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a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... *that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows the when and why of differing cuddling styles... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows when to leave a man alone alone in his man-mourning time, distance needed, letting his ex-rage dissipate or watching his red and blue football redefine ignominy... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when the man low whistles, eyes adrift, she heartily agrees and is reciprocity rewarded regularly with hunk alerts of "hey-check-him-out!" that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, a tigress in the bedroom she asking, try this, I'll love it, served with a desert demo of awkward afterward, his less-than-perfect cuddling abilities a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who doesn't abhor partner silences, comforting they are, in their own ways, lying side by side, interrupted only by peccadillo body noises unexpected and sheepish apologies and loving arm stroking a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who lets the man roar, top of voice, when imprisoned in car,   his voice, un enfant terrible, performs with Creedence Clearwater a sing-a-long in traffic, asking "Have you ever seen the rain" while amidst Israel-leaving-Egypt Sunday beach traffic on the L.I.E. a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, when it's pheromones  alternative mode day, he celebrates Carole King day, she demonstrates her cuddling abilities, par excellence, with kisses and tissues a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... a woman, plain confident in her abilities no matter the situational status, when confronted by less-than-crazy-impetuous, she smiling says "why not," when he proposes, a movie and dinner in a fav haunt? "plenty excellent enough" her answer, spoke in a rising voice full of unfeigned delight a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, accepting the unexpected airport embrace on a moving sidewalk, unexpected delays with the aplomb of a well lived life's long term sustainability perspective when he kisses her hand for no reason, while driving 75 miles per hour, she only winces internally, the other hand vise-grasping the other door's handle, who brushes hair wisps in a dark movie, celebrating her Bathsheba Everdeen's duality of strength and tenderness a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when on second date he proposes a non-exclusive relationship, confident enough to high-five respond, and laugh about it, seven years on a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when she reads it, analyzing the oeuvre as "too **** personal and as usual too **** long"* that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities in everything... even a little occasional criticism
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May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 10:45 AM UTC
a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities...
a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... *that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows the when and why of differing cuddling styles... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows when to leave a man alone alone in his man-mourning time, distance needed, letting his ex-rage dissipate or watching his red and blue football redefine ignominy... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when the man low whistles, eyes adrift, she heartily agrees and is reciprocity rewarded regularly with hunk alerts of "hey-check-him-out!" that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, a tigress in the bedroom she asking, try this, I'll love it, served with a desert demo of awkward afterward, his less-than-perfect cuddling abilities a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who doesn't abhor partner silences, comforting they are, in their own ways, lying side by side, interrupted only by peccadillo body noises unexpected and sheepish apologies and loving arm stroking a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who lets the man roar, top of voice, when imprisoned in car,   his voice, un enfant terrible, performs with Creedence Clearwater a sing-a-long in traffic, asking "Have you ever seen the rain" while amidst Israel-leaving-Egypt Sunday beach traffic on the L.I.E. a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, when it's pheromones  alternative mode day, he celebrates Carole King day, she demonstrates her cuddling abilities, par excellence, with kisses and tissues a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... a woman, plain confident in her abilities no matter the situational status, when confronted by less-than-crazy-impetuous, she smiling says "why not," when he proposes, a movie and dinner in a fav haunt? "plenty excellent enough" her answer, spoke in a rising voice full of unfeigned delight a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, accepting the unexpected airport embrace on a moving sidewalk, unexpected delays with the aplomb of a well lived life's long term sustainability perspective when he kisses her hand for no reason, while driving 75 miles per hour, she only winces internally, the other hand vise-grasping the other door's handle, who brushes hair wisps in a dark movie, celebrating her Bathsheba Everdeen's duality of strength and tenderness a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when on second date he proposes a non-exclusive relationship, confident enough to high-five respond, and laugh about it, seven years on a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when she reads it, analyzing the oeuvre as "too **** personal and as usual too **** long"* that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities in everything... even a little occasional criticism
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3153 miles away I lay with a mind that's clouded with thoughts. Past Scenarios playing out differently. Over analyzing the present. Anticipating the emotion that I will feel in the future. If ever I was consumed it has never been like this. Regret comes and fades. optimism shares that same cycle. Happiness And sadness come in doses like sedatives. The voice of jealousy tells me that hope makes me weak. Anger fuels my fire and logic keeps it burning. Yet voices, Medication, and the embers fade. The constant variables are only wondering and anxiety. Peace comes in sleep and yet its hardly enjoyed.
