I'm dancing in my kitchen
Singing songs from the top of my lungs
I don't need you anymore
And I honestly never did
I'm just going to keep dancing
Because I'm better

The next time I see you
I will ignore you
I will treat you like you've treated me this whole time
I don't need you
So the next time I see you
I won't see anything

My options are limited
And my time is way too long
It's quite unfortunate
I don't know what I'm doing wrong
I know the problem
I just don't know the solution
I've hit rock bottom
Now I welcome prosecution
They see me as a burden
I shouldn't be here
I open up the curtain
And let the sun sear
Now we're all on fire
I let in the heat
They fight against desire
I'm the the one to mistreat
I must make a decision
I'm just too naive
One thing they always mention
I must change or leave

The next time I see her
I will tell her what I feel
I'm moving on and this time it's real
I hope it works out this time
Because the next time I see her
I will see everything

Don't talk
Don't think
Just walk
With me
Just listen
To the sounds of the breeze
You're my addiction
I'm begging on my knees
Don't talk
Don't blink
Just watch me
As I move closer and closer
As we move slower and slower
Put your hand on my shoulder
I'll let you take over

I'm doing it, there's no going back
You only live once and that's a fact
If people judge me I won't give a crap
I gotta be me and that's a wrap

It's been too long
And she's my favorite song
That I miss hearing
Something very endearing
It's the song I dance to when I'm alone
But I can't hear it now that I'm home
I miss her very badly
I'll see her soon though, gladly

I know I don’t deserve a second chance
And I know I don’t deserve a second dance
And I know you’re scared that I’m gonna hurt you again
And I know you're scared that I won’t hold your hand
And I know that you don’t know what I’m thinking
But I promise you’re the only thing I think about
And you’re the only hope in this sea of doubt
And I just feel so trapped i need to get out
And I know that you can save me from depressions mouth
And I’ll be here to give you all the love that you deserve
So for what it’s worth
Will you give me a second chance?

Should I go for it
Should I make the move
I am waiting for the right time
But I’m dying to
Tell you that I love you
And that I need you
And I just have to be with you
Cause I can’t stop thinking about you
And I know that your with her
But I can treat you better
Cause when we’re together
We could change the weather
And she don’t appreciate you
The way that I do
All she does is uses you
And I know the truth
You not the the only one that she talks to
And when you find out
I’ll be right here
I’ll your hand
Until the pain disappears
I’ll wipe away all your tears
Cause I’m in love with you
Lord what should I do

I gave him the look like I've done with every guy around you
And when they touch you I freak out

Number two: To my friends
Y'all did a good job
A great job
Y'all kept me sane for a good bit
But now I'm left with nothing
I can't be left alone
I keep on making mistakes and y'all can't help me
Let go
I love y'all

You are the girl in the moon
You disappear at noon
And you come back soon
You are so beautiful
Far from the usual
And that's indisputable
My favorite time of the day
Is when you come out to play
At night you never stray
In the morning I wake up to you even though you're kind of faded
And just a tad bit jaded
And some mornings you're kind of degraded
I still think you're beautiful at all times
Even when I can't see you through the blurred lines
And through all of my twisted crimes
You're the girl in the moon

Before you I was clueless and I was broken
But when I found you I finally felt like I had a purpose
I was adapted to you
I was adapted to waking up every morning knowing that somebody loved me
I was adapted to people looking at us in awe because of what we had
We were beautiful
And I was adapted to that
I was adapted to doing things a certain way to make you happy
I was adapted to the way your hand fit in mine
And now I’m lost and clueless and broken yet again

I want to be happy but my brain won't let me
I feel so guilty for everything I've ever done
I feel like I've ruined everyone's lives
But I think things will be okay
I will just keep fake smiling until soon it is real

I'm not me
I'm me
But I don't feel right
I never have
I always felt like I was trapped
I'm still trapped
But I'm afraid to escape cause it'll just make things worse
What would people think if they saw the real me?

Don't feel
   Don't feel
     Don't fall for her again
       **** it you did it again!

I make bad decisions
I'm sorry but I'm not
I'm sorry you don't agree with my decisions
I am not sorry for the decisions that I make
I am living life
Let me LIVE

Love me
Hold me
Never let go of me

I'm happy
Because you're here
It's a weird feeling
A foreign feeling in a sense
I like it
But I'm afraid to lose it
It's okay because I'm happy
If I lose it so what
It was fun while it lasted
Thank you
For being my one source of happiness

Maybe you could give me a chance
I adore you to be honest and I love it when you dance
And every night before I go to bed
You dance around in my head
And I know that you don’t know me
And I’m sure you’re fine without me
But I wonder how I would feel if I knew you thought about me
And maybe if I shoot my shot I’ll make it
And I swear that if give you me a chance I will take it
But I’m hopeless in love
Because I’m down here and you’re way above
And I don’t like to take risks
But honestly I’d risk it all for someone like you

