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Somehow somewhere we belong together
Some how Somewhere
I wanna be right where you are
But where you are is to far
Somewhere you're happy
Some how you found away to live without me
I couldn't find away to let you go
My love for you never washed away
I still dream of a place where were together
I hang on to the past
Willing it to be the future
Under this siren's spell my heart buckles
I want you forever
But time has taking us apart
There's still shadows of you in my heart
I cry out for you in my tears
As a plea for help
But you ignore my pleas
You dont care about me
When tears are in my eyes
What goes on in my life
If I wasnt there you wouldnt care
So maybe I should take my heart
And leave you standing there
The girl that loved you is gone
The love she had for you will forever stay in her heart
She wants to hold on
She can't let go
She wants you to simply kiss her lips
And tell her to stay
She doesn't want you to beg
She just wants you to ask
I want you
And I wanted you to stay
But now that your gone
I want you to stay gone
But I can't stop missing you
So you might as well come back
It was new
It was shiny
They said put it in a case
Don't let it break
You didn't realize he was breaking it
Chipping at it with every word
Every kiss
Every touch
Had nothing but hurt behind it
It isn't a sickness
So there's not a new one
You have to fix it
Mend it
Mourn it
Learn to live with it broken
The ache will always be there
It'll fade with time
But it's there
You'll miss the way he kissed your forehead
And how he used to wipe away your tears
The long talks till midnight
The firsts you shared with him
He was your first kiss your first everything
He took it all
Silly girl didn't know she could fall
My tears pouring down like rain
Running down my cheeks
On a cloudy day
Thunder escaping my lips
Im running towards you in this storm
We've made
You are lost somewhere behind the fog
Running the other way
The storm is getting to hard
So we keep going our on way
Torn apart from each other
He was like a hurricane
Hurricanes at first it's exciting then ends in tragedy
Evacuation warnings warn you to run away
There's a risk of it that keeps things exciting
Drawing you in
Every storm comes and goes
The greater ones they cause destruction
Suddenly when the sun rises again
You're left to pick up the pieces
Before you know it they're gone again
Bound to return the next season
Just as everything is back to normal
You will chase the storm again
Given in to its wind
You crave it
With its exciting destruction
I hate that you've ruined my love for you
That you took something so good and made it painful
I feel betrayed by you
This is stupid
I've got a scar for every memory
Etched up and down my thighs
A different story on each wrist
A reminder of all the pain
I've endured through the years
Written all over my body
I used to regret it
But now I embrace it
Because I'm a survivor
Pieces everywhere
Take what you want
Take her smile and her laugh
Take her happiness
Hell take her sadness
Take it she is practically giving it away
So why not take it
Pieces and pieces
He has a piece
And he has a piece
So why not you take a piece
Take her kisses her hugs and her love
Her shyness her innocents
Take it piece by miserable piece
Why not take it?
She is giving it right?
I never got addicted to the drugs
Every time I snorted it
And felt the burn
the foggiest that over took my mind
It wasn't the drugs
It was the boy that introduced me
That was my addiction
My downward spiral
That's where I lost myself
In his arms
I craved his lips
Not his pills
I wanted his love
Not his drugs
Today you told me it had to end
When I asked why
You said it's the end
Today's the last time
Why?
I start to cry
You say what's wrong with you?
I didn't hurt you did I?