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Nov 15, 2012
Nov 15, 2012 at 2:51 PM UTC
Florida
Ode to a Sunflower I dare not speak against her beauty; beauty which encompasses the spirit of truth, the spirit of faithfulness, the spirit of light. I was walking alone in desolation when I encountered the blinding sight of my sunflower. There it was staring at me with its inviting eyes, eyes which seemed a little lost, a little troubled, a little like mine. My hand trembled as it wiped the disbelief from my vision. The seeds which I had planted in an attempt to dispel my restless woes had sprout up in a seemingly un-fertile place, a place where I could not fathom I would find my Sunflower. But there it was in all its beauty: eloquent, mysterious and enchanting. A vivid portrait of heavenly grace. all could witness , yet, one could possess. I dare not speak against her beauty; beauty which encompasses the spirit of truth, the spirit of faithfulness, the spirit of light. From the moment I found my sunflower I did my best to nurture it, watering its spirit from sunrise to sunset. The beauty for which it possessed was captivating; stirring my very being like no other flower has prior. I spent days, months and years analyzing this gem. I wondered why this sunflower was so singular in its splendor, why after so long in my possession was it still shining brighter than a summer star painted against a black night. My admiration and love for this sunflower matured uncontrollably, cultivating in a whirlwind of blissful sunshine. I dare not speak against her beauty; beauty which encompasses the spirit of truth, the spirit of faithfulness, the spirit of light. Though my sunflower possesses the strength of a thousand armies and the magnificence of a thousand smiles, I sense a feeling of weakness when the wicked birds of prey attempt to uproot it from its rightful plot. I caress its pedals and speak to it softly assuring that there is a purpose for the gloom, and that upon all of us the rain of opposition will fall. I clutch its head into mine as splendid pedals of fluorescent beauty tickle my face, making me blush with joy. I whisper to my sunflower as I drop my seed next to her stalk, and I tell it that no matter what storms may sing, there will be no challenge to our garden as long as we continue to grow together.
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Apr 12, 2012
Apr 12, 2012 at 12:43 AM UTC
Ode to a Sunflower
Ode to a Sunflower I dare not speak against her beauty; beauty which encompasses the spirit of truth, the spirit of faithfulness, the spirit of light. I was walking alone in desolation when I encountered the blinding sight of my sunflower. There it was staring at me with its inviting eyes, eyes which seemed a little lost, a little troubled, a little like mine. My hand trembled as it wiped the disbelief from my vision. The seeds which I had planted in an attempt to dispel my restless woes had sprout up in a seemingly un-fertile place, a place where I could not fathom I would find my Sunflower. But there it was in all its beauty: eloquent, mysterious and enchanting. A vivid portrait of heavenly grace. all could witness , yet, one could possess. I dare not speak against her beauty; beauty which encompasses the spirit of truth, the spirit of faithfulness, the spirit of light. From the moment I found my sunflower I did my best to nurture it, watering its spirit from sunrise to sunset. The beauty for which it possessed was captivating; stirring my very being like no other flower has prior. I spent days, months and years analyzing this gem. I wondered why this sunflower was so singular in its splendor, why after so long in my possession was it still shining brighter than a summer star painted against a black night. My admiration and love for this sunflower matured uncontrollably, cultivating in a whirlwind of blissful sunshine. I dare not speak against her beauty; beauty which encompasses the spirit of truth, the spirit of faithfulness, the spirit of light. Though my sunflower possesses the strength of a thousand armies and the magnificence of a thousand smiles, I sense a feeling of weakness when the wicked birds of prey attempt to uproot it from its rightful plot. I caress its pedals and speak to it softly assuring that there is a purpose for the gloom, and that upon all of us the rain of opposition will fall. I clutch its head into mine as splendid pedals of fluorescent beauty tickle my face, making me blush with joy. I whisper to my sunflower as I drop my seed next to her stalk, and I tell it that no matter what storms may sing, there will be no challenge to our garden as long as we continue to grow together.
