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Ysa Pa Oct 2017
I love you
You said it with such ease
That it scared me
My heart leaped
My vision beamed
I love you
It was so beautiful to hear
How easily you said that to me
I love you
I know now why i was scared
For how easily you said those words
I love you.
That's also how easy it was for you
To say goodbye
Such sacred words
Said with ease
I thought it was frightfully beautiful
It turned out to be beautifully frightful
Ysa Pa May 2015
I'd love you every far, every moment, every night
I'd love you even if the sun doesn't shine
If love you even more, every time the moon passes by
I'd love you as much as the stars in the sky
I'd love you when you're up
I'd love you when you're down
If love to wild away that frown
I'd love you when you're far
I'd love you when you're near
I'm not leaving so there's no room for fear
I'd love to hold your hand
I'd love to take your time
I'd love to be the one
I'd love to call you mine


*If only you were mine...
Ysa Pa May 2016
Sitting on the bathroom floor
Getting drizzled by a substitute for rain
I'm scrubbing my unclean wounds
In the hope of washing away the pain

Finally leaving the lavatory
I felt the electronically generated frosted air
I turned on the lights
No one was there

I moved to the bed
Where the pillows lie
As I tuck myself to sleep
I started to wonder why

Caressing my face
With a damp cloth
No tears fell
But who would have thought

As I learned the meaning of
The word treachery
In the dark
You abandoned me

I can't believe that it's you whom I used to write for
And if ever you knew
Of the countless words and that I'm still writing more
What would you do?
Ysa Pa Jun 2015
I tried to stop  but I couldn't
I know that I shouldn't
But I still do
I love you
Ysa Pa Aug 2015
We were happy
Then we weren't anymore
I got over you
I forgot the feelings of fondness
I buried the memories
I moved on
I let you go
I didn't talk to you
Didn't text you
Messaged or emailed you
Called you
Or met up with you
Heck, I didn't even think about you
You never crossed my mind
I forgot your little mannerisms
I removed your entire existence from my life
I was okay
I was coping up
I was healed
Or so I thought...
It was just a normal day
The usual everything
Then we accidentally bumped into each other
With your wide eyes
The usual smile
And with your voice
Through your lips
You uttered my name
Exactly how you used to
And just hearing the sound of your voice
Say my name
Everything
Every single thing
The tiniest details
Came gushing into me
Overflowing in my mind
Overwhelming my heart
And I lost control
I thought I forgot
No...
I wished that I had forgotten
But I haven't
I do miss you
Every little thing about you
And every tiny detail that makes you... You
I was okay
Or so I believed...
Nobody makes my name sound like how you say it
Who would have thought that just one random fateful second
Would send me back to square one
I will extract you from my life once more
And hope that I never hear you say my name again
I told you that i don't love you anymore
... I lied
Ysa Pa Feb 2017
Scribbling the thoughts away again
Finding the perfect combination
Of symbolisms and phrases
To create the perfect  illustration
Something to represent
With conciseness and ambiguity
The earth shattering well of emotions
Which you made me go through daily
From too good to be true
Till unlivable complications
I've compared you to pixie dust
Dragon's breath and volcanic eruptions
I've likened what we had to
Child like wonder, make believe, bright eyes
Bed time stories, the attic ghost
Rainbows, unicorns and stormy skies
I kept writing
To preserve what once was perfect
And to release what I can no longer carry
Something which we failed to protect
I've told exactly what happened
In a way that only you would know
I've written so many similar lines
Titled differently just for show
I've promised to stop
To stop writing for you
Yet here I am again
Without anything else to do
With stanzas you'll never read
And proses you'll never hear from me
No more stories, just plain words
Plain final words I hope, no more fantasies
I loved you, I might still do
But what used to be in is almost out
I'm tired, exhausted really, and I've had enough
I loved you, finally my ink is running out
The page filled up with scribbles
Full but empty at the same time
When ink no longer poured out
And words no longer rhymed
I exhaled, finally breathing again
I ran out of words but I'll keep writing
Writing till I don't know when
It may be unbelievable
But it's long overdue
To say that those future metaphors
Will no longer be for you
Unsent letter
Ysa Pa May 2015
Scribbling the pointed tip of a feather
Across the fleeting pages
As if the hand was under someone else's tether
The ink turning to uncontrollable rages

As if the semblance was trapped in a clink
The great facade turned futile
And with that momentarily blink
The genuine thoughts unshackled through doodles

