I find it scary
to love someone like this.
You give everything you have
your love, time & attention.
Hoping that
they will do & feel
the same way
like you do.

Missing them every single time,
making sure that they're happy &
remain contented with you,
& your love.
Doing everything that you could
to make sure that
they wouldn't leave you,
alone.

At the same time,
giving them
space & freedom
that they want & deserve.
To make sure
they won't
feel locked, stuck & chained
with you.

Loving someone
so deeply, pure, sincere
& innocent
is not an easy task.
This might sound
narcissistic,
but
I admire
myself & those
who has done it?


It is scary, yes.
No assurances
that all of it wouldn't be wasted.
Maybe that's the beauty of love
Making smart & logical people;
dumb, fearless & illogical.
Driving human beings,
insane &
risking it all,
for the name of
love.

Black & White.
In the middle
of the night,
took off my
disguise
and watched
as our love
slowly
dies.

Love, what happened
to us?
We crumbled
and turn into
dust.

You'll wake up,
alone
with love
greeting you
with a
different
kind
of
tone.

She's happy.
So why?
Why should I
be not,
every time
I see her smile?

Why, should I
envy those people
who makes her happy
right now?

Why?
Am I left
here
on my own
trying to
move on from
decisions I've made
&
memories
we've shared
together.

Was it worth it??

Was it satisfying?

To break someone's
heart, mind & soul
in the process of
finding or achieving
the true love
you've always
dreamed of?

My love for you really ****** me up.
Why?
Because up until now,
even though we haven't talked anymore
I am still missing you
and the crazy part is,
it really hurts so bad.

It is driving me insane
and you are nowhere near
to help me,
but it is okay
because I want to spare you
from the miseries that
I am feeling right now.

The reason that I still write
poems for you,
is that when we were
together
it brought us closer
to each
other.

And now that we
have grown apart,
I am still hoping that
one day, you will read this
and it would bring us
back together
*again.

I wish I can turn back time,
to be at the exact moment
when you were still
mine.

Undo all the things
I have done & spent
the days with you again
like you were never
*gone.

I'm writing this while thinking of
our memories that I wasted.
Thinking if there are still things left unsaid.


Here I am, still stuck in the past,
while you're already gone
and have moved on so fast.


As I sit here in the dark.
Help me because my love for you
is breaking me apart.

It's been so long since we've talked.
I know I did you wrong
when I walked
away and
didn't stay.


I'm writing this while thinking of you.
Leaving you behind has been
my biggest regret and it's beating me
black and blue.

We* both started this story
and I'm really proud of our glory.
I knew when I first saw you
that life has finally
given me something new.


Our story has been nothing but great,
it is beyond anyone's control, this is fate.
Creating this story has kept
the coldness away
and now the skies were blue &
not gray.


But all stories must come to and end,
our goodbyes are now sealed
like a ******, our story must now
descend.


It seems to me that we must
finish this story because it's about
to rust.
We cannot save this story anymore,
we must end this and stop to ignore
all the signs that always has been there
looking at our story with it's glare.


This is the end.
*Yet, I love you

You won't understand how much I love you,
and also the fact that I would do anything to,
spend time with you dear
and no, I don't want to drink beer,
for I want you to be the only chemical, rushing
on my mind & in my veins
and with that, it is a fact that's discouraging,
that my love for you will bind me like chains.

She left me without saying goodbye
and now I am here, left alone.
But what did I expect,
from a girl
that contained
billion of stars
on her small & fragile body?
Did I think that she,
can possibly
love someone
as broken
as
me?

I am missing you,
I need you here beside me
and I can't remember
how many times I've
retraced my memories
searching for you,
while waiting for the dawn,
alone.

As I look across the sky,
I can't wonder but to ask why?
Why that even though we're far away
from each other,
I can still smile
because
we're still living under the same sky.

*That is more than I can wish for.

Can you see it?
Feel it?
This sadness that lately
has been eating me alive.
If you can, please do whatever it takes
to save me.
I'm on the edge of giving up & breaking apart.
Please...
Save me.

Everything that makes me whole,
I would gladly give it to you.
If that's what it will take
to make this coldness & emptiness
that I'm feeling right now disappear.

There is a possibility that you can survive
being strike by lightning or
manage to avoid an oncoming vehicle.
But there is one thing that everyone
cannot escape or avoid.
Love.
Once you've got struck by it, there's no turning back.

I will keep you forever and will never let you go*.

I've waited so many years &
searched everywhere to find you.
I've been through many heartaches
but all of that don't matter any more,
now that you are here with me now.
We will be together till the end of time.

How did you stop missing me so fast?
I need to figure out how to get you out of my head.
Every single memory that we shared,
all of it, I tried to throw away.
I tried so hard to erase the picture of your smile,
the funny sound you always made when you laughed.
All of it, I want it all gone but it's easier said than done.
And so here I am,
still & forever will be in love with you.

Death is such an inevitable thing right?

That's what she said before
leaving me without saying goodbye.
And after all those years,
I finally realized what it really meant.
It was our *love that has died
and cannot be saved
no matter how hard we try.