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I swear somebody is following my inner footprint recording and analyzing hemming and coughing and clearing their throat assessing my "situation" Stalking stalking stalking me and filling my fortune cookies with relevant words to psyche me out i swear
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Jul 28, 2014
Jul 28, 2014 at 2:57 AM UTC
Stalkers
We all bear scars in one way or other. Some from loving someone too deeply and some others from losing someone or something that you cared too much for. Some scars are intentional while some others exist for stupid silly reasons. Some we are but some we are not so proud of. I have scars all over my body. All over my mind and all over my soul. I have scars on my brain due to over thinking and over analyzing incidents that haven’t even happened yet. I have scars on my eyes for shutting it more often, for being blind to things that should’ve been taken care of. I have scars on my nose from all those endless snobs and sniffles from my horrifying past relationships. I have scars on my mouth from speaking the truth, only the truth and nothing but the truth. I have scars on my neck from getting choked up on false love and fake proposals. I have scars on my shoulders from lifting up responsibilities that I was accustomed to from an early age. I have scars on my hands from holding onto things that weren’t supposed to be mine from the very start. I have scars on my chest from my ice cold heart that has been stomped over and over multiple times. I have scars on my lungs from the “occasional” stress buster cigarettes that I am addicted to every now and then. I have scars on my stomach from one too many butterflies that flew when we first met. I have scars on my legs from running, miles away from people and that place I used to call home. I have scars on my skin from the many tattoos I got done that helps me reassure my self-worth. I have scars on my soul from trying hard to pull myself together, calm me down and compose myself through the rampant storm that’s been raging in my life. I have all these scars. All of them. And they don’t scare me now even though they hurt like hell, at times. They’ve become a part of me and looking back, they are just reminders of who I was, what I have been through my life and the person it has made me become. They don’t scare me anymore because they define who I am now. A survivor.
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Mar 10, 2018
Mar 10, 2018 at 2:04 AM UTC
Scarred for Life
We all bear scars in one way or other. Some from loving someone too deeply and some others from losing someone or something that you cared too much for. Some scars are intentional while some others exist for stupid silly reasons. Some we are but some we are not so proud of. I have scars all over my body. All over my mind and all over my soul. I have scars on my brain due to over thinking and over analyzing incidents that haven’t even happened yet. I have scars on my eyes for shutting it more often, for being blind to things that should’ve been taken care of. I have scars on my nose from all those endless snobs and sniffles from my horrifying past relationships. I have scars on my mouth from speaking the truth, only the truth and nothing but the truth. I have scars on my neck from getting choked up on false love and fake proposals. I have scars on my shoulders from lifting up responsibilities that I was accustomed to from an early age. I have scars on my hands from holding onto things that weren’t supposed to be mine from the very start. I have scars on my chest from my ice cold heart that has been stomped over and over multiple times. I have scars on my lungs from the “occasional” stress buster cigarettes that I am addicted to every now and then. I have scars on my stomach from one too many butterflies that flew when we first met. I have scars on my legs from running, miles away from people and that place I used to call home. I have scars on my skin from the many tattoos I got done that helps me reassure my self-worth. I have scars on my soul from trying hard to pull myself together, calm me down and compose myself through the rampant storm that’s been raging in my life. I have all these scars. All of them. And they don’t scare me now even though they hurt like hell, at times. They’ve become a part of me and looking back, they are just reminders of who I was, what I have been through my life and the person it has made me become. They don’t scare me anymore because they define who I am now. A survivor.
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Self-esteem forms a comparison, One that is typically a brutal report. Giving yourself a low grade, A rating which crushes confidence. Analyzing tracts through superficiality, Viewing self from a blurry lens. Seeing ugliness when beauty shines likes a princess, Detecting stupidity when the mind is as sharp as a knife. The flaws you catch in the mirror are false deception, Witnessing myths of your imagination.
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Mar 30, 2017
Mar 30, 2017 at 7:02 AM UTC
Comparing ourselves to others
coffee breath, 9:42, violet pigment under eyes, tiresome sighs. three hours and forty- one minutes of sleep, my mind says no,no,no,no my eyes are heavy and so is my mood heart sunken deep as eye bags wondering if you actually care. those blue-green eyes, are they analyzing my feelings, or algebra? i just want you to feel the same way, which is a way i have never felt before mushy, gushy, stupid poems, hopeless, delicate Juliet searching for Romeo in her peripherals little Juliet, wake up, wake up, go be the lioness you're accustomed to be
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Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 1:01 AM UTC
algebra two
Don't make it awkward Don't make it awkward Just don't make it awkward. My mantra I ponder my texts Analyze the details bang my head against the wall If you're not awkward he wont be. right? right? **** ... ... it's awkward. You're over analyzing Too much thinking Stop thinking thwap Head hits the desk. I'm awkward. Everything's normal One night of choosing to not won't ruin a friendship right? right? It's not awkward. Why won't he text me. Don't be such a girl. I am a girl. **** I'm an awkward girl.
