Open doors, yet stuck inside.
Come and go, I don't care.
But the pain,
an unknown ache in me
weighs heavy.

Like a ghost wandering lost,
I move with invisible wound.
Some days it hits harder,
Just like last night.
Just like today.

This lonely, silent hollow ache,
I don't know why I push everyone away.
It’s just another day.

I can't relate, I can't explain.
Nothing feels real outside,
Nothing makes sense inside,
It's heavy.

I wish I could figure it out.

The only emotion I know
is rising and rushing.
Fast and raw,
yet never disgusting.

It's hard, I know
but that’s the catch.
A strong force for me to match.
My body learns, blends, it sways,
ready to swing along in its reckless ways.

Ahh, the rage,
I like it,
a fuel to ignite my fire.
It’s good,
I love the warm feeling,
a spark to turn my soul.

Ahh, the pain,
I can achieve it,
all through every ache,
I rise and grow up.
It's mine, I hold the warm hug,
untamed force, I let it flow.

Oh, there it goes again
every once in a while
it's the same feeling
I wanna see you
I wanna hold your hand
and tell you
about everything
how I have felt
and my imagination

I'm waiting, waiting,
you don't know it
but it's true
can't get any word to write how it feels
I don't know if the wait is love
I wanna end the await and
and tell you
how I think about us forever

In my dreams, we're together
laughing around and
playing board games
stealing the last piece
of pizza from each other
laying on the ground,
pointing to the stars
cuddling on winter nights
and from there, who knows?
maybe that will be our first kiss

Is it just me and my imagination?
Oh, the feeling, the waiting,
I can't wait anymore
hold my hand and
tell me its not my imagination,
it's us!

To my mom
  
It's your guiding light
brighten me up into the dark sky
even when I'm doubtful
you always push me up.

It's your comforting touch
with care takes me home
while laying on your lap
it's restful as a soft pillow.

It's your pleasant voice and
the beautiful smile makes me
confident and motivate
to overcome any obstacle.

It's you who stays with me
loyally and trustfully in
every good and bad
situations of life.

I'm proud to be your daughter,
Thank you, mom, for loving every day like me.

What if I meet me one day!
What do I do? How will I react?
Will I be Surprise or just scream out?
Will I talk or avoid my own self?
Will I be friends or rivals?
Will I like or dislike my appearance?
Will I love or hate my behavior?
Will I mingle with my attitude?
A series of random questions!!
I have been asking myself gazing at the mirror in the early morning
What if I meet me,
would I like myself ??

Sometimes it feels like...
it's better to be a real ghost than a ghost in the real world!

I
had been
lying to escape from situations,
avoiding conversations to be
alone in a crowd,
drifting away from the world,
fading away in the air,
freezing time to be numb
and
making me live like a dead human!

Hears me out always,
enjoying my company.
Stays by my side,
observing and
laughing at my actions.
Lightens my dark path,
walking by my side.
Plays hide n seek,
admiring me all night.
Oh my friend the gleaming moon
hoping to meet you soon.

I'm done with it
and it's over,
I moved on
and found a rehab,
I'm relaxed
and searching old me,
I'm happily living my life now!

I see everyone,
but no one sees me.
I hear everyone,
but no one hears me.
I touch everyone,
but no one touches me.
I know everyone,
but no one knows me.
The invisible me!

I want you to regret...
But I will let you live happily
I want to forget you...
But I will keep you as a good memory
I want to scream and shout at you...
But I will  just remain silent
I want to cry bcoz of you so badly...
But I will smile always!

If I could fly...
I would open my wings wider and fly as high as possible as a bird to wander at deep blue oceans, verges of Earth, dark green forests...
I would fly away from toxic air...
I would see morning sunshines and dark nights...
I would fly and fly to get the greatest freedom and peace...
I hope I could fly away into mystery deep space...!

Summer nights
Rooftop sleeps
Space talks
Shining stars
Smiley moon's shapes
Dad's thoughts
Daughter's dreams
Cute smiles with memories!