In a distant,
I see...
Smoke rising in the sky
Hovering black, consuming my vision
I am trying to reason out, why?
It's coming from the near deserted prison

After a while,
I see...
The ruined prison block, lighting up
From over a cliff, I notice this scene
Black smoke pouring from above
This happenings I've already seen

Confused mind,
I think...
My dream from last night has taken a turn
Should I explore and find out?
But what if I don't return?
Will anyone search and come about?

One way,
Let's explore...
So I lead myself towards the light
Fighting with giant cobwebs on the way
Something sinister caught my sight
But that seemed far deep, further away

My inner,
Voice...
Let's not go any further from here
For your soul is not ready to endure
Close your eyes and ears, don't you fear
You will return to your world, for sure

Sudden awake,*
Present...
For I've been asleep for hours today
Seems I've been to another place of mark
May be this is a message to show me the way
Of what lays further in the dark


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I want you to:

Protect me always
Even if you are away
Always call me
Cause you are mine to be
Everything else doesn't matter, you see

I come with peace:
                                 Personality
                                 Education
                                 Attention
                                 Care
                                 Everything
I just want you for me...



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I've lost a battle
Within my soul
My mind is unsettle
Forgot about my goal

Now trying to revive
To recollect and recall
The medium to survive
Before another fall

The pressure is intense
From my own peers
My heart goes in pretense
Hiding all my fears

Night brings in dark thoughts
To harm myself again with pains
Destined to fight these lots
But my hands are soaked with stains

Blood, it is mixed with ink
As I write on these walls
Drawing up my insanity link
That's when I heard the calls

Ambu sirens squeak the street
Someone rushes in my room
Gives me anesthesia as a greet
But time kicked me to my doom...


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...After fire
In mirror I saw
Bandaged face
Looked raw
You seemed sickened
For what you saw

A pretty face
Not anymore
The fire revenged
And let my skin tore

I was same inside
An ugly fame
You left me outside
Cause of shame

With bald head
Withered skin shed
Lashes and brows
All damaged dead

A state of blank
When you left
On a verge of
Crazy and crank

Days past, months
Then years
Doctors tried best
On my appearance

Finally after years
I walk without fear
But these eyes fill up
With uncontrollable tear

I am new,
But not forgotten
You left me saying
My face was rotten

You judged me
By my appearance
Which in years has
Drowned in disappearance

I have long hair,
Beautiful brows and lashes
With you gone, left me with flashes
My life now, with unfilled dashes...


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Perry and Pieper
Friends by far
Perry is a fruit lover
And Pieper is a Viper
Perry picks red cherries
While Pieper offers an apple
Perry bites on a side
As Pieper hisses away
Both happy and merry
Suddenly there's a sway,
The cherry basket falls
As Perry's skin turns dark
From her hand, the apple falls
Death has put a mark
Pieper hisses and hides  
On the apple tree, afar
Perry, perishes aside
Remembering, how Eve
Was offered an apple by
A snake - probably a Viper!


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The smile, the beauty, the style
Disappeared within life's mile
Your talks, your walks, your moods
Vanished like a deer in deep dark woods
You changed,
How you changed?
There are no feelings to exchange,
How strange!
Now you stay out of range,
One moment you are within my reach,
The other moment you are out-of-reach,
I feel the stone cold stigma in you,
But you have denied my view,
I saw you talking to yourself,
Which I thought was normal for oneself,
Little did I care then, that you were two within one,
A hard fact to understand and overcome,
Was of a personality disorder syndrome,
Of what one could say of schizophrenic state,
How could I understand this so late,
You are no longer same for me,
Neither you want me around nor see,
Doctor's have done their best,
Is this my life's real test?
It's ok to walk away from me strangely,
But I will not give up easily,
There are chances you will be fine,
I will not abandon you cause you are MINE!