Unlocking the cages
Honest words overflow
Crowding the pages
Inked by the soul
*~ how poetry allows the overflow of words from one's soul
Ysa Pa May 2015
The galaxy
The stars
The planets
The earth
The continents
A country
A city
A crowd
A person in that crowd
A pair of eyes
A pair of eyes that were staring back
And *the smile that was given
The moment when our eyes locked...
Ysa Pa May 2015
I've memorized the look of your back
As you held my hand, moving forward with life
I've memorized the look of your back
Letting go and leaving me, moving forward with your life
I'm supposed to be asleep by now hahah it's 3am where I'm from and I just can't get him out of my mind. How he looked walking away from me. I just stood there staring at him walk away. And now I'm staring at the ceiling and still seeing him walking away


Just wanted to share... Hoping that ill be able to walk away from the flashbacks
Ysa Pa Apr 2016
As a blanket of previously warm darkness envelopes the earth
Wearing the overused sweater that lost your scent
Gripping the damp unwashed handkerchief
I wonder
That maybe
Another universe exists
A parallel world
An alternate reality
Wherein
Everything in this existence
Is also present there
But a little different
That in that reality
Nothing was broken
Nothing needed fixing
Or what broke
Was fixed on time
I wonder
That maybe
In that parallel reality
There's an alternate 'me'
Happily saying 'us' and 'we'
Maybe in that parallel world
Nothing was broken
While I'm here wondering
What happened.
Ysa Pa May 2015
Standing at the edge of a cliff
People surround you

One tells you to jump

Another tries to convince you not to

Then there's a person who'll push you

There's another who'll try to stop you from falling,
By clinging on to your arm

There's a person waiting at the bottom of the cliff,
Waiting to catch you

Then there's the person
Whose the reason why you're jumping




And then...
There's an unexpected person
Who'll *jump with you
There are different kinds of people in your life... You just need to figure out who is whom.

This is something I realized after an incident... I just wanted to share ^-^
Ysa Pa May 2015
When we first said hello
It was unforgettable
It was awkward
It was real and magical

I looked at you
You stared back
We moved closer
And shakily uttered the first words
The first beguiling words of our relationship
Then we walked away
I looked back and waved
You were already staring

                                                                                    When we last bid farewell
                                                                                     It was unforgettable
                                                                                     It was awkward
                                                                                     It was real and detrimental

                                                                                     I was looking for you
                                                                                     You gazed at me
                                                                                     We moved closer
                                                                                     And shakily uttered the last words
                                                                                     The last agonizing words of our relationship
                                                                                     I looked back and hoped
                                                                                              
                                                                                                                                 ...But you didn't
Ysa Pa May 2015
Our goal isn't to last forever
It's create something that will
Something worth-it
That would remind others of our existence
That would impart our identity
That would explain our souls
That would carry the pieces of our hearts
And to symbolize that we have truly lived!
Ysa Pa Apr 2016
A flare too risky to hold
A flame too hot for the coldest of the cold
A blaze unable to be glanced upon
A ludicrous conflagration
A spark too absurd to illuminate
A burn too dangerous to reciprocate
An ignited too deadly too recall
An incineration that ends all
An inflamed too painful to understand
An inferno too impossible to withstand
A meaningless and lifeless torch
A hopelessly cold and unfeeling scorch
Those are all the fires I knew
Then I encountered a fire that's true
I got too used to heat that I forgot
The difference between warmth and hot
You introduced a fiery fervor
I learned of a feverish ardor
Now that I have fallen in love so selfishly
To use your fire fueled by ardency
To warm up my heart that's burned and icy
Will you allow me?
Ysa Pa Dec 2016
Allow me to be conceited,
And use this ink for myself.
These words are not for you,
I wrote these for no one else.
For once, I wrote for me.
But I wrote these words,
As I recalled how I was consumed
In your labyrinth of a world.
Enveloped by your deceptive warmth,
And tricked by your hypnotic gazes.
Being fooled by your empty vows,
The  pitiful reality is...
I wrote these words for me,
What I'm saying is true.
Tragically, these words are born,
From thoughts of no one else but you.
Haunted by memories of you
Ysa Pa Sep 2017
Tied into twists and knots
To loosen up, it dared not
Looped and suffocated as it is
But it didn't begin like this
Gently intertwined then suddenly
It became tied and tangled tightly
Some knew this might happen
It was only a matter of when
Either the knots would loosen
Or the objects would end up broken
But it was unforeseen when it came
Unforeseen but hoped for the same
The winding knot that was strangled
Is now, untangled
Ysa Pa May 2015
The perfect romance
The overwhelming trance
Is such a scary state
For it can be negate

