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Lily Sep 2015
Hi, this is something i've never done before cause i've always been antisocial but to anyone reading this, wether you're 8, 16, or 56, I want to be friends with you. So anyone wanna talk to me? I'm boring but I can answer your questions. Plus, my friends think i'm funny so yeah :D


Ps. Anybody here who want to add me on fb?
Lily Sep 2015
I wish everybody would leave me alone.
J
Lily Jul 2015
J
First saw you when I was 10
Didn't even care back then
We met again when I was 13
Something tagged in my heart strings

Then we became friends
You used to tease me everyday
We'd sit in the back of class
Exchange jokes, stories, ideas

When I was 14 you tried to court me
And I said no, you're kidding
No, my parents won't let me
No, i'm not ready

Now i'm 19
I see you happy with her
I can see she really loves you
And I know you love her too

So sometimes I wonder
If I had given us a chance
Would I be that one beside you today
Would I be the one making you laugh
Instead of that girl



© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015
Lily Jun 2015
You reached for my hand
And held it strong
You made me believe
That we'll be strong
But when the going gets tough
You were the first to let go
Leaving me hanging
In a broken line of holding on
This poem is for a broken friendship. Nothing hurts more than having to stop talking to a friend because she does not want you to anymore.
Lily Aug 2015
I'm just a mushy young adult
Who refuse to leave behind
The ease and fun of being a child.
#nevergrowup
Lily Sep 2015
One day i'll leave
After you all kiss me goodbye
Bearing your very last memory of me


© Leigh
Lily Jul 2015
Come on honey
Go on
Pull the trigger
The blood.
I know.
Yes,
It will hurt
But only a little,
Then you're on euphoria.



© Leigh Herondale  
*July 2015
Drama time i'm sorry
Lily May 2016
No more worries, no heartaches.
You let it go and it's okay
Let's just put it this way,
the sea is too big for only one fish and who knows?
Maybe you'll catch a much bigger one next time!
So regret this action a little, or for a bit,
or for a while,
but not for the rest of your life.
Lily Jun 2015
There's a fine line between loneliness and poetry
Loneliness makes you write a poem
A poem makes you lonely




© Leigh Herondale  *June 2015
Lily Oct 2015
Let’s talk about the stars
And how grey they turn out to be when you smile
Let’s talk about the sun
That lacks radiance and gleam compared to yours
Let’s talk about all the things
That loses its beauty whenever you’re near
Now let’s talk about her
And all her imperfections, failure, and flaws
The way she adores the night
And all the blackness that it emanate
The way she cradle these demons
Miserably trapped inside her mind
Because she’s anxious she’ll be ogled
When she tell the world of it
The way she takes relief in loneliness
Because that’s the only certain entity in this realm
The way she says
“I’m okay”
Because that’s the easiest answer
While resenting alone all the pain
Lily May 2016
I like to think good thoughts and dreamy encounters
When I finally retreat to bed
But my exhausted mind would only open
To sad, and lonely worlds
That by now had been all warm
And most familiar to my heart
Lily Dec 2015
Loneliness
I presumed
Is being friendless and alone
But now I realized
It is something more

Loneliness
Is laughing with friends
Yet still feeling numb

Loneliness
Is being surrounded with all the ones
You know who loves you
Yet still feeling so alone

Loneliness
Is getting that one thing you've always wanted
Yet at the end of the day you still feel empty

Loneliness
Does not come at 3AM
When everybody else
Is either asleep or dead

Loneliness sometimes
Surges at the brightest of your days
And pours down like rain
Maybe I can't extract loneliness from myself
Maybe loneliness is part of my soul
Maybe loneliness is me
Lily Oct 2015
I love God
But I want to hate him right now
For being unfair.
Then I realized
God didn’t made life unfair
He gave us paradise
The whole lot
We didn’t even have to ask
However we betrayed him
Disobeyed
Fell for the devil’s sweet words
Thus we shall grieve
I, you, we, are Adam and Eve
We deserve to perish
Lily Jul 2015
Behind that cheerful smile
hides a very sad girl.
Lily Sep 2015
Maybe I was destined to be eternally sad.


