By the time,
I finish staring.
and take time to
visualize,
what you are wearing.
I internalize with my eyes,
your body language vocalize.
I focus, as I, verbalize, by
saying something nice
and polite -- on the outside.

But,
  on the inside. . .

Alone with the relentlessiness of doubt; with out reason.  Thoughts laboring my heart continously suffering,  with the agony of pain. The harsh reality of time echos throughout my vains; many times over, these thoughts; lay claim like a quiet storm, held captive by the damage of ancient remains.

The reason you can't think straight;** I turned you on, and it's all your fault.

People change.
             People move on.
People hurt you.
      
             So get over it.

The day we met,
My heart skipped over hi,
And fell in love.

Searching your mind,   
Revealing your soul.   
A piece of my mind,   
Making you whole.   
The depths of your feelings,   
Defines the depths I will go.   
I know what I know,   
Time for me to show,   
How well though. 
Like never before, 
Here I go.   
Persuading your body,   
In so many ways,   
You're powerless to evade,   
The prowess of my ways.   
Caressing your tenderness.   
These moments your memory will replay;   
Haunting parts of your body in a special way.   
Reminiscent of this very day,   
Our parts bonding as we lay.   
Still influenced in ways you can't see,   
Rather feel, so its as real as can be.   
These unique pleasures bestowed upon you,   
Impaling your reality with my point of view.   
This abundance of energy; this vitality.   
A reflection of you and me.   
Enticing you mentally,   
controlling you physically,   
releasing you and me chemically.
Doing it intelligently.
Getting deep inside of you
So you can better understand me.
I am the man leading your hand
follow my lead and you'll supercede
peaks and ****** in ways never seen.
Now that I'm on the scene
driving you crazy,  taking the scenic route in between throws of passion while Kinging my Queen

If hearts are made for breaking,
then do what you have do.
cause when its through with breaking
I'll be through with you.
So when you're done with talking.
I'll be talking until you're through.
Bad mouthing me, is what you do.
and you've been talking 2,
the way you talking, that's just you, doing you.
wish you would just keeping walking too.
but I guess that just isn't you - boo.
you are lame, so that's just game -- fact is true.
I see you and you are looking
cause you don't know what to do.
doing all that talking,
guess that's just you being you.
now i got some talking to do.
whats right is wrong,
waiting for you to admit.
but somethings are just impossible.
If hearts are made for breaking,
then do what you have do.
cause when its through with breaking
i'll be through with you.
so you do all that talking you do
cause I can do some talking too.
what goes around,
is coming after you.
just wait your turn;
Karma doing what she has to do.
If hearts are made for breaking,
then do what you have do.
cause when its through with breaking
I'll be through with you.

I should blame cupid, for the strings he pull.
Now you seem so pure, and your beauty full.
I love your eyes, more than I thought I could
I'm losing my mind, but for you, its all good.
Wish you would, open your heart and let me in your hood.
I'm so in love with you, treat you better than anyone could.
Fell in love with you,
                          Hit my head,
                                    I didn't feel a thing.
                                     It was the strangest thing.
                                     Love at first sight,
                                     Even if you fight,
                                     you will never win.
                         Break my heart,
                                     I'll would just trade it in,
                                     Find you in the After-life
                                     Then do it all again.

The damage of emotion.
Endless in its persuasion of an
Absent mind.
Heartless I'm sometimes,
it's a fault of mine.
Climbing over the thoughts.
In this shrine.
thinking thoughtless thoughts
And its fine.

You see. My ribs are touching. The kitchen has nothing. The fridge empty to the point thoughts of my dog starting to tempt me. You eating like a king, got like four plates empty. Beef and stakes eating all healthy,  chilling in your beach house, huge couch HDTV watching The NFL in HD listening to acy-breaky telling the cops you can't make me. I want a piece of the pie, can't get a break of this cake and we all know why. These snakes eat off of large estates, and feed off bigger plates, no matter what their eyes see, life is great, I just bless their soul, and wish them fate. They can lie to me, and say they love me, but I feel the hate. They say the understand me, but can't relate.

She loves me,
She loves me not.
And then she
Loves me.
Then she,
Changes her mind at the drop of a hat.
Fight all the time, how ****** up is that.

