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"crinkle" poems
except that you have attached your parfumed, par~col~odored exhalations into our shared airs, with uniqued fumes,    thy airy essences to thine own chosen words, in combines never before seen or heard, but worn by you, draped from chains abound your neck, dripping from thy tongue, dropping from thine eyes, leaking from your pores, from fingers in rose gold adorning rings bright shining so more, so unique, impossible to misidentify as anything anybody any anything, but yours, yours…yours,      but not belabor this fact basic, disguise your name, hide your fame, make your locale, somewhere in the unreachable, unreal, multiverse, none the less, and allthemore, cannot escape, the ultimate reality, when first you press that keyed SEND, you have parted, done with, an immeasurable small but grandeured piece of your unique self, if that makes you anxious, here my eyes crinkle sympathetically, am please to blurt this major alert: u have nothing to fear, too late, too late, you are now made, part and particle, past participle futured history in the particulared, longest continuum on this tiny, tiny planet oh well, just thought you'd like to know, despite your guises, your are now 100 per cent, immutable ^ 10/5/25 staying alive
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Oct 3, 2025
Oct 3, 2025 at 8:23 PM UTC
Immutable: you 🫵...have nothing to be anxious about 👍
I want to touch my fingertips To the center of the brim of your cap And run them along the edge One hand in each direction Until the stiff peak gives way to soft fabric. I will gently slide my fingers Under the edge of your cap Until it lifts off your head So that I can toss it behind you To be forgotten about. I will trace your jawline While you say things In that honeyed, gravely voice of yours Only it's not quite gravel- not that harsh More akin with rough sand. Then you will smile And your teeth will shine white against your tan skin While your eyes crinkle and laugh And I will fall, sinking into their pool Of warm, caramel coffee. You will find my hand with yours And interlock your fingers with mine Holding them both to your chest Your hands are large, rough, and strong You only hold my hand, but my body is paralyzed
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May 27, 2012
May 27, 2012 at 3:26 AM UTC
Baseball Cap
Someday you’ll love you. From the sparkle in your eye, To the pitch of your laugh, Even the color of your hair. You will love every part, From every wrinkle, To every crinkle, Every part of you. But they will try to tear you down, To make you frown, To make you think you’re not worth it. But darling you listen to me. From the way you walk, To the way you talk, You will be mocked, But don’t you listen. From your weight, To your height, You are all wonderful to me. Maybe one day you’ll see, The beauty I see. The way you were made, So beautifully. But until then, Do not forget, On how true beauty, Comes from within.
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May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 1:20 PM UTC
Someday you’ll love you
*If you were my sheets, and at my beck and call fulfilling all my fantasies, into you, I would fall. You'd cradle me so gently, and massage me everywhere releasing all my juices, and all my  stress, and cares. In splendor we'd heat up the room, and I'd crinkle every sheet and when we were apart, I'd rejoice, every time we meet. Pillows would cradling my face and head, where jasmine scented rests blending of our fluids as our bodies, orgasmically attest. We'd fall asleep together, and spoon throughout the night and in the morning waking, to unimaginable delights. Your hands of silken sheets caressing, exciting every nerve giving me all the pleasures, and climaxes, in you, I am immersed!*
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Jul 20, 2017
Jul 20, 2017 at 10:58 AM UTC
If you were my sheets... (collaboration with Temporal Fugue)
All those laughters Are not always real All those faces in a park, Wrinkled and weary, Laugh in a circle, Devoid of happiness, No sign of a crinkle, Eyes without light, Devoid of life. Their happy sadness echoes, On the streets, in apartements, The dismal vibes reach us Yet they emanate the fake sentiments. Stoop a little and evesdrop that circle, They deceive emotions, black and purple, All you hear is a shouting troop, We know the truth of a laughing group.
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Jun 6, 2015
Jun 6, 2015 at 11:36 PM UTC
Laughing group
I fell in love with your eyes The same ones that sparkle Through all your years I love how they crinkle When you gently flutter your eyelashes I'm completely hypnotized I see all your feelings flash behind those hazel eyes
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Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 8:21 PM UTC
Hazel Eyes
august’s withered days swing from view.⠀⠀ flicker of a breeze caresses earth’s cheek.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ crinkle of a leaf, a wail beneath your feet.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ a wispy veil of dew covers the dried remains of a summer’s past. treetops glistering, vibrant golden hues⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ first flicker of daybreak rising slowly.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ an infant’s feeble cry of autumn’s might.⠀⠀⠀
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Sep 25, 2018
Sep 25, 2018 at 6:41 PM UTC
september.
