T.V. Screens telling us visions
But yet we do not see

Shelves full of bibles
But we do not read
Wonder why we are unholy

Twisted thoughts while seeking clairity
No wonder why we don’t see clearly

Living in a world that’s full of fantasy
Stomachs full of ******
Seekers of love but still feel lonely

There is plenty to see
But looks like you are stuck on fantasy
Emotions floating at sea
Hiding from reality
You overdosed on insecurity
High on the feeling of uncertainty
Struggling with trust issues
It’s hard to let go of your past
So you invited it into your future
Now it takes control of your ego  
Battling with depression
your conscious robbed of tranquility
Got your emotions mixed up
you tried mixing peace with anxiety
Too blind to see that you left your heart at sea

Bad birth, Birthed a ******* baby
Born bad, born to be betrayed
Baggage badly backhanded beaten brutally
Born to be bullied, Before breathing beauty
Born to be bashed
A Barrier bouncing barbarian
Black blocks block beautiful behavior
Boiling beauty turns to a brutal beast  
Blocked brain banned from being the best
A bitter beast born bad bonded behind bigotry
Bombarded brain brutally beaten before birth

Insecurity made him paint her beautiful face with bruises
Chocking her with so much passion
Anger his motive, their love became an illusion
Blood boiling, heart pumping, veins popping
Tears flowing, mascara running
while their child's crying
She became a victim of abuse
Getting used, destroyed, betrayed
By the one she loved, adored, and praised

She cried out loud
Love is not supposed to hurt this bad
As she traced the bruises he left on her body
A signature to let her know that he owns every inch of her body

He is the reason she will forever be lonely

Hiding behind our busy lives
We tell tomorrow to hold on to our sorrows
While we sleep with our pasts
In hidden valleys full of truths
Discovering that we are all insure
Masking our deficiencies with violence
Anger flows through our veins
Hugging our hearts as it hurts
Anxiety knocks on our numb minds
As breathing becomes a hard task

To avoid being vulnerable we blame being busy
We replaced love with fiction
Time with fantasy, Pain with drugs
All sleep walking in our nightmares
The only alarm clock left is reality

Those who laugh at the caterpillar
Will one day envy the butterfly

It’s not the beginning that defines us
It’s the ending that makes us

Fly butterfly, fly
Go own acres in the blue sky

Deadly cells find comfort in my body
They grow and destroy my mind
inside I slowly die, my soul turns into a graveyard  
this pain robs me of energy
cancer oh how I hate what you have done to me
you infect me with agony that spreads like the ocean
touching every corner of my body
leaving me to fight this pain
which makes me feel deserted in a world full of many
Inside its cold and lonely, outside feels so empty
I fought you for years, gave you so many tears
as you flirted with my fears  
cancer what do you want from me
if it is my life you seek, my life you won't get
for that I will fight till the end of time
I will not give up, for I am a survivor
I was born to be stronger, hold on longer
Fight this battle with the love I get from others
Cancer I will overcome you one way or another
for I am a survivor

Read carefully
You might find yourself in my poetry

Love carefully you might End up breaking me ever so gentaly

Speak freely you might be the one to set me free
From my pain and agony

Tell me I’m lovley because you might be the only one to see the real me

People are quick to send your family condolences
Quick to say “sorry for your loss”

Feeling bad for you
but smile as long as it wasn’t their loss

Hold off on sending you roses while you are alive
But quickly stuff them in your casket
When you pass

The love they fail to express while you are alive
Becomes the regret that inspires the tears In their eyes

Please re-read this
when you feel different about our love
Yes I still love you
And yes I will always love you
But right now you are falling deeply in love with your comfort zone
I hate to make you choose
but it’s either me or your comfort zone
When you are ready to keep falling
just step out of your comfort zone
And you will see me below
Ready to catch you as you fall

Tranquility equality
I pray this becomes my reality

Chasing a score
looking for more
poor sucker
looking for love in a drug called time
tick tock goes the clock
egos drop, hearts melt
as she played the cards she was dealt
scars on her body from tight belts
looking for veins to hide her pain
needle in, needle out as she inhales in hell
deep breath lungs pop, low air she don't care  
feeling low to get high
getting high with an emotion called love
to only find out that it never existed in others or drugs  
feeling betrayed, her wrist she slayed
wanting a quick exit
only to end up committing accidents
failing at life and failing at death
feeling worthless, hurt, depressed and more stressed  
living with pain drove her insane
asylums kicking her out, nobody could figure her out
deep emotions she started spitting out
a victim of time and love, confused and abused
all this because she was chasing a score

