Unique heart beat, beats on emotional minds
Who should I trust my soul or my mind
Left isolated, feeling Segregated
Body, mind, heart soul so separated
My emotional home invaded
Anger whispers in my ears
Stress smiles as it pierces my eyes
Looking down the hole of emotions
Sad, lonely, depressed, unimpressed
Heart bruised from being beaten
Abused now less used puking emotional expressions
What is this water leaving my eyes
Migraines knocking on my forehead
Begging me to let them in, mind feeling thin
These are my words and emotions I feel when I think of losing you

Lost in your eyes I was
when you echoed
Those three words
My bones shimmered
As my heart skipped a million beats
As it tried to match your pace
You broke every being of my insecurity
Forcing me to step out of my comfort zone
Just to echo the words
"I love you too"

thou art my lover,
for thou holdest my heart..
my heart rings to your voice and beats to thou touch..
gazing my eyes on you gives me an emotional rush, my body it excites, my soul it satisfies
for tonight when I lay my head I shou lay it on your soft chest, my love in you I invest

I will never ask you for anything more than I ask for your (time)

Because without that I will never know what it feels like to call you (mine)

Time is precious
time is golden
time is everything when you have it
and painful when you don’t have it

Time is so rude
But determined in its agenda
It never stops for anyone or anything
It disregards all of our feelings and emotions
It never moves back or fast forward  
Time only exists in the present
We were born to embrace it and enjoy it
While we still have it
The rich can’t buy it, even they can’t afford it
The poor seem to struggle more with it
Which do you value more?
Time or peace
What good is peace without time
And what good is time without peace

                                                               ­        - Tuffy M

Time was my greatest friend when I had you
And my greatest enemy when I didn’t have you

It was the beginning to the end
And the end to the beginning

It consumed my thoughts
While flirting with my imagination
Introducing me to deeper emotions

As my heart faced a deep commotion

Today I wrote a poem about a poem
In that poem
I wrote about my mind going insane
The emotions I poured on them
Leaving me numb to pain
Forcing my mind to go with no direction
Worst fear as a writer is having ideas
That won’t leave your brain
Lacking inspiration
Having feelings that can’t be shown
Mental imprisonment, given 25 to life
Suffering to live
While living to die
Ideas tide in millions of words
Only to be expressed in one emotion
Writers block is the disease I suffer from
It’s destroys my creativity
forcing me to judge me
While making me feel all alone
It’s just me and this pen
that can quickly turn to pain
Today I wrote a poem about a poem

I told a caterpillar that I loved it
And it became a beautiful butterfly
I told you that I loved you
And you became the reason why I am still alive

If I’ve never told you I adore you
I adore you

If I’ve never told you I need you
I need you now more than ever
Today and forever

If I’ve never told you I appreciate you
I appreciate you, I value you, because I can’t see my life without you

If I’ve never told you how much you mean to me
You mean everything to me
you are my world my heart
and the fuel to my soul

Without you I would fall

When you trust me with your future
I am a man at last
You inspire me to work harder
Hold on just a little longer
Let’s invest in our hearts
And hope they forever last
You are the thoughts I think
The eyes I see
The beat to my heart
Without you I would fall apart
If roses make you smile
I promise to build you two gardens
One in the backyard and one in my heart
With your fingers you build
With your heart you heal
You are the medicine to my sickness
I wrote these vows five years
before I kissed your tears
And touched your fears

To my future wife
I am the reason why your ex’s became ex’s
I guess my prayers told God to hit next
And now I’m in your presence
Hoping to be your forever

The past knocks on my broken heart
Let me in it shouts
Seeking to be a part of this life
I am Moving on to Christ
Is my response
Silence is the devil that once manipulated me
Seeking to guide me in a dark path
Broken I was not knowing where I stood
As the storm came I moved like weak leafs  
At the end of autumn
Nothing within to sustain
Empty I was, following trends
Society had me as a consumer
Buy this, wear that, say this, do that
I agreed to everything as if no was never in my vocabulary
Christ had a plan but I was too blind to see
Christianity become a chore
when it should of been my life line
The enemy never attacked me
Because I was fighting in his army
Weakened I was, to a point where prayer
was never a part of my lifestyle
posting statuses, fishing for compliments just to boost my confidence
Young and wild I thought I had it figured out
Living in a fast world
While slowly dying inside
until grace and mercy saved me
Sight restored and now I see