I say no hold me
Don't go
You keep saying I hope I didn't hurt you
With tears in my eyes I reassure you that you didn't
Your shirts drenched in my tears
God I didn't want to hurt you
You didn't I'm ok
Brittany you're crying
I know
You aren't ok
I am
You wipe my tears away
You kiss me
Tears running down my cheeks
I kiss you harder taking it in
I know this is the last time
Your lips meet mine
The girl that loved you is gone
You pushed her away
And left her to many times
You let her down
I don't think she will ever be back
We lost her a long time ago
You look into her pretty blue eyes
And you lose yourself
You get caught up in her weird personality
And she forgets that she is supposed to be the shy girl
Because around you she is out of control in the best way
Your like her drug
A happy pill so to say
You make her feel alive
I stayed and stayed
Searching for the man I fell in love with
I couldnt find him anywhere in you
Because you never was the man I thought you were
You called me today
You probably thought I didn't want to talk
Because I was short and hung up fast
I didn't do it to be cruel to you
Or because I didn't want to talk
I did it because I can't handle the sweet sound of your voice
It took me back to old times
Something so familiar and something I used to call home
My heart started racing like it used to
I can't go back to that just to be left again
Just to have to start healing myself again
I can't go back to unanswered messages and missed calls
And I can't shed another tear for you
I can't feel my heart break
I can't feel the pain of you leaving again
Despite all the bad you've done
How you treated me
All the tears I cried
The late nights with no sleep
I did everything I could to keep you
Yet you still left
What I gave wasn't enough
I gave you the world
I handed you my heart you could of had it forever
I was willing to do anything for you
I gave you all my love
I altered myself to be what you needed
I visited parts of myself I never would have without you
I'm reaching and reaching
But never finding what I need
I'm grabbing the wrong things
Love and ***
Alcohol and drugs
Self harm

Those things wont fix you
If anything they leave you more broken

Love and ***
Is just a temporary feeling
That leaves you with a broken heart
Alcohol and drugs
Don't fix a broken heart
It just leaves you with a false sense of happiness
Self harm
Might  help in the moment
But it leaves scars deeper than the skin

I don't need any of that
I need to start grabbing
Love for myself
Self confidence
Self acceptances

I need to stop reaching for the wrong things
They said she was sad
And maybe a little broken
Anxiety filled and socially awkward
Said her thinking was twisted
That she was a little bit of a *****
That she was insecure and weird
That her scars were self inflicted
And maybe she agrees
I met you
My whole life changed
At first it was good
Then we took a turn for the worst
Im broken hearted
Full of tears
I spend my days missing you
Waiting for you
Asking myself if its worth it
If you love me
Second guessing myself
Someone should of told me
When I met you
That in the end
I'd be left with a broken heart
Empty space in my heart
Someone should of told me
I'd be torn apart
Time and love doesn't mix
When I'm with you time flies by
When I'm without you time stops
Im always waiting on another time
I get to spend with you
Time went by
I didn't move on
I just cried
I thought about you
I spent my days loving you
Time went by
You moved on
You didn't cry
You didn't think about me
You realized you didn't love me
And time went by
You take and take from me
Never realizing what your really taking
You carelessly take pieces
Never knowing if you keep taking
There won't be anything left
And when you run out of things to take
There won't be anything left of me
Make me a tree
See the beauty in my leaves
The age in my trunk
Sit under me and read a book
Have romantic picnics
I just want you happy
I want you ok and if that means life without me
Im ok with it as long as you're ok
Because you're my one the one that will haunt me
The one I never really will be over
The one that changed my life
The one that I want happy even if that cant be with me
Even if you hate me or love me or cant handle me
Even if that means a life without you as long as you ok
Im ok with it
Im struggling without you sometimes it hurts to breathe
Sometimes I wonder if you think about me
Sometimes I crave your touch your kiss
Your voice your everything but all of that doesnt matter to me
As long as you're ok
Because  you matter to me
She was a wild hurricane
Eyes as blue as the ocean
Personality like a fire
Her essence made you want her
You knew she was to good to be treated the way you treated her
But you were selfish and wouldn't let her go
And boy she would never dream of leaving you
So you both hung on far to long
I want to leave it unfinished because then no one will get hurt
I feel this way
You feel this way
Im scared to feel this way
Just to let it all go
And be with you with no worries
It scares me
It scares me that I need you
That you are the only thing that makes sense
That you're the one
I feel like I'm diving in ice water blind folded
Not knowing what will happen
Trying to find something wrong
Where everything is right
Driving us both crazy
It hurts it hurts
It hurts to know its over
What we were
What we are
Nothing last forever
I wanted us to last forever
Tug pull tug pull
I can't take it
I saw your face today
I don't know if it was a dream or reality
You know when you lose someone
You start to imagine that they're there
Holding your hand
And maybe they are
Sometimes I hear your voice
I know its not there
It's gone forever
Its a voice I've heard for 20 years
And now it's no more
It's gone
That Beautiful strong voice
Is no more
Yes it hurts
Everyday I long to hear it
Once more, Just one more time
Why'd you have to leave
At such a sad time
I miss you
I miss your nicknames
You had one for everybody
I could say I missed your smile
Honestly I can't remember it
But oh how I miss you
I could say it was love
The kind that would thaw a heart
The kind that would make you new
And not so sad
But its reality
So it didn't happen like that
It didn't melt my heart
It did the opposite of that
It made me sadder
Because for him it was just lust
I remember every word he said
Every touch we shared
Each time his lips touched mine
I could ask him if he remembers
But I already know the answer
Ive heard it so many times before
"That was months ago"
I'm sick of those words
Because it was more than that to me
Not just time pasted
For me it dragged on
And I had no choice but to move on
Im not gonna be all dramatic and say I regret it
But I regret it
I lied im dramatic
There's a beware sign to her mind
Don't go in there
It's dark and scary
The thoughts will chase you
Hang you in their vines  
Trap you there
Smother you
Torture you
Never let you go
Believe me I'm trapped here
I can't go
Turn back and don't come back
Are the signs
One more step and your stuck here
Swept up in her dark thoughts
You won't be the same
Turn back don't try to save her
She belongs here
She created this
It exist Because she formed it
She made this place
On accident
She fell and she fell hard
With your lips on her lips
Butterflies flood her stomach  
Hands in her hair
Call her baby girl
It hurts it hurts
It hurts to know its over
What we were
What we are
Nothing last forever
I wanted us to last forever
Tug pull tug pull
I can't take it
Im feeling so broken
Drowning in gray
Crushed under my self hate
Smothered under negativity
Wanting more
Ive always been told we all have that one. The one that will haunt you. The one you will never really be over, The one that changed your life. You're my one. I want you happy even if that means you're happy without me. If being without me makes you happy. Im ok with it even if I'm falling apart. Even if I'm crying as long as you're smiling.
