my mother once told me
she didn't take me to a concert because there were lot of people
big crowd she said
big bad crowd
and I think of this now
mommy
then why did you gave birth to me in this cruel world
you threw me right into people's teeth
these sharp teeth
they tore me apart
you better not take me to a concert
ever

Grab your waist.
Put you close to me.
Feel my face.
It’s so cold you see.
Toxic soul.
Hidden deep in me.
Burn inside.
I ain’t feeling free.
Stay away.
Fake as we can be.

walking down the streets at 3 am
with my girls
complaining about how cold our legs are
but we actually know very well
that this is what we live for
screaming, laughing
as if we were alone on this planet
neither afraid of the dark
nor thinking about tomorrow
because at this moment we are free
just us and the streets
we don't sleep at night

to bring back time
is my only dream in this crazy world
to separate the simple pieces
of my odd castle
to attach them with hopes
obliterate the blemishes
i miss a ray of light
and petals appear
- memories are here

Lurking for me in the shadows of despair
I see no strenght in my spirit, cracking again
Loud noises bring me eternal softness laying between you and the void
Droping tear, licking blood, making me want nothing
Then come back for more
Seeing you can’t help
Absorbing your glances and that makes me capable of escaping this hole of bones
I can break them now
Scattering them through the silence of my echo
Illusion running through my veins, filled with cinnamon and grapes.
You owe me grass of open locks
Right before I became a prisoner in a coma

he gave me this look
that drove me insane
he imagined things with me
goosebumps
he stretched the strings inside me
love and attraction merge
and he didn't even say a word

We make our way through the crowd
Searching for a soulmate
Searching for a creature to understand our demons
we carry a wreath of daisies and hidden tears
Put a smile, laugh a little bit louder and there you go
Preparing for the big cruel world
In the end, clinging to our wounds
We slowly start to understand
that we are the only ones that stay even when the world ends

cutting my finger and it hurts
breaking a bone and it hurts
hitting my head and it hurts
you refuse to love me and it bleeds

inside my head
it's always wrong and right
relying on you
there's never lack of light

I choose you in your worst
I love you every time
you smoke my thoughts
our attraction is just a thin line

honey, maybe one day we
crazy       until        free
spirit, mind and simple mess
breaking the resistance in me

Pale eyes flooding the room, wishing they could bloom.
We see ourselves naked under the carpet of flowers.
We burn because of decisions of ours.
Their minds are limpid, their eyes like liquid. Isolating myself from temptation, crawling out faster.
I bite my tongue and they heard me sneaking.

tell me we are not for each other
speak to me like you are right
say that nothing else would matter
if you had me in your heart

but sad is the saddest truth
you don't see me like you see her
you think that girl is cute
and I'm some kind of bitter

then why you come to me every night
visit me such gently when I'm dreaming
why did you speak to me as if you're right
my heart  is only capable of screaming

you touch my neck with your soft lips
I feel you crawling under my skin

you put your hand on my cheek
I feel you deep inside me

you look into my lonely eyes
I feel you seeing through me

you keep moving away from me
I hope your kiss remains on my neck

been here
done that
show me something new
something blue
show me everything

there is something in the corner
I see it
no, now I don't
I just know it's there
but the corner is dark
it changes its face
like a clown
happy or sad?
you decide
now I see it again
its there
but I don't know what is it
I just know its there
sanity

slowly touching me
looking to my eyes
slowly kissing my neck
is it wrong that I want you to have me
I give my body and my thoughts to you
I give you myself
and I often find myself thinking
is it wrong that I want something I know I will never have
so come to me
even if you don't think of me through the day
be with me through the night and
let me be a part of you
'cause I let myself be yours
yours faithfully
yours no matter when

you open your eyes
you are alive and present
you look in the mirror
you see yourself and say
'' I won't be good today "
"but someday darling" says the mirror
"you wont see yourself in me"
"you will see the devil instead"

Fading.
She is born of ashes.
Changing.
Discrepant kind of star.
Tainted.
Her skin reminds of smoked daisies.
Damaged.
At first naive, then she turned invincible.
Sparkling.
Her yellow sleeves kissed her ****** skirt.
Intoxicated.
She was hiding a passionate and thirsty soul.
Vanishing.
Oh. The universe chewed her.

Take my time away from here
Hope my end that isn’t near
Make me want to cut my hair
Tell me life is never fair
Faded polaroids around our bed
Your hand feels so hard to let
Touch my body softly with a feather
Hope your kisses remain forever

one room and I see you
sitting there
holding my thoughts in your hands
but you don't know
I'm holding your hands in my thoughts

today it feels the same
and i won't break the chain
today I'm safe as I can be
but I know I won't get free
today the clouds aren't gone
and yet I know you'll come
I know but I won't believe
the pain in me is hard to relieve
it's hard to picture your eyes
but you're not like the other guys
tell me it won't feel the same
and that it's not me to blame

they always ask me
and I always ask myself too
- why him?
well, he was the only person I couldn't understand
so complicated, yet so perfectly created
he was the only thing that left mysterious marks
on my sweet soul
on my soft cheek
and when they ask me again
I will tell them
- because he was the ocean and I was just a drowning girl

I picture everything  vividly in my mind
your lips on my shoulder
your eyes laying on me
together, in a small simple apartment
drinking red wine and wanting each other
we see fire in our eyes, we have the world
making art or making love
it's both delicate and subtle
we become one - body, mind, spirit
it's you and me and nothing in between
nothing around us
except
lust