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Jun 17, 2014
Jun 17, 2014 at 6:56 PM UTC
Don't be Awkward.
In statistics we learn that certain events have undeniable independence, which allows us to predict the success or failure under certain circumstances and I couldn't help but catch myself wondering what the probability was that an attempt at taking my life might have and I considered calculating the chance of success, part of me hoping that parameter exceeded its counter part while the other part silently prayed and dearly hoped that the chance of failure knocked success out of the picture. But these are independent events and even after analyzing past trials the only way to know for certain would to be to carry it out myself.
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Mar 5, 2014
Mar 5, 2014 at 5:40 PM UTC
Statistical Suicide
no one takes you seriously anymore. you're just a college student. you are still young. you are still learning. you have not been fully brainwashed, yet. you have to get a good job! you have to make enough money! you don't want to be starving, do you? then go to college. go to college cause that will fix all your problems. one piece of paper and 200,000 dollars of debt later. welcome to college. welcome to college! where you'll try hard to get good grades and be up all night. you will never know a good night's rest for the next 4 years. more anxiety than high school. more work than high school. more people than high school. more bull **** than high school. liberal arts education is supposed to be great! but what if you hate science and math and you just want to write? I hate my classes. I hate analyzing books. I hate analyzing movies. I hate writing essays. I hate talking. I have a C+ in one class because I never talk. I hate talking. I hate talking. when I get my degree will it be different? will I be different? will my life change forever? will I finally be the member of society that society wants me to be?
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Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 7:38 PM UTC
this is ********
Is it sugar* Or is it death* dirt* or nothing. I think about it looking into my tea cup. Just an idea in my head. My over thinking, over analyzing mind* I think I am fat. I hate being fat. Then I see an amazing fat girl looking good in her jeans. Her overthrow looks amazing and I want that* I want to be fat. I could be small. I tell my self. I should eat way less and get skinny. Fit in very tight jeans and have big hair. The skinny girl yesterday looked amazing. But would I* What if I cannot look good skinny. I'd loose my **** and look weird. What if I am those people who can never get small* I love food and good places. Most of the times fat girls look awesome dressed up. I am not skinny or fat. I have never understood my body. Sometimes I feel smart sometimes I doubt everything* So, is it sugar? Is it dirt? maybe I will never know*
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Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 3:42 AM UTC
***Doubtful***
I, Am a teenaged girl Lost between the deminsions of Fantasy And Reality. I am a Filipino and Mexican Knowing no spanish Lost in a language my mother has forgotten. I am what it means to be a human being. Trying my best to be there Making zillions of mistakes that end up drowning me in the end. Wanting to remember but always forgetting Wanting to help but saying the wrong things at the wrong time. Trying to find a place in the world Only to end up being isolated like a lone wolf. I am what it means to be a student, Not loving the whole school system but trying her best to prove it wrong. Educated by watching the world, day by day, Philosophizing life Analyzing the story lines that mean something Surviving in a jungle we call High School And day by day, Struggling in classes just to pass it. I am, what it means to be not so smart, not stupid at all but a hard worker, learning everything I can with the little time the school system provides. So, Who am I? Well for starters, To tell you who I am, I'd have to spend the majoirty of my life writing a one hundred paged book, With only one page that has one sentence of writing that says, "Too much to say, ask me another day." Who I am, Is a teenaged-Filipina-Latina-video gaming-anime loving-poetry/story writing-girl Who is always lost in her own world~
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Dec 11, 2011
Dec 11, 2011 at 4:18 AM UTC
Who am I?
