I know how painful it all starts.

I know how numb you’ve become.

I know how lonely you can feel.

I know you struggle to trust anything or anyone.

I know you’re scared it’s permanent.

And because I also know how wonderful it is
Now being on the other side,
Having dreaded it’s not possible;
Every single day for as long as it takes,
Draw light from me. I’ll help you through!
Over horizons, you’re unfolding. Standing tall at
Noon in full bloom as you face me.
I’ll always be your Sunlight ☀️
As you are my Sunflower 🌻

A million imaginary conversations swirling through my head.
Nothing ever plays out right, when all is done and said.

The words I never get to speak, like the name I’ll never know, are unheard, unspoken, yet unforgotten; consuming my everything, ever so slow.
What’s really going on below? And why does it still hurt me so?
Are you still there too? Will you still care to
Help me grow when I just can’t glow?

Please Don’t Go!

Soaring towards you, my fundamental force.
Waves never crashed as hard as I, into you.
Singing your soul-song into chambers of me.

This is one thing I never expected to change me.
You’ve shown me that a beaming stranger
Can truly be my angel.

Your wings, my chariot.

My world, your marionette.

Enchantress of the ever-north,
Summon me from slumber.
Pull me through your window into wonder.

You hold on to me for the first time.
I live this moment like it were our last.
I love our moon for bringing me to your path 🌙

You were number five in forty-eight
But surely you’re one in a million.
Warmest eyes entice duelling incisors.
Wow! Maybe it’s one in a billion.

I should’ve been scared for my life that night,
As Cerulean fractured Vermilion.
But you were there with a hand I’d never held
And Bravery that wouldn’t be felled.
Revelling in a scent you’d never smelled;
Incense for reverence outside The Pavilion.

I’d do it all again, you know?
Melt the Snow and steal the show,
To be there with you, toe to toe,
Beyond the darkest dance at the brightest cotillion.

I understand it now.
Eyes closed, never resting.
Recreational.
Concentrating on consecrating.
Perpetual.

An invitation withdrawn.
Never a has a dawn come to pass
Where I haven’t drawn lines from our past.
Rolling water against an irresponsive canvas.
Unconventional.

Give me a minute of your mind
To wander a world, imagining.
Take a minute of your time
To wonder as I do, annihilated.
I tried. I faltered.
We’re tired. We’ve wilted.
My everything means nothing to your reckoning.

A dark ocean met us in the morning, aloof.
The familiar rattle and hum drowned out.
In love with a ten-track on the train tracks.

Never was a single word spoken
Between the three. Never was it necessary.
For the glimmer grin found comfort; two as one.

A long pause for a short opportunity missed.
It doesn’t matter.
Synthetic seas will shatter, while a kiss of the sun Blesses each one for life.

As two floodgates open, most find their way through. Yet I’m in luck with you, half-passed.

We’ve met before in the past.
We’ll meet again in the future.
This present binds us together in time.

Scatter blue sparks across the night.
Every sleeping child awakes to screams of fright.

Shadows ignite, the world’s alight.
Every tortured soul is dragged to see the sight.

‘How does the sun still glow, without my son by my side?
Your rivers still flow. The moon still shapes the tide.’

We’re not even a week on
From when I looked up and saw your solar flare.
I was desperately trying not to stare.
It’s a bad habit of mine I’m learning to lose.
I’ve been called out on it before.

So, though I hid my gaze from your glimmer,
I find comfort in the familiar. And when I see you,
I see stars! There’s nothing I’ve known longer.

Though I have no way in this mind’s eye
To render anew your wonder,
I’d tear through planes of space and time
To reconstruct your quanta.

Give me another splinter of your splendour.
You set my heart ablaze in winter. Can I return
The favour? Just as the moon summons the sea,
I’m endlessly drawn to thee.

Can you remember what it felt like?
Only you will know for sure.
Maybe you’ll retrace your steps,
Embracing memories evermore.

His words are so familiar.
Etching black holes out of a bright future.
Rants in agitation, grinding down
Each day. Agonising over a forgotten past.

Read into it what you will.
I won’t tell you how to live.
God knows I’ve been there too.
Her patience turns to impatience;
Truly, you should be the inpatient.