i don’t think I found myself in the poetry, i think i am finding myself in your arms under the gentle pressure of your fingertips and the velvet embrace of your words. they think I found myself in the halls of the airport that it walked alone but i think i am finding myself in the kitchen of your flat, waiting for the kettle to come to a boil; in cups of tea nursed at the table and I hope that’s okay. i sip in the same tentative manner that i reach for your hand in the dark; you may have the effervescent beauty of a tree in the autumn but right now i would like to lace my fingers with yours and be human together. i hope that’s okay. you are like literature and myth; a deep and sprawling spectrum of contradictions and complexities. i feel like teiresias; blind and trapped within my own self-made cocoon of spiralling thoughts. eyes closed i reach for your hand. i almost miss my stop on the last train home spilling out sweet words about your everything. her hair straight out of bed with soft eyes and parted lips, sculpted by aphrodite; carved from the finest marble i want her to pin me down, to the bed, to reality- her lips, to guide me from her waist and back to sanity. early in the morning when she wakes up tangled in sheets with her eyes peeking up over her phone, soft smile on her lips. the world stands still in the soft glow of flickering street lights like visible heartbeats, glowing and not glowing in tandem, and the windows are frosted along the edges; worrying a cracked lip between my front teeth i realise this may be the most I have ever thought about tea. our fingers tangle, grasp sheets or cheeks rosy with first-kiss smiles. eyelids crinkle. you are butterflies in my stomach, fear and exhilaration, honesty and hope you are listening to the same song on repeat; your laugh is the song stuck in my head, every song i’ve ever loved, the only song i want to listen to.
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Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 11:28 AM UTC
for amy.
i don’t think I found myself in the poetry, i think i am finding myself in your arms under the gentle pressure of your fingertips and the velvet embrace of your words. they think I found myself in the halls of the airport that it walked alone but i think i am finding myself in the kitchen of your flat, waiting for the kettle to come to a boil; in cups of tea nursed at the table and I hope that’s okay. i sip in the same tentative manner that i reach for your hand in the dark; you may have the effervescent beauty of a tree in the autumn but right now i would like to lace my fingers with yours and be human together. i hope that’s okay. you are like literature and myth; a deep and sprawling spectrum of contradictions and complexities. i feel like teiresias; blind and trapped within my own self-made cocoon of spiralling thoughts. eyes closed i reach for your hand. i almost miss my stop on the last train home spilling out sweet words about your everything. her hair straight out of bed with soft eyes and parted lips, sculpted by aphrodite; carved from the finest marble i want her to pin me down, to the bed, to reality- her lips, to guide me from her waist and back to sanity. early in the morning when she wakes up tangled in sheets with her eyes peeking up over her phone, soft smile on her lips. the world stands still in the soft glow of flickering street lights like visible heartbeats, glowing and not glowing in tandem, and the windows are frosted along the edges; worrying a cracked lip between my front teeth i realise this may be the most I have ever thought about tea. our fingers tangle, grasp sheets or cheeks rosy with first-kiss smiles. eyelids crinkle. you are butterflies in my stomach, fear and exhilaration, honesty and hope you are listening to the same song on repeat; your laugh is the song stuck in my head, every song i’ve ever loved, the only song i want to listen to.
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I step outside and feel my nose crinkle Look to the sky and watch the V’s fly south Walk through the woods and hear the leaves whistle Take a deep breath and taste fall in my mouth. A start to the happiest time of year Everything’s changing like wind where it blows. Squirrels hide acorns, scarecrows create fear, Pumpkins make faces at kids and their clothes. Delectable treats in bags and buckets, Scary films to watch on the edge of your seat. Kids running around creating ruckus, Stomping on leaves in the street with their feet. Lets not forget Oktoberfest and beer; Where people gather ‘round to celebrate A special event that’s held every year, Something so special you can’t replicate. Delicious mystery looms in the air While evil spirits meander ‘round town. Libra gives the torch to Scorpions heir And leaves pile up into one big mound. The autumn harvest is now creeping up Making food to put on everyone’s plate. A great time of year where change is a must Because without change, nothing can be re-made.
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Oct 25, 2012
Oct 25, 2012 at 12:19 PM UTC
October
I'll hold your hand through the wizened wrinkles; even if your beautiful mind will eventually crinkle. Crinkled & crumpled into creases too deep for sunshine to peek through. (My fingertips will still slowly but surely fix it.) Even when the hair tickling my bare shoulders, collarbones & necks on lazy sunday morning is no longer quite the same. I'll be right here.
