Crossing roads with no stop signs
Even danger fears me
Love scares me
Risks bore me
Love confessed to be my enemy
For many years it fought me
Till it won me and now it abuses every part of me
I gave it hope but it’s still wants more from me
With every piece of my being it forces me to be vulnerable, show emotions that are relatable
So now every time I say “I love you” I take risks not knowing if that will be the first or last time I say that to you
It was risks that got me this far
It will be risks that will expose my hearts scars

One does not need to be born of royal birth
to realize their nobality
Their existence alone shows great triumph
Over life’s pain and reality
Deep inside our hearts
we are all Kings and Queens
Destined for a greater good
To serve and protect humanity
We are all of royal blood
Coming from a nation called earth
Fighting for peace and tranquility
While we objectify the laws of gravity
Letting our souls fly into a deep blue sky
As angels kneel when we Fly by

Sad birds still sing
Sad lovers force smiles through pain
Those who are drowning still try to swim

Conditions, don't give us defenitions
We define conditions with our reactions

You can't control everything, but your reactions will always determine everything

Life is a bulletproof vest full of stitches
Shot at on every block
While opportunity knocks
Misery rocks as it seeks company
When it does it also invites empathy
Sometimes empathy shows up
And other times  it doesnt

The Homeless hug blocks for comfort
While the fortunate beg for time
Is this all worth it?

Is dying rich more valuable than living broke?
Or is living broke more valuable than dying rich?

I ask this because a wound cut deep knows know value of who it hurts

Pain is ignorant, it knows know race or social economic status
It’s only agenda is to break us or make us

When death comes for us
No bulletproof can save us

Tree leafs fall
as summer goes away
My heart goes astray
Goodbye summer
Goodbye warm weather
See you after three seasons
I loved you with no reason
lungs breathing, soul shinning, heart beating
with you I lived a thousand lives in one season

Are private conversations even private anymore
We talk with caution
Is any body even real anymore?
Fake news turned into fake lives
Oh wait did fake lives come before fake news?
No one even knows anymore

Of the million ways to die
Who would of thought a screenshot
Would be one of them
Vulnerability is now an illusion
A mystery to many
Too many are hallucinating
People talk
while others are investigating
Looking for ways to expose them
Knowing that you are one screenshot away from death, how can anyone be real anymore?

If self-love was an ocean
Would you be willing to drown in it

Others die loving their lovers
but live hating themselves
so tell me is it worth it to give your love while you don’t even value its worth  

Because I see empty oceans
And many broken hearts
Beautiful pieces of art
that have been torn apart
By lovers that are millions of oceans apart

She had reasons to leave
but never did
Her love was stronger, so she held on longer
He signed her death warrant with every punch to her face and ribs
Breaking her bones,
while building her wall of insecurity
Emotionally and physically abusing her daily
She couldn’t leave as he held her heart hostage
Loving her with rage
Stuck between pleasure and pain
Broken deeply to a point where it all felt the same

She let him put his hands on her
She let him control her
She let him abuse her,
She let him misuse her, and mistreat her
She was too weak to say no to love  

So she took in all the pain while she died from within

She thought love was a battlefield
So she dressed herself in insecurity, bad memories, pain, and tragedy
She feared vulnerability
Because she believed she would lose her identity
On this battle, she thought changing her perception
Would gain her my acceptance
Not knowing that it was her flaws I fell in love with
I knew if I could love her flaws I could love her all
Like Christ did when he died for all

All I remember was her smile
It had a magical feeling to it

Like the one you just had while reading this

It was deeper than poetry
It always knew how to bring out the best in me

She was my poetry,
she was my reality mixed with fantasy
I was high on her ecstasy
Addicted to her like a phin to his needle
Her love solved all of my life’s toughest riddles
She was the morphine to my pain
The fire that burned from within
The calm that kept me sane

She was the reason I...