No release can feel as good as
Owning the loss and releasing yourself.
Will you ever loosen your grim grip?

When it all feels like it’s falling apart,
Remember our reflections in the half-light.
Toe-to-toe, the ebb and flow of matter
is everything that matters after all.
Take my hand. I’ve seen the truth.
I feel it here in you. Magnetic!
Take your stand. Here’s your proof.
You’ll see it’s true in two. Omnific!

Divine Promise, I sing to you this:
It never fell apart. It all falls into place.
Know, as my fingers trace your face,
We’re out in space together. Prolific!

After the fall, we’re free from calamity.
Everything that holds us here is gravity.
As we thank our lucky stars in bliss
For shaping us through tragedy,
Your bright eyes sing it back to me.

There you go again.
That crimson lipstick
Pressed against the wrong lips.

So will you stay there through the night-time
Or are you gonna have a dance with me?
You know I would hold you for a lifetime.
So do you wanna take a chance with me?

There she goes again.
That crimson mystic
Impressed me and she won’t quit.

So, will you stay there through the night-time?
Or are you gonna have a dance with me?
You’d be my Queen.
You know I would hold you for a lifetime.
So do you wanna take a chance with me?
Surely you’ve seen

The eyes that passed by
Have never told lies.
And lives that pass by
Have severed old ties.
So as I sit here and write my story
Into yours in all your glory,
Will you read it? Do you need it like I need it?
Do you see it how I see it?

So I’ll just sit here and write.

You asked me two questions that evening.
To know you thought of me there,
Among grief without end,
Where there’s ever more room for bleeding…
It’s enough.

I don’t know how the world never showed you,
Every cell you’re dividing is heaven deciding
No hell could hide this one truth;
You’re enough.

So, it’s my turn to show you, before we get old.
What I know we all owe you. To have & to hold.
I’ll catch every red raindrop as proof.
They’re enough.

Endgame. You raise your shield to ward off love.
I fall to crimson swords. We’ll replay until we win.
We’re enough!

Bury your halo
In the light of silver snow.
There is an overpass
Where people stare as we go.

How can I lay low
When you look at me like that?
There is silence in you,
I can’t seem to hold back.

I’m under your spell now.
You know me too well now.
I can see you make me weak.

There’s a line of gold
From your eyelids to my soul.
All this time I’ve known; I can’t just lay low.
I will miss you when you go!
Will you kiss me in the snow?

Nothing ever felt so full
As our universes colliding in the void.
Nothing ever felt softer
Than your voice gliding through me.

So you’re off to find your guiding light.
Yours imbued me with love like gravity.
Oh lighthouse burning out, wherever shall I go?
Whoever shines for you; luckier than charm!

Know this:
Nowhere ever felt like home
Until I was invited into yours.
No one ever delighted as I did,
In searching the depths of your heart.
The death of mine in turn. Imagine it as I cannot.
No soul ever yearned for yours more than mine.
My eyes for yours full of life, now forlorn.
I can never picture this again if they don’t return.

I was riled as I learned an unknown burn.
You smiled as I unturned a new-found yearn.
There’s something so succinct in earning truth,
After what felt like an eternity learning.
Proof that a familiar swirl in an unfamiliar scene
Can bring a million new ways to view your days.

It’s serene, this feeling. Really!
And with it, a chance to lift.
The choice to change one life.
An invitation to chime in time with another.
Perfect imperfection. Resolved discordance.
Binding impermanent reflections in permanence.
An end to what felt like an endless race.
A new beginning; your rawest reckoning.
The featherweight phoenix ever beckoning.
Don’t hide your face. Don’t chase your ghost.
For betterment, you meant it.
In innocence, you sent it.

He never held onto anything so carefully.
A connection not known before.

Trembling fingertips summoned twilight.
Glowing eyes enticed heartfelt cries.

Howling winds wouldn’t sway wild wings.
A flight together neither could ignore.

A world within, unveiled at night.
A world without the loom of lies.

Two souls shone their brightest in unison.
Two bodies quivered with joy.
Two minds made a shared memory.

There’s no need to change the story.
A myriad of magic inviting the moonlight.
She never held onto anything so carefully.

Five seconds of illumination
Is all the time I need
To pace the halls inside new walls.
I’ve found my place indeed.
You spring to life in dreams.