Hate you for leaving me
Said you believe in me
but I thought you meant
you believed in me
Instead you left me on empty
now I get the meaning see
wont let you get the best of me immediately after I cut my ties
I realized, after all these lies
That life was suited for me
a bunch of jacks and jokers and middle guys acting like we are one of a kind
reading their minds
Then flushing these guys before the river dries

Listen to your heart
I know you hear me.
The touch of my lips, will always be there, like you are right near me, even though you can't feel it, believe it. Cause the way they make love, not many can't achieve it. Minds of thier own, doing as they please. ******* on your lips, loving how you tease. Know your spots like the back of my hand, not playing fair, trying to gain the upperhand, having my way with you, now you are starting to understand. Kissing on your bottom lips, in the same context, we basically having ***, in these stanzs. On our course to *******, trying to be the bigger man, and we know what's next, read the directions in the text; A Hot shower after our bubble bath, then repeat after having more ***

The times here, mind clear
removed fear, mind fully-aware
they can’t calculate my circumference
they try-angle-hate to encompass
i’m too persistent
consistently consistent
my philosophy brilliant
they’re mindfully malignant
plots thicken and spots pigment
perfect gentlemen, acting indecent
handed them knowledge, didn't keep it
then peep game, telling secrets
I’m sure they’re getting seasick
its been written, still going off the top
the deep-end, the stuck on the plot

he dudes want to battle my verses
they can't even read my curses
Jamaican style,I'll ****** you with curses
then write your ulogy in cursive
you can't understand my flow your so subversive
i'm deeper than the surface,
i'm so submersive
so stop playing with my time, you are so not worth it
if you want to get beat you can get tekken,
i'll transform into sun-tsu
and use your one style against you,
theirs two sides to every story
so this plot
could get complex
i'm already at the top
so if you try to climb-max
**** could get confusing,
trust me- you don’t want me ******* to my own conclusion
don’t force my hand, I’mma a dope dealer
with more beemers than than a four wheeler

advance floorplay
that's how these fourplay
money, power, respect, thats my forte
lifes a *****,
that's what my dog say.
i walk the talk- don't listen to Beyond-says
karma busy gettin that foreplay
while finishing first, .
seems to be my forte.
life goes around,
and it **** around, been waiting all day.
i expect the same around fourty
these dudes don't measure up
my spit game slicker than WD-40
turn a grown man to a shorty
i'm even first in 1st class, the view is excellant
serving these fools, I'm a lyrical savant

if i'm talking about the keys, i could be trippin
I frequent flyer miles, so i must be trippin
i'm frequently flyer, now that's advertising!
And they still won't give a nikka credit, how surprising!
took it like a grain of salt, now the steaks is meszmerizing
sipping Moet over the rocks, appalachians
me myself and my iphone uniting nations
they just hope its Opuss, with your hokus pukas
you can point fingers, just don't poke us
I fear no one, cause life ain't a fear
they still criticize god, so I'm fair ground
speak it into to manifest,
let got then handle the rest, with fanase
and since i got a heart of gold,
all i do is treasure chest.

music playing in the background
listen to the words and let your body make the sound
the way i am coming at you, don’t back down
put on this blindfold and then lay you back down
loving it when you call my name- i am addicted to that sound
what goes around, comes around, so i hope you come around.
i hope you don’t take any of this the wrong way
i was thinking about you, so being your on my mind
I’m just writing down, what the words say
I’m a playful person, so I hope you like my wordplay
At the very least, since i am not there-I hope you are feeling this
mouth wide open, as you are reading this.
I knew you’d like poetry, now you are believing this

I don't take myself too seriously
but I hope you, take me, seriously
I hope we get to do our thing
dont need a title,
lets just what our luck will bring.
Right now, iIwant to hold you and talk to you
put my arm around your waist, and just walk with you
show you off around the place, be proud of you
then take you to the room, and get loud with you.
create memories and share secrets- doing things that i wrote to you
freaky little things that stay between me and you.
Since you aren't the type to just let anyone get close
that means with both special, i appeciate that the most.
even Ethiopian Queens need Kings too
you already know, that my throne, thinks of you...(lol_
those other guys don't get you the way I do
the words I write, is what I think and what I think, I do.
now your imagination got you seeing things the way i do
I got much more to give, than those other kats do
your body fine, and still love just vibing with you
blow money and just spend time with you
take time- watching how your body move
not being bold, just being honest Bo
take you in the kitchen so I can make love to you
then head to the bath, wash it of, just in time for round number 2
I'm getting off track, this is what thoughts of your body do
as a result, I'm thinking out my plans for you- arousing your every desire, you caused a spark, now i'm igniting your fire- and won't stop until your bodies tires. From the second I watch you standing in line, you've been something to admire.