1. My mind is a 20/20 vision pair of eyes. I can see the specks and seeds of irritation before they grow. Plants, They were never really good for these eyes. 2. Let's go to the moon. And I assure you, While you sink your feet in moon dust And swim in empty craters, While I worry about how dark it is out here, I get to enjoy the simultaneous twinkle of the stars. 3. And because I'm paying too much attention, I might even get to see one fly. 4. You're thinking about how delicious this lunch is. I'm counting calories. 5. So, what's for dinner? 6. Hey, if she is Indeed Stabbing my back With word weapons, My 561-letter comeback speech Is always ready in the front pocket Of my school bag. 7. Its always just a headache, Never brain cancer. 8. I love the newly opened eyelids, In the mornings, My first breath is a sigh of relief, Yes. I didn't die in my sleep. 9. She's got a great body. Her bones read, No food and a ton of gym time, I'm sure it's to make you smile. And I hate to brag, But I'm mentally fit. I get to exercise Analyzing every single detail Of the twinkle in your eye Of the flick of your lips Of the depth of that frown When you said you were leaving. 10. I think I've figured out why.
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Jan 14, 2014
Jan 14, 2014 at 10:40 AM UTC
10 Great Things About Overthinking
I live in my head I have my own room there My own bed Where I do my best thinking Where I am most comfortable It keeps me up most nights Making to do lists and analyzing conversations from days before Daydreaming about everything Some of the thoughts I have are down right crazy So crazy that it must not be me there must be other people up there and hell not just a room but a whole house with several rooms and several conversations I can envision it clearly Sometimes I stay there for days The lights are on My shades are open But no ones home I do return to the real world and have real conversations but seems like I Always return to my head Where I live In my own room and my own bed
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Mar 11, 2017
Mar 11, 2017 at 7:50 PM UTC
I Have a House Inside my Head
Take me as I am, please No. Please is too understanding Take me as I am! Wait. Maybe that's too demanding? I don't think we understand each other Maybe we're over analyzing It's just that when I look into your eyes I stop They're hypnotizing Stop. No. Rewind please! But I can't, the words are out Could you give me a backspace button for conversation That would relieve some doubt I want you Argh! Too lustful! I need you! ACK! Too needy! Let's just say the world's a candy jar And for your jolly rancher I'm greedy? No? Not subtle? Too subtle? Argh! Why is it so complicated to speak to you!?! I'm like a 3 year old whose trying to make a picture out of glitter and glue And the supplies just keep sticking! Do you understand what I mean? I see the perplexed look on your face and... **** it, woman, you're pretty Ack! Rewind rewind rewind! Stupid stupid stupid! The only way to catch an arrow is to say you DON'T want Cupid So I don't want you....yes I do. No I don't! But I do! No I don't! Yes I do! NO! I! DON'T! Look at her!!! ....okay, I do. But you wouldn't give me a second thought if I told that to you I mean let's face it, you're so out of my league that we're not even in the same sport I'm playing with the tiny tikes and you're in the pro team's court But I would be a fool if this wall was all I feel on my fingers And as perverted as that sounds I let the joke just linger Because you're beautiful and I'm me And who am I to attain a girl like you The boy whose glasses fall down his nose and is missing one or two screws I just want a dance... and a kiss.... okay, just a dance No, what I want from you is the guarantee of a second, maybe third glance To see you in the hallways tomorrow and know I make you smile To know that you affirm we danced and liked it all the while I want to be more than wallflower material and I want the prime So with shaky legs, a corny disco ball, and a bad song, I stand and I greet you And ask could this dance be mine....? Your move. Gulp.
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Oct 24, 2012
Oct 24, 2012 at 9:58 PM UTC
Wallflower Power
Take me as I am, please No. Please is too understanding Take me as I am! Wait. Maybe that's too demanding? I don't think we understand each other Maybe we're over analyzing It's just that when I look into your eyes I stop They're hypnotizing Stop. No. Rewind please! But I can't, the words are out Could you give me a backspace button for conversation That would relieve some doubt I want you Argh! Too lustful! I need you! ACK! Too needy! Let's just say the world's a candy jar And for your jolly rancher I'm greedy? No? Not subtle? Too subtle? Argh! Why is it so complicated to speak to you!?! I'm like a 3 year old whose trying to make a picture out of glitter and glue And the supplies just keep sticking! Do you understand what I mean? I see the perplexed look on your face and... **** it, woman, you're pretty Ack! Rewind rewind rewind! Stupid stupid stupid! The only way to catch an arrow is to say you DON'T want Cupid So I don't want you....yes I do. No I don't! But I do! No I don't! Yes I do! NO! I! DON'T! Look at her!!! ....okay, I do. But you wouldn't give me a second thought if I told that to you I mean let's face it, you're so out of my league that we're not even in the same sport I'm playing with the tiny tikes and you're in the pro team's court But I would be a fool if this wall was all I feel on my fingers And as perverted as that sounds I let the joke just linger Because you're beautiful and I'm me And who am I to attain a girl like you The boy whose glasses fall down his nose and is missing one or two screws I just want a dance... and a kiss.... okay, just a dance No, what I want from you is the guarantee of a second, maybe third glance To see you in the hallways tomorrow and know I make you smile To know that you affirm we danced and liked it all the while I want to be more than wallflower material and I want the prime So with shaky legs, a corny disco ball, and a bad song, I stand and I greet you And ask could this dance be mine....? Your move. Gulp.
