"i am my own best enemy
      i am my own worst friend  "

it was my habit from my childhood
i ran  out from my home in evenings
i traveled  very  Licentiously
my mother told me
"come back to home  before  the evening time "
my mother told me
"dancing witches  and devils comes downs in evening "
"please you should come back to home at time "
but after all i went out
i ran from home
in the empty streets , lanes
on the roads
i wandered on graves
it was my wish
to see that body-less spirits
to meet a shadow
to see them dancing
how they changes their shapes
and reappears
i wanted  to see my self running  in scare
i wanted to tell all those dreadful stories to my friends and fellows
"ghosts " " they look like this and that "

but i had never seen
nor their dance
but today after a long
when ever  evenings starts
wind blows slowly
darkness starts rising in my yard
i started feeling scary
phantoms of my sadness
and shadows of my memories
souls of my loved ones comes down to me
they makes huge noises
their voices gives too much  pain to my ears
and then in this fear
i remained scary
and dreadful
they all dance ghastly
now i feels UN-comfort in evenings
now sometimes i laugh on myself ,on my childish wish
now i remember what my mother told me  once
now
"when ever evenings starts haunting souls  and witches comes down "
"those  witches dance
very dreadfully
come back to home at time  ... my dear "

oh ALLAH fill my heart with light
and,fill this light all around  me
and, fill my right and left with light
and fill my  above and below with light
and, fill light before me ,behind me

"and make light for me"

and  fill my tongue and  me with light
and  fill  my meat, my blood with light
and fill light in my hair, in my skin
and fill this light in my self

"and make light for me "

oh ALLAH give me light

one needs  heaven
other loves life
needs bows before GOD
who is praying ?

is there any word
which can
define this surrounding
when it is giving you
happiness

life is not ended but there is a difference now.i  have lessened  arguing  to GOD . i  have learned now how to be satisfy on things that he has given me . i  left search of those things which are not get-table . and  literally now sometimes i felt  like life is  a garden , infect all  things are   not perfect .  i am circling in  happiness and sadness instead of all
"my life is  a garden"

embrace each and every breath
celebrate your life
live it
dont die before your death
we all die
we live this one routine of the day
no that is  not life
if you are still judging with concepts  
that why are you living
you have not lived yet
you work hard you make money
that is not life
you go out
you seek for people
who need your help
you make their lives better
you become the sponge
which can absorb all the negativity
and you become that person who can emit beautiful positive vibes
and when you realize that you have changed someones  life
and because of you this person does not give up
that is the day
when you live
live your life fully
accept yourself the way you are
be kind to yourself
only then can be kind to others
love yourself and spread that love
life will be hard
but that will only make you stronger
never give up
real happiness does not lie in money or success
real happiness lies in you
live every moment  
Enjoy the little things in life,
for one day you may look back and
realize they were the big things.
So stop survive, start living. Make it count !

someone asked me what is luck
i said
this world has 7 subcontinents
approximately 206 countries
4200 religions
but i born in a  Muslim family
this is luck

everyone have their own  world in their brains
but  few have  happy brains
because
their hearts are satisfied
for what they have.







i think what we have is satisfactory

the height that a human got from his success  is useless
if a human climb to the highest peak .but fall off from "humanity"

don't  try to do anything ever.  that  someone throw you out from his  prayers .
because to be a part of someone prayers.and then nothing for him is a big lose .

why the most successful people of this world are alone ?
        "just because they put themselves above all"
        "just because they assumes themselves self made "

hey ! remember  that don't call yourself "self made" .call yourself "God-made"
surely your life will be blessed :)

things are for particular time
"they break "
attitudes are for ever ,till hell freezes over
"they leave their affects for a life time "
they are unbreakable :D

think before you speak !

happiness is just a comparision !!

having a clever enemie
is hundred time better
than
having a foolish friend .

THIS WORLD IS "DEVELOPING" DAY BY DAY
BUT STILL,
THIS  WORLD IS UNDER A WAR  OF
"CAST ,COLOR  AND CREED "
:D
HOW BACKWARD WE ARE
GIVE A HAND
A BIG LAUGHTER  !!!

this world has very few people
who listens
the silence
of your unspoken  words ,
who lives
in your pain .
who feels
what you are suffering from
...
if you have that  "angelic  creature "
save them !

common people says
"we know how to live in worst circumstances "
great people says
"we know how to change worst circumstances "
:)

you can hardly walk on broken pieces of glass in pain
but ,still
you are walking on broken pieces  in pain
your past is that broken pieces of glass and pain
that  glass can't regain its shape
that  past can't be  re change
why  you are  living in your painfull  past ?

life is empty subject
its not  readable
its  writeable
we write it
live,clourfull and sucessfull
or useless and meaningless ?
we decside it !
we are our own subjects
you are your own
i am my own .

my old people told me
there is "no fire" in  hell
everyone is taking their own
"burning themselves "

i was making observation on this  
" what is death ? "
"what is the relation between death and life "
once i saw ship
when ship left the seashore and hardly could be seen
people said
" it went "
i thought there would be a port on other side . and people will say
"it comes "
it is the name of death
"end of one  old life , start of new life "

i gave  a pair of shoe to a poor boy
the boy asked me " are you god"
i said " no"
boy said " then you must be the friend of  god , tomorrow i was asking god for new shoes "
i smiled ,now i understand this
" it is not difficult to become friend of GOD "
:)

i saw a little boy
in old , muddy ,broken shoes
playing with a plastic ball
i felt said for him
i went to  bazaar (market)
bought a new  pair of shoe
i gave him and told
"take this, wear this  ,now its yours"
little boy quickly took out them from the plastic beg
he turned and asked
are you GOD  ?"
i said "no "
he said " then you must be the friend of GOD .Tomorrow i asked God for a new pair of  shoes  "
i smiled
he left ,and went to his home
now i understand
this
" it is not difficult task to become friend of GOD "
may you be one of his friends
ameen