You were my home and my fortress
You were my dragon and I was your warrior princess
You were my thief and I was your jewel
*Back then... * Everything was mutual

Until

The flames stopped glowing
The fires desist from burning
The candle ceased flickering
Our love halt from growing

You lost that look, your warm stare
I no longer felt your loving care
We've grown apart while we were together
So much for that thing called "forever"

I knew that your love was gone
I felt that I was no longer the one
I decided to ask whether our love was fading
Hoping that I was just complicating

My eyes see what is real
My soul knows what you feel
My heart pleads for it to be untrue
My ears beg to hear the words "I love you"

As my lover didn't utter a word
*It was the loudest silence I've ever heard
"Silence is the loudest scream"

A part of me wished that he would lie and stay with me.

Special thankies to a good friend i call Mr. Footlong (Vincent) for making minor revisions <3
Ysa Pa Jan 2018
There's an untold tale
Behind every favorite song
Reminding of what felt right
As everything became wrong
Ysa Pa Jun 2015
Gising na nananaginip
Sari-sari ang naiisip
At biglaang napagtanto
Paano kung hindi nahulog sa iyo
Paano kung Inibig mo rin ako
Paano kung tumagal tayo
Maraming katanungan
Mas maraming maaaring kahantungan
Ngunit hindi na malalaman
Ang mga masasaya sanang kahahatnan
Dahil ang "Tayo" ay pinigilan **** maganap
Pag-irog ng iba ang iyong hinanap
Sa ating paghihiwalay, ako ang mas nasaktan
Ngunit Mahal, ikaw ang higit na nawalan
Maaaring ikaw ay lumigaya
Sa piling ng iba, sa piling niya
At ako ang umibig ng lubos at umasa
Pero darating ang araw Mahal na
Magmamahal na ako ng iba
Higit pa sa pagmamahal ko sayo ang ipadarama
Mapagtatanto mo na lang
Bigla ka na lang manghihinayang
Wala nang magmamahal sayo
Gaya ng pagmamahal ko
Response to a request to write in my native tongue ^-^
Ysa Pa Jun 2015
Of all the men in the world
Of all the fish in the sea
Why you with a heart so cold
Be the one I want to see
Been busy lately hahaha but here's a stanza ^-^
Ysa Pa May 2015
The second you inhaled and walked through the halls
The minute you raised your head
The hour when you smiled and entered my life
The month of getting to know
The quarter of laughter and smiles
The year of fairytale
The lifetime of memories
The times we've shared
The wink of an eye that changed it all
The flash of life that made us realize
The instant we gazed upon each other
The moment we knew
The evanescent that ended it all
The lifetime of "what ifs" and "why's"
The year of pouring rain
The quarter of staring at the ceiling
The month of just trying to breath
The hour when you cried and bid farewell
The minute you bowed your head
The second you exhaled and walked through the halls again
Ysa Pa Aug 2015
A puzzle and its tiny pieces
With little details and creases
Fitting perfectly to the right parts
Creating one whole piece of art

Puzzles can be quite a handful
It's fragile yet still  beautiful
It's time consuming and requires attention
From beginning up till completion

Remember that each piece is vital
To lose one is highly crucial
No two pieces are the same
Each has its own part to claim

Emptiness of one piece filled by another
And careless mistakes that can make you start over
Once it's finished it can be put up for display
Or can be rebuilt again on another day

As I was completing my puzzle
I accidentally gave it a hard nuzzle
The pieces went flying all over
All that effort now just a blur

I started to pick up the pieces one by one
Wishing that they're still intact
Realizing that the puzzle is (still) undone
I hope I can get you, my missing piece back
Ysa Pa Dec 2016
As the world wrapped itself
With this blanket of brightness
The sun outstretched its arms
Illuminating every existence
As the leaves swayed
To the songs of daylight
Grass and petals bathed in dew
The birds hum and took flight
While the rays journeyed onto earth
The skies paint themselves blue
I'm thankful to witness
This daily miracle with you
Being in awe of the world's beauty
You and I, under the same warm light
In a world of mistakes and fear
This definitely had to be right
In a reality of temporal pain
And of seemingly permanent death
Witnessing how the world rises with you
Gave meaning to my every breath
As I watched how the sunrise
Paused time and took your breath away
I finally decided that
This is where I'd love to stay
Sunrises with you, gave meaning to my every breath
Daylight really is a miracle <3
Ysa Pa Jun 2016
You were broken
I was shattered
We were bits and pieces
That didn't fit together

