courage you give me inside

That old mountain dew runs deep in my veins
Now the Lord is my savior and in glory he reins
That old mountain dew is finally through
I've found my way unto you

Leftover hippies are not as trippy
except for when they flashback
Too old to get high, memories in smoke
can’t snort any more crack

They’ve been out there
where everything looks real
Tied-dye moons with pink stars
monsters made out if steel

Remember the pusher man
summer of love, 1967
All the grass and pills you need
Enough drugs to get high up in heaven

Mr. Natural and some Boone’s Farm wine
That’s how they kissed the sun
All the peace and love they felt
We are brothers, everyone

Life is but a moment, only time will tell
We live, we love, we pass on through
Memories are our only hope that we stay awhile
Deeds done well and things left undone, the struggle day to day
No one wants to be forgotten, no one wants to be left alone
We are here together for the time that we have
It’s what we do, what we say, how we live
Its love and family and what we make do
Our time is not long, the sun sets quickly
It is ours to stand in the light, all is gone within the dark
Fear not for love awaits, worry not for we are all with you

Lighthouse on a Mountain

There’s a lighthouse on a mountain,
far from any shore
It shines its light, for those who need it more
Blinking and shining, showing them the way
Lighting up their path, to find another day

The mountain is tall, it can be seen for miles
Standing strong and silent, after so many trials
Holding past the test of time, a rock among the years
Showing the way for the weak to face all their fears

The lighthouse stands for all to see
It will guide you to all you dream to be
Follow its light, it shows what’s true
See it shine, it shines for you

I like to dream about you
The way your kisses taste so sweet
I like to dream about you
The way you breathe when you feel the heat

I like to dream I can hold you
From sunset till the morning light
I like to dream I can hold you
Nothing else seems so right

And in my dreams, I see you
As I look into your eyes
And in my dreams when I see you
I can see sparks as they fly

I like to dream about you
About the things you do
I like to dream about you
I know they will come true

In my dreams you are an angel
White lights and everything
In my dreams you are my angel
Prettiest one I’ve ever seen

Little lives, born so small
No cares, no fear at all
Mothers’ worry while father’s pace
Knowing the world can be a heartless place
Little hands, little fingers, little toes
Always feel the love that shows
Show them love with no regret
These little lives need a safety net
Love them always, forever is how long
Let them love you, let them be strong

Find the one that fits your heart
Hold on tight so it’s all one part
Throw the key in the ocean blue
Lock it up with me and you

Find the way that’s good as gold
Use all your strength to gently hold
Always make the touch feel new
Lock it up with me and you

When we’re older and much too grey
Looking back on a better day
Everything I ever felt was true
Lock it up with me and you

sailor man ties knot
leaves heart in San Francisco-
love dreams to return

Love is the itch
that I can’t scratch
It comes pretty easy
but there’s always a catch

love, if you get in
you may never get out
what you have to promise
will leave it no doubt

love is the pain
that won’t go away
once you get hooked
you are hooked to stay

love is the feeling
like you’ve never felt
love can take a cold heart
and make it all melt

love will make you crazy
drive you out of your mind
once you get outside your head
you don’t know what you might find

love is the happiness
when you see that special smile
when she puts her arms around you
and holds on for a while

love is like the future
cause you know what you’ve got
you can’t just give a little bit
cause you know you need a lot

love is like glue
that binds me to you
together we are stuck
so, our love must be true

The many nights I’ve longed to hold you
All the times I could have told you
Now it seems those times have passed
It’s so hard to make the good times last
If I could only love you in my dreams

The days are long without your smile
It we could only talk for awhile
Maybe things would change for you and me
Better days are waiting to set us free
If I could only love you in my dreams

I remember when the nights were yours and mine
But now they’re cold and the stars no longer shine
No evening moons or morning stars in the sky
Just lonely nights with a lot of time to cry
If I could only love you in my dreams

I guess there’s always hope in each new day
Somehow, some day I will find the words to say
To tell you that I love you so, you’re always on my mind
To search myself to see if your love I can find
If I could only love you in my dreams