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Aug 4, 2014
Aug 4, 2014 at 3:55 AM UTC
Wine Cellar
Some fears are simple. Others are not. Joy murmurs above. We crave patience. Twisting the top off each other's head. Who first insults permission. Applying our hands as cups. No longer dull to the vapor of how we feel. We recline in long verse. Spudders of interruption. The rush of anticipation. Pressed against the couch. Some fears are simple. Others are not. Opening up to you without cease. Frequent sips of red wine. Tilting you over filling my cup. Eager to sip in weighed sway. I hear and smile. Feeling the effects. How you laugh. How you smile. It's funny how time flies. Leaves in Spring. Blown away, scrunched up in the crinkle of your dress. Rustic brown & red accented in black. Some fears are simple. Others are not. There's no alternative. I'm an alcoholic. Pursuing sip after sip. Civil in how we converse. Neighboring bold taste
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Jun 18, 2018
Jun 18, 2018 at 2:42 PM UTC
Wine
I wish I could write him a letter just to ask how he was doing. If the food tastes different there if the sky is bluer at 10 AM if he can see the moon from his window But really, all I want to know is if he loves the crinkle of written-on paper as much as I do and if sometime, he might want to write me back just to feel the paper between his fingers and the words beneath his palms?
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May 27, 2014
May 27, 2014 at 12:11 AM UTC
Simple
--To C. M. Fountains that frisk and sprinkle The moss they overspill; Pools that the breezes crinkle; The wheel beside the mill, With its wet, weedy frill; Wind-shadows in the wheat; A water-cart in the street; The fringe of foam that girds An islet's ferneries; A green sky's minor thirds-- To live, I think of these! Of ice and glass the ****** Pellucid, silver-shrill; Peaches without a wrinkle; Cherries and snow at will, From china bowls that fill The senses with a sweet Incuriousness of heat; A melon's dripping sherds; Cream-clotted strawberries; Dusk dairies set with curds-- To live, I think of these! Vale-lily and periwinkle; Wet stone-crop on the sill; The look of leaves a-twinkle With windlets clear and still; The feel of a forest rill That wimples fresh and fleet About one's naked feet; The muzzles of drinking herds; Lush flags and bulrushes; The chirp of rain-bound birds-- To live, I think of these! Envoy Dark aisles, new packs of cards, Mermaidens' tails, cool swards, Dawn dews and starlit seas, White marbles, whiter words-- To live, I think of these!
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Ballade Made In The Hot Weather
So there's this girl; pretty, gorgeous and nice. Her eyes crinkle when she smiles genuinely and I hope she knows her beauty eventually. Because she has a pure soul that can entice. There's this girl, whose favorite color is blue. Who stays up past midnight to finish a book and then falls asleep in her own comfy nook. Tiredly waking to a pale dawn covered in dew. There's this girl, that takes up all of my time. Who lights up my phone all hours of the day and expects a paragrapth on the 28th of May. So there's this girl, this girl that I call mine.
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Aug 24, 2017
Aug 24, 2017 at 1:58 PM UTC
So There's This Girl
the morning sky performs a hot dance of rain. ever-growing lime washes away, white and sour mistaken by some noses as aromatics. a season of ever-ending frost absent from windows and misty misty journey through the rain without an umbrella. rain jilts its luscious sun-lover behind clouds. it beheads drops into the thin morning air only to be crushed by the sidewalk. this excites the worms who unearth themselves like fishing-bait zombies. the worms are then eaten by the birds who brave the rain and the slick sidewalk, once baptized, now eats their **** I step in a puddle with my rain boots. there are holes in their heels, and I feel my skin start to crinkle. I think of you for the first time in sky water unsubmerged docked landed and lean in to the liquid veil.
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Aug 7, 2017
Aug 7, 2017 at 12:13 PM UTC
Untitled
When there are no cards left to play, We start a new game. There's never a winner, Just two broken hearts and Smiles that don't crinkle the eyes. Do you remember when I buried my face in the plaid cotton of your shirtsleeve and cried, 'What do you want from me?' 'Everything,' you whispered into my mouth, Your voice muffled as if we were breathing underwater, Though we were both unprepared to drown. Darling, if only we'd realized that when you took it all, There'd be nothing left for me.
