I cannot
I can’t feel
At all.
There is nothing,
My mind is blank.
Writing is getting hard,
My words just
Feed into each other,
Therearenospacestomoveinthismess
I can’t focus longer than
A couple minutes,
If that,
It’s like everything is a dream;
Now and again
I wake up
Into reality,
Then slowly
Drift away
Into the nothingness.
I cannot make out
what you are saying,
Scream at me;
I don’t understand.
Anger takes over me,
And a headache
That hasn’t budged for days,
Suddenly rips out of me
Exploding into the air
Covering everything within 5meters;
With stardust
And gun powder.
(I can’t tell the difference)
You’re the only thing
That makes me feel
A little more alive
At the moment,
But I can’t even
Get close enough
To your face,
Without shaking
And then collapsing
To the floor.
I’ll smoke cigarettes
And get drunk;
Just to be able
To hear the whispers
In my ear
And to block out
the
muffled voices
in my mind.