The sun has now finally hidden behind the clouds.
It will never come back again and shine.
And with that, the winter has arrived.
The winds will start to become cold,
and the bright colors that were once
bursting into flame will now turn into gray.

As each day passed by, I'm wanting her more and more.
Every details about her even the small ones, all of it I adore.
I didn't know that I'm capable to love someone like this
until I met you.
And Yet, loving you has been nothing but eternal bliss.

I don't know which is more sad?
Is it that,
Here I am alone and wishing that you'll be by my side,
Or the fact that you will never be mine?

Maybe what's more sadder
Is that I have given you
the power
to do this
to me.

I try so hard to write poems for you
And Yet you never did the same for me.
Loved you with all I got and that's true.
Even if I don't know how to swim, I'll jump at the sea.
If that's what will it take for you to love me.

*I want you to be mine.

Love, where have you been?*
I was looking for you, but you were
nowhere to be seen.
You made it clear that you were leaving
And with that I am here, alone & grieving.
It's been 4 days of misery & sadness,
Come back and save me from this madness.

Keep it steady
For I am not yet ready.
Shoot me at the back,
Then put my body on a sack.
Throw me on a river,
Don't be scared, I won't shiver.
Tell them not to look for me,
For it is my choice to flee*.

This cruel world that we're living in,
has taken away everything from me.
Joy, my smile, energy, youth and my innocence.
All that's left is love, and I have a ton of it.
But what am I supposed to do with it,
when nobody even wants it?
I just might as well throw it somewhere else.

News has spread like fire, there's a thief in town.
Locals say she's beautiful, has an angelic smile and nice.
She's been spotted last week, walking around.
She will steal your heart without even thinking twice.
She's a Queen that doesn't wear a crown,
if you fall in love with her, be prepared to pay the price.

She's always on mind
whether it's day or night.
I'm on this endless bind,
having a great delight.
As we lay here, with each other's arms both entwined
my heart is beating faster than the speed of light.

"Our love ended before it even start."*

How am I supposed to accept the fact that she's gone,
when that's all the explanation she has given to me?
And,
How can she sleep at night knowing that I'm all alone
with those words keeping me up at night?

The overwhelming sadness that had covered my heart,
that day it melted away into the summer sky.
I am thankful for the hope, love & joy she has to impart
to me, and the promise that she will never say *goodbye.

Everything must come to an end and so does the summer sky.
Without a warning
the clouds of fall began to cover this heart of mine
and the sadness & darkness begins to creep back again.

The overwhelming sadness that had covered my heart,
that day it melted away into the summer sky.

Somewhere deep in the ocean hides a majestic creature.
With a gorgeous hair and an amazing feature.
Everybody thought it didn't exists
with it's beautiful face and voice, you just couldn't resist.

As I walk along the shoreline
I saw something grand, something divine.
I thought to myself maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me.
I'm thinking whether to sojourn or flee.

I gathered all of my strength and cast away the fear.
Her voice is the only thing that I can hear.
Now I'm beside her, standing & looking for the right words to say,
but all I can see is her smile that's as bright as the day.

As I finally said hi and catch my breath,
I remembered a legend about pirates & their sudden death.
Enchanted by a beautiful voice,
they're all ensnared without any other choice.

And with my love for her, now I am bound,
crying & lying hopelessly on the ground.
I'm engulfed with a burning sensation and she's the one that ignite,
this enormous flame called "love at first sight".

I will bury my love for her in a secret garden, where all of my hopes & dreams lies.
In there, my love will be eternal & pure.

Then one day, it will bloom like a flower but it will be the most beautiful flower that everyone will ever see.

Then I will proudly tell her that my love for her will totally feel brand new.

It will be a love so strong that it can withstand any storm & hurricane but it will also be weak, for without her my love will be shattered to pieces.

It will be eternal & will last longer than the illusion of time but when she desert me, my love will die in a heart beat.

But one thing is for sure, my love for her will be pure & honest.

As an atheist,
I didn't believed that angels exist
but one day there's a sudden twist
a feeling that's so hard to resist.

You're a flower trapped in a ***,
you passed me by within eyeshot
and then suddenly I forgot,
everything I believed in
suddenly turn to naught.

Maybe someone has cast a curse
because suddenly I am forced
to believe something so diverse!
You're a Goddess that created
not just the world but also the entire universe.

Lately, I've been forcing myself to write
about a girl whose name I cannot tell.
Her smile has always been a beautiful sight
but loving her feels more like hell.

The reason is that every day & every night,
she's on my mind like some kind of spell
but I cannot stop since it does not feel right
for I am afraid to be the one to bid farewell.

I'm standing outside, looking at the moonlight,
a sudden realization arises.
There's something on you I cannot repel.
It was you who started & ignite,
a fire that so strong it burned the skies.

And now with all of my might,
I will finally reveal and tell
without fear & a single trace of any regret.
Writing this poem for you has been a delight,
my voice is shaking but I will proudly yell
that I am finally convinced that loving you was kismet.