Let's pretend we are not in love

And go on walking

So I can fall for you

All over again

I wish the sky wasn't blue
And the water below so pure

I wish the mountains weren't so rough
And the weather so fine

I wish the wind were silent
And the traffic not this fast

I wish the sun didn't shine
And happiness ever last

I wish tomorrow weren't just another day
And I wouldn't cry

I wish I didn't love you this bad
I wish I could let go

I wish I could help staring at the sky above
I wish I could lie

I wish these stars weren't real
I wish we could hide

I wish the truth wasn't the truth
I wish I could fly

Away

Away from my self
Away from you

When I miss you, I can hear my heart breaking and the sound of my soul being crushed under the weight of too much hope. The hope that I will see you again, the way I once did. The hope that you will feel the same way. The hope that there will be home in your arms and love in your heart for me. The hope that that day will not be far away.

He was like the darkness where she could finally see everything clearly. With her mind completely free of doubt, her feet trusted her to walk with eyes closed. In that moment, she could feel the vastness of his being and the naivety of his love for her, like pearls delicately balanced on the wings of a butterfly. One flutter, they would shatter to the ground yet so perfectly beautiful in that moment, you wouldn't dare disturb it nor could you take your eyes off it

I don't know who I am
They tell me I am fire
I don't quite agree
I think I might be a lamp
That burns with all its might
Not that the winds aren't cruel
And the sun doesn't shine
It's magnificent light on me
But its in the dark night
That I keep burning
And it is the travellers
In search of their self
And the madness in their eyes
That keeps me going

Under the shaded tree
As the sun was setting on a beautiful autumn day
She said, "It feels like love"
He didn't say
Pressed her hand to his lips
Close to his heart she could feel his heartbeat
Staring into the sunset
The beauty of each passing moment
Like rustling of autumn leaves
Turning into a song
Timeless and unnamed
Like the wind that carries it
To this day
Now that the flowers bloom
And the little birds sing
On the branches of that tree
Now gracefully bent
With time and age
It's colour turned pale
Green grass around it
Blue skies above
Clouds come and go
On the mountain top
Insects crawling up its bark
Caterpillars eating away it's leaves
Silent and strong
Whistling with the winds
It remembered
The night of the fireflies
When the mountain slept
And the stars hid themselves
In the dark
A light that shown though
It's dense dew covered branches
Leaves shivered and glittered
As it transcended into the sky
Almost lighting up
Every soul on its way
Fireflies carrying them away
Fireflies all the way
Dancing
Till sunshine came
And they went back
To their resting place.

We sit in opposite corners of the room
Trying to get the story in our head right
This night is so dreadful and special
You can tell by the full moon so bright
It's been forever since I kissed you last
I don't know if you remember being apart
I wish I could show you the scars
Each wishful night left on my heart
Then tell me, my love
How did you do when I was away
Would you make this moment stay
I don't know what I want
When I am this close to you
They told me to be careful
Sometimes dreams come true
I wish it was easy to let go
With your hands on my hips
When you pull me close
My heart stops beating
I burn like a rose
You taste of sweetness, desire & love
Of your burning soul, I can't have enough
Then come closer, my love
I want your fingers tangled in my hair
I want to kiss your soul, naked & bare
From me, you have nothing to fear
My love,
I will wear this love like a garment
I will breathe it in, like fresh air
I will forever be yours in this moment
With you on my lips, always like a prayer

In the silence of the morning
The sun rises, bright and clear
And it's you she's missing, my dear
I tell her, it's not real
She says, life rarely is ideal
I tell her, it's only a feeling of love
She says, your hand fits like a glove
I tell her, it will break her heart
She says, to love is to be torn apart
I ask her why this dangerous path
She says, it's a game and to lose, we hath
I ask her how this happiness
This radiance of her being
She says love gives me strength
It gives me peace
I hesitate but ask
If you love her too
She said, she never asked
She was busy falling for you

The road to you is a treacherous one
But you must carry on
For this mirror must shatter
And the image forgotten
For you to see
What was there all along
In all the madness of life
We hold on to what we know
With sweet threads of memories, we sew
Beautiful pictures we love and cherish
But only if mirrors could lie
The way pictures do
We could go on pretending
As if the soul is not a wanderer
In search of its treasure trove
In the dark silence of sleepless nights
It knocks on doors unknown
Looking for the one he knows not
Yet the only one he knows
The one that has a thousand forms
Hope, desire, pain and love
His dream, his truth, his true self
Like a Sufi with a bleeding heart
He follows her to deserts and ruins
Coz all he wants is to know
And the day she steps out of her veil
It will shatter to pieces by itself
For it's beauty the mirror won't hold
And he will dance like a madman
Naked through the valley of flames
For the fire can't burn him anymore
Coz he is burning more fervently inside
There will be tears in your eyes
Yet you will be smiling
Floating weightlessly in your conscious
Then close your eyes and drift away
To the garden of thousand blooms
Which once was the valley of fire
And there you will meet your madman
Drenched and dancing in sweet rain
His bleeding heart is whole again
Like it never knew any pain.