Rain falls from heaven
Bitter cold breeze Numbs souls
Wind chills speak a language only the lonely understand
Raising hopes were meant to fall
To face the following season
The coldest one of them all
A cold so bitter it Whispers painful joy
leaving your body shivering as it aches
making painful noise
while reflecting on past mistakes

The summer breeze seduces my face
Inside I die for your embrace
you asked for space, so I gave you an empty universe
These cold summers leave me with mixed emotions
Afraid of feeling lonely while I hide from your embrace
Depression pumping blood through my anxious heart
Its scared to love, because it fears being torn apart
My nightmares live on an avenue, called I dream of having you
Confused between wanting you and needing you
Staying with you or leaving you
These cold summers have me afraid of losing you
While I have faith in keeping you

Comfort Me
Hold me, touch me
Restore me, heal me
Fill me to feel me
Don’t leave me feeling empty
Alone and lonely
Comfort me in the storm
Keep me warm
Hold me like the womb I came in from
Comfort me today
so I don’t seek comfort in what pleases the eyes
Let me get lost In your heart
Glue my emotions to yours
And pray that they never get torn apart
Comfort my soul
for it knows nothing but the feeling of your love

You are more than                          Enough
Sometimes I think           For          Me you
                           Are too much
First you were my crush now you are my




        Love


It’s scary to love you sometimes
The feeling of uncertainty, forces me to feel insecurity, but your love comforts me
And you gave me pages to write in your book of love               Fantasy

I took the pages and wrote us a Novel, now we read about love and what it means to be lovers

Thanks to you I walked out of my


Comfort zone

And now I don’t feel alone

Thanks to you my heart will never feel


(Alone)

Digital love got us disconnected
Less affectionate
More constructive
Chasing fantasy, while unplugging from reality
Clicking twice on screens is the closest we get to being liked
Facing peer pressure to look better
Instead of being better
Living under the weather
Hoping it rains dollars
While praying that our perception saves us from our insecurities
Splurging to get respected, applying debt to our broken bank accounts
It’s showing it online that counts
Investing in likes instead of stocks
Computer love
sacrificing human affection for attention

Conflict is trauma promoting trauma
Conflict is love becoming blind to one's inner beauty
Conflict is wasting moments of growth
Conflict is hating self, and showing others how much you hate self
Conflict is aborting peace as you choose to birth evil

Roots of kings and queens
Subjected to slavey
Diamond filled graves
Digging deeper ending up ******
Government fornicating with corruption
Birthing an evil nation
War Everywhere for a nation going nowhere
Faith filled churches praying for peace
While the people are sleepless
Anger and pain is all they can release

I crave all of you
Your beauty
Your ugly
Your insecurity
Your thoughts
Your body

most importantly your longevity...

The price of admission to love is craziness

How crazy are you willing to be in order to prove to me that you love me

If not insanity, then please let me be

I stopped wishing for Fridays
And started loving all days
Because anyday could be the day
Anyday alive should be a good day
Because without a day
We face the reality of a bad day

Procrastination
is a destination
in which
potential
goes to die

Love is the sound of your voice
Without it I would go deaf

You gave beauty a name
When you introduced yourself to me

It’s like I was suffocating for your attention
Seeking you in my imagination

And you saw that I needed your therapy
As my eyes met yours I knew I met beauty for the first time, that moment was sublime

I was drunk without drinking
crazy without trippin

In love with the feeling you casted on me
So dear love please don’t keep me waiting

Poetry has been my language ever since it made me feel alive in a dying world
It gave me a reason to speak
A reason to seek
A reason to feel
A reason to be real
A reason to embrace
A reason to face the resistance
It taught me that I can change the world
with my words, I can heal others with my words

Poetry taught me that no pain lasts forever
No wound hurts forever
No emotion feels for forever
So dear poetry I pray that you love me forever
In my darkest moment you were the light
In my weakest moment you were the strength
Dear poetry please never stop making me feel alive,  because all I want to do is survive

Sleeping with the enemy
          Her name is depression
                     With her there is no solution
                                She Leaves me feeling empty
Sad and lonely
While she molests my heart
Pain and sorrow she forces me to follow
I am a victim of my own insecurity
While falling for my own ambiguity
Not knowing how to feel, so this pain I swallow