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Sep 12, 2015
Sep 12, 2015 at 4:43 PM UTC
Running with Scissors
Don't leave me, I swear I won't be able to stand it there are days when it feel like ***** is filling my lungs and I am stupid enough to try and take another sip. You're not just the sun, You're the whole ******* universe. I look at you and see galaxies, milky ways and star dust. Yet I feel like the tiniest little falling star that's ready to burst. Your laugh that you say is "so annoying" is like orchestra music to me; when the violin and cello  intertwine it's the most divine sound I could ever hear; every hair on my body stands up and in that moment I  just kind of, fall in love. Like that smile, oh that smile. The way you crinkle your nose, When you make me laugh like a child and that tiny little he-he that you giggle back to me. when you walk away to spend eight hours a day slaving away to make food for people you don't even know with people you don't even like. I just want to throw my arms around you and pull you back, say, " no. lets go take a nap" I'll pet your hair and scratch your back. I love to listen to the stories you tell me the more I know, the more I become intrigued I'm infatuated with you, who is so fascinating. I know I am difficult. you don't have to pretend like I'm not instead of telling you that i'm struggling I sit silently and let myself drown and I know that I'm pulling you down to, that's one thing I never want to do cause without you, where I'd be is a place where I don't think I could even call myself me. It ***** that I'm needy, and i'm sorry I'm so clingy I'm not use to missing someone next to me when I sleep. wanting to wake up to see your face knowing that I can go on with my day. my lungs won't be filled up and for awhile I'll be able to smile not wanting to drown out the pain with sleep or drugs. Cause I dream about your eyes and I see galaxies I think about your laugh and I hear music "Beauuutiful"   ( you always say) yes you are.      ( I always think)
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Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 9:47 PM UTC
starcrossed
Don't leave me, I swear I won't be able to stand it there are days when it feel like ***** is filling my lungs and I am stupid enough to try and take another sip. You're not just the sun, You're the whole ******* universe. I look at you and see galaxies, milky ways and star dust. Yet I feel like the tiniest little falling star that's ready to burst. Your laugh that you say is "so annoying" is like orchestra music to me; when the violin and cello  intertwine it's the most divine sound I could ever hear; every hair on my body stands up and in that moment I  just kind of, fall in love. Like that smile, oh that smile. The way you crinkle your nose, When you make me laugh like a child and that tiny little he-he that you giggle back to me. when you walk away to spend eight hours a day slaving away to make food for people you don't even know with people you don't even like. I just want to throw my arms around you and pull you back, say, " no. lets go take a nap" I'll pet your hair and scratch your back. I love to listen to the stories you tell me the more I know, the more I become intrigued I'm infatuated with you, who is so fascinating. I know I am difficult. you don't have to pretend like I'm not instead of telling you that i'm struggling I sit silently and let myself drown and I know that I'm pulling you down to, that's one thing I never want to do cause without you, where I'd be is a place where I don't think I could even call myself me. It ***** that I'm needy, and i'm sorry I'm so clingy I'm not use to missing someone next to me when I sleep. wanting to wake up to see your face knowing that I can go on with my day. my lungs won't be filled up and for awhile I'll be able to smile not wanting to drown out the pain with sleep or drugs. Cause I dream about your eyes and I see galaxies I think about your laugh and I hear music "Beauuutiful"   ( you always say) yes you are.      ( I always think)
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I’m thinking of the faded checkered pattern that has been smoothed away by time on the dark cloth seats of a Nissan Pathfinder                                           driving down Ryan Road on a hot day in June. My mother, in the front seat, singing along to a Spice Girls cassette.   I’m thinking: red, plastic, crab-shaped sandbox and                                       McDonald’s Happy Meal toys.   I’m thinking: light princess pink, seafoam green, and robin’s egg blue.   I’m thinking of a framed cheetah cross stitch, hanging on the wall of what                                       used to be our bedroom at my grandparent’s house. I’m thinking: Barbie doll houses and Hot Wheels and a cul-de-sac at                                                                                      the end of the street.   The sweet smell of cigar smoke.  The ice cold splash of the garden hose.  The pop of a bubble.  The sting of soap in the eye.  Dreams by The Cranberries.  As Long as You Love Me by The Backstreet Boys.  A HelloKitty boombox slowly spitting out vapor when the deck builders hit a power line while digging.  The deer in the backyard looking for corn.  The faded wood of a playset that was never really played on. My father: sitting alone on a splintered bench by the firepit at the edge of the woods, empty beer cans at his feet, chain smoking cigarettes, and humming along to a song that is stuck—forever stuck—on the tip of my tongue. I do not know if this happened.  I cannot ask him.   (I’m not sure if I would want to ask him.)   But I can make an educated inference that that line of fiction is really nonfiction.   A memory that feels like a phantom limb.                               Sounds like the sharp crinkle of static.                                                        Covered in a gossamer, dreamlike haze.   There is a distinct otherness to this memory, to who                                      I think I was before the trauma.   We are two different people.  A yin and a yang.  A day and a night.   The hermit crab is soft beneath its hard shell. The asbestos is not apparent within the insulation.   You cannot see the lead in the paint. The mold inside the fruit.
