Before you I was clueless and I was broken
But when I found you I finally felt like I had a purpose
I was adapted to you
I was adapted to waking up every morning knowing that somebody loved me
I was adapted to people looking at us in awe because of what we had
We were beautiful
And I was adapted to that
I was adapted to doing things a certain way to make you happy
I was adapted to the way your hand fit in mine
And now I’m lost and clueless and broken yet again

I will no longer allow you to **** on me
And tell me it’s raining

Maybe you could give me a chance
I adore you to be honest and I love it when you dance
And every night before I go to bed
You dance around in my head
And I know that you don’t know me
And I’m sure you’re fine without me
But I wonder how I would feel if I knew you thought about me
And maybe if I shoot my shot I’ll make it
And I swear that if give you me a chance I will take it
But I’m hopeless in love
Because I’m down here and you’re way above
And I don’t like to take risks
But honestly I’d risk it all for someone like you

I think I might’ve lost my style
I been writing for a while
But I don’t know who I am anymore

I know I don’t deserve a second chance
And I know I don’t deserve a second dance
And I know you’re scared that I’m gonna hurt you again
And I know you're scared that I won’t hold your hand
And I know that you don’t know what I’m thinking
But I promise you’re the only thing I think about
And you’re the only hope in this sea of doubt
And I just feel so trapped i need to get out
And I know that you can save me from depressions mouth
And I’ll be here to give you all the love that you deserve
So for what it’s worth
Will you give me a second chance?

Should I go for it
Should I make the move
I am waiting for the right time
But I’m dying to
Tell you that I love you
And that I need you
And I just have to be with you
Cause I can’t stop thinking about you
And I know that your with her
But I can treat you better
Cause when we’re together
We could change the weather
And she don’t appreciate you
The way that I do
All she does is uses you
And I know the truth
You not the the only one that she talks to
And when you find out
I’ll be right here
I’ll your hand
Until the pain disappears
I’ll wipe away all your tears
Cause I’m in love with you
Lord what should I do

I don’t care about your girlfriend
Be my girlfriend
I’ll treat you better
And do things she could never
She’s cheating on you by the way
But you’ll find out someday
And when you do I’ll be there for you
Like you wanted me to
When I wasn’t okay
But now I’m okay
I have changed
And I want you to be my bae
Again...

I never thought I’d say this but I want you back
I know I didn’t love you right and I’m so sorry
It’s just that my brain just wasn’t thinking right
I just wasn’t okay
But now I’m in a good state of mind
And I’m doing fine
But you’re always on my mind
So please give me a second chance I won’t waste your time
I know I have before but I swear not this time
We can be beautiful
We can be amazing
We can be the power couple
And we can be blazing
Just give me a second chance because I want you back

I don’t know who you are
And maybe you don’t either
But you are gonna be the love of my life
And I just can’t wait to meet you
I know I can be a lot to handle sometimes
But I promise I will always be there when you need me
And I will always love you no matter what
And I will never let anyone hurt you
And I will never break your heart
Just trust me and love me
And I’ll give you the world
I love you with all my heart
                                    Love,
                 ­                     Your not so secret admirer

If you looked in the mirror
You’d understand why I’m so sad

I loved who I was when I was with you
I was confident
Strong
Happy
For the first time in my life I felt like somebody
And not just anybody
I was your body
My heart finally had a purpose
And that purpose was to beat for you
My hands finally hands finally had something to hold
And that something was you
And for the first time in my life I didn’t care what people thought
I woke up every morning knowing that I was loved by you
I was the best me I could ever be
And that me I will never see
Ever again

I feel empty
I feel as if every bone in my body has given up on me
I feel as if my heart no longer exists
I feel so broken
So alone
I can’t look away from my phone
I’m hurting
I’m crying
I feel like I’m dying
Maybe I’m already dead
I’m stuck in my bed
I can’t get up
Maybe my bed is my casket
And maybe my engines missing the gasket
Because all my loved ones have left me
So maybe that’s why I feel so empty

I’m stuck
I’m trapped
Someone come save me
They won’t let me out
I wish they would erase me
I’m so unhappy
Unhealthy
I’m stuck
I’m so alone
Someone please keep me company

I used to write that date everywhere
Now I wish I could erase it

I miss the days when we were invincible
We were so far from predictable
Our love was like a miracle
So beautiful that it seemed fictional
But now I’m all alone just wishing you could hold me
The way you used to
Back when you knew the old me
I feel so empty
I just wish I could go back to the way things used to be
I’ll never fall in love again
But it’s fine I know I never win
But I’ll admit I just wanna hold you again

Love me
Hold me
Never let go of me

We were what everyone wanted to be
We were the stars
We were the moon
We were the world in human form
Two separate halves of the earth
Collide beautifully and become whole
We were so powerful
Our love was so strong
We were the king and queen of passion
The god and goddess of love
We were the fuel to every fire
We were everyone's deepest desire
We were beautiful
But the beauty always ends in disaster
We became separated once more
And the universe has brought us far apart
We will never be whole again
But I will never forget that
We were beautiful

For they remind me of you
So bright
Yet so far
I’m in love with the stars

This whole time,
The devil thought
He was playing with my head
But his whole plan backfired

I want you to be
My last dance
My last kiss
My last chance
My last wish
My last love
My last laugh
My last hug
My last half
My last start
My last end
My last heart
My last mend
My last day
My last night
My last way
My last right
My last