Wanting so much, quickly turns to too much
Those who have much, don’t know what to do with so much
Greed and envy they invite
Long talks with eyes, that have seen too much
Hungry mouths on streets, empty bellies, cold feet, fake smiles, and sweaty palms
Street signs held by those who took too much
Left with nothing while standing for nothing
Victims of decisions
Living under a vision full of nightmares
Old scars that trace back to bad choices
Squeezing pennies out of dollars
While others throw dollars at hurt lovers
Wanting too much but not willing to pay attention, Life is a long sentence
And meditation is study hall
We are stuck identifying classes
But lack chemistry
Quick to jump to conclusions
like mathematicians
While producing too much in biology
Knowing about the human anatomy but fail to know who we ought to be
Let’s tip the scale and see what would happen if the have nots had more
And the rich were broke would that increase global peace or is that too much to ask for

She smiled as he told her it’s over
Between the two of them
She mumbled underneath her breath

“Heart breaks make for good poetry”

Her heart would be the ink
To write this story
Of how he thought she was his one and only
She cheated because, she felt his love faded
When next to him she felt so lonely
When he kissed her
he kissed the entire mankind
She admitted to never being holy
Sleeping with demons, and pleasing others
A savage at most, her motto was that she will never be tamed
Too wild to love
Too broken to fix
A victim of subjectivism
Only to be exposed for lacking loves definition

Every time I touch you I am touching a miracle
You are beautiful
Face of an angel and smile of a goddess
My heart you possess
Loving you is simply priceless

His fists loved the comfort of her soft skin
He would pound on her
To unlock an emotion
he could never find within
She would take it over and over again
Trading love for pain
As her ego persuaded her to believe
That she could change him
she stayed around him
As he used her
as an emotional punching bag
He showed his emotions
As he punched hers down
Opened new scars, while closing old ones
She was trapped in a love affair
With him and his feelings
Some how his feelings spoke more than he did

It took laying in her death bed
To realize that she couldn’t trade love for pain

Oh I get it now
He was your go to
While I was your addiction
You were stuck between two lovers
Pleasing both of us undercovers
A secret agent playing under cover

You comforted our egos
While sharing your heart
No wonder why your heart was torn apart

Love me weak
Love me strong
Love me blind
Love me hurt
Love me ugly
Love me *****
Love me clean
Love me good
Love me bad
whatever you do don't stop loving me
Let this love be unconditional
Untouchable, untamable, uncontrollable and most importantly understandable

A product of change
I morph into shapes as my heart and mind exchange
Harmonic flows electrify my broken bones
Unfinished I am
as the author rewrites my identity
over and over again, with every year given breathing, I find a new me
From the ashes of tragedy I rise
This power I gain was created to help me sustain what’s within
Only these four walls
keep my deepest secrets in
To be complete is to not compete
With a polished exterior hiding my flaws
I know that perfection is an attainable
I sit and meditate, on invisible hate for self
Loving doubt, as if faith was not programmed in my soul
Unfinished I am,
Unfinished I will stay until my birth date meets its final destination

No ending, no begining
Just a bottle of emotions shaken up
missing hearts
Lacking location
Was this love or lust
Losing signal, no sense of connection
Seeking validation in order to get satisfaction
Finding it at the end of empty bottles
Sometimes in a needle
Hoping for an end while crying for a sequel

Leaf color changes
Leave me Loving different strangers
Thunder in my soul
Heart filled with desire
Passion burning like a wild fire
unstoppable like the heart of a champion

Emotions burning
heart pounding
as your fingertips leave mine
I hear your voice calling my name
in shock I am
last words that left your lips were "I am sorry, we cant be together"
I muster up the courage to tell you that "it's ok"
but deep inside I felt poison enter my veins
suffocating my soul were your words
as I was introduced to a new kind of pain
choking up on all the emotions I stood on weak knees
Feeling the sea breeze, as I felt my heart being squeezed  
Flashes of our sweet memories attacked my mind
I fought back the tears as the pain began to unwind
this is the beginning of the end and the end of the beginning