We fell in love with shooting stars
Wishing that our love would go far
We had stomachs filled with butterflies
While we believed in beautiful lies
We looked up at the skies,
wondering what Love looked like before we looked into each other’s eyes

Forever seemed too long to pray for
So we prayed for tomorrow and hoped to live for an eternity, while loving each other deep into our dark fantasy

She picked wars with words
He fired back with silence
Both injured from the battle
They crawled back into a bed full of ice
Hearts cut in slices
Emotions blown to pieces
Bodies cold and numb

Minds so restless
Loving became pointless
As they worshiped silence
Obeying it as it created more space

They knew to be new
They had a lot to gain again
All eight hundred thousand eighty eight of them ate
Their sorrows and pain  
To make weight they had to wait
Color coded skin shades sold with dollar signs
Dark ones known as field slaves
Light ones known as house slaves
Women ***** by their masters
And whipped after
Scars left on their bodies as reminders
Given last names like Washington and Lincoln
Former Kings and Queens who lost their crowns
Shipped in boats sold by the tons
Black bald boys bawled tears of pain  
Black mothers and fathers with wisdom to be authors
had to settle to be unpaid workers chained to shackles  
Knowledge oppressed and robbed of their mental ability
To survive they relied on creativity
Singing soul music just to get through slavery

Night falls on the heavy sleepers
Slapping them with dreams and sometimes nightmares
Crying night tears
Body shocked stuck in a maze with no lighters
Darkness roams empty souls
Growing tired of vision as things look blurry
Gasping for air they awake
to find their bodies numb to move
Feeling like their bodies are being chocked
Mind being provoked, emotions evoked
Sleep is good, sleep is deadly, sleep is heavenly, sleep can leave you feeling empty
Heavy sleepers are victims of sleeps terror

We love to sleep
But hate to sleep forever
Death is an everlasting reality
In which we pray doesn’t take over
we fear overdosing on sleep
Because we know not where we wake

Cold nights
Souls drifting
Hearts beating  
Dream chasing
Echoes of wolves speaking
My ears listen while my hearts skipping
Fear befriends my lonely soul
It holds me hostage
As I sleep with these wolves
I remember the touch of sheeps
In pain I dive deep
Giving sorrow my soul to keep
Seeing that love is as sharp as these wolves teeth

If you loved once
you can always learn to love again
go through the growing pains again
but smart love is not falling victim to the same person who hurt you again and again

Smart love is knowing when to lose
just so you can love again

We are all addicts of peace and when we don't have it, we panic flip.
Let's remember these days when salaries didn't separate us.
As we enter a state of emergency.
Can't you see, this is not where we supposed to be.  
Death does not discriminate, who knew a virus would be what brought people together.
Celebrities sharing salaries as the hungry and homeless getting fed.
Schools closing as we ordered to stay inside.
Fear of close company.
They call it social distancing, that's far from reality.
Stock market crashes as millions of bible verses posted on social media sites, airlines canceling flights.
No entertainment tonight.
Fear of getting infected as the government orders 8 billion people to wash their hands, but still, we live in a ***** word, full of government fear, jealousy, and greed.
Doctors and nurses sacrifice their lives to honor their professions. Oh my, what a deep revelation.  
Hard times don't last, tough people, do.
Its what you do when your back is against the wall, that shows the real you.
I pray you find peace in times of tribulations.
When its all said and done I hope we don't revert back to our old ways of segregation and true form of social distancing.

Sometime love feels like...
uncomfortable feelings sitting in your stomach
Uneasy thoughts in your mind
Forcing you to hold on to painful thoughts
Of what it would be like to not be loved
Just sometimes love doesn't feel like love
It feels like darkness swarming your soul
Needles pearsing your heart
As your lovers fingertips squeeze out all emotions
Leaving you drained of all feelings
Sometimes just sometimes love does not feel like love

Sorry my past caught up to me
memories so rough
they got the best of me
I am a victim of my past choices
decisions made that now leave me voiceless
Sorry to include you in my life that now leaves you choice less
You are now a piece of history I wish to rewrite
A battle I wish I could re-fight
A light I wish I could keep bright
But now you leave me as we fall apart
Take pieces of my heart
Maybe in the moonlight
you will remember me underneath the skylight
Remember times I touched your sweet heart
if it is in you
I wish you could still fight for a love that was so right
we met at the wrong time
If I could go back I would of made you mine before I met you
I'm sorry that in this life of mine you had to be a part of a love with an expiration date