© Leigh
Lily Dec 2015
Maybe I just don't have the power to extract loneliness from my being

Maybe loneliness is part of my soul

*Maybe loneliness is me
Lily Aug 2015
Have you seen the moon tonight?
It's talking to me


Leigh Herondale   *August 2015
Selenophilic problems night
Lily Sep 2015
It's 12:38 in the morning
And i'm still not sure how I can sleep
Knowing that The Vamps and Before You Exit
Is coming to Manila on January 30, 2016
And I don't have the funds yet
Lololol I made a poem out of it ***. The crazy things a fangirl would do for their idol 101
Note: if you ever read this please take time to tweet @thevampsband and @beforeyouexit and tell them how much Leigh loves them. It's just that I'm 8 hours away from the concert place, I don't know where to get money, and worse, parents never approve. Sad life :(
Lily Jul 2015
When I grow up I want to be a librarian.
Okay, this is kinda my diary now lol. But yeah, one of my biggest dreams is to be a librarian :D
Lily Feb 2016
I hate the world for they do not understand
When I say "I'm ok" or "I don't need a hand"
Promised to be there in good times and in bad
But when things seem wrong they were the first to get mad

I hate the world for they don't see
This demon lurking inside of me
I put up with a smile to hide the pain
Though in my eyes it will remain

I hate the world for they tricked me to believe
That love is a real deal and this is how I should live
Said it was forever, said it wouldn't hurt
Then why am I broken, helpless, lying in the dirt?

I hate myself for I carelessly let her fall
In this hole of wonder, never should've heed the call
For the story was a myth, there wasn't a talking rabbit
My sense of reality, I regret to let it slip

I hate you, hate me, hate the world in all its glory
We are the monsters living within
The very villain of our story

So hold your tongue my dear old friend
Cause no amount of words could mend
This poisoned heart that He has lend
We are all liars in the end
Lily Aug 2015
My moon is a He
And he's talking to me
Telling me secrets
The place i'd rather be


Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
Lily Aug 2015
Envy the dead for they shall never suffer again


© Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
My favorite creation. Ever.
Lily Oct 2015
Deep in my young heart
I've always had this empty longing for the past
My heart silently bleeds for thy
Like it was a lover gone forever

I love history books because reading so
Puts me in a blissfully euphoric,
Yet miserably nostalgic trance
That would later make me ache for it even more

I miss the places I've never been to,
I yearn for the company of people I never met,
I crave those olden days I have never had the chance to live,
I adore those who have long been dead

Here I am, always craving, always wanting, always waiting,
For that polite, serene, and old-fashioned pieces of love
To happen to me too
When will I ever get to feel
That genuine humanitarian compassion they had long ago?
I'm afraid to be just another lifeless photograph
Withered by time
Lily Nov 2015
You made me feel important
Just like all the girls you cherish.
You overlooked the fact that I was just a flaw,
Merely a sratch compared to you.
You thought me how to love
Even when my heart only knows hate
And even though the path was dark
You guide me all the way
Yes, I never noticed
But I was never forgotten
So here I am,
Surrendering completely,
Mind, soul and body.
And I admit I'm a failure,
Totally not worth it,
Next to you a pile of dirt,
Beggar asking for pity,
But once the pain subsides,
I know it's you who had set me free
Lily Sep 2015
One day I shall finish school and conquer the world.
Lily Feb 2016
It's sad how they only refer to quitters as losers
How they slap it on our faces
That we will never be the victor
Perhaps they didn't know
You had too much
Perhaps they didn't see
You've fought too hard
Perhaps they couldn't feel the pain
You've so long endured
They can't because they were so busy judging
They're all the same
Lily Oct 2015
Don't wait for the perfect time
That's possibly never going to come
Grab the ****,
Walk out the door,
Seize all the hours of the day
And get that one thing you've been praying for.
Lily Mar 2016
People**
No matter how much you try to show them
Would only see the things they prefer to see
Lily Jul 2015
"Forever" is overused,
As well as "I'm okay",
"I love you" is a lie,
"I'm sorry" is ******* plain.




© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015
Lily Aug 2015
I am the captain of my ship
No other scallywags can tell me
When to port or to sail
Just like in love
Lily Aug 2015
Tell me i'm beautiful
Not just a waste of space
I deserve to breath
Tell me I have a place
In this suffocating world
Where we love to glorify
The stick-thin figure
And pretty face
Things that aren't worthwhile
So tell me i'm special
That I have a pretty smile
Coz for a moment I'd be glad
Even if I know it's just a lie


Leigh Herondale  *August 2015
Drama mood again sorry
Lily Oct 2015
No, you don't understand!
Please stop lying to me!
My life is ******-up
And God does not care
Please let me be!
You're only saying that to ease
The pain that’s been killing me ever since
But let me tell you
None of those fancy words
Can ease the pain and misery
No one can fight these demons,
They are strong and they want me
My mind is severely flooded
And one die I am going to drown.
Lily Oct 2015
I'm scared to show my poems to people I know in real life because i'm afraid that they'd judge me.
So I just thought about this tonight and all the things in my head as a self-entitled poet and all the things that scares me and this is just one of them. Now, what I want to tell you guys is if you have a confession too you can just  comment it here and promise I won't judge you. I just want to know that somebody else out there feels the way I do.
So yeah, waiting for your confessions. Good night from the Philippines :)
Lily Aug 2015
It keeps me going,
It's keeps me sane,
It calms my mind,
When so many thoughts flood my brain
It gives me a chance to let out
The deepest, darkest feelings
That had been since buried
deep inside my lonely heart.
Poor poem. Pardon
Lily Aug 2015
Poetry is my *****
Deep words get me high
Writing so quenches my thirst,
I'd **** for any rhyme
Lily Sep 2015
Apparently my “talent” receives praises
When it's not even one
It is unfathomable sentiments
Besieged within the fissures of my soul
Yearning to be poured out
But I can’t successfully express
So instead I laid it down into words.

