In my reflection
late last night
I had a vision
you and I
we walked at a slow pace
I never caught your name
I never saw your face
so as a vision you remain

There is comfort in being alone
your thoughts surround you
they become your home
you can remember those you lost
and those you want to meet
those you haven't seen in a while
those who make you want to smile
you can reflect on life
and whether a decision you made was wise
or you could think of the things you want to do
because you're the only one there to stop you

For the first time death occured
and I wasn't affected by it.
Maybe it's because I didn't know you personally,
maybe because it was expected,
you were sick, terminally.
I hope you had a great life. Rip. Eternally.

This is an attempt
to write a haiku but I
can't count syllables

The Yorkshire accent
sounds pretty rough
"T" doesn't exist
unless you from Bradford
then you can't pronounce things propperly
and you say Bratfd
and the "o" lasts too long
the note is held on
now you knooow
how two letters are pronounced
go learn the dialect
not heard down soulth

I'm stuck listening
to my head
telling me what to do
I want to follow my heart
but my head tells me not to
I want to fall so deep in love
where my head can no longer reach
where I no longer care what anyone thinks
where I no longer care what my head thinks
I want to fall so deep in love
where I get washed up by the sea
where it is only you and me
where my head cannot follow me

I'll build an empire for you
for me and you
just for the two
or just for you
I'll build an empire for you
but big enough for two

First it's a spark
then it's a flame
then you ran away
to avoid the blaze

Its in your head
what you said
your made up fantacy
it's not reality
but that's your world
with your imaginary girl

Ice cold air
an extra skin
moonlit sky above
streetlights over head
Coat zipped up
to protect from the cold
of the night creeping in

Trapped inside my body
trapped inside my mind
no one wants to listen
no one hears my cries

I couldn't help but look at you
In hope that you'd look back
I never thought we'd even cross our paths
but when we did I didn't expect
to end up with a knife in my back

Your eyes
a dark sea
so full
yet so empty
I looked in
to see what I could find
but it was only you
dead inside

You hate yourself the way you look
You take it out on me
You try and make me feel bad
About my body
I don't really care
I don't really loose
It's your opinion
You're entitled to your views
Just don't effect others
Who aren't as strong as me
Who's mindset is weaker
And has less stability
Just take your self hate out on me
I'll be your human punching bag
Even if you won't do that for me

Battle to the death
No one dies
Battle of strength
Skill
And mind

I loved you
you hated me
I loved you
you couldn't stand me

my blind eyes couldn't see
who you were
you revealed yourself to me
I didn't know who you were

I loved you
you didn't see me
I loved you
but it was you and me
not us

Just war
war is acceptable
if it's self defence
unjust war
is unacceptable
a terrorist offence
invasion
of a nation
take resources and land
just or unjust
in my opinion all war should be banned

One stary night
I don't know what to do
so I sit and think of you

Your wide eyes I can't forget
been in my head
since the day we met

I can't live without you here
my head bows in fear
my eye let's out a tear

young in love
didn't know what to do
but I cannot think of you

your eyes
your smile
things I haven't seen in a while

your laugh
your cries
your tears all dried

you moved on
I should too
I try but cannot forget you

Sun is shining
upon the city view
water running under ground
sat on the rock I found
on a dead end road
the remains of a school
shattered glass on the floor
worn out road markings
softly birds tweeting
and a stray ginger cat
all this found
in an abandoned part of town

I'm under so much pressure
my mind is starting to melt
my heart is running dry
to these new feelings that I felt
my knowledge starting to empty
in a vacuum called my life
my heart is still pumping
but I no longer know why

I don't know why people hate
We don't get to choose our fate
I can't wait for the day
when we are all entitled to say
this is me
and who I'm going to be
and no judgement will be past
it was never a thing made to last
anti-anything will not exist
this is the life I want to live

When you feel like giving up
go to the mirror
and realise you don't give a ****

I am running far away
away from the dark
away from you
away from my past
away from my life
I am running far away
because I cannot bare to stay

when I feel better I may return
but it is non of your concern
my life is mine
your life is yours
you don't control me
because you will fall
and you don't want to live your life to hit a wall

When I feel like giving up
I like to think of you
all the help you gave me
all the times you pushed me through

but you didn't need me
you set me free
opened the lock with the key
and left me be

you opened my eyes
you let me see
but there was a train
about to run over me

Always relaxed, barely stressed
but inside your a nervous mess.
no one sees inside you.
no one sees that you are two.
no one sees that you hide,
the just think your open all the time.
everyone thinks you have hope
when inside you cannot cope.
everyone sees that your alive.
when reality is your dead inside.