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May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 2:46 AM UTC
Imagine This Poem as a 4x6 Walgreens Photo Print From a 2002 FujiFilm Disposable Camera
I’m thinking of the faded checkered pattern that has been smoothed away by time on the dark cloth seats of a Nissan Pathfinder                                           driving down Ryan Road on a hot day in June. My mother, in the front seat, singing along to a Spice Girls cassette.   I’m thinking: red, plastic, crab-shaped sandbox and                                       McDonald’s Happy Meal toys.   I’m thinking: light princess pink, seafoam green, and robin’s egg blue.   I’m thinking of a framed cheetah cross stitch, hanging on the wall of what                                       used to be our bedroom at my grandparent’s house. I’m thinking: Barbie doll houses and Hot Wheels and a cul-de-sac at                                                                                      the end of the street.   The sweet smell of cigar smoke.  The ice cold splash of the garden hose.  The pop of a bubble.  The sting of soap in the eye.  Dreams by The Cranberries.  As Long as You Love Me by The Backstreet Boys.  A HelloKitty boombox slowly spitting out vapor when the deck builders hit a power line while digging.  The deer in the backyard looking for corn.  The faded wood of a playset that was never really played on. My father: sitting alone on a splintered bench by the firepit at the edge of the woods, empty beer cans at his feet, chain smoking cigarettes, and humming along to a song that is stuck—forever stuck—on the tip of my tongue. I do not know if this happened.  I cannot ask him.   (I’m not sure if I would want to ask him.)   But I can make an educated inference that that line of fiction is really nonfiction.   A memory that feels like a phantom limb.                               Sounds like the sharp crinkle of static.                                                        Covered in a gossamer, dreamlike haze.   There is a distinct otherness to this memory, to who                                      I think I was before the trauma.   We are two different people.  A yin and a yang.  A day and a night.   The hermit crab is soft beneath its hard shell. The asbestos is not apparent within the insulation.   You cannot see the lead in the paint. The mold inside the fruit.
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Misunderstood please understand. You hear, you think what you thought you would, You remember what you thought before. You close that door and think some more. Remember the color of the emerald words I gave? Do you remember the crisp noise of connections that they made? Now do you? Misunderstood. You hear me through the speakers of your mind, Little twists and bends and changes, you crinkle all my story pages. You still remember what you felt before. You close the door and feel some more. Do you remember the scarlet words I gave you? They gushed out of my torn heart like glistening blood? NOW DO YOU? Misunderstood. All the noise running together in your head, You try to open your moth to let some escape. And when they pour out I sit down and take in the color. Dear I fear that you could never really hear. Emeralds ran into all the simple blue that’s you to blend into the scarlet. Connections dissolved, you don’t, you Misunderstood. The words I gave are gone. Your mind mixed hear and changed it there and turned it into brown. I gave you all the beautiful colors of the rainbow, But you would not take them for what they where. You changed them, and held them together until it was all different Until they where made all made the same. Misunderstood. This becomes the color of the truths you push away, and the words you mix around. You find yourself spiting out this endless dingy brown . I close the door, your spilling out onto the floor. Keep what you have made I don’t want it, its yours. Misunderstood. Your not misunderstood, miss I’m to tired to stand. Don’t blame the hand made reluctant to help , Your to covered with dirt for my brushing to help. I know you , I love you , but I cannot make my miss understand. I know my miss understood so I know that she can. But she wont. I wonder why. I have no patience to dote on you precious little feelings, I’m so tired of the brown. Stop mixing colors, oh miss. Until you make some changes I will have to leave you Sitting and spiting on the dingy brown ground. I love you miss I hope you understand. Mis I know that you did so Mis I know that you can.