Four months of new sensations,
Planting pretty seeds.
Like a basket in the bulrush,
You nest in my mind’s reeds.

Three minutes of tantalisation
Danced a year in my eyes to the nth degree.
And now somehow you’ve found a home in me.

Two weeks with a shared sixth sense,
As patience made way for our wishful wings.

One life to live & learn. I love the way she sings.

How can I ever thank you for
All the ways you help me grow?
Putting up with my dorky ways,
Pretending I don’t make your eyes glaze over.
Yours is the only gaze I’ll ever want to explore.

1 year would never be enough to learn all of
Your likes and dislikes. Your yums and yucks.
Even last night as you studied your socks
And told me I was handsome, like Johnny Depp;
Relaying words back to me, ever attracting me.

Kind heart of yours, accept my words today.
Remember, I can never do you any justice. True,
I’d love to be able to, even just once. But
Seventy years wouldn’t be enough for me to find
The words for your place in this heart of mine.
I’d be silly to think I’d make them whole in one.
Now & forever, you’re my only one! ❤️💙💛

Wishing a very Happy Birthday
To the sweetest girl I’ve ever known.
My muse, my soulmate, my best friend.
Just for a moment would you loan me
An ear to show you I’m glad you know me.

I could give you every gift under the sun
And remind you every minute of every day,
You’re The One!

But nothing I say or do will ever be enough
To share my gratitude for your love.
To show you, no stars burn so brightly
As your eyes in mine, Dearest Dove.

The first time I saw you, stunned as you twirled,
It was plain to see, You’re The Gift To The World!

Kristin Bianca Garcia - I Love You ❤️💙💛

By the time hard candy
Flashes in front of soft eyes,
Two hazel halos have
hallucinated to sweet infinity.

Reciprocated intimacy, repeatedly
Fitting and splitting our favourite trinity.

Brace to brave another winter with me.
Only this time let’s do it better.

Just in time to chase our fate.

Replace that precious cycle.
Like skewed binary,
Where one and one make zero.
Embrace the perfect circle of us.
Everything and nothing all at once.
Always have been, always will be; my hero.

I’m in your eternal orbit,
Facing your radiance as my fate.

My stasis is all because of you.
I’ll embrace my new favourite view.

An ancient terror arises in me.
Am I flying too close to the sun? ☀️

It matters not. I’ll let you burn me up this time.
It’s all I feel we should do when we find the one.

Five bodies move through this entity.
You, me and our humble trinity.

I cannot say if you’ll ever be free of those walls,
But I do know this was meant to be.

I’ll search the halls where you’re meant for me.

Ignorance was bliss, but then

An angel took my hand.
Maybe one day you will understand.

Sometimes we need to pinch ourselves.
Our punishment often comes from within.

Don’t give up. Remember how to stand.
A lie misgiving a life worth living.
Move through it. You know you can do it.
Nobody but you can hold you to it.

Stop singing along to the saddest song
We never needed to write.
Exhume yourself from your
Antiquated night.
These are the days of light.
You can shimmer just as bright.

I finally found my voice.

Listen for the rise and fall

Of waves across two oceans.

Venture into life’s unknowns.

Explore unique implosions.

He finally made a choice.

Open new horizons; fall.

Now realise you’re chosen.

Explosive! I’ll always recall

Your eyes before their closing.

I’m sure you’ve noticed, lately I’ve spent much
More time righting wrongs than writing songs.
Please know, I never intend to ignore you.
Ring the bellow of a Shark; I adore you.
Eat my heart out.
Sing your soul song.
September nights last all year long.
❤️💙💛
Take me home to your safest place.
Hold me as I kiss your face.
Endless flights through a sea of stars in space.
❤️💙💛
Etch your life’s sketch into mine.
Melting in the ebb and flow of love.
Possess this messy mind of mine,
Recessed in time-incarnadine.
Expel nostalgia’s analgesia.
Snuffed out candles burned to reminisce.
Sequestered no more. We’re bathed in bliss.

Thank you for your empathy.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for your kindness.
Thank you for your time.

I’m sorry for my assumptions.
I’m sorry for my impatience.
I try to move at your pace,
But I **** it up sometimes.

