Why* is it difficult
to be me?

How long
did the loneliness
keep you longing?

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How did I                                  
    get here?                        

                                  How did we
                        reach this?

no
thing
ness

and

cat
hars
is

a steady warm air
passing through ones hair
endlessly cool nights
and feelings of fright

the emptiness inside
nowhere to run or hide
overflowing sadness
underlying greatness

hope is nowhere
darkness everywhere
creeping loneliness
masked by happiness

questionable essence
endless existence
ultimately nonsense
*evanesce

Will you
accept the real me?

Why does this heart hurt so?

Why do we live such meaningless lives?

You said, Day by day;
As I said, No matter what;
Could that be just that?

Dear stranger,
I want to say I like you.
I want to say I like you
like no one I have ever liked before.

Dear stranger,
I want to but I won't.

Dear stranger,
I can't be sure it's you I like
or the thought of you
that just won't leave my mind.

Dear stranger,
I just can't
let myself hurt again
after what she did to me.

Dear stranger,
You & I are
in limbo.

Dear stranger,
You and I are
at different stages in our lives.
And many more excuses
of the impossibility of us.

Dear stranger,
I can't be
just another girl
for you.

Dear stranger,
I won't because I shouldn't

Dear stranger,
I shouldn't
be involved with you
when you just had a break up.

Dear stranger,
I shouldn't
love you this much
when we just met.

Dear stranger,
I shouldn't
feel this way
for another girl.

Dear stranger,
I won't
because you probably
don't know I exist

Dear stranger,
I exist
**I think

It is in a crowd
that I am most alone.

Whatever could it be
that has made me
this lost?

Slowly, I shatter.
Swiftly, I rise.
Someday, I mutter.
Someone, I love.

Pa/in

Can’t be seen,
Can’t be touched,
Can’t be smelled,
But it is there

Constant & consistent,
it grows.
Powerful & persistent,
it revels.

is everywhere:
In my heart,
In my mind,
In my daily life.

takes over life,
takes over people,
demands death,
demands people.

There is a burning in my chest I can't contain.

How can this be
the most perfect example
of being alone together?

You'll be alone.
I want to be *together.

a throbbing in my chest
i wish you the best

We belong in a tiny room inside my heart.

this                
or
                     that
                                        ?

by everything

how you can let go
of the only happiness
you've ever known

Calm yourself
its only the beginning
of an adventure that is life.

Show up.
Do something.
Work harder.
Show up.
Make sense.
Matter.
Exist.
Die.

in my memory,
we were infinite; wait-
in that moment,
it was too late.

with each breath

Too many feelings.