But we tried
To staple, glue and control
The remains of what has been
Of what was previously whole

A lot of pieces are missing
Some where stolen or given away
Some are nothing more than ash
Some forgotten and some are here to stay

We tried to stitch up each other
But we ran out of thread
What started out as a way to recover
Now brings about dread

Fearing to hurt or be hurt
We arrived with the decision
That we should grow wings
Instead of rebuilding our prison

Instead of forcing to be whole
And forcing to fill in the gaps
Instead of risking to fall into the abyss
We should create our own map

If we can't fix what broke
If we can't restore what was lost
If we ran out of thread, staples and glue
Then lets go beyond the uncrossed

If we can't make the ash whole
Then lets build something new
If we can't go back to what has been
Then lets start with today, me and you

Instead of glue, staples and thread
Instead of living in fear and ache
Instead of breathing doubts and dread
Let us be abstract, let's be a mosaic
Ysa Pa Jun 2016
Oo ginawa mo na ang lahat
Binigay mo ang higit pa sa nararapat
Bumangon, tumakbo at tumalon ka na
Nagkandasubsob at nagkadapa-dapa ka pa
Tumawid ng bundok at ng mga karagatan
Ikaw ay nalunod at nasaktan
Nagsunog ng kilay, at kinalimutan ang tulog
Hinarap mo lahat at ikaw ay nagpabugbog
Ginawa mo ang lahat ng makakaya mo
Ngunit ikaw ay nabigo
Masakit, oo! Walang duda yan
Lalo na kung nalahat na ang iyong kakayahan
Nakakalugmo at nakakadusa
Nakakaiyak at nakakawalang pag-asa
Parang pinagsukloban ng langit at lupa
Parang pinagkaitan ng lahat ng mga tala
Mahirap! Masakit! Oo alam ko
Pero hindi pa ito ang huli o dulo
Maniwala ka sakin, mahirap pero kakayanin
Masakit pero hindi imposibleng gawin
Kung kelan nakasuka ka na ng dugo
Tangina! Ngayon ka pa ba susuko?
Lets just say that something happened...
Ysa Pa Aug 2015
I missed you at 3am, when the world was asleep and  when I was alone
I whispered to myself that it's only natural
But when I missed you at 3pm, when the world was awake and I was surrounded by people
It was only then that I realized...
It's always been you
Ysa Pa Dec 2016
As I ran out of air
And drowned in a sea
Which I've never known before
Starring in this unimpressive finale
I had this overwhelming
Unquenchable thirst
Desperate for a droplet
Preparing for the worst
Everyone's inability to hear
Matched with my absence
Of words to at least convey
To end this prolonged pretense
So I spoke with an unknown voice
And sang with an unheard tune
As if chanting spells and divinations
I created and casted my own rune
Surrounded by coldly fastidious eyes
I played and danced to a song
Which none has ever encountered
But felt and knew all along
Outside the box.
Ysa Pa Nov 2015
The streets, plain
The scenery, new but unchanged
The city, now black and white
The candle that failed to ignite
The crisp morning air
The usual affairs
The same unheated ground
Then there was a faint sound
The leaves started to sway
There was a presence of warm sun rays
The grass and flowers danced
The prospect, enhanced
All because my ears have found
A vaguely familiar and new sound
An enamoring explosion of melody
An enthralling harmony
A beguiling musicality
An enslaving euphony
A perfect array of notes
Flowing with a hypnotic coat
A piercing tune
Resembling a rune
It's rhythm, throbbing
It's tempo, moving
The sound was too perfect and strong
That it seemed like a torturous song
Nonetheless, it was a beautiful beat
Beautiful enough to move my feet
What I heard was an alluring sound
That eventually made me slide through the ground
I closed my eyes and followed what I heard
Walking, searching, to clarify the blurred
The faint sound, grew louder
Eventually I was overpowered
While seeking for the source of the hymn
I turned into a willing victim
My feet have stopped moving
When I saw a man, the man who was playing
My eyes settled upon his silhouette
Which was in contrast to the sunset
There he was, sitting on a wooden stool
Unknowingly making all the listeners drool
His fingers fluttering atop black and white keys
Creating color through a musical breeze
I saw him, that man
Still playing, talking through his hands
I followed a sound and saw a pianist
And then my heart was kissed
Not because of the music that made my ears fuss
Not because he splashed paint all over the dull canvas
But because of how he looked at the instrument
It's as if, for the piano, his eyes were meant
How he gazed upon it with those eyes
As if the piano was his only prize
How he goggled the piano with those eyes
As if for that instrument he was willing to agonize
As if he can only see the piano
As if there was only him and the piano
It was that look that little girls dream of
It was that look that symbolized love
That look that little girls wished were for them
That look that would give little girls contemn
That look that was only for the piano
That look that was pure as snow
That look was colorful and honestly warm
That look that entrapped a celestial swarm
That look which was gentle and intense
That look which was passionate and immense
That look which was alive, painful and afraid
In that moment, I longed for a shooting star's aid
As if a little girl, I wished for what little girls wish for
I wished for him to look at me like that, nothing more
But none can compare with his instrument
Nor to the reason why he plays it with such  intent
To the new girl he plays for
To the girl he currently adores
I hope his sound reaches you
I hope you listen and give him value
I hope you look at him as he plays for you
Look at him like how he looks at the piano when he thinks of you
Like how the crowd looks at him as he plays like this
Like how the little girls look like when they wish
Like how he used to look at the piano
When he misses and plays for the little girl, not too long ago
Spare me a few minutes and allow me to use black and white words to transport you in a colorful memory
Ysa Pa Dec 2016
Wounded ink;
Oozing.
Chained link;
Dividing.
Unsaid words;
Dripping.
Singing birds;
Grieving.
Fragile metaphors;
Breaking.
Shattered doors;
Closing.
Precedent images;
Creating.
Crossed bridges;
Burning.
Valiant fighter;
Surrendering.
Lonely writer;
Writing.
Here comes another hopeless romantic  ^-^
Ysa Pa Jun 2016
Giving a day for a selfless endeavor
Exercising charitable behavior
Immersing oneself for the sake of others
One would realize that love doesn't need to hurt