You don’t need to reach for that dusty shelf
To prove, again, I’m in the wrong.
I can see I made mistakes myself,
Like I have done all along.

Just because I feel one way,
In my mind alone, some thoughts belong.
Not pushed in front of you all day,
As you can’t always be so strong.

To hold me close when I’d like you there.
To say “I know”, when I say “I care”.

And though you know I always will,
You know, I know, I need to chill.
Coz you’re not a ******* pill
I can take to help me feel
Like you make me feel when I see you for real!

Do you ever stop and think
I'm not just trying to be cheap
with these words that I speak?

They're everything that I wanted to say
but you stole them away.

And I know I can't stay
but how do I leave
the girl of my dreams
alone?

Do you ever stop and think of me?
Well I've been thinking of you
with everything that I do.

And all the words I wanted to say
you'd just throw them away.

And I know I can't stay
but how do I leave
the girl of my dreams
alone?

Jellybean
you know you make me scream
but I'll be crying out in vain
forever.

Jellybean
you know you'll make me sing
the song without a name
forever.

Burst out in a curse at the wind.
Do you know how it feels
to be the only one to see?
Forever really is
the longest time.

Now I know
I've gotta live a life alone.
But it's not what I wanted.
You've gotta know that I wanted

Jellybean.

Don’t hold your breath, little lady.
You’ve stolen mine away, and I need you to fill these lungs like you’ve filled my heart, pretty baby. As you breathe new life into me, all I see is

Sunflowers and you in that field.
You’re the only one in my field.
Visions of future, past healed.
I just wanna watch you as you blink
And my whole world bursts into yellow & pink.

King’s precious queen, drive me crazy.
You stole all time away, and I need you to feel these arms that’ll hold you up, pretty lady. As your heart beats in time with mine, all I see is

Mischievous eyes that you yield.
Lips that aren’t meant to be sealed,
Hiding the heart that you shield.
I just wanna know what you think.
Watching me fall into you as I sink.

Nothing’s got a hold on me like you.
Touching sentiment I never knew. You’re
Clutching onto me, something so true.
Hold me close you’ve turned my black into blue.

Worrying about you in a dusty car,
Headed in a new direction.
Saw you under city lights on your darkest night. Didn’t know I could be the one
To pull you up out of that mess she made.
Pretty soon I will see you again.
You’ll be on my mind until then.
You’ve got a grin like the sun
And I’m proud of this mess we’re making.

Can you hear that little whisper,
Singing safer songs?
We’re the ones writing music
To mend melancholy, lifelong.

The sort of lines that withstand time;
Lullabies for a lifetime.
I just want you to know,
You’re not the only one being offered a lifeline.

Our nights arrive so briskly these days,
with the same clattering metallic tones
That defrost our frozen bones
When the sun rises for the shortest stays
On the brightest days I’ve ever known.
I’ve sworn my oath. I’ve shown I’ve grown
And never felt less alone, let alone known a heart that’s sewn my own into the shape of its clone.
Nor have I ever held a gaze as ablaze
As those twin mazes that daze and amaze me.

So never wonder with me; ever wander with me.
Come with me. Come swiftly.
No, our nights will not grow longer.
Know, I’ll ever long to linger.
Please hold me in the sunlight,
upside down and in your head.
For you’re pinned inside my own mind’s eye
in your favourite shades of blue and red.

Set down worn passages penned at your dawn.
Somewhere under perpendicular starlight,
Adventure awaits your doppelgänger.
A pulverised youth; a parallel you.

Do you believe in Ghosts?

Silver lips insist on telling fleeting tales,
Resistant as they kiss.
Lustre fades into a fabled flutter,
Setting sail against this breeze we’re gifted.

Do you believe in Gods?

Carve a way across the waves you’re making.
Wake up to days of breaking blame.
Scream at the sky in a final flicker of fear.

Do you believe in Love?

Break a link in the longest line of loss.
Stay awake until we’re half past lust.

Do you believe in Luck? 🍀

Trudging through space in time.
Some memories remembered.
Some memories forgotten.
Something about this place was always rotten.

Watch over me as I wash the years away.
Wittingly vulnerable, as the fairest figment of the
Fragment that made me who I am today.

To wake with renewed resolve is a dream;
A shift in sensations awakened awareness.
I’ve never felt so complete as now, in all fairness.