© Leigh
Lily Oct 2015
I hope you don't come to the point
Where you only pray for her
Cause she's dead


©Leigh Herondale  *October 2015
Lily Nov 2015
Sometimes I want to pretend dead just to take note of people who actually would mourn for me
Lily Jul 2015
She has those glorious locks and luscious lips,
And tiny legs that match her perfect hips.
Whenever she smiles everyone seem to stop,
Whenever she speaks people listens up.
Everybody loves her.

She's a star, a very good teen actress,
Mesmerizing the crowd is what she does best.
On twitter she has millions of followers,
Fans that watch her every move, every hour.
Everybody loves her.

She's sunken, sick, and frail,
Thin as a stick, ghostly pale
The doctors say it won't be long
Until the time she'll take her final breath and be gone
Everybody suddenly loves her.

This is our world,
The sick society we are in.
In here, nobody really cares,
Unless you're pretty, famous, or dying.
I've always loved the line "Nobody really cares unless you're pretty, famous or dying" and for me that was absolutely true and I hate our society for that so I got inspired to write this. And, this poem is a shout out to every girl that goes unnoticed and has very low self-esteem-- like myself. You are worthy, you are loved, you are relevant just like everybody else, so please don't think so lowly of yourself. You might not know it right now but someday, someone will think of you as though you are their world, like the sun rises and shines with you, and will love you much that will make you forget every insecurity you're having right now. Please don't give up just yet. Smile :)
Lily Sep 2015
I might wander to other places
Might want to explore new things
My friends might even change
And so is my style or taste
I might never be the same person
I was a year ago
But one thing is for sure tho
I will always come back home
Korea <3
Lily Jul 2015
In this shallow age
of facebook,
instagram, selfie,
I realized one thing,
I'd rather be called intellectual than pretty.




© Leigh Herondale  *2015
I'll be 20 in 7th September ***
Lily Apr 2016
i'm used to the pain
but sometimes it gets unbearable
i want to scream
cry, and stab my foe
all at the same time
random
Lily Oct 2015
I used to run away from it
*But now I've learned to walk with sadness
I was inspired by Disney Pixar's Inside Out. I love being sad.
Lily Oct 2015
You left me in pieces
Never looked back
You never told me why
And treated me so bad
While I gave you all my love
All you cause me is a broken heart

So now i'll forget you
Try to stop thinking of you
What my heart won't allow
My mind can do
I'll have to cease saying "I love you"

But
If you knew how much
I've hurt
will you come back?
Those tears I've shed
All of these *****
Cause you know I want and I will
But you're not there
And life will never be the same again



Leigh Herondale  *2013
I don't remember what month
She
Lily Jun 2015
She
She's not just "a girl you know"
or someone you see on the streets.
Above anything, she's a dream
a gift
a miracle
every inch of her is a universe
you'd have trouble trying to define.
Tell her you love her
only if you really do,
if not then leave her alone.
You can try to fool her
but you should know
you're the one to fall down
in the end.



© Leigh Herondale  *June 2015
I am a feminist.
Lily Jul 2015
I want to travel and know the world
Lily Sep 2015
There's something about love that makes you the person you never expected you'd be.


Leigh Herondale  *September 2015
Lily Jul 2015
Sometimes I wish I was Margo Roth Spiegelman
I want to be able to follow my heart and do the things I've always wanted to
I want to dance with wind
Feel the grass beneath my feet
The stars to blanket me with sparkle
And the moon to light my face
I've always wanted to run
And never look this way again
To be the captain of my own soul
Seizing all the hours of my day
I have feet because I know I wasn't meant to stay on the ground
I wasn't given wings because I know I am no angel
But I knew I was destined to fly
When I die, put this on my grave. Tysm.
Lily Oct 2015
Sometimes I wonder how will I die
Will it be from accident? Sickness? Immense pain?
Will it come as swift as an arrow
So I won't feel anything?
Is it gonna happen in my 20s, 30s, or 40s, perhaps?
Or will it be from old age?
Of suffering in my death bed?
Regretting all the things I never did
But could have done?
Lily Nov 2015
I want to apologize for being a sad person

*Sorry if I can only write sad poems
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