Your like a song that's stuck in my head
At least it's a really good song

Watching them just makes me want you more
I want to leave but I'm stuck
I want you to be here
But unfortunately
We're both trouble makers ;)

My hand would fit perfectly cupped around your face
Your heart could fill my last empty space
My whole world pauses when we embrace
You are my missing puzzle piece
But I can't have you
My hands are cupped around his face
He is occupying my empty space
While you are crying about someone who doesn't love you
Someone who doesn't deserve you
I need to stop thinking about you

They **** your brain
And your heart
And they make your kids feel like
You don't love them anymore

There is a monster in my mirror
And I don't know what to do
I asked my mom to fix it
But she refused
There is a monster in my mirror
It has been there for so long
I asked my uncle to fight it
But he said the monster was too strong
There is a monster in my mirror
It is getting bigger
I asked my grandma to face it
But all she did was shiver
There is a monster in my mirror
It is starting to get darker
I asked my aunt to help me
But it just pushed her farther
The monster in my mirror
Is the only thing that has actually stayed around
So if it stays any longer
I might fall to the ground

I really hope I can make this work
I've said a lot of hurtful words
To the ones I've loved before
And I can't take those words back
I kinda ****
I'm awkward
I'm pretty dumb
I say things before I think and ruin everything
But my intentions are never bad
I never mean to make people sad
I can also be a little too trusting at times
Yet I still get jealous very easily
If I ever seem like I don't care
It's just because I'm scared
I don't want to say the wrong thing and mess everything up
Also I get attached really fast
Because of certain things in my past
I'll get to that later
But right now
I just want you to know
You are the only ******* my mind at the moment
And that will stay that way for a while

Man y'all **** me off
But I wouldn't trade any of this for any amount
And honestly sometimes I wish I would

I don’t care about your girlfriend
Be my girlfriend
I’ll treat you better
And do things she could never
She’s cheating on you by the way
But you’ll find out someday
And when you do I’ll be there for you
Like you wanted me to
When I wasn’t okay
But now I’m okay
I have changed
And I want you to be my bae
Again...

I'm not going anywhere
We can work things out
We always do
This only makes us stronger

What if they find out?

Maybe, just maybe I can finally be me
Maybe, just maybe they'll let me be free
And maybe, just maybe I won't be judged
And maybe, just maybe...
I'll finally feel loved

I don't want to be alive anymore
I am a bad person
I cannot live
I cannot change the way people view me
I cannot change the way people treat me
I want to be better
I want them to know that I'm trying to be better

"Welcome," I say loud enough for the whole world to hear me
"Wipe your feet on me. I don't mind."
Some have even stomped their feet on me
It hurts and it has left many marks
I don't think I want to be a doormat anymore

I miss the days when we were invincible
We were so far from predictable
Our love was like a miracle
So beautiful that it seemed fictional
But now I’m all alone just wishing you could hold me
The way you used to
Back when you knew the old me
I feel so empty
I just wish I could go back to the way things used to be
I’ll never fall in love again
But it’s fine I know I never win
But I’ll admit I just wanna hold you again

I've always looked up to you
You were always so cool and awesome to me
You were always so strong
You were so protective of me
You always knew how to make me feel better when I was sad
You always knew how to calm me down when I was freaking out
You would harm yourself and I never knew why until now
You've never stopped harming yourself but I don't blame you
And I promise I won't shame you
I am sorry
I know you think I gave up on you
But I am the only one who hasn't

When I think about you my heart drops
When I hear your name my heart throbs
And when I'm near you my heart stops

What does this mean?
I'm overthinking again but I can't help it
**** it your smile is stuck in my head
**** it now I can't go to bed
I want to talk to you instead
I told myself to stop but it's too late

I mean I'm trying not to be
But I'm numb
I can't help it

You always know how to say the most perfect things
You always know when somethings not right
You know me better than I know me
You teach me the truth
You tell me what I need to hear
Not what I want to hear but what I need to hear
Thank you
For being the best thing that has ever happened to me

I lied to myself over and over again
I convinced myself that you loved me
But I was wrong
You showed me how wrong I truly was
You have officially broken me
I hope you're happy

You make me smile
You make me warm
I can’t let go
Even though you are the storm

I don't know what you want
But I could give it to you
All you gotta do is tell me what to do
If you want me you have me
Baby don't play me

I really really really hope this works out
I really really really hope that I can make you happy
I don't know if I can give you everything you want
But I will try
I will really try

I feel empty
I feel as if every bone in my body has given up on me
I feel as if my heart no longer exists
I feel so broken
So alone
I can’t look away from my phone
I’m hurting
I’m crying
I feel like I’m dying
Maybe I’m already dead
I’m stuck in my bed
I can’t get up
Maybe my bed is my casket
And maybe my engines missing the gasket
Because all my loved ones have left me
So maybe that’s why I feel so empty

New year
New me
LOL