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amuba Feb 27
The voices inside talks and in multiple highs it trips
In the midst here I passively shout.
The trashes and my internal gossips
Here they are to put me in doubt,
Questioning my existence and the unknown trips.
But you know what, I will stay align and to this I vow
To being uncomfortable and reaching beyond pain
To appreciate this little spark of life and its beauty again and again.
in pain and suffering lies the beauty
Feb 7 · 254
My muse
amuba Feb 7
A beautiful being close by
Told me once clear but shy
Things I write are not as dry
Bring feelings to laugh and cry

A beautiful soul painted mine
A picture, I still look inside till nine
Green leaves and bright sunshine
Filled with joy when we wine and dine

A beautiful human, my muse
My inspiration, my blues
The melody sung and flowed
This spark that ever glowed

My hands on the pen to mindless freedom
My muse, the reason
Red cheeks and emotions amused
To this beautiful angel my unpaid dues

I feared then none in times dark and confused
Since you were there close by with me my beautiful muse
my muse
the reason
amuba Feb 3
We write in times, inspired and amused,
Times when we have things to say.
With my inspiration, my companion, my muse
But here I am, alone and astray.

Breathing but suffocating,
Feeling but hurting,
Dreaming but regretting,
Yearning but leaving.

Why do I write this, to whom?
To you, its for you "Anonymous".
Cheers to me and to doom,
As I lay here, slowly losing my purpose.
My muse.
Jan 23 · 80
My time to shine
amuba Jan 23
Vague nature of the mind
Evolution of the thoughts
A dying spirit of man
Lack of courage and trust in God

Exchange of attire now and then
Lose of focus and greedy heart
A quick fix to a quick end
The jokers laughing at dealt hands

All in it and all for me
A choice to choose , except not this time
In a phase like this, this I do and I must
Eye on eye, straight mind, busy hands until I forever shine
Life is full of things we cannot control and fix. Accept it, face it with courage even when the knees shake, stand still, the time to shine will definitely come.
Jan 21 · 90
I died for my dreams
amuba Jan 21
A drop of my soul
An ounce of my life
An inch of my heart
A part to laugh and cry

Our own youth fountain
In the garden with ****** roses  
Paid the price of this little dream
Once upon a time faithless and hopeless

An ocean of my soul
A trade of my life
****** roses of my heart
This road to you to offer, I die

I regret none though
To live with a little more sense
Following this venture of freedom
I proudly say I died for my dreams
To live a life of pride and prosperity following our once impossible dreams, I am ready to give up all, my own fountain of you
Jan 10 · 273
Wine and Gold
amuba Jan 10
The things we thrive for,
Premium wine and solid gold;
Old and wise rare, deep to the core;
All in our hands, warm or cold!
Our fate lies in our hands, this very hands are powerful and knows no bounds when we are ready to believe
Jan 3 · 190
See as I see
amuba Jan 3
I write this small piece
As I sit here and sing
My mood flies and cries
Unknowing the truths or lies
Blocked my vision with your words
Your expectations and your wants

I guess to save myself from this pit
I need to dig a hole something deep
A hole in you and a hole in me
I will fill it with the same thing so that you can see
The same thing I aspire one day to be
And one day we will rejoice the fruit of being free
Let me be free, let me be one, please do not separate me with my vision and yours.
Nov 2018 · 172
Dream
amuba Nov 2018
The dream is big
The tension huge
The stress high
But I have nothing to lose
Me and my goals, deeply fused

In my dream I believe
I will hustle until I see
By my very eyes happening in front of me

I do believe in talent
From the words of successful and wise
which goes
"Talent is Practice in disguise"
In any field in any combat

My dream is big
Nothing else I know
Nothing else but grind and grow
Hey family, hey friends, hey world
To no one I owe

I am done living your dreams
Fulfilling your expectations
Following your rules and regulations
Begging your acceptance and recognition
I am not your *****, no more manipulation

