Pain is silence covered in beauty
to comfort the lonely.

Numbers speak louder than words
a thousand to a million
You are still sleeping with your skeletons
Trying to fit in like a blind Chameleon
History hunts your very own existence
Drunk on emotional substance
Abused so many times
190 to be exact, pain you attract
Matter of fact, these numbers **** you inside
Number of lovers in the past one too many
Heart touched by so many,
But inside you feel empty
Number of breakups and makeups
One too many, demoralized and destroyed
Your heart deployed to war with your emotions
It had never returned
Killed in combat
Fighting and dodging Cupid’s arrows
While drinking from the cup of sorrow

Heart attack, Falling flat
Getting shot, in the gut
Lethal injection, in the vains
Facing rejection, feeling pain

None compare to your heart being broken
By the one who promised you everything

I feel 2 weak to be too strong
How long did I hold on? 2 long
She played my heart like a violin
Twisting and plucking 2 strings
2 many feelings for me 2 just leave
I tried and I tried, I kept coming back 2 her
My heart wouldn’t let me go far
Now here I stand hoping she wouldn’t keep me waiting for 2 long

I was you
and you were me
together we fought our greatest enemy
pain and misery
Got high on love and fantasy
and low on reality
We were two lovers
we couldn't live without one another
I wished we would never lose two letters in the word lovers
The (L and S)
Without those two letters it would be (over)
Hoping this love would grow old like rust
Placing a (T) in front of the word rust
and building (Trust)
we were just two lovers
who couldn't see life without each other

I tried placing my heart in your hands
But you ran out of space
I started Pressing the Escape Key
For you not to see
that you hurt me
As tears overflow my face
Not enough data in your storage (No space)
So you will probably never get this message
well since you won't get this message
I will admit
When it came to you I lacked the courage
To tell you that I _____ you

Looking at these stars
Wondering where you are

You woke me in my dreams
and invited me to the moon

You took my mind far
but I feared showing you these tears
I bandaged my own scars
but you opened them and bandaged them again
Hoping I healed to the sound of your heartbeat  

5 a.m. on the moon we dance with our struggles
While hiding from our sorrows
You told me to be quite so I don't wake the sun
because you feared that my soul would burn
and this dream would end  

You bought my heart with your attention and exposed me to the moonlight
Took my sight, and made my love blind

On this moon I float my hope your way
hoping it changes my nightmares to happy tears

Just before the sun greets my black skin
I sit in silence and embrace the day
Searching for what's within
Before the madness begins
At this time my soul knocks on heavens gates
Thanking God for another day
Praying he protects my family and friends

Arms and feet shackled
Souls dismantled
Hearts broken due to families being separated
Eyes full of tears and fears
Sold as slaves and demoralized
Passion channeled into anger
Due to the deaths of so many people
Your quest for Superiority
makes love feel like a stranger
Skin darkens from kissing the sun
After spending Hours and hours of labor
leading to broken minds, scars are the only things your children ever inherited,  
After building a country
that stripped you of your existence
It took 400 years, 8 minutes 46 seconds
For a beast to awaken, statues go missing
Flags start burning, streets filled with millions of feet protesting for freedom
Black, white, yellow and brown
all colors have spoken
We call for change and challenge our leaders to start the rehabilitation of a people that are broken
The cries of many have spoken
It would take ignorance to not act on their petition!!

A boy tells you he wants you
A man shows you he needs you
A boy flaunts a lifestyle in front of you
A man shares a heart with you
A boy takes small steps
A man dives deep into love
A boy hides his insecurity
A man exposes his flaws
with the intention to rebuild himself with you
A boy takes the best of you
A man makes a better you

In the end, ask yourself what do you want for you

If a busy gun takes lives
Then silent leaders do worse
They burn lives, hang knuses on the innocent
Voice your pain or get blessed with a curse
Blood shed Schools
We elected fools
Wrong leaders to lead us
Pushing useless agenda’s
While feeding us propaganda
Halls covered red
thousands of innocent people killed
At the expense of gun reform laws
Watching news with dropped jaws
We sit in silence
while the voiceless die for peace