I've been told one thing my entire life
Grow a pair
I've been tossed around from house to house
I've been abused and mistreated
I've been hurt a lot
I've never been taught
And I never ever retreated
But they still tell me
Grow a pair
I've seen some things
I can't unsee
And I've been told some things
That really hurt me
And I act okay on the outside
But on the inside I'm not alright
I stay up all night
Cause I can't sleep
All the memories
Are surrounding me
And suddenly
I find myself
I'm a position
Where I'm helpless
And I remember what they used to say
Grow a pair
And yet again
I'm stuck thinking
About the things I been through
And yet again
I'm wondering
If what they said was really true
Do I still need to
Grow a pair
And yea I let them not me
But it's not because I'm a *****
It's because I don't really give a ****
And that **** don't really bother me
Now words are different
Cause they sink in deep
And torture the **** outta me
Till I can't sleep
And now I'm stuck crying in my pillow
Worrying about tomorrow
And now through all these tears
I'm realizing that I still need to
Grow a pair

Your like a song that's stuck in my head
At least it's a really good song

But then you smiled at me

Don't talk
Don't think
Just walk
With me
Just listen
To the sounds of the breeze
You're my addiction
I'm begging on my knees
Don't talk
Don't blink
Just watch me
As I move closer and closer
As we move slower and slower
Put your hand on my shoulder
I'll let you take over

I find it kinda ironic that the people who don't want to see us hurt
Are the only reasons we are hurt in the first place

I make bad decisions
I'm sorry but I'm not
I'm sorry you don't agree with my decisions
I am not sorry for the decisions that I make
I am living life
Let me LIVE

What does this mean?
I'm overthinking again but I can't help it
**** it your smile is stuck in my head
**** it now I can't go to bed
I want to talk to you instead
I told myself to stop but it's too late

It's always the smile that makes me come running
It's just that simple yet so stunning
I found a new girl with a new smile
A new heart, I can stay awhile
I don't know if she sees me the same
But that's not really my aim
I want her, but at the same time I don't
Make my move? I probably won't

I mean I'm trying not to be
But I'm numb
I can't help it

As soon as you handed me that piece of paper
I knew it was over
But I'm flying now so bye...

What if they find out?

Why can't you just be happy with me
Stop getting mad
I know I'm stupid
But that's just too bad
Let me be me
And you can be you
I don't get mad at you
Cause I don't have to
Just be okay
Let me be enough
Don't make me mad
Don't make me stand up

Yea I totally support you
In this relationship created out of spite
Have fun while it lasts
All she wants from you is nothing good
But what do I know?
Why should I care?

**** me now, just take me away
**** me now, right here, today
**** me now, I swear I'm done
**** me now, I've had enough fun
**** me now, no one will know
**** me now, just let me go

I'll never be good enough
Might as well end it.

"Welcome," I say loud enough for the whole world to hear me
"Wipe your feet on me. I don't mind."
Some have even stomped their feet on me
It hurts and it has left many marks
I don't think I want to be a doormat anymore

I've always looked up to you
You were always so cool and awesome to me
You were always so strong
You were so protective of me
You always knew how to make me feel better when I was sad
You always knew how to calm me down when I was freaking out
You would harm yourself and I never knew why until now
You've never stopped harming yourself but I don't blame you
And I promise I won't shame you
I am sorry
I know you think I gave up on you
But I am the only one who hasn't

No one can make me smile the way you can
Everyone makes me feel like I'm less than
But you make me feel like I'm batman
My happiness now has a longer lifespan
I'm flying so high now I feel like superman
I'm a Lamborghini while everyone else is a minivan
And now all I can say is... ****

I'm honestly better without you
I hope this is the last poem I write about you
I feel that I have wasted all of my words on you
And I thought you were the only one who could make me truly happy
But that's not true
Because I met someone new
So much better than you
And I will not write about you anymore
Because she is the one that I adore
She is the one who deserves my words
Not you

I really really really hope this works out
I really really really hope that I can make you happy
I don't know if I can give you everything you want
But I will try
I will really try

When I think about you my heart drops
When I hear your name my heart throbs
And when I'm near you my heart stops

Watching them just makes me want you more
I want to leave but I'm stuck
I want you to be here
But unfortunately
We're both trouble makers ;)

I really hope I can make this work
I've said a lot of hurtful words
To the ones I've loved before
And I can't take those words back
I kinda ****
I'm awkward
I'm pretty dumb
I say things before I think and ruin everything
But my intentions are never bad
I never mean to make people sad
I can also be a little too trusting at times
Yet I still get jealous very easily
If I ever seem like I don't care
It's just because I'm scared
I don't want to say the wrong thing and mess everything up
Also I get attached really fast
Because of certain things in my past
I'll get to that later
But right now
I just want you to know
You are the only ******* my mind at the moment
And that will stay that way for a while

Don't feel
   Don't feel
     Don't fall for her again
       **** it you did it again!

You are the girl in the moon
You disappear at noon
And you come back soon
You are so beautiful
Far from the usual
And that's indisputable
My favorite time of the day
Is when you come out to play
At night you never stray
In the morning I wake up to you even though you're kind of faded
And just a tad bit jaded
And some mornings you're kind of degraded
I still think you're beautiful at all times
Even when I can't see you through the blurred lines
And through all of my twisted crimes
You're the girl in the moon