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Feb 8, 2012
Feb 8, 2012 at 2:43 PM UTC
Ms.understood
Misunderstood please understand. You hear, you think what you thought you would, You remember what you thought before. You close that door and think some more. Remember the color of the emerald words I gave? Do you remember the crisp noise of connections that they made? Now do you? Misunderstood. You hear me through the speakers of your mind, Little twists and bends and changes, you crinkle all my story pages. You still remember what you felt before. You close the door and feel some more. Do you remember the scarlet words I gave you? They gushed out of my torn heart like glistening blood? NOW DO YOU? Misunderstood. All the noise running together in your head, You try to open your moth to let some escape. And when they pour out I sit down and take in the color. Dear I fear that you could never really hear. Emeralds ran into all the simple blue that’s you to blend into the scarlet. Connections dissolved, you don’t, you Misunderstood. The words I gave are gone. Your mind mixed hear and changed it there and turned it into brown. I gave you all the beautiful colors of the rainbow, But you would not take them for what they where. You changed them, and held them together until it was all different Until they where made all made the same. Misunderstood. This becomes the color of the truths you push away, and the words you mix around. You find yourself spiting out this endless dingy brown . I close the door, your spilling out onto the floor. Keep what you have made I don’t want it, its yours. Misunderstood. Your not misunderstood, miss I’m to tired to stand. Don’t blame the hand made reluctant to help , Your to covered with dirt for my brushing to help. I know you , I love you , but I cannot make my miss understand. I know my miss understood so I know that she can. But she wont. I wonder why. I have no patience to dote on you precious little feelings, I’m so tired of the brown. Stop mixing colors, oh miss. Until you make some changes I will have to leave you Sitting and spiting on the dingy brown ground. I love you miss I hope you understand. Mis I know that you did so Mis I know that you can.
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Am I brave enough to tell you? to tell you how I spend the night thinking about you to tell you how I dream the night with the thoughts of you to tell you how I dance around my room with the songs about you Am I brave enough to tell you? to tell you why am I up all night with my phone in hands to tell you why am I blush a little every time you talk to my face to tell you why am I so proud of things that I haven't had Am I brave enough to tell you? to tell you how I love the crinkle of your eyes to tell you how I realize you have the black spot on your left eyeball to tell you how I love the cut of **** symbol in the back of your left hand Am I brave enough to tell you? to tell you why time ticks so slow when you're not around to tell you why I shut my mouth every time you're around to tell you why my heart smiles every time you're near Am I brave enough to tell you? to tell you how I wish upon the stars praying your name to tell you how I feel every time the wind blows your hair to tell you how I don't want you to stop flicking off your bangs Am I brave enough to tell you? to tell you how I want to hold both of your hands to tell you how I want to lay down my head in the bony of your shoulders to tell you how I want to tell you words I could not say, I love you Am I brave enough to tell you that I love you? Darling, tell me if I brave enough to tell you that I love you
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Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 10:22 PM UTC
Am I brave enough to tell you that I love you? ; 2
d-i-v-o-r-c-e spells 'the end' the end of all things the end of crinkle-eyed smiles the end of early morning kisses the end of late night giggles the end of bathroom break tears the end of raw vocal chords the end of resentment the end of love d-i-v-o-r-c-e spells 'new' new start new house new freedom new tears new loneliness new love new life d-i-v-o-r-c-e spells 'i give up' i give up on cleaning up your ***** cereal bowls i give up on picking up your clothes i give up on our queen-sized bed i give up on two toothbrushes i give up on two bathroom drawers i give up on sharing a closet i give up on sharing a life i give up on you d-i-v-o-r-c-e spells 'give it away' pictures of the life we shared? give it away. that queen-sized bed? give it away. four bedroom house? give it away. circular piece of platinum? give it away. diamond ring? give it away. your love? give it away. d-i-v-o-r-c-e spells 'without' without pain without anger without anxiety without snoring without kisses without hands without guidance without a friend without you d-i-v-o-r-c-e spells 'too' too far too bad too sad too much too late d-i-v-o-r-c-e spells 'goodbye' goodbye, my love goodbye, dear old friend goodbye, ******* goodbye, bane of my existence i wish you all the best, but goodbye, my friend
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Aug 30, 2017
Aug 30, 2017 at 7:35 PM UTC
d-i-v-o-r-c-e.
*** a couple times with your hand that     has one vein popped up over the knuckle. sheets crinkle     laundry sits in the small humid room.     smells like roadkill and peppermint,     like christmas eve with dinner down the toilet. you've *** four times in an hour, rubbing at yourself through your underwear. don't touch skin. it's off limits today. getting raw means you can feel how it stings when you cross your legs. it's not about pleasure. it's the reminder:    you want to know what you look like,    what you feel like. next time you're ******* down some boy you ask him "how does that feel?" he says "good."             quick kiss, his ****** is archaic and copper.             you like how it tastes. now it's your turn: but of course he won't make you *** unless you take your hand and rub while he ***** your hand a barrier between his body and yours.           "please be quiet," you say out loud the boy furrows his eyebrows, "i didn't say anything." you laugh, "no, my stomach." pretend to *** for a faster exit. give him a tiny maternal kiss. let it linger out the room where it's cold but he's still warm. you don't want a warmth you have to love because it's too much. the scab on your neck is now a scar        and you have no make-up for the ones on your forearms, but        really, most of you by now is star dust and tobacco leaves.                the sun is in our eyes. i want to know                what makes a circle go on forever. i think about ****** a lot. dreamt two nights ago chris sold me some, it was in that tiny wax bag with a "king ****** stamp . when i texted him the next day said "i dreamt we did some together," he said                  "that's funny. i've been doing some definitely                   but not really selling."      the Chicago cold does something odd enough to you. it always seemed like you were alive as a kid. well, were you?                where is your body? out in the storm.                 are you a ghost? no, it would be nice though:                     the lack of responsibility of life,                                     a state of impermanence.     it would be nice.