'coz in my dream I believe
I will hustle until I see
By my very eyes happening in front of me

as a side-note:
I have someone who is bigger than all
He is huge, wide and tall
He crush and he growl
He is everything but weak
He is me and he is 'the beast'
Lets dream big and live fully.
Nov 2018 · 208
Me, My Body, My Mind
amuba Nov 2018
I will ask and I will keep asking
Are you with me or are you me?
If you are why do you keep me dragging
When all I have to do was just "do"

Me, "my" Body and "my" Mind
The word itself signifies they are just my wings
Not actually "me"
Here to make me greater and become a King

So, I will ask and will keep asking
Are you with me or just here as a mere bystander?
'coz there is no room for that when alone 'm grinding
The path defines "who I am" and not "what I have"
I believe I am one, my body and mind are my wings here to help me in my path to become who I want to be. NOT as something to drag us down and give excuses.
amuba Nov 2018
Everything seems different
No clue what changed between us
All the things and meanings bent
Me and my whole body in fuss

Something doesn't feel right
When I touch you and your skin
My heart and my feelings goes for a fight
Something is terribly wrong within

What has changed?
This feeling that I can't manage
Uncontrollable that I have become
I still don't know what is to be done

I hope you are not the same
Please don't be in the same page as me
As the book has this horrible game
I hope you are all good and free

This horrible feeling that is in my gut
I will pull you out one-day be prepared
You make me terrible and everything shut
My mind and my heart, defeat never be declared
Something is really not right in me, within me. And I have no clue how to manage this unless writing it down. Writing is my medicine.
Nov 2018 · 253
Little things we do
amuba Nov 2018
The dances we do just for the one to attract
The songs we sing we think it would affect
One less moment of boredom from you to subtract
If nothing works we morn and our heads we shake

Useless as they seem to us sometimes
Could be hard if you don't see when we whine
Little things that we do, we believe it's not a crime
Are just for you, to get a little bit of you and your time

If stood for us for our silly little dreams just for once
A pat on the back when we are in doubt
Then my sweetheart I promise you this and it's true
We will offer the whole world to you, just for you
I believe that we all are different and our roles as well. Its just to understand it and each other.
Nov 2018 · 265
pick me up
amuba Nov 2018
should I pick myself up
or should I just let it go?
care, wellness and love
with my own tears I wash and glow
this small period of life that I am living
Lord, I want you to let you know
I am tired of this unknown confusions never ending
so please tell me how will I grow?
tell me how will I pick myself up
how will I let it go?
it is a constant battle, when unclear about ourselves everything falls apart and does not make any sense
Nov 2018 · 349
Hey you
amuba Nov 2018
Hey you,
I am writing a letter
How do you do?
It's me if you remember

Laces and shoes
Lights and colors
Any option you choose
The other is me hope you can refer

Hey you,
Maybe if you read this one day
Tell me after how do you do
Bad is still fine but please don't go away

Stickers and glue
Shapes and clay
Tell me you see the clue
Like attracts like as everyone say

Hey you,
I am finishing the letter
Would you also ask me how I do
And give me a kiss later?

Taxes and dues
Your heart and my future
I know I have to pay for it too
Now I see clearer
Both woman and our own future are important in our life, do not neglect one thing when focusing on the other. Let them help each other. That is what I have learnt!
Nov 2018 · 84
You and me what a thing
amuba Nov 2018
What a surprise
You came out of the blue
Was it strange
To watch my face without a clue?

I still feel your warmth
When I hold your hands tight
Do you feel it too
Tell me you also feel right

I saw you smile
You were dancing and like a star shining
Tell me you were looking at me too
Do you agree, you and me what a thing?

