Wake up
What day is it?
Wednesday? Thursday?
Thursday.

I'll get up
Drink a little coffee
Milk? Creamer?
Creamer.

Stumble through
To the kitchen
Was I drunk or high?
Last night

Sit down
Realize I'm all alone
Why? What did I do?
I failed.

Skip the coffee
Stick to alcohol
Tequila? *****?
A little of both

Roll it
Light up
One? Or a couple?
More than a few.

My life
After the heartbreak
Today? Tonight?
Repeat cycle

I'm a thousand miles
Into the depths


*And I'm sinking even further

I breathed in the fumes
The leaking evidence
Of what I was about to do

I bit down on my lip
Distracting myself
From any lingering compassion

I sliced open my wrist
For I wanted to be Sure
That I bled the vile flames

I sprinkled my life
Over the surfaces
That were soon to perish

I lit the match
Threw it into the pool
Of my very essence

I watched the scene
The crumbling families
I knew I had ended everything

Those rancid shadows
Shall consume
All who dwell
Within the darkness

It's easy to lose yourself
In your dreams
And forget what actually is
Your reality

The love I feel for you
Is almost heartbreaking
I see the way you
Look at me
As though you're looking into me

The tormented shadow
I saw in your eyes
When they said
I'd be torn away from you
Opened fresh, stinging wounds

The way you understand
That I'm falling apart
Within myself
A little more everyday
Cripples my already limping heart

The tainted laughter
Shared between us
That I never fight
Only regret later on
Makes the pain nearly bearable

The feeling of being accepted
In an unconditional way
Is like an adrenaline rush
In my weary veins
And almost revives the hope I let die

Every time I see that beautiful face of yours
I drown in adoration
I barely make it out alive

You inspire everything I do
Your words are a lovely melody
And it changes my mood instantly

Every time I remember that I have a place
In that beautiful mind of yours
I lose more of my chain-like depression

The fact that I hold your heart
In my own hands
Sends me reeling all the time

I'd rather be trapped in your arms
Than free without you
You're my shelter, my everything

It's more than just
The lust
That tortures us
It's the trust

We both make
That mistake
And we regret it
With every breath we take

Let the dust settle
Down on our rusted hearts
Let the sky rain
Down on our diluted dreams
Let the glass break
Down on our forsaken heads
Let the doubt pour
Down on our distrusting minds

Let the love seep
Into our lost lives
Let the hope invade
Into our fearful thoughts
Let the joy cross
Into our hateful words
Let the truth leak
Into our liars' souls

Let us be happy
And change our worlds
Let us be honest
And break the dam of paranoia
Let us be real
And alter our facades into nothing
Let us let loose life
And ignore the death that tries so hard to capture us

Let Us Smile.
Please.

There's no one else
On this planet
That I'd rather
Waste my eternity with
You're it.
My true infinity

I know I write about you
And my love for you
All the time
But, the truth is, I'm afraid
So very scared

Because I've been
Down this road before
And it ended
Quite gruesomely
Quite abruptly

So every time that I say it
Know that I mean it
I truly love you
But my words
Will always be tinged with fear

Though everything within me
Adores everything about you
I will always dwell in anticipation
Forever on the edge of my seat
For fear of losing you

I've given a lot
And so have you
Though I'm sure you more than I
This love is all that I need
And so I'm very very afraid

I'm sick of feeling numb
Anyone with me?

Words bend and break
They flex and relax
They wound and heal
They expose what's real
Though they often conceal

Words are weapons
To challenge a wordsmith
Is to commit suicide
Words are not fragile
They can withstand anything

Words are bulletproof
They'll live long after you
They're almost immortal
Though many are forgotten
In languages lost to the world

Words are emotions
They embody everything you are
And everything you've ever been
They represent the future
Whether it be good or sad

Words close doors
And open windows
Words allow an escape
Or can ruin everything
Causing hopes to fade

Words are a lifeline
Your very soul, they define
They burn bridges
And move mountains
Words are the basis of everything