look how far we have come, just imagine
where we will go.
Your imagination, is my destination,
so sit back and enjoy the show.
I might not be as talented with as my counterparts- i rather take my time mastering your parts. crossing your lines, exploring your arts. You can take it anyway you like, just let me take over when we get to my favorite part. I've been turning you on from the start, its only right I get you off. lips so soft, my scent doesn't wash off. Making sick love,send you home with a cough. I tried to rank you, but your off the charts. If this was a game, I'd be the King of spades and you would be the black queen of hearts. My favorite part of this, is playing are parts. I dont know, there is still alot to learn. I hate to see you go, but love taking turns watching you *** and go.
writing you these words, i hope the follow you to sleep.Getting wrapped up in my words like I
were your sheets. I am not trying to come at you the wrong way- but you've been on my mind all day. Putting you in all the right positions, my edition of feng shui. Take a mental picture and keep it stored away so when I finally see you, I can do things the right way. If it was up to me, you wouldn't know the difference between night and day. Close the blinds, lock the door, unplug the phone, and lets play; you do, everything, I say.

listen to you, coming at me with that lingo. I didn't take you for a *****- you must have things in limbo. i can tell from your words, you arent that simple. Those words and metaphors, thats my way of showing you I'm sharper than swords. Words can cut deep, or they can heal sores. I respect your position, i have respect for yours. I dont waste anything, I make good use of everything, but i am not looking for a wedding ring. I'm looking for the special thing, it will happen when it happens. Not seducing you with rapping, I wont even let that happen. I am more into the mind ****, i dont get you wet just to let things dry up. My words will leave you *******, sexting me, describing how you love the way i ****- the way i pull on your hair, when I am getting that nut, the way i squeeze you tight, when you are moving it right. You might *** first, but I am lasting all night.So you can keep counting down the nights, i don't plan on it happening on any specific set of rules, or certain days or nights. I just want to make sure that when it happens, the feeling is right. No mixed signals, as long as we are on the same page, its alright. I'm not a toy, and I do bite. I know right from wrong, so i always do things right, no exceptions on that night. I know you are worth it; I love being right. So you cant take the bait, i wasn't baiting you. I told you what i want, i wasn't faking you. So sway those hips, and keep flaunting. i'll mess around and have thoughts of me following you around, like your haunted. Give it to you so good, I'll be on your most wanted poster, leave you wishing i was closer. you are not the only legend in the room, so move over. you aren't dealing with a boy, the games are over. I plan on staying for a while, but its not what you are thinking. I get you turned on and leave you dripping, foreplay ending with no ***- that's what you got me thinking. so be careful what you wish for, you might get it, then regret it. stop thinking about the timing of how things happen, and just let things happen. We've been talking for how long, and nothings happened. for what its worth, i already value you. I rather explore you mind, than ravage you.

I remember the first time i saw you in the hall.
Alot of pretty girls, but you I liked you more than them all. Beautiful blues eyes, with hair like a river fall. Your favorite color was black, and wore higher heels cause you liked feeling tall. I remember making you laugh so hard, it made you fall. I remember talking for so long, we fell asleep at the end of our first call. Making you smile, when your friend past away. Your parents couldn't watch your play, so after practice, I made sure that I would stay -- remember watching you play and being blown away. Falling in love, then after not knowing what to say. Then planning your surprise on Valentine's day, I knew you were shy, so I showed up early that way -- so i could pull you to the side, and give it to you in my special way. But you let Adam kiss you, so I just threw it away. I knew he liked you, but I knew you didn't feel the same way. Cause when he told you that he liked you, you looked over in my way. But when he asked you, you said yes anyway. I know love, because I met you. But have hated it since that day. Love at first sight, is beautiful. Just hated watching it walk away. It was a long time ago, but still feels like yesterday, in a couple days. I love you, but I hate you, in my own I still like you way.

She just walks into a room and causes trouble
selling her pride on the side as lil hustle
see the worries in her eyes
these guys and their lies
she doesnt love’em or trust’em
telling them lies like its nothin
A Diamond, in the rough
Smooth skin, acting tough
A lost cause, but still worth somethin.
But she doesn't know when enough is enough.
Caught in her own web of keeping up.
Using pins and needles to keep herself up.
Tried to walk a straight line, easier being ****** up.
Been fighting through a struggle her whole life
"Doing what I have to.", read her tattoo on the right
her body paying the price
addicted to the hustle and the fast life
fast cars and flashing lights
Nikki Manjing for an extra $200 a night
the money feels good
She's getting it all right.
She’s all in,
ryde or dye for life.
Her daddy telling her he loves her
she believes him
and wont leave him
cause abusive love; is still love
a pimps love is deceiving.
Same face full of tears reappear when the drugs disappear
she had big dreams, in a small town that are no longer there.
An addiction kept her here.
Working the track, lost her long hair.
From sun up until the bright sky  is no longer there.
Drugs kicking in
she wishes she wasn't here.
Judge calling for her order
Warranted, Her lawyer doesn’t even care
going through her own trials and tribulations
with herself her family isnt even there
its apparent that nobody else cares
lied too many times crying wolve
now everyone and every thing gone-- they ain't there.
she sayin this ain’t fair
as its time for her to face fear.

