My phone vibrates a second longer when I receive a text;
And I had not realised how deep the scars he left had cut.
There is a familiar sense of dread in the deepest pit of my stomach,
Each time someone dares reach out to this hollow skeleton.
I have not spoken to him in 8 months,
He has not spoken to me in 6.
Been sitting in my drafts for over a year, and we all love vague!posting about ex’s
(I’ve actually gotten /some/ closure on this relationship now, but old wounds n that)
I lay awake most nights
Wondering what happened to you.
How on earth did someone
Turn into such a pathetic,
I lay awake most nights
Wondering what happened to me.
How on earth I allowed someone to
Steal from me
Lie to me
Guilt trip me
And make me question
If I’m somehow the villain.
I don’t have the will to sleep tonight.
I don’t know how to shake these ghosts.
Ex versions of you
Ex versions of me
Ex people we promised
We would become for each other.
I look at the people who made me me
Not the person that I want to be
But this empty shell that walks alone
And can’t find a place to call home
I look at who I am inside
How most of me I want to hide
Like the scars that cover my midsection
And how people tell me they’re a sin
I hate that sadness that comes from pain
And I miss dancing in the rain
But now everything just feels the same
And I’m left wondering why I came
I hate the girl that I’ve become
And I know I’m not the only one
Because when I look at the people who made me me
It definitely isn’t love that I see
Why can’t you love the me you made me?
You still might break my heart
You have a lifetime to do it.
If I told you I love you,
would that be enough.
If I told you, you are the only thing I think about,
would you give us another chance.
If I learned how to communicate,
would you take me back.
If I told you I loved you
would you say it back?
The face of
You are Limited
You are Broken
You chain me
Addicts are lethal lovers
I'm still in love with him.
lead me through the darkness
I can't see
All I can do is
trust you have me
But I’m tripped
And i fall
Love isn't blind
But when I love you, I can't see
i trusted him time after time.
I am completely out of good ideas.
This isn't exactly what I'd call good company.
Being alone with you.
A worthwhile bad memory.
To know the future doesn't seem all that bad.
Under certain conditions.
Preconceived notions of cause and effect.
Yet predictable to see exactly where we're going.
Being in love with you seems like a bad idea.
I learned that the hard way.
The touch of a hand on the small of your back.
Afterwards we could both agree.
This was a really bad idea.
Picking up where the other left off
i remember when we met, we clicked instantly
i still remember how much you meant to me
i remember feeling whole in your arms
like not even a meteor could keep us apart
i remember when you told me you had been cheating
and how i begged for you to stay
you were the first person to ever make me feel worth something
and then you took my imaginary worth away
i remember when you told me you loved me,
and then told me you didnt actually mean it
i remember all the people ive left,
just because they werent you
i remember their words, in pain as i left
but all i can remember is the love i felt for you
ill never love anyone like i loved you
so why should i love?
its been 3 years
i know you dont care
i know all this is just wasted air
youll brush this to the side
just like how you did me
but i loved you
with a love that was so rare
one that no one else will ever experience
because how could i ever love anyone
like i loved you
fell for an ugly guy with a beautiful heart and a love for girls in other countries.