She wanted more
          But
               He wasn't enough

He never felt complete
         because she wasn't
                                his other half

We are on the brink of war, Russia ready to create new scars, NATO promises getting missed, Global leaders afraid to send aid

Families falling apart, painting ****** scenes, on tv screens. Hearing mothers screams, helpless fathers helpless, as they are force fed more stress

Missiles flying overheads like rain showers dropping towers all because a leader is hungry for more power

We are all broken pieces
And the only thing holding us together is love

We are all lost souls
Seeking guidance from above

What good is unity if you don’t see u in it?
What good is success if others can’t get it ? What good is peace if a whole race can’t enjoy it?
What good is love if others have never felt it?
What good is your voice if it stays silent
when the world needs to hear it?
I see the whole world lacks class like it’s facing truancy.
Blinded to its pain while sleeping with hypocrisy.
Birthing anger, while aborting empathy.
We really need transparency
People would rather be politically correct, than sit and listen to solutions.
So they hide behind laws, and ignore the pain.  
They won’t take time to get to the root of the trauma, years of unpaid labor, and endless torture. Victims of a broken law system cry louder, protest until their feet get blisters, but still won’t get a word from their leader. A first world country treating others as third world citizens.
Getting to the root of the problem would mean they would have to listen and face their demons.
So to ease their pain they hide behind their ignorance, and false traditions. It’s easy to judge what they don’t understand, point fingers and blame others, lack human decency, just to see what they want to see!!!

What is Justice

What is justice
Does it have a color,
does it have a temperature
The blacker the shooter the louder the news
The tighter the noose
Equality seems to download slower
for those it doesn’t favor
Section 8 flats raise ghetto minded soldiers
Trained to live in prison cells
While leaving empty sits in classrooms
Mothers raising fathers
because their fathers left them,
now live in prisons,
physically, emotionally & mentally
That means when they have their kids they will probably leave them

What Is Justice
Generational curses bless the defenseless
Praising violence because slave masters
Programmed them to hate knowledge
Think less and work more labour after labour
While slave masters stole roots away from their family trees,
then told them to go figure out their identities,
Black Kings and Queens demoralized and carried in shackles, to rebel they now wear more ice than a cold fridge,
painted in movies as villains but have more knowledge than those that run universities, but stuck behind the walls of justice fighting all kinds of adversities,
like starting a race with no legs to run with,
stuck in one place, asking themselves what is justice


What is Justice
Is justice a word we chase in a world imprisoned by the thought of equality?
it doesn’t work if it doesn’t end in a tragedy, wearing hoodies, selling cigarettes, simply driving, could determine the end of you, living everyday under pressure like living through an interview, or facing the end of a loaded barrow,
Yelling please don’t shoot, while the one holding the gun comes to take your tomorrow, these black tears have cried till they have ran dry, social justice tried and still couldn’t change justice
now we challenge the notion of which life matters more, black or blue
This world got no clue
acting like history never took place, in a race of race, forgetting those who sacrificed for us to win the global race
how much more should the dark skinned give to get an ounce of freedom

What is justice
Is justice a word or a curse to the darker skinned, is justice determined based on one’s pigmentations, causing deeply rooted segregation, “all man are created equal” but we forgot about the sequel, in the end it tells us that we are not equal...


So... What is justice?

I just dropped the “O” in good and it became God
Because God is Good
Treasure his life
to him nothing is impossible
Even impossible knows that all things are possible, through him, hope and faith are available
Christian sinners kneel to beg for appeals
Second, third, thirty third chances  
Trying to make advances
Their Criptonoight is lust, fear, fidelity, lying, cheating and stealing
Just name a few, not to mention all the deadly sins
Chasing dreams which are inspired by demons
Blinding them while stealing their visions
His mercy is forever, so they sin
thinking salvation is insurance
But for every road they has to be a toll paid
Trials and tribulations
are tests which many failed  
But By grace we have all been saved
Since grace is Gods mercy

Shouldn’t we all open our eyes and see
That without the God we will never be good?