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I am tired of not being respected, tired of being taken advantage of, tired of being told what to do, tired of being accused, tired of always being wrong, tired of silent conversations for hours on end, tired of wondering why i’m not good enough, tired of apologizing for things that aren’t my fault, tired of your twisting of words, tired of your apathy, tired of your ruthless blunt comments, tired of missing your hot touch on my bare skin, tired of wishing you cared, tired of trying so hard for someone who doesn’t give a **** in return, tired of analyzing my every move for your “peace of mind”, tired of jumping through hoops to impress you only to realize you arent at the show, tired of being on the brink of saying goodbye only for you to win me right back with one of your dazzling smiles and gentle hugs, tired of being spoken down to, tired of feeling small, tired of hiding parts of me that are too loud for you, tired of frowning when i could be smiling, tired of sobbing when could be laughing, tired of hating myself when i could be loving myself. i’m so **** tired. i’m so god **** tired. tired of being tired.
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Nov 12, 2020
Nov 12, 2020 at 2:46 PM UTC
yawn
banana skin salad in artificial lemonade peacocks salivating mushy rooms belly aching Oreos are okie dokie ocean breezes open up me analyzing any eyes evaluating coffee grinds a manifesting apple in me apple in the Snapple leaking sticky salamander fingers static on a broken speaker attics over broken theaters salmon eating taco teachers teaching choco taco preachers preaching at Chicago creatures opal rings and oval things are focusing on yodeling a social need for opening in total global offerings and in a soup or telephonic happiness in playing sonic gently speaking thick Ebonics sickly tonic Let's be honest, boys
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Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 1:26 AM UTC
sack of jaweea
people watching in a coffee shop is one of the simple pleasures in life the bizarre satisfaction you get when you sit by the window solving crossword puzzles or probably sipping your cup of hot latte immediately tilting your head up when someone enters analyzing, wondering, as they pass by your table what kind of person they are? what coffee do they drink? what do they do in the coffee shop? where were they from? who are they with? thoughts by thoughts questions by questions curiosity kicks in eventually clouding your mind as you nibble your chapped lip finally finding a solution to the crosswords also your futile thoughts without hesitation you give those people in the shop every single one of them a life based on their coffee
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Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 12:36 PM UTC
Untitled
My Lucifer, unwitting Muse, dog-eared Vonnegut, afrobeatnik third eye, howls escaping from your headphones, wailing about secrets, about infidelity, about analyzing life until there ain’t nothin’ left. Then you shuffle by in your black and white Adidas, hair in twists, wearing the striped sweater of nihilistic intent, quoting the rants of Holden Caulfield in your blog like you never didn’t know him. I never asked to know you, to want who I can’t have when I can’t even love myself. And every fiber Of my being yearns for reciprocation. What is there to return? What is there to feel, you meditate on truth, fallen angel in the parlor of rebellion, blasphemous goodbye, bright and morning star simpering like crickets in the palms of daybreak. Your musicality radiates from subway chatter and overheard profanity down El Camino Real. I take in your ballad at my post office mailbox, in the abandoned echoes of daydream monologues. You’re a philosopher, exploring theory of mind, a cartographer, mapping the labyrinth of your deepest desires. Tell me again about desires, demonstrations of divine sadism. Tell me about human empathy, the animated faces of wordless expression, the metaphysics of free will, my beginning and my end, alpha and omega, my fortress in the land of chic. Blasphemous hustler, let your idealism simmer, your wit, your mojo, I come to you an amateur, a neophyte, a lowly scab in the strike against ignorance. Give me my melody, my song, my one-hit-wonder of all that is cliché and unknown. But I can’t be the other woman, your girlfriend, your aspiring Playboy bunny only 10-bucks-a-throw. Your highness-who-yells- his-ideas-into-the-ears-of-echoes, your every quirk spellbinds me. Each day I wake to your entourage vibrato. I am held captive by your brooding stare, empress of liberal doves. You visit in my dreams when the sky is a force of darkness viewing light through peepholes, your flaws an aphrodisiac, a love drug, a fast hit in the basement from the ecstasy of words.