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I don't know, how many heartbeats are left in this body. But I can assure you, that my time is quite near. Near to the gates of freedom from this sinful body. I admire, the ticks on the old wall clock. It gradually reminds me of my choking last breaths. The treasure chest in my heart weighs heavy with sorrows. The key resides in my mind, where the memories churn. My eyes stare wide at the pillars and the high ceilings. The energy to raise my hand has drained to the point, where I can't even get up. Blurred vision and twinkling micro lights fly whenever I blink to see, to see what I've missed more. To see that one peace that my soul craved for. To see you, being successful. Sometimes, I hold onto my breath...to get the feelings of death. But then, I am suddenly perched with enormous pain, like a million needles stamped over my chest.
A pin drop silence, then a siren sheering sound bust in my ears. And this, my dear I believe is a tour of hell.
It's just a bad fate, I carry with me, and this will leave me only.
Only, on the day,
I leave this needless body, for good
And all the pain, the sufferings, the sounds shall stop
...
A pin drop silence



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The roots are nearly dead
The stems are weak
The tree that stands
Now has fallen sick

The leaves are wilting
Changing its entire look
There's no chance of feeding
As the frame has shook

The buds have already fallen
As dews made them heavy
No bloom, nor scent of pollen
Nones intention to chevy

We losing plants everyday
We all know how
Plant a tree, they always say
I hope it's not just another show...


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I feel the poison flowing in my veins...

   The upcoming darkness shall never prevail...

       My hunt will begin soon, once I recall the trail...

              With shut eyes I picture my enemies fail...


*
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I plucked a bud
It emerged into a flower
I poked it in the mud
Watered it every hour

Beautiful petals,
greeted with fragrance
Soft stem and leaves,
smiled with elegance

Upon sunset, the same day
The flower hung low
As I moved away
It withered and took a bow

Next day, no fragrance
No cheerful bloom
It looked obvious on the entrance
So I plucked out to its doom

I cried,
as I shouldn't have plucked the bud
I cried,
coz it seemed unhappy so it kissed the mud

I left the flowers to be
As they bloom beautifully how it used to be
So I just visit the shrub bushes to see
The blossoms, the butterflies and the bees...

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He made up his mind
And showed signs of unkind
He picked a chic
That was his best pick
He showed no mercy
That, I could clearly see
He held her tight
While she screamed
And tried to fight
In vain, the chopper,
Dropped in accelerating speed
And quickly the head went off
I began to cough
The scene made me sick
Why was she the pick?
He succeeded with his goal
I watched from the Peephole
Scared, I ran to my room
Hid myself from the site doom
After few hours mum came in
I told her about the committed sin
She smiled and left me in
After a while, mum called
From kitchen or down the hall
I jumped and made my way in a hurry
In my plate she served rice
With chicken curry!!

Noooooooooooooooooooo!!!!


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Paint me red
Or paint me black
Over my face
And around my neck
Make me look ugly
On the worn canvas
Tint my eyes
Scribble my lips
Show your hatred
Show your anger
Spill those lies
Until you can't recognise
The painted portrait
Of me,
my love...

©sim

The hands of a giver
Like our Lord
Flows like a river
Pushes us forward
We the receiver
Beings of today
Believe a deceiver
Dramas everyday
Dark days drown you
Trustworthy left few
You cry and pray
He listens what you say
Delivers from evil
Yet you're led by devil
In dark holes
You hide like moles
Found by the cops
Beaten from bottom to top
Heavy dose on drugs
You lay on wet rugs
Cry till your tears dry
It's about time to try
Kneeling down
Like a messy clown
Asking for forgiveness
From our Lord God
You yell out your grieveneses
And utter the good words
The prayer cleanses your soul
Sparks light in the dark hole
You feel the hand touch
Thankful so much
The evil being cast out
While your soul comes about
At the feet of our Lord
You deliver reverence
To the almighty God...

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Your hazel colored eyes
Hides so many young lies
You say my heart is like gold
But then you mock me, as I am old

Love is what I fell for
You bribed me off, tore me apart
The tears that now pour
Weren't evident from the start

It's sad to walk away
Seeing you shine with your father
But as you always say
I remind you of your precious mother...


