It still pains me to
think of the nasty memories
we cannot un-live

10:06 AM
2/8/21

Fingers on my skin-
your heavenly touch sure feels
like a sin sometimes

1:32 AM
2/8/21

I don't need to ask
if you still think about me-
I know you do.
I refuse to believe that our memories
held no weight on your soul
nor our love upon your heart.
I don't think I'd believe you
if you told me otherwise.
We can't run nor hide from these feelings
so let's stop wasting our time.
You've got to still feel something,
just as I have after all this time,
I'm sure you still feel it.
I am there,
and you are here,
two hearts that used to be one-
that can never be undone.

If I could
rearrange the Earth,
all of the flowers would
spell your name.

If I had known
that was the last time
I saw you,
what would I have done differently?
Would I have memorized your smile
for all those rainy days you
wouldn't be here?
Would I have held you longer
hoping that your warmth would
stay with me for just a bit more?
Would I have kissed you one more time
so that I remember heaven
when hell comes next?

When life gets you down,
there's always that one person
who will be there
day after day.
So what happens when
they fade into
the night?

Like a sunflower,
you pour so much
love and light into something
only for the forces of nature
to wither it away.
The odds are always
stacked against
life.

Deep down,
I think I know that
I am better off alone.
Maybe I’m just saying this
as a coping mechanism
or maybe if I keep repeating it
enough times,
I might actually
believe it.

People come,
and people go-
it's one of the surest things
in life.
So why is it so hard for me
to accept that?

Why does the moon
always shine so bright
when you know the hangover
is going to be glorious
the next morning?

Hollow are the
promises we make
after midnight.

The demons
always find a way
of rebuilding the bridges
I set ablaze so very
long ago.

Our memories
bleeds through my pen
and onto the page.
Though I don't get to see
you smile anymore,
your beauty still shines
through my words.

I worry that maybe
you are not the same person
I perceived you to be.
Maybe you are different,
or maybe you deceived me
like all the ones before.

One day
you will forget me.
When your sun is
no longer in my orbit,
will there still be light
upon my world?

You can sit around
and hope that time
solves the puzzle,
or you can put
yourself back together.

We are
just a memory
and memories
fade fast.

Sometimes
things don't work out
the way you hoped they would.
It's as simple
as that.

If you get sick of me,
then I wish your days are
filled with happiness but
when the night comes,
I may not be there
to say goodnight.

We do not get a
lot to truly care about
in this ruthless world

8:23 PM
22/7/21

All this time has passed
and I still think of you.
All this time has passed
and I hope you do too.

You will never
find the same love
twice.

She casts spells upon
the world and charms them into
unseeing her soul

3:50 PM
20/7/21

Hiding who you
really are from friends,
family or society is not self-care,
it’s self-sabotage.

It is okay if
all you are able to do
today is exist

1:37 AM
19/7/21

How many nights
have you laid awake
wondering if life
will ever change?

I want to lose myself-
not through drugs or fantasy
but through travelling the world.
I want to dive into cultures
and forget where I'm from.

If your body's a
temple then I wish to spend
my days in worship

11:24 PM
13/7/21

Time has an ugly
way of bringing out the truth
in all of our hearts

6:31 PM
12/7/21

Why do you expect
life to give back what life
has taken away?

6:29 PM
12/7/21

Dear diary;
sometimes I feel like
I am the side character
in my own
story.

You made me dependent
and now I hate myself for
ever letting it get
to this point.

Everybody's book
has some pages they'd rather
tear out and forget

12:02 PM
10/7/21

How can you
blame others for
breaking your heart
when you don't
love yourself?

You came to this world
desperate for answers but
instead you found me

7:40 PM
8/7/21

I step away from
this broken heart and
board the ship of hope
to sail across the sea
of tomorrow.

Watch the night sky
in all of its grandeur and mystery
and you will soon realize that
your beauty is far beyond
anything the cosmos
have to offer.

My memories
are carried by the southern breeze
across the oceans
to the one I long for.
Our goodbyes wonder endlessly
on foreign shores and
I can still hear your whispers
drift through the
darkest of nights.

I walked through
that park last night.
Your perfume lingers
and the twilight glistens
upon the lower lake.
I stared at my reflection
and saw us staring back
at a heartbroken man
standing there alone.

When your loneliness
fades away, will I still be
your favorite one?

2:12 AM
7/7/21

When you think of forever,
do you fear what lies ahead or
do you relish the endless possibilities?

Another endless winter
without you-
just the memories that
kept us warm
so very long
ago.

I don't believe
a broken heart truly mends-
some pieces are lost
forever.

Now that you've confirmed
all of my worst fears, who knows
what will come of us?

3:09 PM
4/7/21

Cancel culture is
built on the sin of
revenge and not the virtue of
forgiveness.

They say two weeks 'til
I don't miss you anymore
but I have lost count

9:52 PM
1/7/21

We will always
be connected through
love and a theory-
these strings shall
transcend time and space
and bind us
for eternity.

I think that
every sunflower
follows your light
to find their way
back home.

Dear Diary;
I don't want to let go
because I am afraid of
what life would be like
without them.
To be honest,
I don't want to know.
I'd rather spend every day saddened
by your absence than to
forget your name.

I will plant you
fields of sunflowers
that spell out your name
if you promise to
keep them
in bloom.