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Aug 1, 2012
Aug 1, 2012 at 5:37 AM UTC
Fixation
My Lucifer, unwitting Muse, dog-eared Vonnegut, afrobeatnik third eye, howls escaping from your headphones, wailing about secrets, about infidelity, about analyzing life until there ain’t nothin’ left. Then you shuffle by in your black and white Adidas, hair in twists, wearing the striped sweater of nihilistic intent, quoting the rants of Holden Caulfield in your blog like you never didn’t know him. I never asked to know you, to want who I can’t have when I can’t even love myself. And every fiber Of my being yearns for reciprocation. What is there to return? What is there to feel, you meditate on truth, fallen angel in the parlor of rebellion, blasphemous goodbye, bright and morning star simpering like crickets in the palms of daybreak. Your musicality radiates from subway chatter and overheard profanity down El Camino Real. I take in your ballad at my post office mailbox, in the abandoned echoes of daydream monologues. You’re a philosopher, exploring theory of mind, a cartographer, mapping the labyrinth of your deepest desires. Tell me again about desires, demonstrations of divine sadism. Tell me about human empathy, the animated faces of wordless expression, the metaphysics of free will, my beginning and my end, alpha and omega, my fortress in the land of chic. Blasphemous hustler, let your idealism simmer, your wit, your mojo, I come to you an amateur, a neophyte, a lowly scab in the strike against ignorance. Give me my melody, my song, my one-hit-wonder of all that is cliché and unknown. But I can’t be the other woman, your girlfriend, your aspiring Playboy bunny only 10-bucks-a-throw. Your highness-who-yells- his-ideas-into-the-ears-of-echoes, your every quirk spellbinds me. Each day I wake to your entourage vibrato. I am held captive by your brooding stare, empress of liberal doves. You visit in my dreams when the sky is a force of darkness viewing light through peepholes, your flaws an aphrodisiac, a love drug, a fast hit in the basement from the ecstasy of words.
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I need you. These words are true, but it's hard for me to put them in a sentence. I can't say them out loud because that would mean that I depend on you. I want to get to know you. But I forget that I can't get close to someone who's never there. I wish I could go to ball games with you. I wish I could have looked out into the audience in the middle of a recital and see your face in the crowd. I wish I could see the same look on your face that they do. You always look so proud when you talk to them, talk about them and even when you look at them. Especially when you talk about the one that got away. You praise her. Even after everything that's happened you're still proud of her. I wish I had that. I wish I could see that radiating smile of yours and know that it's for me too. For something that I've done that you were so unbelievably proud of. I know I'm not yours, not really. I know that you're trying your best. I understand that it's not easy with three kids in the house. I also know that it's harder because I'm older than she was when you first got her, and I'm older than the kids are now. I try to make you proud, I really do. I study for every test and hand in every homework assignment. I await the scores so I can run home and tell you what they are. After telling you the news you always have the same stern look on your face. I feel as if I'm never good enough. I even got a job and am trying to learn the value of money. I try to be smart. Sometimes you say I'm not, and just to prove you wrong I try to impress you by telling you useless facts. But it still doesn't seem to be good enough. Is it because I'm too boring, too loud, too girly, too lazy, or because I spend too much time on tumblr? Is it because I don't look like the rest of you? Is it because... I'm nothing like she was? I know that she was your baby girl. I know that you'll always hold a special place for her in your heart. But I was second. Doesn't that count for something? Maybe you actually are proud of me. Maybe I'm just over analyzing this like I do everything else. Maybe... Just maybe. But I've still never seen it. I've never seen that radiating smile that they've all seen... Oh how I'd **** to see it.