Aching bones, morning soreness
Hit the alarm, ignore the snooze
5 am my body aches, it begs for sleep
I must continue, fight this pain
Even when it hurts I must find a way
This pain I must get through

Set after set
I lift metal, jump hurdles, curl bells,
Aching bones speak to me
begging me to give up
Ignore that last set, try again tomorrow

Here I go, knees shaking, back aching, palms sweating, fingers swollen, head spinning
I lift that last set because I am a warrior, a soldier, a fighter and not a quitter

Aching hearts speak louder than healed hearts
They tell stories of being torn apart
Paint pictures of painful art
Images of struggle, hidden below empty bottles
Empty needles which entered numb veins
Just to sustain feeling sane
Love is a drug addicting
Contradicting, controlling,
laced with emotional healing,
mastered by emotional killing,
secrets of the naked soul it’s forced to start revealing
Vulnerable minds exposed
hearts beating at the speed of light
While crying in darkness
Love is a mess cleaned by emotional struggles
Painful but yet appealing
Vengeful but yet caring
Hateful but always loving
Aching hearts trust in pain
to validate their feelings

Early morning birds chirping
Singing melody’s of peace
Looking out into the forest
I see beauty in your face
Africa has a smell that no one can erase
A smell that echos love into your soul  
Life so simple, life so inspiring and incredible
Don’t believe what the discovery channel told you about a land that existed before any other
Africa the mother of the earth
Birthing billions of souls
who left it but still live in it
It’s blood runs deep in our souls
Skin shades might change
but our roots are deep Within
When Africa cries we feel it’s pain  
When Africa smiles we rejoice with pure joy
Colonizers tried to change it but it changed them
They stole its music, passion, material good, it’s minerals, traditions, and norms
Taking even its greatest queens and kings
Tribal men and women
They tried to **** its joy but it still smiled through the pain
Enslaving it’s people still couldn’t **** it existence
Africa
Birthed in resistance and molded by resilience, inspired by diligence, fueled by consistence
We are strong, powerful, and courageous  
Africa the birthplace of the human race
With our palms pressed let’s say Grace
As we pray for peace

African soul child
Eating dust for dinner
Drinking ***** water
Poverty is your richness
Survival is your blessing
Too many deaths you witnessed
Torn between dying and living
Yet you still choose living
Breath air polluted with gas fumes
Big diamond digging machines
Repping your grounds for more minarals
Witnessed less births and more funerals
Oh African soul child

Eventually all wounds heal
Look deep down and see that you will prevail  
find the power to stand still
In the mean time face that fact that

Soulless pits of emotions burn of worthless passion

I love you’s said with no validation
Just words no action
No love, love is a verb not just a word
Confusing your past to your future
Like solving a puzzle with 3 pieces missing
That’s why you can’t see the picture

Please don’t Love me prematurely
Love me when you are ready
Because this love is too broken to be broken again and again and again

A good cry changes lives
Simply letting out emotions
Instead of holding them in
And dying from within

Don't you know that
Festering souls hold on to solid emotions
While sinking in black holes
Fornacating with anger and birthing depression
Complex thoughts twist our brain cells
Forcing us to never excel out of emotional hell
Hiding behind our perception
We act like showing a sign of weakness is taboo
In a society where pain builds up to hurt you
Confused, misused and abused
we let our emotions stay locked in a room
and Pride is the locksmith

Love seems a bit more frightening in anticipation

Sometimes overwhelming with a million expectations

When in reality all it wants is total appreciation

It sends all of your emotions to one destination
Hoping your soul is ready for a lifetime of altercations that potentially lead to satisfaction

It pulls you out of your comfort zone
Just to make you it’s own

If you look for my flaws you will find many
If you are looking to judge me
you will find me guilty

If you look at my scars you will find plenty
If you look at my fear you will find out that I face them daily

If you are looking to love me
just know that you will always have all of me

Hey lover
Please don’t give me your forever
If you don’t believe in forever
Just give me all of your tomorrows
Love me in pain and in sorrow
Where ever your heart goes Mine will follow
For I am a part of you and you a part of me