For better, not worse, I’ve broken my curse.
But I’m the first to admit I’m still growing.
So thank you for endlessly showing me why
You are the reason I’m glowing.

Fear no further. I’m yours, with fervour.

I was never told I’d live to see the sunset
And the moonrise so close together.
A twilight smile flickers over you
Brighter than sunlight across water.
I find it so peculiar we’d choose
The same name for a daughter.

I’ll never understand how it happened;
Coming from my childhood slaughterhouse
Into your lovely little home.
With the way you listened to me there,
How could I ever shy from all you’ve shown?

Remember that tiny house, floating on the bay?
It would be enough for me!
Actually, I checked the market around here.
It would be more than I can afford.
What ever happened to our world?
What happened to our words?
What happened to the glint in her white pearls?

These weekends hold adventures
Unlike any I’ve ever known. Well-wishing the
Moonflower my world has finally grown 🌺

A faded memory flayed.
Layers peeled back unveiling
Frayed old strings for a symphony of sympathy.

A suffocated cacophony, he says. Let it be.

A jaded sentinel slayed.
Players reeled back, unfailing.
Prayed for wings, but found empty of empathy.

The scintillating epiphany she shares set it free.

I swore I’d never be the victim.
But I have been the whole time.
Those words are wiser than wisdom.
Her eyes grow wider with mine.
A notion inspiring devotion divine.
An ocean of new truths all spoken in rhyme.
My Dryad’s mydriasis is something sublime.

“Who kicks a friend when they’re down?”
Not all queens can be found in a crown.
Not all kings will watch their men drown.


“Your mind is so strong.”
Your serenity serenades me.
The sweetest siren I’ve ever known.


“Look how much you’ve grown.”
At least once a day my mind is blown,
By the wise words that flow
through the kindness you’ve shown.


“Look how far you’ve come.”
Thank you for being my compass to reality.
Thank you for our parallelism in duality.

And if I failed to breathe, you would mourn me
And if I failed to marry, you would scorn me
And if I reproduced, you would detest me
And if I ceased to move, you would arrest me

And if I quit my job, you would disown me
And if I made my music, you would ignore me
And if I made more money, you would shame me
And if I made no money, you could blame me

And if I met my maker, you would maim me
And if I met your maker, you would claim me
And if I made you, you would forsake me
And if I was made by you, you would shake me

And if I stayed in bed, you would kick me
And if I flew the coop, you would miss me
And if I were me, you would disguise me
And if I were you, you’d still despise me

What makes you Feel the full sting of
new harmony in the world?
So, the moon spoke to you as a bairn?

What makes you Think you could string
new harmony through our world?
Go, a revelation is awaiting you, the brave.

What makes you Conceive you should sing
new harmony with her world?
No, the truth is awakening in you, a bane!

What makes you Believe you will bring
new harmony to their world?
Lo, you’re more likely to set it all ablaze.

Archetype of Sadness
Epitome of Love
Architect in all of this; know you are enough!

On the finest day we found our way,
Cutting a new path from bracken stricken pasts.
Everyone said we’d manage someday.
Anaesthesia for the antithetical. Allegorical.
Now waves we’ve never known before are
Swelling; Aloha & Aroha flow in a shared breath.

Ask me again at my last.
Nothing will have changed.
Declared at once, and always will be, yours.

Entering your mystery. Venturing through history.
Make this memory with me, ever after, our story.
Oath to you. Ode to us.
Tumultuousness fades to dust.
In you, there is eternal trust.
Open us up. We surrender. Innately intimate!
No beginning. Never ending. Innocently Infinite!
She transcends in all worlds any words I’ll write.

Old ghosts are chasing me through the dark.
I thought eighteen years was enough.

I need to be free.

There is an old ghost
In the back of your mouth.
The death rattle of silver, screaming
Let me out!

There is a darkness
Deep in the ground.
An old town with a
Sad new secret now.

I know we’ll never have it all,
But it’s enough for me.
And I know we’ll never have it all worked out,
But we’ll figure it out as we go.

Oh whirlwind without end,
Please spare me! Feel my failing feet beneath.
Endure the alluring. Cure me of suffering.
Never let a letter to a friend
Send a message that the end is a means.

