Like a mirage
You enticed me in,
I kept my distance at first
But like always, you win

It wasn't until I was exhausted
Of chasing your mirage
That I opened my eyes wide
And saw nothing but a façade

The triviality of it all
Isn't what I'm chasing after
Because in order to create a mirage
You have to be seeking an answer

I'm exceedingly afraid of the day-
I gaze into someone's eyes,
and see a new future entice,
where my reflection once dwelled.

How beautiful it is,
to see you gazing, ardently,
when you think I'm not watching...

I crave your soft caress--
Outlining the valleys and hills
       on my supple skin.

I crave your hands and fingertips--
Intertwined in mine.

I crave your kisses--
You give upon my forehead,
when I'm half asleep in a dream of you.

I crave your breath--
As you breathe in mine.

Part I:
I, on the shore, so longing to dive in
Felt your race car fast waves
As they licked at my skin.
I must admit, I was afraid
Of what the murkiness hid
But what intrigued me more
Was how should I run in

Part II
Immersed in the water
Both frigid and wild
I felt a calm sense of self
A peace, an everlasting smile
Basking in your glow
We fed off each other's auras
What is the tide without the Moon?
The ocean without it's shores?

Part III
Shivering, teeth clenched
I was unprepared for this swim
I only wanted my feet wet
Now I'm left alone to fend
It's not the ocean I despise
For leaving me questioning and cold
It's the reminder of the choice I made
To race into the unknown.

My Forever Limbo Love-
I mislead you in believing
That this heart you once ignited
Would be mended in my leaving.

My Forever Limbo Love-
I'm trying to do as I said
To love you beyond this world
And again when we're both dead.

My Forever Limbo Love-
Do you know the anguish in me?
Knowing my heart forever belongs
To an angel faced demon?

My Forever Limbo Love-
Don't you worry about my being,
For without you I would not be alive,
But merely a shadow, dissipating.

My Forever Limbo Love-
You've found happiness again now,
But knowing you're still there
Means our infinity will always matter.

I hope my whispers to the sky
Make their way to you
By way of love
In our faire of friendship
Touching the crevices of you
Only exposed
When the soul is weak
To remind you, that you and I,
Are not so different
But much more alike
Than the stars in the sky.
May the love we have
Not be troubled by torment
But rather,
Contently drift with the gusts,
To where they may lead.

Too many times I wonder
If the life I live is true..
Full of hope and disappointment
An avalanche, without rule.
When I'm conflicted in my mind,
I only ask myself one thing:
If the life I lead is happy,
Why question what will be?

I fell undoubtedly,
whole heartedly,
accidentally,
in love with you...

Caress my curves;
      speak softly; your lips
touch mine with grace.

Trace the knolls and shallows of flesh.

Speak nothing more,
       nothing less.

Feel my heart, as it beats with yours.
Once a lone soul,
        awakened to yours.

You changed me (not jaded)
You gave me (your world)
You don't question (what is ours)
But I have to, my sweet.
I have scars, upon scars.

Drifting through this realm
That we dwell
Never did I believe
Or imagine
Our souls would cross
And align, so well
Once a lone ghost
In this cold reality
We call home
I can only hope for your return
But for now, we remain
alone...

This moment I'll keep with me forever,    
       and there's nothing you can do.

Glancing over at the shore-
I see home,
I see my past,
but I don't see you.

Looking out on the horizon, the colors drip from the sky--
       melting into one another, kissing the day goodbye.

To you I turn, frolicking in the waves.
You needn't say a word, I soak up your embrace.
You laugh at me and smile, nothing can wipe the grin from your face.

I'm enraptured by your aura,
You had me before you knew.
My soul is drawn to your spirit-
The one light I see that's true.

For this moment is all I've wanted, and there's nothing you can do--
     But enjoy this moment with me, and carry it on with you.

The red balloon in my chest--
It swells and pounds
And pitters around town,
To it's very own delight.
It wanders, and whimpers
And hints at secrets
That linger, indecipherable,
Even to it's owners might.
It throbs and seethes
The poignant things-
That no one wishes to endure.
It dances and prances
To seldom advances
Avoiding emptying, evermore.
Yet I find myself with a red balloon,
Tucked neatly beneath my chest,
Once deflated by love lost,
Inflated, once more.

We met with smiles,
And we will end in tears...

You are the reason for my madness;
For my sleepless nights alone.
You are the ghost that haunts me,
Bleeding me to my bones.
You are the cure,
I so helplessly seek.
Yet I know from our past,
One taste of you—
Is my defeat.

I dream of you, gazing admiringly in my direction.
I dream of you, hoping I will forever awake in your arms.
I dream of you, smiling softly in your sleep.
I dream of you and I, because in my dreams we live, in our own beautiful eternity...

What is the point of the morning,
Without the morning dew?
What is the reason for rain,
Other than to wash and anew?
Can there be a life
Beyond the one you feel?
Is there another place in your mind
That can be just as real?

I fall quite seldom, nowadays.
It's hard to love,
     when it's been stolen away.
Like the hands of time
     that rotate indefinitely.
I'll come back to you, my darling,
     next time, eternally.

Even in my depths of despair
I was never unlucky
Loving you

I long to be desired--
    Not just once, but always.

I long to be desired--
    Like the way a child plays, with his favorite toy.

I long to be desired--
     Not by many, but by you.

I long to be desired--
     I love me, do you love me too?

Nothingness hugs me
Nothingness puts me to sleep
Nothingness understands me
Nothingness lets me weep
Nothingness is my enemy
Nothingness is my everything
Nothingness isn't you
Nothingness is always me.

You crept in my life
Like a sudden gust of wind
Caught in your web
I swore I'd never play in.
You saw my spirit
Through the shadows I cast
But now I'm left to wonder
Will the web you wove last?

I often wonder what it's like,
to live in a world, enclosed by delight.

It's beginnings and ends
are one in the same.

What one may call the end,
is another's noblest Game.

"Carry on, carry on",
say the specs in the globe.

Fall fast, fall hard,
until the end is known.

I feel so hollow inside.
My life was full of love
   And wonder
   And hope.
Yet what still lingers inside-
Is the memory of you and I.