made of clouds
evanescent
vagabond  into the sky
waiting for you to look up
before the wind
dissolves me

fallen
in  a reality
made of cubes
huge cold cubes
your dreams
shot down
by inability
by ineptitude
by your limits
defined by the black voice
of a giant nobody
shouting
your occured
conscious mediocrity

mistakes
give you the chance
to be.
Be!

your hot body
your slow breath
your smell
being intertwined with you
you
my nostalgia
and my need

you showed me love
you taught me the beauty of forgiveness
you taught me to laugh
but your eyes don't smile at me anymore
they're enveloped in a suffocating fog
this emptiness weighs
I can't find words
That can cover the silence you left

love
defeats me
you own me
no free will
you are my way

I wait
I wait
I wait
then
I die

old woman

old woman.
you. are. old.
you feel old
you think old
your eyes
your shoulders
your skin
your heart
old !
adolescence is gone
happiness is your lie
no more light
only smog
in your eyes.
don’t distort the truth
old woman
this is your only reality

I love you so
I miss you so
I need you so

loving you
is so moving
missing you
is so painful
needing you
is so hard

you are
my best dream
you are
my worst nightmare
you are
all my wishes and fears

I can bear it
I must  bear it
you are
the blood in my veins
you are
the oxygen in my lungs

everything
in me is you
every tear
every smile
every sigh
is for you

my broken heart
is waiting for you
my mind
remind me you’re gone
each part of me
is fighting to survive

so please
let me save
let me breathe
let me live
hold me in your arms
love me

shades
dreams
silent sighs
drunk with pleasure

a unfinished binary
the hands of a clock
locked to three
an old music box
covered with dust
a woman folded
into the shadow
broken
or just interrupted

questions
to which I can't answer
to which I daren't answer
answers
I don't want to hear
I can't repeat loudly
they scare
better one false reality
that a raw real end

a blanket of clouds hides the sky
as a lowered curtain
heavy and impenetrable
is darkening  light fiction
is creating the expectation
of emotional fulfilment

the patter of  the rain on the windows
harmonious fusion
of subtle perceptions
a gentle heartbeat
shy and discreet
which  directs the rhythm of our breath

sober melody
no shock
no flash
no thunderclap
a rarefied atmosphere
that transports us to an unknown elsewhere

slowly  no hurry
it falls falls
its slow pace
persistent and fearless
reaches the beloved land
and gives life

a man
veiled on red
a red rose
hidden by brambles
fragments of color
lost

a light

in the dark

it’s
like in spring
the gems
on the trees

write me
seek me
call me
love me
today
right now
I
I can only wait

the dawn tinged the horizon
and the illusion sprouts
like a gem
the ides of  March
inevitable
unbowed
it blossoms and grows
in the hourglass
time slips
careless
inexorable
the beat of my heart speeds
my breath is severed
the last grain of time
has settled on the load of my nostalgia
and the wait ends
every chimera collapses
in the emptiness of your absence
and the sun sets
darkness fascinates me
the numbness of sleep raises me
until the morning
and the vicious ritual
starts
again
and again
and you
you're not there

sadness
is my life
every morning I open my eyes
and I know
sadness
is my reality
everything is grey
no colors
no music
no words
sadness
is my life

as a generic medicine
exposed in a drugstore
no one knows your name
they take you
because you have a low cost

I'm scared
I lost you
It can't be real
I'm scared
you won't fight for me
I'm scared
I won't be live anymore
I'm scared
I won't be able to see your eyes anymore
I'm scared
I won't able to kiss your lips anymore
I'm scared
I won't be able to touch your skin
I'm scared
I'll never feel something like this
I'm scared
I 'll never feel your warmth
hold in your arms
I'm scared
I know
my life without you
will be an eternal fight
to breath

there are  secrets
you'll never know
gifts  that you give me
thougths that melt me
they ‘re only for me
they 're mine
I retain them jealously
they make me feel special
make me the only one ...
there are secrets
you'll never know
because when
- oblivious -
you ‘ll stop
giving me these  precious drops of you
my pain
it will be a secret
you'll never know