She told me the heartbreak
felt like she died twice
Without me she felt like she couldn’t be alive
Now her memories
will be forever hunting me
I tried to bury our past, but she kept coming back in the form of my insecurities

Addicted to silence
so we get high to distance
Leaving no room for forgiveness
While we thrive off of our ignorance

Only true love can fix this

I saw fear in you as he hugged you
You begged him not to let you go
Holding him closer so he could touch your soul
He smiled and wished you well
Not knowing that he was the cause
of your tears in the well

Drowning in emotions you were
But you painted a smile so good
He thought you were doing well

What he didn’t know
was that he was the one who belt the well
Which your tears occupy

Don't go to sleep angry
You will welcome anxiety
These thoughts could be scary
And leave you worried
But please don't go to sleep angry
In anger you find nightmares, overflowing tears
Past fears and unhealed scars
So don't go to sleep angry
Pray that God comforts your lonely soul
Tell him to take it all away
And heal you his way
So close your eyes and simply pray
He is only one call away

Love is not perfect
But it is worth it

Love is not always beautiful
But it will come to you, if it was meant for you
It will make you reflect on the inner you

Love is not always easy
But it will hold you gently
kiss you softly
touch you deeply
move you emotionally

Do you still burn for me
Like the fire that has no authority
Burning to its own power
Free to be what it wants to be
Do you still think of me as you do when you flirt with your imagination
Am I still your definition of satisfaction
Am I still the water that quenches your thirst
Do you still love me as you did when your heart skipped a thousands beats just to match mine

I never thought I would see the day in which I drown in love

I beg of you please don't save me

Let me drown in love
For to drown in your love is to love in your deep ocean to surrender all deep emotions

Love is a mistake a lot of us are willing to make
Risking our hearts for heartbreaks
Falling in it like an ocean filled with emotions
Drowning and hoping no one saves us

If you going to hate anything

Hate your ego

Because it has forced you to let go

Of the greatest gift you have ever had

Love...

My heart grew senses
when it started feeling your pain from within
The way it felt your pain was through empathy
Leaving me to touch your emotions
My love was the cure to heal all of your emotional burdens and emotional expressions
All I could utter when pain became a close enemy
was that my love for you was deeper than the struggle you were drowning in

A thousand lifeboats couldn’t save your sinking soul, too many pieces to hold, Vacancy it found on the shallow floor
Showing too much empathy left us both empty, and silence became the ear we expressed our deepest fears to

I wonder if you are the cheractors you write about

Because every time you read me your poetry
You forget you are talking to me
I see you try to hide in your words
Scared of the scars on your heart
So you dress your emotions in empty oceans
Painting beautiful art in a desert full of feelings
Sand storms cover your hope
so you turn to faith
But end up preaching to atheists and narcissists
Who only believe in nothing but themselves

Stolen souls taken by 12 thieves
Empty bottles used to heal bandaged scars

I am afraid that you are falling in love with the expectations you have of me

While you ignore the toxic version of me
The loud, broken, desperate version of me

You don’t really see me, you see job offers
a few kids, a wedding ring, new homes, new cars  
While you ignore my deep scars

I am afraid you are falling in love with who you want me to be

While ignoring the real me, the trauma suffering, addict struggling, broken soul, who is afraid to love

You are ignoring the angry man who needs therapy but decides it’s better to feed his anger and throw his emotions at the end of liquor bottles

The man who your mother warned you would break your heart.
I am a victim of my pain, but you ignore that because you see something within. You want me to be that perfect man of your dreams, that you forget to face your nightmares

You hide my scars, feed me compliments while preaching to me about your biological timeline, lying and telling me everything will turn out fine if I find a job that makes a lot of money, bought a new car, a new home with a picket fence, change my accent, dress and act a certain way   
Please don’t try to save me
Save your imagination for thinking it can transform me to meet your expectations

I am me and I am to be loved like me

I remember cold nights
Crazy fights
Deep thoughts
Scary moments
I remember speaking to deaf ears
Expressing my deepest fears
Shading these cold tears
Just to be told I wasn’t enough
I was just a moment
I was just someone to occupy your space
Something to embrace your presence
It’s evident that now that you are writing a new chapter, my name won’t be mentioned
But please remember to give me credit for at least taking your class on love
Even though I failed it
I learned a lot from it
I grew from it
If I was to take it again I.....

Sad leafs fall
As heavy wind blows
Naked branches get exposed

Beautiful colors aluminate the sky
As they flirt with my eye


So I fall in love with fall
the colors, the smell, the wind

I just love it all