Speak from thy heart
so that thy body can rid its desires of being lonely
Capture thy imagination and serenade my naked soul
If summer holds on
let her know that for autumn to come we all have to fall
Just speak from thy heart
and maybe Picasso might bless you with the gift of art
You have Mona Lisa's eyes and Helen Keller's Sight
So be blind to judgement, but open to love  
Try to see the unseen and feel the numb
Lose your mind and find it next to my heart,
because love makes us all insane
Speak from thy heart and maybe you might start to love again
Let me be your medicine and rid you of your pain

When I speak poetry
All I see is you and me
Loving each other unconditionally
Healing each other surgically
You are my harmony and I your symphony
Together we sing a sweet melody

No form of anxiety can conquer our therapy
This love is transcendent it builds on our energy
You give me the best of you and I promise
To give you all of me

Spread love not hate
Spread peace and share faith
For giving is the only form of recieving
Believing is the only way of achieving
We are humans, different in race but one in spirit, let's learn to inherit this love and share it

Empty stomachs speak languages only the mind can hear
starving children make sad melodies
while mothers and fathers stomachs sleep empty  
living life while facing internal tragedy
they eat and breath poverty
while their countries exploit those working
victims of a broken nation
beggars make more income than those working
poverty is their new identity
starvation is their reality

Her heart was starving for love
so she feasted on his lies
She couldn’t realize
That his eyes
Were built to tell lies
With her heart full
She became her lovers fool
He played her like a fiddle
While she tried to understand him like an unsolvable riddle
Complicated, and uninvested he was
She fought to keep him while being devastated
He demoralized her worth until she got infected with a universal disease called insecurity
Hating to love him,
while struggling to leave him
loving him openly, while secretly dying slowly

Church bells ring
the lord calling you to bring your unclean soul
he that forgives all
is ready to wash you clean
take away all of your flaws
Sunday morning love is in the air
He that loves you is ready to fill your void
Protect you so you won't be destroyed
take away your emptiness
and fill you with holiness
clean your mess
while you say your grace
pray for forgiveness
he even listens to the smallest requests

I was supposed to love you
but you was not you
so I searched for you
while I lost who I wanted to be
by the time I found you
I lost me.. So now I search for myself
because I need love too

Twisted tales
Slow summers
ugly snales
Fast winters
Thin bodies so frail
Stay covered under thick covers
Dream of nightmares comfort old lovers
Telling tales underneath bed covers
In those covers they become deeper lovers
9 months later birth another

They laughed at the caterpillar
Now they admire the butterfly

Their laughter became their sorrow
Pain and agony, they now swallow
While choking on their own egos

Success and Beauty takes time
laugh now cry later
Cry now laugh later
The story is yours to tell
Like tall tales
All fails if pain doesn’t exist in the mist

Today we cried
Tears of fear
While looking at our scars
Memories of a past so bitter to peace
Now we look at each other
Torn apart, broken hearts
Missing parts creating ugly art
How do we grow?
when pain is the only thing raising us
Insecure so we can’t trust, trust
Numb so we can’t feel what’s real
Lying to ourselves that we got it all figured out
Deep inside we suffocate
When our tears run dry, we feast on other people's vulnerability,
ignoring our reality as we hide behind our fantasy
Only to wake up in our nightmare
Our fears now define our reality

Until the lion tells his own story
the hunter will always be the hero
No one will ever know
The lions point of view
But if you ever do
Pray you that you are not the hunter

Steve - Hey

Steve - Hey

Steve - Hey how are you doing?

Steve - Hey I’m just trying to get to know you.

Steve - Wow so it’s like that?

Steve - You won’t even give me a chance?

Steve - I know you see the Facebook messages.
                            
Anna - Hey sorry I don’t feel like talking. You are not worth my time or attention.

Steve - I’m good now.

Steve - I found me another lover.

Steve - All I wanted was your time and your attention, but you placed my heart in an emotional detention.

Steve - To me now you just another potential lover I could of loved and cared for. But you loved your ego more.

Anna - I’m sorry.