We all miss that one person
Through everything

No matter how many others
No matter how many rings

We all had that one person
That haunts us even today

Though we're committed
Their memory just won't fade

We all miss that someone
The One That Got Away

I grasp for the remnants
Of what I once was

Your words used to hurt me
But now you've lost power

There's only one way to break me
But I'm afraid you've found it

There's not much I can do
But I'm going to try

It may take some work
I may sell my soul

But I'm going to defeat you tonight
And leave your body where it lies

Trading my eternity for a little help
Watch in awe as my power swells

And I call upon the tainted forces
Of all the demons that dwell within my flesh

Allow them to manifest
Put you to rest

HOW DARE YOU STRIKE ME
COME AGAINST ME

NOW YOU MAY TASTE THE STING
OF A FORCE SO TORTURING

I'll rip apart your flesh
Feed on the pain

Revel in your suffering
And laugh at your screams

I'll video tape it and
Watch it later

Drink your blood and
Call it liquor

Soak in your utter shock
That it's evil that is my center

Embracing the burn
That comes with the flames

Might as well get used to it
It's my destination

But you'll be there too
You horrible *****

You're too stupid to realize
That we never believed you

We, of all people, knew you
Lies were never really accepted

Your days of terrorizing us are over
Now go ahead and scream and cry

Catch ya later then
I'll See You In Hell

Take hold of me
Fill this void
Where my heart should be

Press your lips on mine
Bodies entwined
Taste sweet like wine

I drank my life away
Then got ****** sober
So now I'll beg you to stay

That harsh realization
Your hands, I trust
There's no hesitation

Love like a breath of life
Courtship ended now
See my future as your wife

I wanna hold you in my arms
Until the end of time
Those rings on our fingers
They say you're mine

Not a single force
Nor any combined
Could take you away
Our lives are entwined

On the outside
It may seem shallow
But within our love
To the depth we go

Though once weary
Weakness shown
We are now whole
No longer alone

Through the passion
And the pain
Our total devotion
Will always remain

Even when it's hard
And a handful
Your presence easily
Keeps me joyful

Does it get any better?
Is it possible?
Could we get any closer?
Could it happen?

There is no competition
My soul is yours
No need to petition
I give in already

You saved me
Without thinking
You supported me
Without realizing

My entire world
Is you
My everything
Is you

Seems to simple
To fall so quickly
Seems to fast
But you'll be my last

You gave me light
When I was drowning in darkness
You gave me sanity
When I felt too heartless

You've reminded me
That good can really be
You've changed me
And become part of me

You're the part
That will stick
The part that
Will never leave

You're the one
Who outshines the sun
You're the one
Who made eyes open

Living and breathing
In such beauty
Should not be possible
Yet, for you, is nothing

Exceptional existence
Extraordinary reality
I adore you, no resistance
You've inspired a new me

Inspiration for the better
We'll become the best
Handwritten letters
Tattooed across your chest

A declaration
Of our honest truth
A dedication
To our brand new start

No longer lonely
An enchanted pair
Willing to become one
Our entire life, we'll share

Could one person
Be so enticing?
Could one being
Change a life?

Of course, you're magic
You're casting a spell
You've chased away my demons
Ran them back to hell

Now a life of joy
Because it's you I possess
And us together
Has put me to rest

I'm sorry
If I've ever hurt you

I've never been gentle

I'm sorry
If I've ever mistreated you

I've never been too nice

I'm sorry
If I've ever degraded you

I've never been understanding

I'm sorry
If I've never made you happy

I've always tried

I'm sorry
If I've never measured up

I've always attempted to

I'm sorry
If I've never been good enough

I've always been a failure

Taste the sin
Breathe it in
Feeling the sting
Of the poisoning

May the rage
Never fade
May the truth
Be bulletproof

Let it just fall
Simply lose it all
Why try to stay
If you're pushed away

Love the contract
Eternal contact
Such a great lie
You'll want to die

It hurts to be
Giving in totally
To the darkness
You'll be worthless

But it's all necessary
For liberty.
For what is light
With nothing to fight?