I covered my wall with old photos
So that when I lay alone at night
I’m not
So
Alone.  

Thinking it would fill
That empty void in my heart.
That black hole.
But rather,
It just added more fuel to the flames.  
That burning desire
To not
Be
Alone.

But I can’t help it.
Loneliness comes naturally to me.
As If it were in my DNA.
My veins.

I separate myself from everyone else.
The only friends I have now
Are the face of those plastered on my wall.
The greatest joke of them all;
As if I could fool myself into thinking
That those faces could comfort this lonely soul.

If you feel like
You can’t live another day
Cause the path you’re walking
Has faded to grey,
I will leave you a light on
To help guide your way.

But if the light starts to fade again
And you’re stuck wondering
“Is this the end?”
I’ll call out your name
And grab you by the hand
As we walk through the darkness
into neverland.

Believe me my friend,
This isn’t the end
And I will stay by your side
Until your light shines bright again.

Today I laid in bed a total of 7 more minutes than I should have
before rushing to get ready for work.
I let that sinking feeling pull me under.
Drowning in my own bed,
No thoughts actually running through my head,
Just a mind numbing realisation that I’ll have to get up at some point.  
But I just laid there.
No emotion on my face.
Eyes glued to the ceiling
Blinking every 4 seconds,
Before letting out a long sigh
as if my soul had been sent back to me.
Then i caried on with the day as normal.

I go to sleep tired
and wake up exhausted.
But I still carry on each day as normal
and pretend that I'm okay,
so you don't have to feel this way.

- Keeping to myself to protect all else

All these tears I've wept,
the secrets I've kept,
the nights I haven't slept.
For myself, I cannot accept.

- self-esteem dreams

Thinking of you as these tears fall from my eyes,
No longer able to wear this beautiful disguise.
For you have shattered every part of me with your innocent lies.
Did you ever love me? Want me? Need me? Crave me as much as I crave you?
Just the feeling of your fingers,
Or the whisper of your words.
Missing every inch of you as though you were my treasure,
But now your feelings have changed and you've moved on like the weather.
Leaving me
beaten
bruised
and broken.
Now I'm left to forget the words that you had once spoken.

- I'm here, you're there

Stood 6ft away from the closing door, she fell to her knees as she cried on the floor.

"Why does he not want me anymore? Am I no good? Was I a bore?"

Once the tears stopped evading her bloodshot eyes, she reached into a draw and pulled out a knife.

The same knife she'd been using for many of years to draw pretty little pictures with her blood stained tears.

Patterns of the saddest beauty covered her arms and thighs, but she hides them with her perfect lies.

She tells those who ask about the marks on her body that "They were simply just accidents, end of story."

In her life people come and people go, so she thought everyone didn't need to know.

She kept all the pain deep inside.
Until the one person she loved, lied.

Now he's gone and left her for good. So she's just left on the floor crying, feeling unloved and misunderstood.

As far as the eyes can see,
there is nothing wrong with me.
They cannot see my broken heart,
or my wounded soul.
They cannot see this little girl
lost inside her own home.

- Stranger in this human shell

People tell us when we're wrong,
point out our flaws,
make us feel un-normal.
But what is right?
What is normal?
All this- this hatred... and what for?

- Can't we just help one another?