Anna - At the time you wanted me I was busy.

Anna - I want you now though, even though you have another lover, I envy her. Your persistence showed me you were worth my time. But my ignorance encouraged me to ignore my heart and feed my ego.

Anna -  Now it’s sad to watch you go.                                                  

Anna - I wish I knew better and did better. Now loneliness comforts my ugly mess.

Steve - I guess this is goodbye, because with persistence I also come with, love, patients and loyalty. I am glad I never gave you the best of me.

Steve - My lover truly deserves all of me. My time and my energy, my flaws and insecurities. Thank you for letting me find the best of me.

Steve - You were the light that had to shine in me for me to find the best of me. Your rejection brought out a better version of me.

Steve - Love stings like a blind bee it can kiss anyone and make them feel it slowly. For those it never kisses their hearts forever remain lonely.

At first his hand prints were soft
Touching me gently, slowly and softly
Then his ego got fed
They became hard
Found strength to swing

My face the target
Swinging and swinging
He hit with a passion

I was his lover and his target
I forgave and he reloaded
Bullets in hands
Shot and my heart he destroyed

My inside pain became seen by many
Bruises and bumps, cut lips and black eyes
They asked why I never left
I told them he took something from me
He took my heart and left me feeling empty
To fill that void I replaced his love with my pain
Some called him an abuser
I called him my lover

To me it was all the same

Thank you for my insecurity
Because of you
I will always add a brick to my wall of emotions
Slowly build a wall for security
Because you took the best of me
Destroyed me and pretended to love me
While emotionally manipulating me to fall for your weak minded loveless excuse of existence, pulling me back in with resistance
While my mind told me I would regret this
But with every kiss I found you blameless

Your love was irrelevant
But you still found it evident to destroy my beating heart
You painted over my aching soul
Covered me with your flaws
While you force fed me your insecurities
Now I doubt I could ever love again
Because to feel this pain again
Could be the beginning of the end again

Devil knocking on a broken Soul
Leave God he whispered follow me
I can give you all
What you seek I have it all
What Eve didn’t know is that if she let him in
She would lose it all

He whispered sweet sounds
Knowing she was destined to fall
Comprising for her soul
He knew she lacked the eyes to see it all
She was at peace with Adam
until she went and tried to figure it all
On her own
He left her alone to go deal with his pain
Came back to find that
she committed the greatest sin
of all time

She let the devil convince her
to compromise against Gods original plan
The devil whispered for he knew he couldn’t attack what was within
So he attacked her mental, by seducing, and manipulating her peace, seeking to destroy her existence, she followed as she compromised
It wasn’t until later she realized she sacrificed her peace for momentary pleasure,
Now she wishes she didn’t listen
to the devil whisper,
his mission was to destroy and conquer
Comprising the truth with lies, only real eyes
Can realize real lies

Only time could tell how she changed
Bipolar was her attitude, becoming anti-gratitude
Loving me one second
the next second acting like I never existed
Modern love is bipolar
Attention seeking, led by moments of avoiding
Late responses, and silent tears
Afraid of sharing fears
But always the first to volunteer
Love from an empty chest with palms-full of tears
because we don’t believe in longevity,
no sustainability in a world that preaches unity, filled with hearts that survive on being lonely
She 32 and marriage is not in her future
She married her independence
Which visits her late nights
As she cries herself to sleep
While looking at beautiful city sites from her penthouse loft
Trauma molested her mind
now she is afraid to commit
Judging others
but afraid of looking deep in the mirror
No amount of mascara can cover up the scars
Dying alone starts to feel like a norm
She states that some pain is better felt alone
With no king to give her, her crown
She still seeks validation for her emotions
Never satisfied so she keeps seeking attention
Attracting wishful thinkers, and addicts
Confirming the love they have for her
by giving her social page a few likes, lustful comments in her comment section,
As they please her eyes but **** the soul
Lonely is her heart, lately she been feeling jaded
When it come to matters of the heart

Ignoring Christ well he waited
She went and did what Eve did
Torn apart, she became a victim to insecurity
While searching for security

Lesson learned When Christ Knocks I hope she reads this and learns listens