If you are going to write a poem about me
Write it for your own therapy
Write about my flaws and insecurity
Write about my lack of love
and addiction to fantasy
While suppressing my reality
Write about how I’ve been lost romantically
Like seriously hopelessly I am romantic
Especially when these emotions keep abusing me
Write about how I have been chasing who I am supposed to be
But running into who the world has chosen me to be, stuck in a box sealed with no identity
Write about the freedom which I have been chasing
but never having the ability to grasp
as it has simply eluded me

I had something to write
But my mind couldn't let me write
It took away my right to write
It held me in prison
the guards were 26 letters I couldn’t put into words  
So in silence I sat, looking at these words with no meaning
My heart dying to define them
But my mind lacking the courage to write them
This writer’s block is a cancer
To which I can’t find an answer
As it happens just before I need to write these words
Stuck in an empty mind of a dead author
Want to advance but can’t go further    
I am a slave to these words and they are my master
Controlling me and forcing me to face my disaster
Until I find the words to write,
silence is what I will feed the minds of my readers

Edger Allan Poe inspired me
Shakespeare educated me
Maya Angelou raised me
These writers created a beast in me
A beast of emotions, words that lack definitions
Only existsting in my expressions

Ideal to the common citizen
I write with a pen full of love, curiosity and pain

Emotions that have gone blind, to common sense, and swallowed a pill full of ego

I realize I am worthless without this pen and this pain

I write of love as if I feel it
I write of Justice as if I need it
I write of human behavior as if I need to fix it

If I am to die let my words live on within your emotions when you read them
Forever and ever I hope you feel them

I wrote this when I was angry - I hate you
I wrote this when I was sad - I miss you
I wrote this when I was happy - I love you

Of all the feelings I had the only constant was - you

You make me feel things
I never knew I could feel
So trust me when I say I am truly feeling you  

You got the keys to my emotions

Yellow green cross
Cross yellow green
Green cross yellow

These words jell like melo
I knew an old fellow
Heart cold like ice
Dark inside and shallow

I needed yesterday
Just so I can appreciate today
And if tomorrow comes let it know that I will cherish it until it becomes yesterday
But for now let me live for today
Because yesterday’s dreams
was for me to see a day like today

Lately I have been feeling at peace with my emotions
Floating in a deep dark ocean
But still finding complete satisfaction
I found a solution to all of my painful emotions

"You"

loving me with complete satisfaction
regardless of my reaction
taking in all of my rejection
Forcing me to face my lack of emotional affection
Teaching me that to love we must take action
You staying around and showing total devotion
Loving me with no limitation

This peace I owe it to you for loving me regardless of my inability to love you to my best ability

This tranquility has become my reality

Lips pressed on the cup which gives me energy
With every sip I get a sense of warmth which touches me  
You are my addiction
You give me the definition of complete satisfaction  
I wake up to the thought of you looking at the sunrise
as I await for you to open your eyes
I dream of the love that rests in your eyes  
The smell of you brewing up in the kitchen invades my nostrils
giving me energy, allowing me to feel like I can conquer all
I awake to the sight of beauty
You and coffee

You promised to never leave but you did
You promised to never stop loving me
but you did, now I sit here alone and lonely
You promised to always be by my side
But you left without even a goodbye
Was I that horrible of a lover
that you had to go find another
I wonder if he knows about me
and how much of a disaster I was
For loving you too much
needing you too much
And trying to look after your lonely heart
Cherishing you like an art piece with value

I loved you
but now I wonder if you loved you
In your lies I found your value
I found a missing soul
A broken heart, and an insecure being
I’m not here to judge you
But here to tell you
That one day love will find you and judge you

Alive in your hands I am
Dead in flesh but woken in spirit
Struggling to face my burdens
This love of yours I want to inherit
Your love I will fight to earn
Trails and tribulations won't keep me away
Although I struggle to walk your way
You never put me away
You messiah
are a God who will always be higher
Becuase your love is like none other