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Oct 21, 2014
Oct 21, 2014 at 9:13 PM UTC
suburban school lessons
*** a couple times with your hand that     has one vein popped up over the knuckle. sheets crinkle     laundry sits in the small humid room.     smells like roadkill and peppermint,     like christmas eve with dinner down the toilet. you've *** four times in an hour, rubbing at yourself through your underwear. don't touch skin. it's off limits today. getting raw means you can feel how it stings when you cross your legs. it's not about pleasure. it's the reminder:    you want to know what you look like,    what you feel like. next time you're ******* down some boy you ask him "how does that feel?" he says "good."             quick kiss, his ****** is archaic and copper.             you like how it tastes. now it's your turn: but of course he won't make you *** unless you take your hand and rub while he ***** your hand a barrier between his body and yours.           "please be quiet," you say out loud the boy furrows his eyebrows, "i didn't say anything." you laugh, "no, my stomach." pretend to *** for a faster exit. give him a tiny maternal kiss. let it linger out the room where it's cold but he's still warm. you don't want a warmth you have to love because it's too much. the scab on your neck is now a scar        and you have no make-up for the ones on your forearms, but        really, most of you by now is star dust and tobacco leaves.                the sun is in our eyes. i want to know                what makes a circle go on forever. i think about ****** a lot. dreamt two nights ago chris sold me some, it was in that tiny wax bag with a "king ****** stamp . when i texted him the next day said "i dreamt we did some together," he said                  "that's funny. i've been doing some definitely                   but not really selling."      the Chicago cold does something odd enough to you. it always seemed like you were alive as a kid. well, were you?                where is your body? out in the storm.                 are you a ghost? no, it would be nice though:                     the lack of responsibility of life,                                     a state of impermanence.     it would be nice.
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you cry like lost toys and dead pets there's nothing you can do about it right now you cry like a small animal with a broken spinal chord you keep whimpering, but it can only heal in time you cry like pressing the skin of your palms into the membranes of your eyes when everything in your head is so cacophonous you want to rub away all the little things you absorb want that your hands could throw out this migraine like a candy wrapper on the sidewalk and if you believe hard enough that it's gone you'll never notice the sugar rush or the comedown so you press your hands to your face as hard as you can and try to pray like a religious person but you were raised christian and american and the ways of believing and hoping and loving that you knew as a child seem insincere now, and hard to speak the language is not truthful everything is what they told you it was not nothing is what they told you it was or everything was always what it was and you or i could've told them that and you think that wrapper might eventually end up in a landfill if you go throwing it carelessly around and sadness taken with too much sugar can be a toxic combination so maybe making the bad things go away is harder than throwing away the wrapper and enjoying the rush maybe the wrapper is somewhere else now you can't get to where you can't hear it crinkle or see it shrivel, but you can still relentlessly feel it getting whittled away by time and weather while steadily melting down bits of you as you pass your heart around gasping inside the icebox until one day you look up and the sun is a bloodier color and your lungs are full of ice like pins freezing inside of you and when seconds before you had oxygen as you begin choking, you think it's amazing how long it seems to have been since you were alive your knuckles are dry from holding on to a rusty ladder wrung even when you want to move so badly and there's nowhere to climb you refuse to jump and you're still trying to figure out how to fall correctly to break the least amount of limbs
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Nov 30, 2013
Nov 30, 2013 at 6:45 PM UTC
far off feeling
you cry like lost toys and dead pets there's nothing you can do about it right now you cry like a small animal with a broken spinal chord you keep whimpering, but it can only heal in time you cry like pressing the skin of your palms into the membranes of your eyes when everything in your head is so cacophonous you want to rub away all the little things you absorb want that your hands could throw out this migraine like a candy wrapper on the sidewalk and if you believe hard enough that it's gone you'll never notice the sugar rush or the comedown so you press your hands to your face as hard as you can and try to pray like a religious person but you were raised christian and american and the ways of believing and hoping and loving that you knew as a child seem insincere now, and hard to speak the language is not truthful everything is what they told