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Dark and clumsy weather
Haunts nearly everyday
Am reading through predictions
As few people gather to pray

The elders discuss of the end
Which sound scary and frightful
Nothing would be left intact
As all will be engulfed in a mouthful

Either the earth will part to swallow
Or the giant waves would leach
The winds might develop a mighty tornado
And ****** all lives within its reach

Day by day the ozone depletes
The earth furiously wears away
Blind are the two-legged monsters
Paid to work without a say

Maybe the wise speak the truth
That, of the coming destruction
Everything will be perish and sweeped off
For maybe a new construction!


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Now the skies have turned amber
Due to the burning fields, near
The rise of cunning termites
Is at peak, this time of the year

The bumpy clouds have gathered
But there is no sign of rain
The elnino has spread wide
Wrapping wrath in pain

The greenery has shaded
The temperature rising each day
The cool air has waded
Animals dying everyday

Sweat, fills under my sucken eyes
Humidity on troll these days
Birds peek to drink water,
Trying to cool themselves in some ways...


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The pretentious lobby
Of my arrogant mind
Makes ego my hobby
Stubborn and unkind

I am like a dead field
Where nothing grows
Inside my own shield
Listening to the passby crows

My vision is strong
Yet, I am blind
My wrong becomes my wrong
I have a clueless mind

No smile, only frowns
And fumes of anger rise
From within that drowns
My eyes emotionless cries

I am trying to build
A cheerful being as I was
Before negativity filled
My bloodstreams as a cause

Hence, I am stray and alone
Trying to polish myself again
To shine tho am hard as a stone
Neglecting all my unfelt pain...

©sim

He choked
With words
While poked
With a sword
He spoke
The truth
Of the smoke
Feel of ruth
Death for liars
Bail for speakers
Thrown in fires
The devil seekers
He was spared
A weakened soul
Often stared
By the beasts in coal
No way out
Even if he tried
Sounds of his shout
In melody he cried
Life long hunger
Engulfed in dark
How much longer
Will the beasts bark
Lasting debt
Unchosen fate
Leashed wrath
He was the bait...


©sim

Dream
         Scream
Wonder
         About.

Feel
      Deal
Lost
      Unbound.

Love
       Hate
Cry
       Try.

What
        Why
Tears
        Dry.

Rain
      Drains
Pain
      Away.

Beated
         Cheated
Treated
          Sway.

You
     Me
Soon
     Alone.

Love
       Again
Both
       Known.

No
   Resistance
No
   Pain.

Heart
         Soul
Together
         Again!



©sim

Lost, yet losing another battle
Amongst many mannequins
But the agony doesn't settle
Coz the desire ignites more sins

We fight ourselves and give a way
For others to take over the place
Yet mind and heart beg to stay
To compete in the popularly race

Love is such a challenge, for
Mankind to keep it flourished
Most seen and saw many hearts tore
As flushed eyes stare astonished

Slitting wrist and overdosing mayhem
Serve as a culture to those grievers
Sadist rhythm and sour anthem
Twist their minds, forget retrievers

Like a new epidemic leashed out
And the entire planet, a test ground
Goons, gruff and celebrate about
At the new prototype that roams around

Pointing fingers at others in blame
Raising conflicts, to more lethal levels
To brainwash everyone, their only aim
And these are the real devils

Controlled by trotting wealthiers
We're shot with some ridiculous vaccine
Spilled lies, of life based on certain healthiers
Change the channels, in news it's all seen

Yet, believing the media is another slot
They only show the entertainment bit
The reality is edited and maybe reshot
And the channel becomes a hit

Dummies are we, to unknown users
Our daily lives residue normality
How great are these leading looters
Who shake hands to fulfill, formality!


©sim

Love is pure
Are you sure?
The hearts get lured
But not insured
The feelings get broken
When love finally is woken
One sided love sick
But the other has their own pick
A handsome fellow or a wealthy chic
Love is no longer pure
It's just a bait to lure
Then left out for sure
Most of us would agree
That love comes as free
So we all take it
Cause love doesn't grow on trees
It's a freebie token
You get tossed once you are broken...

