The feeling of being unwanted was unbearable
No one noticed my presence
It was as if I didn't exist
So I took the time to try and make what they noticed real

Driving for miles on end
One Right Turn
Watching my past become more distant and start to resolve into a evanesce
Two Right Turns
Considering my fate, avoiding old ways
Three Right Turns
Regrets turning into lessons
Four Right Turns
Making a Circle
Back where I started,
I attempt to make my wrongs, rights

Please help me stop these screams
They won't go away
They say they are here to stay

We could be friends

I listen to their demands,
When they tell me to do things
That will have very unfortunate endings

Just do it

I scratch at my head out of frustration
Trying to claw them out
But it resulted in their pout

How dare you!

They raised my hand and clutched a knife
In hopes of taking a life

I expected it to be mine
but they said that would be another time

The tip of my tongue holds the words I fail to say
Scrambling under your judgemental gaze, I wanted to get away
But I decided to stay and speak my mind
To have my voice finally outlined

Observing the outside world from a forbidden screen
Listening to the wind tauntingly, calling upon me
Come and dance with I
It would plead
Beckoning me to join the dancing leaves
Leaving my shadows behind the trees

-EC

Diving into the dark depths of the sea,
Looking for my pearl with a never ending glee
Recovering the emotions that were buried down deep
Finding the claws of my past that I never wanted to keep

At last I found my pearl after endless looking
Why is this one pearl so special?
Because it was bestowed in the depths of the sea obtaining the real me

-EC

A place greater than the mind
Filled with color, grace, life, energy, radiance
A setting that is always growing and prospering
Except one flower
The flower died, the petals shriveled up, the stem slowly went from a bright, vibrant green to a dark, musty brown
The petals fell from their home, separating, drifting, slipping
Into a black oblivion, until they find themselves again

-EC

I wanted you...
But you didn't want me...

-EC

Satisfying his needs
Feeling Used
I wanted him but he said it's
Complicated
I know he's not worthy of me
But missing him is something I can't
Resist

-EC

I hate myself for giving you the power to change me
Not who I am, but how I act
I give you the power to change my mood in less than a second
Not only do I see it, but others do to
Stop talking to him! Hes going to hurt you!
They yell at me, but I never seem to listen


I guess I take being hurt by you as a honor instead of a disgrace.

-EC

I wanted you...
But you said you couldn't choose
I gave you love not expecting any in return
While she yearned for more than just your affection
I provided you with a solid, reliable ground
But you desired an earthquake
You wanted her...

I cry these tears hoping the pain will go away
Hoping they will take me to another day
I was stupid for letting you in
Knowing
Loving you would be a sin

-EC

His presence brought me warmth on my coldest days
His smile, life on my most dreadful days
His eyes, light on the darkest of nights
His presence made me want to live not just survive

-EC

Wrapped in your luscious balmy arms
Feeling your warmth, your colorful protection
I breathe you in, smelling the earth’s soil,
Piney trees, and the musty rain from the night before
Seeing the effervescent teardrops of water on the fresh leaves and the reflecting stream that beholds our picture
Hearing quiet tapping as it begins to sprinkle
The air began to thicken as the wind started to rage
Looking into your eyes I see a  roar that cannot be contained
A wildfire with a never ending spark
Never fearing our love will be bland
For, you touched me with your soft pleasant hands, promising spice
I could taste the deliciously  sweet sharp  tang  of our affection
With you,
I am home

-EC

We could cover ourselves in ink and writing
But it will never stop us from crying
It won't save us from the past we have endured
It just means our scars are temporarily blurred

He held the knife with such grace
As he looked timidly in his victims face
His lips were spread wide at the slicing
With such elegance it was enticing

-EC

She sagged to the floor with despair
Feeling as if she was deprived of air
Her world was ripped from under her feet
The only feeling she had left was defeat

-EC

My crown began to overflow
With emotions, thoughts that are never to be shared
               YOU drank my salty tears as if they were water
Feeding off my innocence
Flooding my senses with your skilled deception
                        You TRICKED me into believing you cared                            
Left ME in a black hole, convinced I didn’t deserve more      
Knowing I would let you in AGAIN
If you would say,
I love you beautiful

   YOU TRICKED ME AGAIN.

-EC

Drip Drop was the sound of the sky’s tears as they hit they the cold dead ground, With every drop came a memory of you
Slowly, vivid images resurfaced
At once your face flooded my thoughts,
Your voice  painfully stopped my breathing
I came to relish your eyes and the parading flames behind them
The art you paint and the games you play,
You are so skillfully crafted, its
Beautiful
-EC

YOU left me on the floor
Just LEFT and slammed the door
Reassuring ME I didn't deserve more
Leaving me EMPTY in my core
YOU LEFT ME EMPTY
-EC