A look, that look, reaches my core.
Words.
Your words, still echo in the chambers of my soul.
I wish I could be happy in this silence
but it is you, it is you
I seek.
Your chaos calms me.
Your absence shatters me.

"This is real,"
said the voice,
"but no one can know"

"and no one will",
it continues,
"for no one knows
what is real anyway."

this                
or
                     that
                                        ?

give yourself a *chance

Will you
accept the real me?

in the moment
but also one step ahead of it

How did I                                  
    get here?                        

                                  How did we
                        reach this?

How long
did the loneliness
keep you longing?

I'm sorry I have feelings
that can't let you go.

Why* is it difficult
to be me?

Why does this heart hurt so?

i don't wanna be
in the in between.

I had everything I wanted
-- I wanted the wrong things.

The buzzing in my ear won't stop;
ringing for you.

Show up.
Do something.
Work harder.
Show up.
Make sense.
Matter.
Exist.
Die.

Dear stranger,
I want to say I like you.
I want to say I like you
like no one I have ever liked before.

Dear stranger,
I want to but I won't.

Dear stranger,
I can't be sure it's you I like
or the thought of you
that just won't leave my mind.

Dear stranger,
I just can't
let myself hurt again
after what she did to me.

Dear stranger,
You & I are
in limbo.

Dear stranger,
You and I are
at different stages in our lives.
And many more excuses
of the impossibility of us.

Dear stranger,
I can't be
just another girl
for you.

Dear stranger,
I won't because I shouldn't

Dear stranger,
I shouldn't
be involved with you
when you just had a break up.

Dear stranger,
I shouldn't
love you this much
when we just met.

Dear stranger,
I shouldn't
feel this way
for another girl.

Dear stranger,
I won't
because you probably
don't know I exist

Dear stranger,
I exist
**I think

Can you hear me?
'cause you're not listening

moonlight shines
a conversation
splashing waves
a kiss goodnight

how you can let go
of the only happiness
you've ever known

Whatever could it be
that has made me
this lost?

Words left unsaid
thoughts floating overhead.

what isn't when there is
what is when it isn't

Dooms, glooms, buzzing
deadly birds gleefully chirping.

where is when there was
when is when there wasn't

Lost in a maze,
search, stare and gaze.

*no sense, nonsense
present tense, past tense

Why do we live such meaningless lives?