drunk
drunk
I’m drunk on you
crazy
crazy
I’m crazy for the love of you
lucidly
knowingly
sated
of it

your voice whispers
a cry of light
splits the silence

a beat
slight love breath
entrusted
to a shooting star
brilliant and persuasive
to give it
to you
and
its  faded heartbeat
being consumed
in yours
in a single
soft breath
finally completed

shreds of time
sparks of light changing
the world
fleeting revelations tipping
your presumptions
indelible strokes imprinted
in your bowels
impalpable scratches dragging
an eternity of memories

shreds of time
black lines defining the boundary
between before and after
inclement discharges breaking
your heart
rambling crackles resounding
in a solitary echo
unpredictable wrong notes
that marked
your life

you don’t talk
yet it hurts me so much
your silences
badly concealed truths

smell of you
on the road
it touches me
a shiver passes me
I look for you
green eyes in foreign faces
smell of you in the night
I stretch out my  hand
looking for your hot skin
under the cold sheets
empties
smell of you
invades me
pursued my senses
I caress it
I hug it
because I can’t hug you

sometimes
I accept
sometimes
I don’t mind
sometimes
I cry in silence
sometimes
I endure
sometimes
I pretend to be right
no longer
stop!
it’s the time
I want to be
I want  live my life
completely
I want to be happy
it’s the time
it’s my time

I was fallen through
broken and distorted
my wandering soul
into a black hole
I was ******
by you
rock of moon wires
fragments of steel
and silk wings
towards a pink dawn
floating breeze in the sky
meeting of souls
united and separated
touched
and
chosen
soul mates
satisfied and
finally
complete

i'm wating for you
you don't arrive
but
i still wait
for you

golden waves
wind slow
the leaden sky
smells like summer
the fine rain
smells of land and of you
the great willow
is our alcove
our moans
invade the air
your heat fills me
and satisfies me
your eyes invade me
interweaving of legs
and sweaty bodies
smell of rain
smell of  land
smell of you
panting hearts
heavy breaths
under the great willow
two souls  touched each other
and defeated

I opened
a beautiful mysterious closed vase
A deep  punch
Crashed me into darkness

blank stares
turned to nothing
fleeting gasps
tapestry
of lost emotion

you are the thousand facets of my soul
you paint me with all the colors of love
you are heart and pain
you are hope and despair
you are sweetness and passion
you are the red of the fire that burns me
you are the white of the light that reassures me
you are the whole  thing
that wipes out my nothing

This is the day
I knew
My limits
This is the day
You broke my heart

a faded picture
consumed by hopes
softly entrusted
to the wind
a music
far and slight
played by a record
scratched by dust
and time
as the weight of your naked body
over mine
it is now the oppression on my chest
for the lack of  who
should touch it
as the beating of your heart
under  my face
rubbed on your skin
rough and hot
it is now the  arid ticking
of a clock
that relentlessly  articulates
the minutes of our us
without you
as your scent
harsh and intense in my coilings
in my flesh
it is now the salty smell of my tears
impregnated into a pillow
cold and crushed
by the weight of my desolation
as the strength of your back
who supported  my weakness
it is hard today
the regrets wall against which I slam
to escape from the fog
as  your sweet whispers
slipped on my skin
in my hair
it is now icy and lonely
the breath of the night
that  invests me with its petty hissing
as your soft caresses
that insinuated  into my expectations
burned by your touch
it is now violent the hassle
of a  crumpled sheet
that brushes me
wilted and warm
of an unknown  heat
my eyes closed
I meander
lost and exiled
in thoughts imprisoned
in the pages of a diary
tattooed on my skin
until the penultimate page
and then again from the first
in a circle
vicious and delicious
of passion and love and obsession
who lives and relives
until the dawn of a sunset
that should never get
until a last page
deleted
don’t read the end