Help!
Alas, it’s only evident after the pass.
Let the aftermath of hysteria en masse
Flow through the fountain of you..

What ever happened to his youth,
As her heart’s mind went with it?
Yet we all still live it.

To the ode of one and nine,
Of which you fell just short,

I could write a multiverse.

My will is the tide going out.
Your words, a dragged lake found wanting.
How can we not see all this love that is free?
To be had, to behold, to be solvent.

Her wish is a world in His orbit.
A plea that is ever absorbent.
Absolving a wrong that was never not right.
In their hearts, in their homes, in this moment.

I was told an awful story.
While the whole world rejoiced a false glory.
Don’t you see it now?
Don’t stop asking how!
The answers we seek are just around the corner.
The corner of the universe.
The universe in you.
The mystery in me.
The miracle of one plus one is three.

As I forget what it is to remember myself,
I remember what it is I forgot…

Floating through infinity, divinity clings to me.
Shame claims my name as I recoil into you.

Sing to me now, the song we’ve always known.
The one we wrote so we’re never alone.

A single verse is enough; we’ll fill it with hope.

Hear her crying now, scrying from above.
Drown me with a starry night in love.

Startle me, constantly, sweet annihilation.
I’ll even let this ruin us, true tantalisation.

As we remember what it is to forget ourselves,
I forget what it is to remember…

Do you hear it?

A soft waver in the bravest voice.
The rarest quaver leaving you no choice.

Do you feel it?
A decade lost through the darkest door.
A half score, while there’s room for more.

Do you know it?
A life without love.
A love without life.
A never ending night for eyes drained of light.

Do you see it?
Their grin in your own.
The tears all alone.
Do you still hear their laughter
Alive in the air? To most, never known.

We laughed aloud through the longest winter.
Simultaneously signing a solstice of solitude.
1 love allowed kindling to form from 2 splinters.
So we’ll set life alight, away from the multitude.

Through you, a new divinity enters me.
An entity of empathy left no room for entropy.
You know, the shower drips for me now too.
And it’s always when I think of you!

Atypical accolade attends a familiar cascade.
But it wont always be that way.
As sure as the sun will set tonight,
My bright light will shine for you tomorrow.

Retract with me. Refract with me.
Her fluorescence attracted me.
Illuminating the only pathway
I’ve ever hoped to see.

You unreservedly trace the breadth of her nape.

Lightly running fingers along the softest hairline.

Easing pressure from ears unable to hear you.

Palms rolling cotton at the small of her back.

A spine you’d send shivers down, but only once.

Relieving tension in shoulders guarding a heart.

Hands Hurt from hard work. Feet unswept off.

A mind to release pressure from for an eternity.

A life you’re unworthy of living beside her.

A love you’re so willing, but ever unfitting.

4 feet between us.
Yours are shaking.
Impossible for me to know if it’s me
Or the day ahead that has you unnerved.
I wish it was me for every right reason,
But maybe it’s all for the wrong.

It’s my turn to shake now. Thump thump thump.
Lips that know no parting. Thump thump.
Tongue taut without any talk. Thump.

Wait!
Why are we in a suburb thieves wear in winter?
My resolve starts to splinter. Entropy enters me.
Every eternity pushes me to ask you.

I caught all the signs, but never your name.

She’ll shock you with a new shell shock.

I saw something I shouldn’t have.

I felt something you wouldn’t have.

I longed for something we couldn’t have.

They say build a bridge and get over it,
But I’m no engineer. I can barely stack kindling,
Let alone light a fire to warm your world.
How do we explore a heart’s greatest desires when
The one it beats for doesn’t share them?
After all, space’s rainbow rapture forms
A membrane set to rupture. It’s the only way to be.

We said some things we shouldn’t have.

I asked something you wouldn’t have.

You said, it’s something we couldn’t have.

Seventeen rainbows on my body
Can never be taken away.
But I’ve seen angels all around me,
Flying around trying and now
I’m so alone in my own home.

Everything happens for a reason.
Together we’ll fake and delay.
Yeah it’s been ages, still it grounds me.
Crying aloud, sighing, somehow
I’m still alone in my own home.

Please stop trying. Just leave it alone.
I’ll work it out on my own.