As we rode a bus to our immersion
In order to fulfill our assigned mission
We filled our heads with aims and goals
And prepared our hearts for the necessary roles

Arriving at our destination
It was near to what we've envisioned
To be able to visit not once but twice
We hope that we were able to suffice

Teaching the children and learning as well
I believe that we've gained more from our 'clientele'
We learned much more as we gave our all
We've gained their smiles as we gave so small

We've taught and given educational materials
But what really lasts are the ideals
I just hope that we gave them what they needed
I hope that all good seeds have been planted

To be able to touch lives and influence
It was worth all the expense
And to receive their smile
Truly makes it worth the while

Allotting time for the children's needs
Is a way for positivity to breed
Having open hands to let children hold
We've not only touched hearts but we've also mold

Spreading love and blessings
Gives one an irreplaceable feeling
To be able to help children
Is something we'd gladly do again
Ysa Pa Aug 2017
Before the explosion of rosy crimson
Before the shadows engulf the skies
It was this that painted the heavens
It's the color of the sun's loudest cry
Ysa Pa Apr 2016
The man who can never be mine


And


The girl left behind
I don't think that there's anything left to say...
Ysa Pa May 2015
There is an object lying on my desk
Something so simple yet so picturesque
Whose value tends to be forgotten
With a purpose wasted over and over again

With the help of tools, it's radiance flows
With a bit of aid, it will surely glow
Often, the results are better than we know
But if left untouched, it would be hollow

An empty space, a blank canvas
Utilized properly, it would surely surpass
All the expectations and the doubts
Grab it now  and let your identity sprout

May it be an artwork or literary
A musical score or a piece of origami
A sheet of paper, no matter how small
Can make a difference for us all

Something so thin and so plain
Offers numerous experiences we can attain
Take advantage of the entire blank space
Let us put our imaginations in replace
I randomly wrote this while staring at a blank bond paper on my desk ^-^

I was supposed to make a report for some school subject but I ended up realizing the importance of paper and how it's somewhat related to individuals searching for identities...
Ysa Pa May 2015
Walking along a straight paved path
Underneath the autumn trees
As the amber leaves began to fall
I recalled when I first felt this breeze