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Dec 4, 2012
Dec 4, 2012 at 7:42 PM UTC
I Need You
I need you. These words are true, but it's hard for me to put them in a sentence. I can't say them out loud because that would mean that I depend on you. I want to get to know you. But I forget that I can't get close to someone who's never there. I wish I could go to ball games with you. I wish I could have looked out into the audience in the middle of a recital and see your face in the crowd. I wish I could see the same look on your face that they do. You always look so proud when you talk to them, talk about them and even when you look at them. Especially when you talk about the one that got away. You praise her. Even after everything that's happened you're still proud of her. I wish I had that. I wish I could see that radiating smile of yours and know that it's for me too. For something that I've done that you were so unbelievably proud of. I know I'm not yours, not really. I know that you're trying your best. I understand that it's not easy with three kids in the house. I also know that it's harder because I'm older than she was when you first got her, and I'm older than the kids are now. I try to make you proud, I really do. I study for every test and hand in every homework assignment. I await the scores so I can run home and tell you what they are. After telling you the news you always have the same stern look on your face. I feel as if I'm never good enough. I even got a job and am trying to learn the value of money. I try to be smart. Sometimes you say I'm not, and just to prove you wrong I try to impress you by telling you useless facts. But it still doesn't seem to be good enough. Is it because I'm too boring, too loud, too girly, too lazy, or because I spend too much time on tumblr? Is it because I don't look like the rest of you? Is it because... I'm nothing like she was? I know that she was your baby girl. I know that you'll always hold a special place for her in your heart. But I was second. Doesn't that count for something? Maybe you actually are proud of me. Maybe I'm just over analyzing this like I do everything else. Maybe... Just maybe. But I've still never seen it. I've never seen that radiating smile that they've all seen... Oh how I'd **** to see it.
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A calamity of views abused When the alcohol is strong The choices go wrong Everyones offend through Misinterpreted temptation Using my over analyzing brain to calm the degraded Crying over a mundane sane Looking for persuasion Through persecution Picking out your weaknesses Bleakness, is a majestic trait Not intentionally Burdening their agony My name is animosity I depict a character that sympathizes Your alibies Using my vulnerability Contaminated humility Finding The hiding No problem suggesting My dark secrets of the night Applying my skits that fit right Paranoid to be viewed in a mortifying light I would be lying denying my animalistic ride I have scrutinized Remorsing I see earth born Godly you stand In the morning Behold deformities You fit the norm I bow to your Godly proportion In vein this I pray Amen
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May 13, 2016
May 13, 2016 at 8:41 PM UTC
I pray to you
Walking thousands of steps Measuring footprints left behind Stumbling blocks Analyzing Walking through slippery roads Dead ends Ascending mountains Descending Facing ephemeral seasons Running away Chasing The wind The worst of all facing storms a hurricane mind-like-storm Through the journey Remember that no waves can ever drown you Find rest in the secret place, Embrace. Copyright© Cynthia Ulloa All rights reserved.
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Sep 10, 2015
Sep 10, 2015 at 4:33 AM UTC
Embrace the Journey
It is a terrible thing this flesh that wears us Being makes us Slaves to atomic thought Particles possessing some consciousness Dreams stream from the undermind To undermine All we thought we were From the sub-atomic to the atomic On into the protein patterns of our thoughts Neurotransmitters flood and fulminate Filling our minds with strange things Receptor receiving impressions Leave strangers believing instincts Animals evolved to understand but ignore The gifts we have acquired from millions years and more A talent for analyzing then adjusting ourselves And after the fact constructing a model That makes continuity out of all of the chaos Now most take it for granted Become carbon copies cut in granite They give in to the impulses And waste said potential on fulfilling the illusion The desire to be grander is subsumed By their fear of non-existence Which is what they become Not after death But as cogs in the machine In a factory of robotic human beings
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Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 4:49 PM UTC
The Musing
Empty walls and conversations with myself Analyzing memories of tea stains on my denim shirt.
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Feb 23, 2012
Feb 23, 2012 at 5:06 PM UTC
Corny ******** IV
dust begins to collect frequent cleanings are nothing but memories of the past your possessions remain relics of what once existed what happened to the unbreakable bond your endless creativity my deceitful beauty how can such things deteriorate so quickly and now we sit legs crossed naked in so many forms clinging on to the past analyzing all uncertainties wondering of the true capability of change of resolution of depth the way things were reminiscing infinite romance joyous love unscathed hope we are the storm and now we find ourselves right where we started longing for love lusting for something lasting neither of which led us here we both know it will never it can never the bond irreversible unstoppable one question lingers as it always has for days for weeks for years decades slip by so quickly one thing is for certain nothing lasts forever but nothing ever fades
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Jun 3, 2014
Jun 3, 2014 at 3:23 PM UTC
Unsettled