Love

It's the warm feeling you get when you think about her.

It's the burst of joy whenever you talk to her.

It's the journey from being cheesy,cringe and crazy for the world, And cute just for her.

It's the moment you don't see a future without her

It's the realisation that in your life's every possible story she's the happy ending

I am wating for one day
One day when my eyes won't open up in the morning
I am waiting for one day
When I will look up at the sky with my eyes shining
I am waiting for one day
When I end my connection with the world
I am waiting for one day
When I live indifferent to the world
I am waiting for one day
When I say "I made it"
I am waiting for one day
When I say "this is it"
I am waiting for one day
When my heart is smiling
I am waiting for one day
When I know this is the ending.

You lost the day you started doubting yourself.
~Harshit Nangia

You are my perfect dream
You are my final wish .

We don't talk nowadays
You don't even look at me,
I am now out of ways
I don't know how to be

Hence I create you in my dreams
No we're not a couple by the streams
But you just talk to me, have forgiven me,
Just that makes my heart skip a beat .

The thought of you just standing beside me,
Means the world to me .

All of this is not the reality
That's why I see you in my dreams
That's why I don't wanna wake up from my sleep .

Aaj koi Anjaana jankaar ** gaya
Koi paraya apna ** gaya .

Bade dino baad aaj apne pan ka ehsaas hua hai
Shayad uske liye nahi, par mere liye kuchh khaas hua hai.

Iss zamaane se ladte ladte main logon par se bharosa kho chuka hoon,
Par na jaane kyun, tujh par aitbaar karne laga hoon.

Yeh sahi hai ya galat yeh main nahi jaanta
Main bass itna jaanta hoon ki khud ko tere hawale kar chuka hoon.

I received so much love ,
More than i was worthy of .

I recieved so much support,
More than i had expected of .

I received so much motivation,
More than i needed of .

I received so much inspiration
Exactly what i thrived for .

This platform is made by its members
Not by an app or digital numbers .

Some of the best have given me a ray
I will surely make my way
Remembering their kindness everyday.

I never told anyone that I loved you
Yet they teased me with your name
To silence them I fought with you
And cried for hours in pain .

I never told anyone that I loved you
Yet they teased me with your name
I asked them the reason for all the teasing
They said , for her my eyes reveal my feeling.

You never saw my love
Maybe cause I wasn't able to show it
Always busy silencing them
I wasn't able to express it .

Your memories keep troubling me
Neither do they let me work in the day
Nor de they let me sleep at night
They force me to think about you

Maine kabhi kissi ko nahi bataya ki main tujhse pyaar karta tha ,
Fir bhi saara zamana mujhe tere naam se chheda karta tha .
Unko chup karane ke liye main tujhse ladta tha
Akele mein ghanto roya karta tha .

Maine kabhi kissi ko nahi bataya ki main tujhse pyaar karta tha
Fir bhi saara zamana mujhe tere naam se chheda karta tha .
Maine unse puchha ki unhe aisa kyun lagta hai ,
Unhone kaha unhe meri aankhon mein tere liye pyaar dikhta hai .

Tujhe kabhi mera pyaar nahi dikha
Shayad isliye, kyunki main kabhi dikha hi nahi paya.
Hamesha zamane ko hi chup karane mein laga raha
Kabhi tujhe apne dil ki baat keh hi nahi paaya .

Teri yaadein mujhe bahut satati hain
Na din mein kaam karne deti hai
Na raat ko sone deti hain
Bass tere baare mein sochne par majboor kar deti hain .

I still end up with you in my dreams
My heart still calls out to you .

I still hope that one day you will understand,
I still hope that one day you will hold my hand.

I still try to find you in every girl
I still love the way your hair curl

I don't know about their kind
But I surely know mine.
I will start from the beginning
Leaving nothing behind .

Seeing me failing ,upsets him
But seeing me not trying, angers him
He doesn't want me to repeat his mistakes,
To see me succeed he is willing to do everything it takes.

He is not perfect
Not even close to it
Well parenting is tough isn't it ?

He has made some mistakes
But had pure intentions
It's his job to be strong and hide his emotions.

Well that's just it ,
His mistakes are neglected
His anger is deflected
Because his love is so purely reflected

I sit staring into the wind
With an empty mind
Clueless of what to think
Aimless of what to do .

This feeling troubles me
It vexes me .
I can't find the balance .

Can I do them together
Or do I have to choose
This can't be forever
Hell! What have I got to lose

The question isn't either this or that
The question, is can you bring them both under the same hat .

As I write this, I think I can
Well I have got to ,
For I am a man

Pehli baar jab tujhe dekha
To hairaan hi reh gaya
Ki khuda ne kuchh itna khubsurat bhi banaya tha ,
Ha, main toh bas dekhta hi reh gaya .

Tab tak zindagi bas kat rahi thi
Kabhi zindagi ke baare mein socha na tha,
Par uss din ek ek pal ,ek ek lamha
Kai saalo sa lag raha tha.

Vo teri do pal ki muskurahat
Mere liye saari zindagi ban gayi thi
Tune jo apna munh fera toh meri saanse Ruk gayi thi .

Kehte hain , ki pyaar usse kiya jaata hai jiski tum izzat kar sako ,
Jisne apne aap ko saabit kiya ** ,
Jo tumhari barabri ka ** .

Main uss waqt pehle number pe hua karta tha ,
Meri izzat aur rutba hua karta tha .
Uss waqt mauka tha fir bhi keh na paaya ,
Aaj keh raha hoon kyunki fir pata nahi mauka mile ya na mile.

For the world it is debatable,
For me it is relatable.
It was just naive humanity
Perhaps, it was just done wrongly.

What we had was great
But maybe it is not in our fate .

It's sad that I have to stop
So that in life I don't walk but hop.

It's time to build my own reality
In a way I can live my dream in it .

I often think maybe I should
Live my reality in my dream
But who would I be kidding
It will only be true as long as I am dreaming.

I am not retiring
But merely on a break
I will be returning
As my dream is at stake.

All I can ask from you
Is to wait for me
For when I return
I will be free .

I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE

I don't love you anymore
Still, I am unable to love someone else.

Nothing brings me more joy knowing,
You were my first love.
Nothing brings me more sorrow knowing,
You will be my last love.

She asked me if I loved her
I told her I did.
But when I looked inside me,
I knew I lied.

I couldn't break her heart,
Because she loved me.
She wasn't the heroine of the story,
But she loved me.

I didn't give her a reason,
But she understood.
It broke her, upset her and angered her
That I just couldn't love her .

My heart is closed and abandoned,
It doesn't allow anyone to enter it
Because somewhere in there
You still live in it .

I have been with many,
Didn't love one .
Never actually been with you
But always knew that you were the one

I still try to mingle,
Everytime I can .
I really like them  
But love, I don't know if I can.

I am now the ascetic lion.
I refrain from my old way.
I try to get better everyday.

It seems that I am the only one trying,
Compelling my heart and soul
To not follow my natural instinct,
My natural instinct to **** .

They see me silent,
They see me non violent.
They think I am weak .

They poke me for fun
They tease me with a gun
Some think they're strong
Little do they know , that they're wrong.

It's all so tempting ,
To show them who I am, what I can do
I tolerate the dance of the fool
Keeping my cool .
But everyone has their limit ,
And inevitably they cross it
At last I devour them .