Glancing upon the orange dyed sky
I got reminded of what has been
Memories of you and I
Which are better left forgotten and unseen

I continued strolling...
Not knowing where I might wander off
Then I saw an old tire swing
Where the melody of love first begun to sing

I went to the picnic grove
Where we had our first lunch
Remember how we watched the afternoon turn to nigh?
We were in so much trouble, but it felt so right

Remember our mahogany tree?
The one that's all alone but looks so happy
Do you remember what you told me?
You promised that I'm the girl you'll marry

Yes, we were young, childish and silly
But I kind of took it seriously
We were kids and eventually grew up
I thought what we had was more than enough

Like our love the paved path didn't go on forever
I reached the end where our dreams withered
Strolling, the last stop I made
Was at the garden of lilies where all the promises had fade

I journey back on the path...
The path we used to walk on together
It felt a lot colder
And somewhat warmer

To cut it short, we didn't walk forever
We realized in the end we were on different roads
Now that my flashback is over
I walk the same path again with a new hand to hold
Well what I realized is that... It's alright if you and your significant other are walking on different paths. What matters is that both of you are looking and are heading towards the same direction ^-^
Ysa Pa May 2015
A dream that existed in reality
Now lies only in my memory
A happy ending that never came
And I'm the only one to blame

Everything was perfect but in an instance
We woke up and grew distant
Everytime we meet, I receive this glare
So filled with hatred, so cold and without care

My heart is crowded with regret
Because of all the things left unsaid
Seems that you've had forgotten all the memories
He previous laughter,meow giving me tears

A dream lived in reality
Started and ended with you and me
Now that our dream was left for dead
I realize now what I should've said instead

All I wish to do is apologize
And hope to vanquish the anger in your eyes
I would do anything to once again see your smile
And remind you that we were perfect even just for a little while
Ysa Pa May 2017
As the walls and ceiling spun
The scent of alcohol overpowered yours
With cognitive reasoning gone
It seems easier to get allured
Though the entire body was hot
You still longed for something warm
It seems permanence mattered not
As you held me with gentleness of a storm
Us, Dancing to an old tune
Unspoken of and unheard by most
And audience by none but the moon
While overwhelmed by the liquors' ghost
And as the moonlight pirouettes on skin
My hands travel from your chest to nape
You pulled me closer, as if we're melting
My skin ignited as you traced my shape
Pressing lips like never before
Shadows and silhouettes danced as one
Held closely as if tomorrow was no more
To be precise, tomorrow is when you'll be gone
Perfectly flawed, you and I
Not an 'us' nor a 'we' never 'ours'
Not fully genuine but not a complete lie
I still treasure these limited flawed hours
Always there but never mine
Always here but never yours
I still refuse to accept the signs
That ours is not an open door
...
...
You and I
Here I am
There You are
But "us", "we", "ours" is not in sight
Never was
...
And I'm terrified that it never will be
Ysa Pa Jul 2017
When it rains.
Think of me,
Without a hint of doubt nor hesitation
Careful, careless and carefree

Think of me.
When it rains,
Be strong and stand firm, smile
Allow it to conceal and hide the pain

Unbiased by opinion
The rain poured
As hard as it possibly could
Dropping melted swords
As it kept landing on the earth
Tuning itself into hypnotic sounds
Creating bittersweet music
And cleansing heat off the ground
It envelopes the world with its scent
Hiding fragile words in the loudness
Overwhelmed by the songs of rain
Steadily guarding the hearts' secrets
Entire sceneries are made to blur
Colorful umbrellas at bird's eye view
Making the streets look full of lights
Allowing me to dream of you
People run, avoiding droplets
People run, to be hugged by rain
The drizzling on rooftops
And puddles splashing away the pain
The frightful yet so comforting
Sound, sight, feel and scent
Allow me to be conceited in my belief
That for people like me, the rain was sent
Tears of sorrow and tears of elation
Rain, the confusing yet utter representation
Of the two deepest inexplainable emotions
A love unbreakable and its absence in separation

Think of me.
When it rains,
Without a hint of doubt nor hesitation
Allow it to take away every scar and pain

When it rains.
Think of me,
Be strong and release, smile
And lastly, please be genuinely happy
Ysa Pa Oct 2017
This. This is the end
Of our intertwined fate
Of our coinciding paths
The end that came quite late