you it was not nothing is what they told you it was or everything was always what it was and you or i could've told them that and you think that wrapper might eventually end up in a landfill if you go throwing it carelessly around and sadness taken with too much sugar can be a toxic combination so maybe making the bad things go away is harder than throwing away the wrapper and enjoying the rush maybe the wrapper is somewhere else now you can't get to where you can't hear it crinkle or see it shrivel, but you can still relentlessly feel it getting whittled away by time and weather while steadily melting down bits of you as you pass your heart around gasping inside the icebox until one day you look up and the sun is a bloodier color and your lungs are full of ice like pins freezing inside of you and when seconds before you had oxygen as you begin choking, you think it's amazing how long it seems to have been since you were alive your knuckles are dry from holding on to a rusty ladder wrung even when you want to move so badly and there's nowhere to climb you refuse to jump and you're still trying to figure out how to fall correctly to break the least amount of limbs
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Even though your funeral was in the summer, It felt like autumn the way the tears Hung off Aunt Shelley's jawbone like cold raindrops On the eaves of the old porch, The way Grandpa's eyes were too red and wet and A thousand years away, The way Dad's sorrow poured out of folded arms and tight lips, Soft like worn leather, The way it rained too lightly to add any cliché dreariness. I just couldn't think of that red granite box as you, even though I Knew It was the soft gray remains of your body. Death is not like winter, cold and harsh Death is autumn, life draining from bodies, Life drip-dripping from stuttering lips and Once-strong grips Death is watching summers of laughter and hugs fade to Hospital rooms and rain-grey skin and Slow sad songs like wind in red-brown, dead-brown leaves And feeling a slow, quiet loneliness invade your veins. Your death was not cold, impersonal sterile white; it was the Aching melancholy melody of removing One shade of green From a palette, not noticed in the painting at large But felt  keenly in the way the artist's hand no longer Cues that brushstroke. Watching you die was watching all the green leach out of the leaves And turn them briefly, painfully on fire, Standing in a field of emerald grass and feeling it Crinkle and turn yellow-orchre under cold fingers Collapsing into mud. Watching Death from the outside is the single Most painful part of your painless process. When you took your last breath, your features were a Picture-perfect memory of peace, even as my face was a Mask of confusion, my chest heaving with stale hospital air The way yours would never again. I wanted to run outside and imagine all the trees turning red-gold In your honor, mimicking your final Blaze of glory in that last smile. Autumn came early that year, though no trees Turned Til October. Even in the middle of spring I can smell the Rain-woods-wind-wine scent of your autumn soul And it makes me smile.
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Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 9:13 PM UTC
Great-Grandfather, of Autumn
Even though your funeral was in the summer, It felt like autumn the way the tears Hung off Aunt Shelley's jawbone like cold raindrops On the eaves of the old porch, The way Grandpa's eyes were too red and wet and A thousand years away, The way Dad's sorrow poured out of folded arms and tight lips, Soft like worn leather, The way it rained too lightly to add any cliché dreariness. I just couldn't think of that red granite box as you, even though I Knew It was the soft gray remains of your body. Death is not like winter, cold and harsh Death is autumn, life draining from bodies, Life drip-dripping from stuttering lips and Once-strong grips Death is watching summers of laughter and hugs fade to Hospital rooms and rain-grey skin and Slow sad songs like wind in red-brown, dead-brown leaves And feeling a slow, quiet loneliness invade your veins. Your death was not cold, impersonal sterile white; it was the Aching melancholy melody of removing One shade of green From a palette, not noticed in the painting at large But felt  keenly in the way the artist's hand no longer Cues that brushstroke. Watching you die was watching all the green leach out of the leaves And turn them briefly, painfully on fire, Standing in a field of emerald grass and feeling it Crinkle and turn yellow-orchre under cold fingers Collapsing into mud. Watching Death from the outside is the single Most painful part of your painless process. When you took your last breath, your features were a Picture-perfect memory of peace, even as my face was a Mask of confusion, my chest heaving with stale hospital air The way yours would never again. I wanted to run outside and imagine all the trees turning red-gold In your honor, mimicking your final Blaze of glory in that last smile. Autumn came early that year, though no trees Turned Til October. Even in the middle of spring I can smell the Rain-woods-wind-wine scent of your autumn soul And it makes me smile.
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