Break my heart this once, my love
If only to put it back in chains
Break my heart this once
So I know what it's like to live again

Break my heart so I can breathe
Break it to pieces, so there is no sheath
Break it, so it lay bare, for all to see
So they can't ask me, what I chose to be
Break it, so I can feel the hurt
And let it be a part of me

So say it, my love
And walk out that door
I will love you no less
For breaking my heart
I will only love you more

It is strange
This knowing you
This familiarity
Which now seems like something
I might have invented
To keep myself close to you
I now see the nativity of
An unreasonable love
How simply I fell for you
And built a fortress of lies
To protect this delicious fantasy
Of me in your arms
Being more then just comfort
An intimacy of tired restless souls

I don't know why it hit me today but it did and I am trying really hard to keep my sanity right now. Tears are begging to run down my cheeks. Sorrow crawling through the walls of my heart. My mind tired and exhausted of reasoning, wanting desperately to shut down now. This ink might as well have been bleeding out of me today. I never knew that longing for someone could be so painful.

So let me redecorate myself then

With your love

To see why you look at me

The way you do

Broken dreams
Fill a broken heart

Tempered memories
Of stolen kisses

Timeless passion
In a heartless world

How soon it died
Our fearless love

Your kisses like dew
And sunshine renew
My dying faith in love
I feel like a dove
With a thousand dreams
Flying unarmed
In the land of screams
They look at me
They think I am mad
I smile for no reason
My heart is glad
Little do they know
That I found the season
Where rain is divine
And blessed is the snow

My heart rebels
Not being close to you
It doesn't know how to keep
A love so fierce
From burning everything away
I don't know how
This distance is okay
But this silence isn't
I could wait a thousand years
To be in your arms
I couldn't wait till tomorrow
To tell you I miss you so

Happiness
Don't desert me
I long for your warmth
Visit me sometimes
It nice to have you by my side
To watch the sunset and the tide

How could I ever show you
The despair you left behind
How could I dare say
Was it your heart or mine
That lay shattered on the pavement
Of this road we took together
The one with no destination
A love without room
For kindness or concern
A constant struggle
To keep us from fading into the night
To keep the clock from ticking
To keep this fire from taking us
Isn’t any delight
In a fight against destiny
Memories woven with pain
All lost in a moments fate
Now remnants of ashes
Mingled with the rain
Flow right through that place
Which love used to grace
Once when it was summer
And we were kids in love
In peace and in haste
To commit to heart and memory
Each glance and every taste
Each moment spend with you
Is now a shard halfway through
My heart
Which still beats like a fool
For you

Be the silence of my heart
Be my calm

Be my light
So I may always find my way back

Be that question
I ask myself every time
I am looking for meaning

Be the shade
My souls rests in
Weary from the customs of this world

Be close
Fade into my heartbeat
From a million miles away

It hurts too much

I thought what I asked, was small

But now I know

Why love is precious, after all

Happiness

you come in many forms

Sometimes disguised as pain

In the sweet labor of love

Lie to me sweetly then

If the truth won't last

I still hate lies

But I was never so afraid of the truth

Your love is like a flowing brook
Like an autumn leaf, am I

Now I am carried away
Without hopes or dreams

And the soft murmur of your being
Is the sweetest thing I hear everyday

My heart
Imprisoned in reason
Fluttering
Like a butterfly
Entangled
In dreams and memories  
It prays
To the one who commands it
To come free it
In exchange
For a life time of service

I wish it was easy to forget
Some part of you
You loved so dearly
Burnt away to ashes
Infront of your eyes
With your own soul, giving away

I wish it was easy, not to cry
And cry real hard
When your dreams beneath your feet
Make a lowly noise
And you don't look, you don't stop
You just walk away

I wish it was easy to pretend
You didn't know, you didn't realise
It didn't hurt
When all that was you
You gave away
To an unknown stranger
Who came your way

I wish it was easy to say, 'I love you'
Just when you wanted to say
I wish the rain could wash away
All the traces, they say, will stay

I wish I could say..
I wish I could stay.

If mountains could hold destinies
If death could survive
If sadness could steal memories
I would still love you

If there was more than one sky
If the road to you was the longest ever
And a moment was all I had
I would still love you

If I possessed all I ever wanted
And nothing seemed impossible
But you were far out of reach
I would still love you

If all you could do, was speak a tongue
And all I could do, was look in your eyes
Without understanding a single word
I would still love you

I would love you
No matter what colour the sky
I would love you
Even if you deny

I would always love you
The way I love you today

She sat by the vast river
Watching the sun go down
Mind at peace with her heart
And she smiled
How she thought she knew
What love was
Till she met him
And her soul shook
In a silent quake
And a storm raged inside her heart
Why hadn't she expected this?
Why was she so unprepared
For something that seemed
Only as certain as death

It's a new world altogether
And I find you everywhere
I taste the distance, sweet
As my heart feels glad inside
With eyes closed I stare
At the starry sky above
I wonder as you smile; yet
No answers do I find
When you are too close beside
I think I'll let go; but then
I sink halfway though still shy
Paint my dreams to life
And as my heart skips a beat
I realise
The ages spent in a moments fate.

Show me, o dear star!
What brightness is

And tell me, o night!
What darkness is

I am not strong enough today

But I will be, someday

To let go

A piece of my heart

That once belonged to you

You gifted me a beautiful sadness
Hurt I never knew before
This life is now a sea of madness
Fading footprints on the shore

You said I was a spark
And a lamp, your hearts desire
Then why can't I stop burning now
You set my soul on fire

'I love you', she said..
But you do not set my soul on fire