I didn't want it to end up like this
Gotta be somethin for me to write like this
been thinking about you for a minute
only you get me to react like this.
Loving you even when you push the limits.
loving you so much forgetting wrong or right.
thinking, in the middle of the fight.
I can’t wait to make this right.
Cause make up ***, after anger text was always the best.
We’ve had our share of unfair fights
   you played you fair role, even though I was right.
relationship have their its ups and downs
and we got too uptight,
started taking things
the wrong way
and what we had left,
wasn’t right.
Couldn’t hold it down,
cause we weren’t solid ground.
kept letting each other down,
smiles always upside down,
falling for someone else,
more ****** up than it sounds,
when we came back to our sense,
it’s each other we found.
It’s funny how you see things for what they are.
Aiming for the moon, when you're right next to a star.
Wasting time chasing something you will never find
at least I have learned over time,
learned from mistakes takes time.
If you love it in the first place, don’t let it go.
So when it comes back, it doesn't have a place to go.
the fact just goes hand in hand
it’s what most people don’t understand.
the union between a man and his woman.
abandoned they fall apart, and united they stand.

Causally awaken.
Deceiving perception.
Desires clouding.
Thoughts amounting.
Thirst building.
Blind folded.
Saliva dripping.
Unclothed and,
Her body rolling, down my lips,
Full lips, her mound I kiss,
tricking up and down her neck,
Our lipstick,  as we kiss.
Eyes open wide
Body paralyzed
Skin tantalized
Satisfaction written on her face
Our rhythm guides the pace
Quivering from the vibes

She's laying down.
Lying through her cold grey eyes.
Staring at me,
Whispering lies, as she smiles.
She seeks answers,
My lips sealed,
Our tongues are tied.
through the clarity of an experience.
One can't deny.
I follow her ever move,
This girl is sly as she is fly.
Her body hand-crafted by the gods.
With Beauty in her cards,
She plays people for what they are.
Our beings, her strength.
Her flesh, my weakness.
And I have notice, she knows this.
And knows exactly what she's looking for.
And once she get's it she wants it even more.
Her chance she will take it, and won't let go.

Broken my heart a thousand times.
So all the pieces I lose track.
I guess you left an impact.
I bet you already knew that.

I see that, you got a new tat.
With your hair cut short, and now it's jet black.
I've been texting your phone,
But you won't respond back.
Told me that you would love me forever,
So what kind of love is that,
Won't even pick up your phone,
You can at least take it back.
All those things you told me before,
Now they don't mean jack.
You said it wasn't me, but it doesn't feel like that.
It feels like an excuse, I'll let Karma deal with that.

To see the bright side,
Trust in myself is my only chance.
Life ain't always what it seems cause it changes too fast.
And if you can't keep up, then it's your own ***.
Changing people, with change faces, that fit the cast.
So deceitful, like clown faces, they make my laugh.
So fake at being fake, I must have missed that class.
Love me or hate me either way, I do I even ask.

Got your back when things are up,
Your luck turns, they turn their back, and stab your ***.
Said that change, changed you
Because they still lack class
Like passing gas in class
It catches up their *** fast
The fakes, always show their ID's so they never last.
Just as long as you watch them, playing play pretend
All those cover girls
Always get turn apart in the end
and be yourself, it's easier to remember your past.
Cause the people you past, on your path
Will rewrite history, telling their better half
like they wrote your first draft, and you lied about your last.

I rather mark my milestones, as cornerstones, so I don't lose track.
Looking back, I now where I've been going, and how to get back.

Right now,
I'm alone, and I feel that way.
At least I think I do.  
And its making me sad,
Because I know better.
I am too scared of living a pointless life, to life one.
I fear only the large hand of time's final stance,
Not giving me a second chance.
on the second hand, with another glance
presence of mind,
Will change the circumstance.

Smack
After every slap
And stroke.
the whip,
cracks across your back.
Flush with arousal,
Immense pleasure,
your body reacts.
your lesson reaching you
teaching you how to relax
As your legs spread,
your mind relapses.