I am your shadow and you are my tomorrow

Let's
Make
Love
With
These
Words
Open Our hearts
And fly High like birds
But ground our emotions
Like the roots in which Mother Earth planted
Take a chance and make an alpha(bet)
It will take more than 26 letters
to show that we are lovers
Of all the words I could use to describe our love
I pick (serendipity)
because clearly we were meant to be
and it happened (unexpectedly)

Absolute abomination is abortion
Betraying baby bodies ending up brutally Buried
Concluding a life currently forming
Death all up in your stomach
Energy draining decision, a life ending before a beginning
Fetus fates determined by lawmakers lacking empathy
God crying at the death of his creation
How will you feel when you face the face of those you aborted
Ignorance made you feel important
Judges slam hammers making decisions to determine the value of a fetus
Killing innocent humans not thinking about their futures
Life feels pain as those we let go still live within  
Mistakes made should never end up in blood
No one will know you tell yourselves, but God knows all
Opportunities oppressed, always end up leaving you depressed  
Pain within makes you go insane, nightmares of old scars
Quite homes, cold hearts, broken souls of bodies that were torn apart
Raw emotions of killers live in their insecurity, just listen closely  
Silence entertains the minds which live in regret from taking lives
Tomorrows full of sorrows
Unmatched emotions with lovers that went astray
Value life and life will value you
Weapons forged in your feeble mind tell you to fight for your rights
X-rays of broken hearts hidden behind broken bones
You played God, you killed to avoid pain, now your soul dies hard  
Zest for life diminished as sorrow takes charge

Nights like these
Make his mind freeze
Thinking about her warmth
Thoughts running deep
As they introduce depression
He tries to press on with no passion
She loved him as he drunk her poison
Draining his passion while changing his definition of a thing called love

He tried to find it in others
But forgot that he left his ex lover under cover
Broken hearts take years to recover
Hoping to still be her lover
praying that it’s not over,
wishing she would of stayed longer

An addict to pain she let him control her emotions
Tried to leave
but found herself coming back
to an empty home
An empty throne
An empty chest.....

So She took his heart,
and left a suicide note
Which wrote
Your love was cut throat
So I took what kept you alive
Now let’s see how you will survive
It was better when I was by your side
But you decide hurting me was best way of keeping me alive,
I loved you but died inside

My silence will be what heals you with time
Don’t miss me when I am not around
Need me while I am still alive
I loved you physically and mentally
but you broke me emotionally
Took trust from me
now I seek it underneath empty liquor bottles, sleep well as you dream of naked models
who won’t comfort your sorrows

If love comes my way again
I will remember you
And hope I never love another killer like you
Here I stand free and alone,
so watch me as I rebuild my throne
Full of love and compassion

Sweaty p(a)lms
Perspiri(n)g pits
Pounding headache, comple(x) thoughts
Heart rac(i)ng at a fast pace
Eyes focus(e)d on burdens
Thoughts compe(t)ing to finish a pointless race
Empt(y) heart seeking comfort

Emotions fighting to be expressed
Mouth dry, stomach turning, soul burning
Pain left to explain what's happening within

Anxiety Pills popped
skin temp dropped
Depression sky rocks  
Mind feels numb
Mellow from popping pills I shouldn’t swallow
One pill, two pills, three pills, this is how love kills, chasing cheap thrills, to end up on reels
Pride suffercated, ego tested
Limits ignored
Emotions battle back
as I stimulate myself with techniques my counselor taught me, they don’t seem to help
as my heart still feels empty, this pain truly has taken the best of me, and introduced me to my inner enemy “me”
Breath in and breath out
Deep inside the demons want a chance to shout
Wrist full of memories
Blood loss reminding me of near tradgeties
Anxiety kisses my neck while depression traces its ***** hands all over me
This is a ******* I hoped to not be in
In the end I *** pure emotions

Bodies sold at a retail price
To hearts which are colder than ice
She sold her soul and pride for money
While inside she was dying alone and empty
Beaten and bruised badly
She took every slap boldly
when it came to scars
She had one too many

