I’m dying of starvation
For the love that I crave,
And the soul
That’s no longer mine

The colors
dance in waves
across the darkening sky;
a beautiful calm before the storm.
The kind of calm
the world only experiences
in the early hours of the morning
when everyone is asleep
before the weight of everything
comes crashing down on it.

I am a hurricane
And sunshine
All in a bottle

I am an addict.
But not to drugs or alcohol
I'm addicted to my sadness.
I need to let it go, I know I do.
But I can't seem to let go of something
That was the only thing that kept me company
On all of those cold and bitter nights.

I may not be
The smartest girl,
I may not be the happiest.
I may not be the apple of
Everyone's eye.
I may be more broken
Than I am beautiful.
But I promise I
Am
Still worth
Loving.

I cannot stop the storm
But I will shield you from the rain
I will do whatever I can
To help you ease your pain.

I cannot keep your world from crumbling
But I'll help you start again
And if you need help picking up the pieces
I will lend a hand.

I cannot keep you from walking away
But just know I would love it
If you stayed

If a tree falls
And no one is around to hear it
Does it make a sound?
If I'm falling apart on the inside
But no one can tell
Does that mean the pains
Not real?

If I am left,
Then he is right.
If he is day,
Then I am night.
If he is right,
Then I am wrong.
If I am dusk,
He is dawn.
If I am here
Then he is there.
If he is grounded
Then I’m in the air.
If I am weak
Then he is strong.
And if things don’t change
Soon he’ll be gone

If I had a dollar
For all the times I
Cried myself to sleep
This month.
I'd buy a movie ticket
To the movie we were
Supposed to see together.

If sadness were as potent as alcohol or drugs
Before I met you
I would've been wasted all the time
And high as a kite.

Sometimes I get lost.
I want someone to
Help remind me
Of who I really am

We all look for
that thing that makes
our souls ignite;
that thing is called
LOVE

Desperation leaks from my words
As I beg the universe for life
Happiness
And you

It kills me,
Now that you're not here.
It kills me,
That I can't talk to you.
It kills me
That you are going on
Living your lif without me.
But the thing that kills me the most
Is the way that you have forgotten about me
In ways that I could never
Forget about you.

You could rip out my heart
And hand it to me on a silver platter
And I would still love you

I have learned to love my scars.
Despite the pain behind them
They serve as a reminder
Of all the times
I decided life is worth living.

But I don't mind
I'll stay behind
with you.
While everyone's chasing the stars
Trying to find who they are
I'll stay here with you.

I would trade in all my years
For just 2 more minutes in your arms.

If only you knew how many times
I typed those three little words,
And then deleted them before hitting send

When I say "I love you"
what I meant was,
I have never felt so at home
anywhere
or with anyone.
My mind,
my soul,
my heart,
has never felt such peace.

I let you in.
You are free to go
But please
Don't break anything
On your way out.

Every time I opened a door
I pray that when I walk through
I’ll be transported to another universe
Where you’re at home waiting for me
On the other side

Caught in between not wanting to give up on us
Because everyday could be our last
And
Caught in between wanting to give up
For the exact same reason.

I inhale pain
And exhale poetry

In 17 years of mistakes
And regrets,
Wrong turns and
Bad decisions,
You are the first thing
To feel right.

In my dreams you love me too.
In my dreams you never leave.
In my dreams we are happy together.
In reality you are
Gone.

I'm not always this
Messed up.
I promise.
I'm not always this
Insecure.
I promise.
I'm not always this
Hard to love.
I promise.
But I will always be there
For you.
I promise.

I lay here
On my beautifully
Tragic island
All alone
And I watch
The boats
As they shatter
on the rocks
Trying to reach
This unreachable island

It’s late, and I can’t sleep.
I’m thinking about the way your
hand always felt so weightless in mine,
but the absence of it—of you—
feels so heavy.

It’s late, and I can’t sleep.
I’m thinking about the way
the beat of your heart
and the waves of your breathing
created a rhythm just for my soul.

It’s late, and I can’t sleep.
I’m thinking about the way
the skin crinkles at the corners of your eyes
whenever you smile or laugh.

It’s late, and I can’t sleep
Cause now I sleep alone
And the bed feels so cold

It’s late
And I can’t sleep

I guess it's true
It's not you its me.
It's me who has insecurities
Who's afraid of never being loved
To break down the walls.
It's me who can't move quick enough for you
It's me who can't open up
To every question you ask.
It's me who can't get over the past
Who can't take a hard hit
And shrug it off.
It's me who carries around a large suitcase
Filled with the things I've seen
The baggage that I have to carry.
It's me who's slowing you down
And for that,
I'm sorry.

I have built a tower out of my fears
To protect me from harm.
I've built a blanket of my loneliness
To keep me warm at night

It’s an odd thing
You know
Having a front row seat
To my own self destruction.
Being so mentally broken
Yet so painfully self aware

As of right now
There is only one thing
I want.
And that is you.

I hate myself for what I've done.
I promise I will get better.
I promise I will try harder.
I promise I will BE better.
Or just say the words
And I will let you go
Forever.

I love you,
Ask me to stay and I will.
Tell me you love me
And I will drop everything
And stay.

Why do I love you
Why do I care
You’ve destroyed me completely
Yet you call and I’m there.

The night is clear
but not a single star shines
I wish you were mine.

I sit here and wonder what it would be like to fly
Go
Up
Up
Up
And tell the world goodbye.

The other day you knocked me down
with your harsh words etched in stone
as I let the rocks cut into me
My thoughts screamed
you're alone
you're alone
you're alone.

Join
me
and
watch
our
shadows
dance
as
lights flash
and
the
music
plays.

That night was flawless
And filled with magic.
I'm so glad I got to spend it
With you.

Things have changed so much
In the last few weeks,
That I'm starting to wonder
If that night was all in
My dreams.

As your lips find their home against mine
Our breathing becomes one
And I can’t help but feel
Like we were put on this earth
For this very moment

As I crawled onto your lap,
Our foreheads and noses
Touched.
Eyes closed.
Time froze.
Just you
And me.
And after eternity
Our lips locked,
And fireworks exploded
behind my eyes.
Your lips were as soft
As an angels touch.
Soft and tender.
Loving and sweet.

They say that sometimes
The people who build you up
Are the ones to tear you down,
And the saddest part is,
No one realises it until
It's too late.

It's okay,
Dance with as many people
As you feel you need to in order
To tame your wild soul,
All I ask,
Is you save the last dance
For me.

It’s getting late now
So pull me in tight
Whisper I love you
And kiss me goodnight
Before you go

Will you remember me
When you go away
Cause I was kinda hoping
that you would stay

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

It’s getting late now
So let’s look to the sky
Make wishes on airplanes as they
Float on by
I’ll run away
The moment you say so
Just take my hand
I don’t care where we go

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

So don’t change your mind
We’ll leave this town behind
So don’t change your mind
We’ll leave this town behind

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

Remember when we used
To talk all night?
I miss that.