You called me today you probably thought I didn't want to talk
Because I was short and hung up fast
But the sound of your voice took me back to old times
It also made me realize that we can never be how we used to be
That the past is just that and there is no future between us
Your voice still gave me butterflies
My heart started racing like it used to
I wonder what it felt like for you to hear my voice again
And what you thought when I didn't text you back
I didn't do it to be cruel to you or because I didn't want to talk
I did it because I can't handle the sweet sound of your voice
Something so familiar and something I used to call home
Ive worked so hard to get over you
And I can't let all that be wasted just because I hear your voice
You know just how to use your words to get back in my heart
I can't go back to that just to be left again
Just to have to start healing myself again
Because you won't be back for long
It will go back to unanswered messages and missed calls
And I can't shed another tear for you
Tears running down my cheeks
I saw your face
I didn't see pain in your eyes
Even though you were breaking my heart
I saw relief that you'd be rid of me
You never wanted anything serious
I guess it got to much for you
So you gave it up
And left me with my heart in my hands
So I had no other choice but to leave with a smile on my face
Without you I'm falling apart
With you I'm breaking down
Before you I didn't know what I was missing
I wish I never knew what it felt to be yours
Because now I'm lost
His a ******
I never suspected
I blinked and was in love
Blinked again and my heart was broken
Your alive if you want to call it that
You blinked and lost yourself
Blinked again and lost me
I was young and naive
Innocent if you please
Didn't know what it meant
To much to uncover
Afraid of what we might discover
Loved you like no other
How will I ever recover
You became my obsession
Wake up
The party is over
Grow up
Put it
Away
Its not worth it
You live in a box
In a song in my dreams
In my memories in my heart
You my love live in my past
I dream about you
I think about what could be
You come into my life
And leave just as fast
This is not a jump in jump out
Kinda thing
My heart can't take it
You feel like your in my past
I talk about you as a memory
I feel in my bones this is the end
The last memory I have
Is the last one I'll ever have of us
If I knew it was the last I would of paid more attention
Remembered every word of it
Every touch
Traced your face until it was burned in my memory
The last memory we had together is lost
What if I told you that girl over there.
Yeah the one you just complimented on how skinny she's gotten.
What if I told you that that girl is staving.
Staving in so many ways.
Yes she is hungry. In the literal way and metaphorical way.
She is starving but it goes deeper than that.
She wants to be seen. She wants love. She wants life.
She wants happiness. She wants to be pretty. She wants the things you do.
Hell she doesnt know what it is she wants anymore.
Maybe she is just like you in away.
She cant even pinpoint when she decided this for herself.
Maybe it was the first compliment. The first time a guy looked at her.
The first time someone told her she was pretty.
She wanted to be prettier skinnier better.
She doesnt even realize she is living in hell, or maybe she does and doesnt care.
She wants all these things that much. That she doesnt care.
And you are "feeding" into that with every compliment, every look and every word.
She has made herself weak. Weak in so may ways.
Mentally and physically. Now look again. You see it now. Dont you?
You see the circles the tiredness in her eyes.
Now look again you see the sad the hurt and the pain.
Now look again you see that she is me. Now look again she could easily be you.
My puzzle pieces are mix matched
Theres missing pieces and some that doesn't fit
And some that just doesn't make sense
But someone once told me
You are made of many  puzzles
And sometimes the puzzles get mixed up
Theres this part of you
And this story
And sometimes the pieces get scrambled together
And they don't make sense
So you have to put it back together
Fix your puzzles
Fix yourself
I see my reflection in the mirror
Sad eyes that doesn't look like mine
Tear stained cheeks
Pain seeping through my skin
A fake smile on my face
The girl looking back at me
Isn't who I used to be
You can almost see her heart breaking
If you look closely you can see her soul shaking
You can almost hear her screaming inside
When I'm with you I don't want to go
I want to hold you and never let you go
But you let me go so easily
How do you do it
I could hold you forever
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