©sim

Looking down from an ancient tower
Ruins of life, bushes of dead flower
No sign of rain to bring back the bloom
My eyes growing numb as the weather turns gloom
Rain is what I wish for
Drizzle now, drizzle and pour
O' gathering clouds
Quench the thirst which crowds
I will contribute my tears
For it has not rained for few years
The small creatures yearn for rain
Pour now and sooth thy pain
Let the meadows sprout greenery
And there be enchanting paradise scenery
The desperate need for this place is rain
So bring back these to life and strength to gain
I will pour down few tears.....
......while awaiting for the rain


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A gloomy day
No sun! no ray!
I've lost my way
What to do?
What to say?
Whom to speak?
Cause I ran away
Here in the forest
The tall trees sway
I wish not to return
I wish to stay away
Away from home
All alone
Among these trees
I wish to be free
From the people
From the filthy minds
From everyone
That's not my kind
I wish to find freedom
In this enchanting forest
Which is now,
My kingdom.

©sim

Arrogant, ego, self pride
Who do you think is your guide?
Self pity, bad dream, broken heart
Are you able to pen out your art?
Addiction, low esteem, always hate
Do you swim fast or become a bait?
Love, evil, shivers of fear
When you write, do you shed a tear?
Romance, time, ready to ****
Do you possess a strong will?
Lone, clown, face of frown
Ever seen a frog wearing a crown?
Cry, try, make believe
The hand that stopped you, did you stay back or leave?
Dark, monsters, hell creatures
Why do you think we have preachers?
Angels, demons, dear God
Do you ever try to move forward?
Vengeance, anger, too much greed
Ever wandered how can you be freed?
Money, lust, enormous fame
Who between the two, is playing a game?
Sleep, dose, then awake**
Don't you wish, to run or stay for sake?

©sim

"In the realms of tomorrow
I'll lay out my sorrow
In the realms of yesterday
There was nothing much to say
In the realms of today
I showed you the highway"*
You've being too arrogant from the start
And acted aimlessly to be smart
You let me down in front of our friends
As a result this has come to an end
Yesterday you never made a call
Today you show up with another doll
I got your meaning of love today
You change dolls every second day
Soon you may realise my worth
But then it will be too late ofcourse...


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Pooled in disgust
In the arms of a fool
My skin seems to burst
By his lustrous drool

The evil desires that spill
Gives shivers to my soul
It is of not my will
To be in such a role

Touched to places
Flames rise, high in pole
Strapping the laces
Seeking his ultimate goal

The pain aches pleasure
In his deaf ears
Nibbling bits to bites
My cries he hears

Now, on the natures bed
He pushes me back
Gasping over my head
Clenching his teeth on my neck

As I cried and he hissed
Like that of a snake
Crawling and being kissed
For a 'NO', he could not take

The nightmares spread
With a foul smell
Sheets covering red
From an unknown spell

His breath fading
Laying heavy on my chest
I pulled myself together
To be with the rest

Red zone or prostitution
Is not a self led to many
Neither it's an institution
To earn a penny...



©sim

Alone in the dark...
Hearing the dogs bark...
Searching for my fone...
Just remembered now you own...
Looked up the sky, no moon was in sight...
Aaah! its gona be a long night...
Light was gone, power was out...
Wondering when someones gonna come about...
Its almost midnight, and all is silent outside...
Creepy flashbacks seem to droop from inside...
Trying to focus on yesterday's drama...
Of what really put me through such a trauma...
Gathering the moments, I realized we broke...
Yes, we did! you blundered with your filthy joke...
Assuming it sounded cool within your friend group...
But what a **** you are now unrespected dupe...

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My heart grows weak
When I see you
My thoughts speak
To be with you
My emotions seek
To love you
But you damaged my heart
Now it leaks, part by part
My veins start to bust
As I write your name on dust
Then I cry and sink in tears
And taunt myself that,
I couldn't console my fears
My mind is stable
But my heart is still weak
It's been weeks
Now I feel better
As there are no leaks
My heart is repaired
And I am ready
For that special one that I seek...

©sim