I didn't think it was possible
so intensely
inside me
so painfully
away from me
every morning
like drops of blood from my  eyes
but yet
this morning
I don't feel pain
finally I’m smiling

a moment
a thrill
a flutter
it was you
inside me
revelation of
unknown love
unmatched and unconditional
I was afraid
ailing and exhausted
a shake
and I felt empty
without your weight on top of me
it was you
teared off from me
from your protected limbo
you
tiny and perfect
your scent
the first kiss
your hand close to mine
utmost and eternal union
an ancestral need
satisfied
your smiles
your first unsteady steps
the word mom
entrusted to the wind
a light  arrow
which pierced my soul
the first of the precious gifts
you give me every day
staring at you
discover shades of  life
being reborn
through your eyes
feeling the sensation
walking barefoot
on the fresh sand in the dawn
the pain
of suffering
the inadequacy
the insecurity
you fell
and you always
raised
the stubbornness
in your eyes
vigor
that marks you
a wild, pure and sensitive heart
proud
also of your weakness
and your mistakes
a great love
effused around you
to the people you love
simply
and shameless
you are a warrior
never stop fighting
listen to your heart
follow your dreams
willpower is the answer
you can get
on the highest peaks
the world is your
you just have to believe and to want
you were little and helpless
you are a man
imperious and fearless
I will observe and follow you
from my corner behind you
willing to let you fall
with a heavy heart
with an outstretched hand
ready to lift up you again
if you will want it
and always
my arms open
unavoidably
ready to welcome you
and give you
all my love

two bodies
merged into one
two souls
intertwined
one drop
after the other
I drink
thirsty of your essence ..
the fire raging
the immortal flame ..
heated lava
burns our souls ..
we are aware thieves
of passing emotions
lost and found
.. the timeless hour
not the time
not the distance
not the wind
evanescent reality

I don’t know why
I don’t know how
I don’t know when
but it all comes down to three words
I love you

when the heart
decides to speak
it yells out
and the truth lights  the sky
when your heart
decides to speak
it scares
it can hurt
just another heart
can answer
and the truth will be light or dark
the time of truth
changes all things

love
is a song for  two
is my eyes into your eyes
is our indefinite boundaries
love
is one soul into the space
shining like the brightest star
true  love
is a soft beating growing into my belly

two souls
two worlds
two parallel lines
....
single thread

at the end
i gave up

I saw a turtle
slow walking on the road
a child kept it
He  laid it in a field

I saw a fish
abandoned on the rocks by the sea
a child saved it
he left it in the waves

I saw a child
barefoot running in a field
a man  mutilated him
he hidden a mine underground

I saw a child
on the sidewalk with his bicycle
a man killed him
drunk driving

I saw a child
I saw his purity
I saw him become a man
I saw his disillusionment

is the age that changes everything ?
is the self-awareness that changes everything ?

it would be better a pure heart
compared with a mischievous mind?

maturity
is companion for strength selfishness ?
success
is it the natural evolution of opportunism ?

we grow up learning
but what is the lesson?

is it perhaps that the adults
have to learn the greatness from children ?

which  is
the true utopia ?
dreaming of becoming big
or dreaming to go small ?

all your life
you expected something
you walked
you fell
you raised
your mind turned
on an invisible horizon
a worthless trepidatious
waiting
neglected
disappointed
aged
waiting
that silently moves away
a cold face
like the flickering flame
of a consumed candle
hot wax
that trickles
in cold tears
motionless

when
you are with me
we are two
in a corner
of paradise
since
you're gone
your empty space
is so cumbersome
that there’s no
place for me

when you are not here
nothing is
it's waiting for you
it's muffled sounds
it is blurred shapes behind a veil
when you are not here
I am
not here

my name
a whisper
sweet and warm
just to hear
its  melody
you told
and fill the air
of you

your name
a whisper
sad and painful
just to hear
its melody
a memory
to fill the void
you left