She a victim of her insecurity
He an addict addicted to ****** gratification
*** driven with no particular destination
At home he had a wife who lost her passion
So prostitutes became his substitution
Seeking them in the day, seeking them at night
Just so he could fill that empty spot

***** at a young age,
so she fornicated with rage
Anger in her eyes
fear in her heart
pain on her mind
Numb to pleasure
she only smiled when she saw dollars
Wore dog collars
as man acted like they owned her

A property for hire between her legs
Men would love her and touch her, hurt and destroy her, abuse her and mistreat her and no one would defend her

To her love and pain all felt the same

She was perfect
when she allowed herself to make mistakes
In her fall she found comfort in her mess
He was perfect when he allowed his insecurity to show
As she loved him gently and slow
She grew to love him for his flaws
and he grew to love her for letting her pain go
Together they consumed the stars
And watched their love glow

I need peace more than I need my next breath
For if I leave this world better than I found it
Then I have done my duty
Giving up my life for freedom and liberty
Freeing those in captivity
This is the cry of a soldier
Whose heart is bolder
Sacrificing everything
Feasting on pain while starving for world peace

You look like five heartbreaks
A million forced smiles
A thousand sleepless nights
A few broken promises
A hundred pounds of tears streaming down unhealed scars

You look like a victim of insecurity
Running away from your own identity
Cheating on happiness with with lack of confidence
Your last lover force fed you pain and you accepted it
thinking it was the best it could get
Dated too many bad lovers, you now break cupids arrows
Been fooled too many times you can't tell what is fake or real

If I became your ex
What would you tell the world
Would you tell them a side of me that loved you
Would you tell them about the late night texts
Would you tell them about the 12 hour conversations that ended when the sun came up
Would you tell them about how I would pick you up, go on random trips
Hold you tight when fear was near
Wipe your tears
Trace all your scars
Would you tell them about the dreams I lost while trying to make your dream a reality
Would you tell them about the hours I worked just to get you the finest things
Would you tell them about the insecurity wall you helped me build over the years
Would you tell them about how toxic I became  
While your heart fed me poisoned love
Or would you tell them about an expectation you set so high, that no one could attain
Better yet to build your confidence would you  tell them how a terrible person I am  
but leave out the part in which you helped me become who I am

Let me save you the time
and just leave you with this

If you chose to love a past you couldn’t get past you shouldn’t of committed to making a worse past, a past that promoted demoralizing a broken  heart, a past that left scars a surgeon could close
Crying out for closure in a room full of hunted memories!

So please don’t read a book you not willing finish,
me and you are the authors to my insecurity

You’ve got to learn to leave the table when love’s no longer being served
Stop force feeding yourself emotions
That don’t exist
Find the love that you deserve
Bravery is not fighting for those who left
Bravery is leaving those who hurt you
Broke you, demoralized you, and abused you
So leave that table with a tip for the next lover
Don’t hold on any longer
Any form of disconnect is a sign that you need to write your next chapter
Leaving might hurt now
but your heart will thank you later

Be the hope you hope to bring into the world
Love strong love hard
Smile long
Show others what it means to hold on to hope
Trust the universe to pick up your energy
Cast out your enemies
Take out your insecurities
Feed your courage and bravery
Be the hope you hope to see in the world

Dear Black girl
Your beauty is enough

Because you are a diamond in the rough

Black in America
Constantly working on proving their worth
But denied rights based on skin shade
Faced 400 years of slavery
Add 400 hundred more years

Black in America
demoralized belittled
Looked at as difficult riddles
brutally murdered by law enforcement Chocked, shot, slammed, denied access to minimum wages
Locked and preserved in cages
Given life terms and long sentences
Without ever writing a paragraph
Forced to live in ghettos
cold street raise cold killers
Institutionalized drug dealers  

Black in America
Living life to prove that their lives matter
Sad to see a people surfer just to prove their worth
Living in a cold earth
Numbing to human emotions
Black in America is scarier
than the war on terror
Reality is equality is just an illusion
Fighting for peace with no solution