Blindfolded.
Waiting patiently.
His warm voice fills the room.
The heat soothing.
His sharp tongue commands me,
passionate demands test my devotion.
His fingers rolling over my buttons,
Intimately releasing my fears.
His hot touch explores my restraint,
thoughts consumed with desire.
As I gasp for air, as my exquisite thirst for desire grows in anticipation of
his dominance,
My subdued submission,
Begs for permission,
To serve my passion.

Don't ask me how it happened,  it just did.  like the rain painting the sky wet,
She seduced me, effortlessly.

She wasn't just beautiful, she was complicated, with a strong mind. She was fierce, and barely slept at night. Coffee was her drug,  and wine her exilir. She wasn't just talkative, she had something to say, something that mattered.

Living our life, in a place so untrue.
Search for life, no directions I am just getting by
going through
these things I keep going through.
Playing my part
Cause that's what I am suppose to do.
I know what I want, but
Even that ain't true.
Giving it all I got,
cause it's all I can do.

Okay, so I have these recurring nightmares. One is about bullfighting, a six headed fire breathing dragon, and one about clowns eating my toes. And, dude, clowns ****!

Facing fear is like going toe-to-toe with most fearsome Dinosaur in the world... once you realize it really isn't there, it's just  a matter of facing it.

Ran my fingers
Through your shivering rivers
And it figures your bones quivered
From the chills of my pillar
Curling your toes like cold stones
This male man delivered
Eruptions explode as
Your great walls erode
our rising tides,
we rode.
Like a tight rope,  
wrapped around,
a thick post, secured to the ground.

jumped  off the edge
looking for adventure
Found freedom
Midflight
spent the day
falling between miles
Until midnight
landing on a building
And set sights on an empire

And kiss me until my lips are numb.

then hold me until the moon turns to the sun.

And then laugh until our sides hurt.

Then eat until you stomach aches from us talking too much.

And see me the only way you do, so I know it's safe to be me.

And squeeze me until my heartbreaks, then don't leave until I am better.

Just don't leave me. Please.

I saw something beautiful today. I didn't try to capture it with photo. Rather ravished it with my mind. Inspiration copied countless times, the gods version always better than mine. One last cold glance hides the thought rummaging through my mind. This type of inspiration is inspiring to me.

Okay so way back then, when
I wasn't good  and would just pretend
I had stardom that bigger than anyone could comprehend
even when
my biggest
was my little blue pen
that never gave in
even when
I caught my second winds
chasing my dreams
Found followers in the end
Driven by a passion
that will never end
fueled by the energy
Sharing my feelings
felt by all of them
Don't even know my name
But feelin the exact same
So different in appearance
But it's more apparent
We are all the same
Cause they feel what I am saying
And like the pain
I am chasing believers
Forget the fame
or end up a lame
lose myself to sir prize
And kiss my fan base good bye
Cause my album gets low buys
Fall victim to system
Instead of living my life
I rather have 1000 likes
Then contract a contract;
The disease that instantly ruins an artist for life.

I want you,
I need you
What can't you see.

My wrongs,
Are my faults
Do you blame them on me.

I am what I am,
A plain old human being
But please don't let me be.

Have you seen Zina, tell me have you seen-a, little thing,  with hopped ear rings, writing little things, to make your ears ring. With the blue rose, shows when her breast exposed,  it makes the blue Jays sing. Lost in a world that values shiny things,  of little value, yet the envy it brings. Rather share in the moment, while I have you, than miss anything. I want you more than everything,  callabo at the least, if anything. A talented artists, given gifts to give,  awaiting what you bring.

Sliding ******* inside herself,   
She felt reminded of him,   
In ways she had already felt. 
Him behind her   
Feeling her behind 
While inside her;   
******* deep 
A slim reminder   
Of his deep reach 
Deep inside her.   
Meeting her body's 
Demands for a man, 
In ways only a man's
Helping hand can
Deliver her.

I'm still alive and don't have a reason.
Said I won't go but thinking bout' leaving.
Odds against me
now I'm barely breathing.
Got a,
Broken heart that won't stop bleeding.
And I,
Even tried, but I cant stop grieving.
Without you,
Living life
feels like I am not even living.
Way too good to be true
So our end was a given.
Because Love is pain
ESPECIALLY If you give in,
the hurt is insane
And so unforgiving.
Broken to the point
It's pointless to healing.
Who needs a heart
when all lovers do is steal them.

Close Your Eyes And Count To Ten. Open them. Then write down the first word you see... amazing,  right?