Do you also feel what I am feeling?
Hope you do and tell me something
Don't keep me for long waiting
Do you still agree, you and me what a thing?
You and me what a thing
amuba Nov 2018
I do not know if you notice
But I do look at you and you too I wish
I do not know if you understand me
Things I say just at you to look at me
Your laugh, I enjoy it so much hearing
Just for that I would even dance and sing
You are so calm and gentle
When you are next to me its hard to handle
My emotions whether to give you a clue
Can't you see all these things I do?
When I look at your green eyes next time
Please don't look away from me my sunshine
A ****** guy like me falls too
Stumbled down this world when I found someone like you.
I asked her out and man oh man the universe keeps stalling or maybe its not the universe its her who is stalling. What a life lol. These ****** things guys think and do. Hmm, could be my next poem lol.
Nov 2018 · 186
Beautiful you!
amuba Nov 2018
You are here so close to me
Sitting next, but No I can't see
I thought about us a lot
We were in the same boat
Lots of promises and expectations
Now only lessons and self evaluations
But no regrets yet
Such wonderful time we had
Present is not the right time for us
You are far shinier and way brighter
I am rusted and need an understanding
Re-polish myself and fix my wings
And one-day, God, maybe one-day
Could you give me one more chance to look at her and say
Within you there is something very very true
God, the most beautiful person I know is you.
Nov 2018 · 147
will
amuba Nov 2018
shattered my will
scratched and torn
this lack of acceptance
and the clash of the boundaries unknown

from whom am i looking this validation
you? this world?
turmoils of unknowns and unsatisfied feelings
crashing expectations and crushing wills

expectations of me and myself and the world
please don't ask me for more
empty and confused here i am
killing me and my will
amuba Nov 2018
i see it wide and clear now
       clouds up the brain block you
dark down to the vapors and rain in it  
        floods the head sheds as tears mixed
with bloods from the heart
       make it salty and cold
i will walk it though
       makes me real, honest and stronger
but **** does the heart withers alone
       the soul broken down to the knees
the expectations and dreams crushed
       things and things and lot more things
that i thought of to tell
       a lone being now again
when i thought i live again
       or actually i am living
maybe this was meant
       this was written in my name already
no i won't, no more tears
       no more
no more
       this is it
its already enough
       it was deep
inside it touched me
       almost made a hole through
or else i wouldn't have made it
       be able to tell this now
i keep writing these and feel emptier
       i will dream and dream more
i will feel and feel more
       i will love and love more
i will die and die more
       like i just did.....
die more
Nov 2018 · 50
I won't
amuba Nov 2018
No I will not write about this
This feeling I have in me
I will not express
Let it consume me and drown me
i won't
Nov 2018 · 99
The Unknown
amuba Nov 2018
Hits us hard
Tears us apart
Plays with our heart
And shows us heaven afterward.
**** the fears of the unknown by doing a little favor called asking and taking actions.
Nov 2018 · 108
I feel ALIVE
amuba Nov 2018
Danced a bit
Went to gym and get fit
Did something for myself and create magic with my little wit
Smile brighter and mouths bigger full of candies which can't fit

I do it only for me not just to survive
Life is amazing than to just breath my friend
Let's move our *** and get up facing the sunshine on our face
Love a bit more, laugh a bit more, connect a bit more
Because that's how I feel the life and kiss myself a bit more

I do it only for me not just to survive
My friend I do it because I feel ALIVE.
We face challenges and difficulties, we love and we kiss, we fall and we fail, all of these make us human. Let' s live a bit more and feel alive.
Nov 2018 · 132
Things we do
amuba Nov 2018
Why do we do the things we do?
I sit here putting down words like I am suppose to
Born this way or that no clue
Only thing is I just like what I do!
It is hard to explain 'the why', the reason why we really like the things we do.
Nov 2018 · 134
You!
amuba Nov 2018
You appeared!
We met!
.
.
.
I found. . .
.
.
.
me!
Yes I am still in the path of exploring myself, my weakness, strengths, my insecurities and the core Me.
I don't know why you came to my life and why you do this to me. But I am grateful. You make me more of who I am not just outside but inside too, you make me discover deeper.
Nov 2018 · 64
I HAVE, I AM & MYSELF
amuba Nov 2018
I thought I was lost
Between these fangs of turmoils of life events
I thought I was nobody
Having fallen so much I didn't even realize
I thought I had nobody
Scared to trust and willing to runaway.

Not really!

Mind plays such games with us sometimes
Reminds us to pick ourselves up
I HAVE to be lost time to time to get back to my path
I AM somebody to my mom, my father, my brother, my family
I have MYSELF all along
I don't know why I doubt myself so much
All I need is my trust in my own and never fear anymore.
While trying to please everyone we forget about the most important person, ourselves. Love oneself and we will love everyone from the heart.
Oct 2018 · 53
Just let it out
amuba Oct 2018
Spiral down the road and up the sky
I suffocate here with the sorrows of thunder and storms
But amidst all these let's not forget to breath for a while.