Of our intersecting encounter
Of our windingly parallel paths
This is the end of "we" and "our"
This certainly must be the last

The most precious final time
That our eyes would meet
That our skin would touch
That we'd smile so sweet

Allow me to hold you
Embrace but not too long
For if I stay longer in your arms
Everything would go wrong

I would be incapable to let go
To push away and to walk out
To turn my back towards you
My adieu would be full of doubts

Let's stay like this for a bit
Enough to make hearts flutter
To have bittersweet reminisces
Enough moments to last forever

Enough but not too long
That it'd make hearts break
Or impossible to say goodbye
And leave memories that ache

So let me have one last glance
Not stare but one final look
At what i had lost, what i once had
Something that was mine but time took
Ysa Pa Sep 2018
We shared backstories, dreams and before long
You've shared your soul and favorite songs
Our fingers intertwined with sounds
Flashbacks with music all around
Listening now leaves a taste of marvel and panic
Leaving me mortified yet ecstatic
Sad songs declare how happy we once were
Happy songs serenade that I'll be happy once more
Only this time with your absence
Hoping to be unreminded of your presence
Dear stranger with overwhelming memories
How can untainted songs, untouched melodies
Newfound hymns and all the same
Still carry your scent and whisper your name
Ysa Pa Nov 2017
Clingy shades of trouble
Painful looking but pain free
Marking spaces on my skin
Where your lips used to be

Clingy shades of purple
Some temporary tattoo
Of unorganized design
A secret concealed by two

Clingy shades of couples
Proud but remaining unseen
Silent proofs of emotion
Traces of where you've been

Clingy shades of trouble
My all time favorite scar
Reminds of your presence
And the tale of what we are
Ysa Pa Feb 2018
A glass cube filled with fog
Containing adventure, concealing a trap
With a ribbon made of caution tape
You are fright and hope waiting to be unwrapped
With laughter that echoes like battle cry
A combination of comfort and danger
A curse I don't want lifted
You are my home, my doom, my grail. My adventure.
Ysa Pa Aug 2015
People see it as a symbol of distress
A sign of weakness
A representation of sadness
An equivalent to loneliness

But considering reality
It's full of irreplaceable memories
Wether happy or the opposite
It is full of life and spirit

These are songs from the sky
Hymns from up above
Rhythm from way up high
A manifestation of true love

Rain.
Pouring rain.

Unafraid of falling
Not frightened of crying
Willing to keep pouring
Real emotions are showing

When the world is overwhelmed  and can't take anymore
With the hatred and pain that humans store
It cries in our behalf
It tears up just enough

In order to wash at least part of our load
To make sure our hearts don't corrode
It releases our grief
And showers us with belief

Since the rain cries for our sorrow
Shouldn't we at least wear a smile, a beaming glow?
It weeps for us, to release our pain
The least we can do, is to smile in behalf of rain
Ysa Pa Feb 2017
During the brief moment
Of utmost vulnerability
The end of fairy tale kisses
Marking the era of a cruel reality

With the intention of shattering
You came, caressing the scars
With glimpses of desperation
And envying the collision of stars

With my inability to hinder
Your plans to have mine stolen
During my reconstruction of walls
You planned out the forbidden

You acted, without a shred of doubt
I responded, through utter loss
Now that its ended, I still can't believe
That what I warned others of, happened to us
Nts... Feb 17
Red
Ysa Pa May 2016
Red
The color introduced by daylight
The color of our first sight
The color brought by sunrise
The color reflected in your eyes
The color painted by sunset
The color when we first met
The color of fire and blaze
The color of your melting gaze
The color of blood flowing and shed
The color of the words you've said
The color you wore that day
The color of brick walls in the way
The color of your cheeks and lips
The color of and apple that fell to a cliff
The color of soaring balloons
The color of the ****** moon
The color of roses that mesmerize and *****
The color of promises, now making me sick
The color of memories and flashbacks
The color of wanting you back
The color of my anger
The color of our faded fervor
The color of hearts and celebration
The color of separation
The color of warmth and heat
The color of loss and defeat
The color of what has been
The color which I'll never see again
The color introduced by your presence
The color stolen by your absence
Red is the color of the blazing sun
Red isn't the color, now that you're gone
Red is the color of love in our eyes
Red isn't the color when that love faced demise
Ysa Pa Jun 2016
As the sound of the fireworks
Signaled celebration for the rest
As the night sky lit up with lights
It was the beginning of a test