12 o'clock
never seems to stop
I threw a rock
at the grandfather clock
but the tick tock
doesn't stop

We're all shady people
in a shady room
secrets hidden
out of view

we're all shady people
in a shady room
you don't know me
I don't know you

we're all shady people
in a shady room
the people are us
and the room is school

Sometimes bad days come and pass
Most of the time they seem to last

I am fake
and that's all I've ever been
I realise that now, that I'm not who I seem

This name is fake but inside its me
My real name, isn't who I was made to be
may be one day people will see

I'm not perfect
inside I'm falling apart
I hope you see me before I depart

but until then
there is secrets I'll keep
you will know them
when you're ready to know me

Forget my life
I'll dig a hole and live inside
away from pressure
away from hate
I'm not perfect
and I'll accept that fate
no need to put up a front
that kills me inside
I'm waiting for the day
when I can finally hide
away from all my troubles
away from all my life
the day when I can dig a hole
is the day my life will feel right

Shaking hands
stuttering speech
nervousness takes over me
bass in hand
I take the stage
no other option
I must stay

I steady my hands
and try not to speak
controlling my mind
bass in hand
on the stage
no other option
I must stay

can't turn back now
must look away
calm myself
bass in hand
now center stage
no other option
I must play

Savage teachers
education preachers
their "funny" jokes
and words that provoke
a reaction from the class
won't make us fail or pass
but they keep us entertained
they should have been comically trained

Impatience, someone I once knew.
Impatience, you may know him too.
He knows me
like he knows you.
He treats us different.
He treats us same.
Sometimes he makes us feel insane.
He understands just how we feel
and to his power we will kneel.
Follow his orders
for he is wise.
He takes over
and makes us cry.
He makes us angry
because he knows what we are anti
but to his power we will kneel
because he tells us how to feel.

Mentally and physically prepared, though you don't know what to expect.
Your walk though the door and your thoughts start to collect.
Nervous for what your about to do.
A weight starts to put pressure on you.
Edrenelin kicks in and then you're fine.
Your head is in the game as all fears are put aside.

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Swimming in the ocean
drifting far away from shore
alone and free
as waves push against me
and take me back
to where I was before.

the voice of an angel
pitch perfect
powerful words
spreading the message
without aggression
death unspoken
sadness possesses
your innocent look
taken to spread a message of love
for those who were treated unjust
warriors created through your eyes
warriors made when you hear their cries
their storied told through your softly sung words
and the bars you composed

No matter how much
you pray for tomorrow
it will never come.

Don't look into the future
Don't look back at the past
live your life in the moment
because you don't know how long it will last

I don't really know you
and you've never been close to me
I've never even met you
but sometimes you message me

I'm 13 years younger
but I never seemed to wonder
why you never knew
until one night my dad found you

he hasn't seen you for years
but he never thought this day would come
where he could know his first daughter
even though you are no longer the only one

Say goodnight to your friends
when your day ends
and as your eyelid decends

Sometimes in life we all strive
but never think of the other side.

When you bleed,  I will bleed too.
When you die, I will die with you.

Hiding in the shadow
no one can see my face,
hiding in the shadow
left without a trace.

No one hears my voice,
When I'm in a sound proof room.
no one hears my voice,
when I'm stuck inside a tomb.

hiding in the shadow
no one can see my face.
hiding in the shadow
left without a trace.

no one hears my voice,
crying in an empty room.
no one hears my voice,
crying without you.

Sometimes I feel as though I'm lost
and don't know what to do,
it is times like these where I sit and think of you.

Although I don't know who you are
I may have not even met you yet
but until we meet, I will not fret.

I'm waiting  for you to come to me,
open my eyes so I will see when you come through the door
or the day I meet you by the shore.

Burning my life down to the ground
there should be screams but there is no sound
no path to follow
only dreams that are hollow
unprepared for life ahead
or at least that is what was said
when I am unable to cope with the pressure
I will take the extra measure
to try and forget
but sadly it's not over yet

Love is a game,
until it's not.
you hide in the shame
as clear thoughts are lost.

love is a game,
until it's not.
I was for you to claim
but you left me there to rot.

love is a game,
until it's not.
not something for fame, 
not something we were taught.

love is a game,
until it's not.
no love is the same,
love cannot be bought.

love is not a game,
love is not at all

Don't give me anything
because it's human nature to want more.
Leave me to live my life
and see how high I soar.

I don't want your pitty,
I can do it on my own.
leave me to live my life
you've seen how far I've already grown.

Forget what the society thinks for a day
see how your mind will start to sway
live the life you want to live
and think of the people you want in it
you were created
you are not there to be hated

Do what you want just for a day
see which way your views will sway
a life that you want to live
a life with only you in it
you may not want to live like this
but you know what will fit

I don't want to hear about your problems.
They don't really matter to me,
I have a life,
that you never seem to see.

I don't want to hear your stories
I've heard them all before.
Their nothing revolutionary
and that's for sure.

I can't solve them for you.
I don't care what you think when I don't give a ****.
It's your life,  your problems.
Just accept the hint and stop telling me about it.