We will figure out a way sooner or later
With our priorities straight ahead
We see everything deeper and clearer.

I dream everyday of my goals and aspirations
In times hard and vague
They bring me back to my life and future imaginations.

One last note if I may put into the world in which I came
Just let it out from deepest and honest intentions
Angels come in different form like I found mine in the form of beautiful green gem.
With pure and honesty from inside, let it out. I am sure an angel will show up. Mine did.
Oct 2018 · 65
wait for me
amuba Oct 2018
why do you do this to me?
you leave me no choice can't you see?
morning till evening i worry
till evening till night that you will forget me
after you take care of me
after you show me the way to walk free.
i am learning, to the lock you showed me the key
it is hard for me still you bring me glee.
time i keep my trust in you not for me but for "we"
until then my angel please wait for me!
in times time is the only answer
brings us peace and brings us the key
Oct 2018 · 164
Just for me!
amuba Oct 2018
Wake up and breath deeper!
Stand up and raise my head higher!
Grateful and rekindle the fire!
Remember my roots and work harder!
Love and Live for yourself and everything follows.
Oct 2018 · 56
Guilt and Love
amuba Oct 2018
It was a moment of blank emptiness in my head,
Hard earned art-form turned to life
Through the medium of fingers, heart guided
Melancholy and freedom was the expression of my drive.

Like a sudden storm after the calmest state
Erupted inside me a feeling of deep belongings and big disappointment.
A sudden realization of familiarity, I got used to long back.
A feeling so normal and natural like a river flowing carefree taking any embodiment.

Time ceased, fingers froze, I leaned backward,
Confusion in my head and guilt in my heart.
Scenery of memories rushed
And Guilt! My heart was crushed.

Between waves of unknown chain of people
Emerged a damsel, this time not in distress.
Anger in her body but love in her eyes
Spoke no words, red hair, the familiar way she caress.

Soft and tender her hands may look,
Sudden ringing ears which had me shook
My dumb brain, grasping the situation to stay calm
Was I in her warm arms,
Her body shaking as she knelt,
My heart filled with the greatest pain and love ever felt.
Went to follow the passion of art and music, left home, left everything, even his love. Life is crazy amazing , reuniting them again in a place no one was expecting.
Oct 2018 · 194
Misfit
amuba Oct 2018
Go back to your nest my friend,
The world here is cruel and unkind.
Before you even spread your wings,
They will come with fire and sweet words
Burn you dreams
And even let you pay the price for it.
Demons roam here everywhere
Telling you, he is your guardian angel sent from heaven;
Teach you to be like everyone.
Fear inflicted on you if you are not norm;
All kids are born equal they say.
And if you show something they don’t like to see
There you become something, something called a Misfit.
Everyone is a misfit in one way or other, it's called a gift.
Oct 2018 · 711
Good morning Sunshine!
amuba Oct 2018
Good morning Sunshine!
Welcome to the world, harsh and blind.
However, with block of cheese and a glass of wine,
We kick the harsh world on their behind.
We will work hard and we will grind,
Help each others and be kind
Spread love and together we dine,
Raising our glasses till the day we really Shine!
Oct 2018 · 68
My Angel
amuba Oct 2018
I sit here in a coffee shop
Staring at the empty seat across,
Imagining it’s you facing me,
Smiling big and talking deep.

I just enjoy staring at you,
Dancing in the air of confidence and sweet love.
Never been easier getting myself lost in those eyes
**** those eyes do speak, no lies.

Noticing me, you asked what happened
I would just smile and give you a kiss
I wonder what you would do
Would you smile me back or pinch me in my arm?

With a huge shock, I woke up, my head on fumes
I hate this waitress destroying my moment with you
I make sure, I gave her no tip
Well just a dry smile instead.

She’s cute but I am not interested
For I already have you.
Thank you God, I am a lucky guy
Blessed with an angel, a real one by my side.

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