Fireworks echoed the end
It was similar to the sound
Of breaking and collapsing
Of everything crashing down

The more the twists and turns
The more worth and excitement
The more the trials challenges
The more resistance to torment

As fireworks exploded in the sky
As fire rained downed onto earth
As the end echoed from the flames
A beacon of hope was given birth

A beacon enveloped in flames
Which tried to exterminate
An embodiment of strength
Which can never depreciate

Wrapped in burning flames
Which tried so ever
To turn it to nothing
But it didn't surrender

A Phoenix born from the ashes
A beacon that would not surrender
A Phoenix that lit up in darkness
A Phoenix that only gets stronger

A Phoenix that's brighter
Than anything ever seen
Born from fire that burned it
And stronger than what it's been

When there is nothing more but ash
And when it seems hopeless
Be your own Phoenix
And illuminate in darkness

So that everyone in doubt
And all of the hindrances
Will be in awe and no longer deny
Your immeasurable unwavering resilience

A Phoenix that wouldn't allow
The same flame, to burn it down
A Phoenix that turns fire
Into its glorious gown

A Phoenix that turns the end
Into a magnificent enviable crown
A Phoenix, even in a sea of fire
Wouldn't dare burn or drown

From the fire and ashes, it has risen
Unwavering strength and unyielding flame
Spreading its wings to soar once again
I am still me but no longer the same
I am stronger.
Ysa Pa Dec 2016
I used to regret what I didn't do
But now I'm glad that I didn't stop you
It is so satisfying to hear you say
That you're sorry and wish you stayed
It is in my proud honor and privilege to reply
That you wasted your chance as you bid goodbye
I remember you saying I was the one who lacked
Now here you are desperately crawling back
*insert cute evil laugh here*
Ysa Pa Jun 2016
Realizing for the first time
That I indeed had a heart,
My heart thumped.
I felt it,
It was unlike anything before.
But it was too late
As I realized...
My heart was slowly,
Painfully,
Mercilessly,
Being pulled out of me.
Once out,
Knowing how fragile it was
They held it with care.
Then,
When I gave my trust
My heart was torn.
It was torn right in front of me.
As the helpless unknowing me
Watched it being teared,
I hear their laughter
Overpowering my cries.
As my heart became nothing
More than smithereens,
I watched them gather the pieces
Pretending to hand it back.
As I reached for it
They simply discarded it
And threw the remains...

While cringing my teeth
Trying as much as I can
And forcing to breathe
To be able to stand again
With nothing to lose
And everything to gain
I will redeem myself
I will retaliate this pain
Ysa Pa Apr 2016
Those words which carelessly slips
As if natural, through those lips
How dare you so nonchalantly
Say the words 'I love you' to me
Your words have stricken me
Giving me delight and vulnerability
You're safe yet so dangerous
You make me eager and nervous
Every moment with you is an adventure
Bringing out my weakness yet making me secure
I love how you're confusing and exciting
Also how you're incomprehensibly enticing
But I fear my vulnerability
And your complete unpredictability
You're capable of leaving me broken and sore
I love risks but I've never been like this before
Entrusting myself is terrifying
Because of this present longing
For your reassurance that you'll stay
That you'll stand by, 'come what may'
I despise the idea of vulnerability
But the thought of losing you kills me
So permit me to get used to and be addicted
To the feeling of being vulnerable and protected
Be my strength and be a man of your word
Mean the 'I love you' that's unlike anything I've already heard
Ysa Pa Apr 2016
We started in life with learning to crawl
Then we walked, ran, sprint, leaped, stumbled and fall
People say its crucial whether you get back on your feet
Or when you stay on the ground accepting defeat
It's natural and human to trip and be crestfallen
It's also quite instinctive that you rise again
What I believe that's truly decisive after the fall
Is when you start running again, through it all
When the situation calls for it, cry your heart out
But don't give up, don't give in and never tap out
Walk, run, sprint, leap, stumble, fall and then
Keep crawling until you can run again
Ysa Pa Apr 2016
The windows of her soul can
Vanish all the galaxies known to man
Her enticing windows are
The envy of all the stars
The birthplace of dreams
The comforter of screams
Hers are windows that captures
All of the moon's glow and raptures
Containing both shadows and daylight
Illuminating the darkest of midnight
More alluring than a sky unexplored
But at that night, the sky it poured
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