My heart yearns for what's past
its like a dull ache
I tell it not to be silly but it doesn't listen
My head may speak logic
but my heart cannot deny my true feelings

I know I will never get you back
I know that there are no spells
to to wake you from your eternal slumber
but still my heart yearns

Grief is like a broken mirror
At first you may be smashed to pieces
you may find all the pieces
and glue them back together
however the  cracks will still be there
your reflection will never be the same

For you suicide offered quick relief
For those of us left behind
nothing but grief

With your eyes you saw deep into my soul
at that point, over me, you had complete control

With your hands you explored me
in anticipation of your touch
you were the lord of me

My ears heard your words of love
and made me let go,  all inhibitions of

Your mouth smothered me with tender kisses
Now as my mind wanders, of it often  reminisces

With my nose, I smelt your skin
which sent my head into a total spin

When my heart skipped a beat
I knew my love  for you was concrete

I need to move on
it's time

You were the one for me
you were there for me
we shared our thoughts and dreams
I shared your bed
but now you're dead

I need to move on
I can't sit here any longer
talking to the air
pretending you're there
its simply more than I can bear

knowing you can't hear me
knowing you can't see me
knowing you can't feel me

I feel so hollow inside
too many tears I have cried

I'm lonely
without you here with me
just the four walls for company

I can't do it anymore
your death cut me to the core
this pain I can no longer endure

I will never love anyone else like you
but to find someone new
is what I want to do

It's time to *move on

She has a far away look
in her far away eyes

She's a girl that won't stay long
she has the need to always move on

Free spirits you cannot cage
that just embitters them with rage

Let her be
just set her free

I am so tired,
I cannot move
my life seems to have lost its groove

I cannot move on
God knows I've tried
But the pain simply wont subside

Look what you did to me
This is your responsibility

You were so selfish and  dumb
to your pain you finally did succumb

Look what you left behind
my life is now such a grind

I hate you so much for this
was this surely your last wish?

You know I lie
I could never hate you
I just wish I knew why

I glanced at your picture
On my wall it's a permanent fixture

I felt a welling up in the corner of my eye
I was so determined not to cry

Despite my best efforts
A little tear drop started to form
It was all salty and warm

It was a determined little thing
Its friends it wanted to bring

To smear my face
and make me look a disgrace

But I fought him back
with my little tissue pack

If asked why I loved him, I would say

The look of love in his eyes
The taste of lust on his lips
The touch of his skin against mine
Our hearts will forever be entwined

Even now that death has come
and claimed him for its own
The memory of our love still stays with me
and will be for all eternity

Your eyes are like deep wells
I cannot see the bottom
they hold many secrets
which cannot be forgotten

From across the table he looks at me most lovingly
Making those eyes where
his emotions he cannot hide

He takes my hand
and strokes my finger

He says it's too soon for a wedding band
But that is what he has planned

My heart was bursting and full of love
We fit together like a hand in a glove

Now you're gone

I want to pack up my life and put it on hold
whilst a new adventure I do take hold

I want to run free
by the sea,
if that is a possibility

I want to climb the highest mountian
Dance naked in a fountain

Treck through the Amazon
All before my life is too far gone

Alas, its not to be,
Especially when you have a kid and responsibility

** hum, back to the Doldrum
Of a boring life I have to run

Maybe next year

I am so bored at work
I think my boss is a ****

I stare out endlessley of the window
At the grey sky above
and the people walking down below

I want to smash the window
to break free
I want to stop the boredom from killing me
I have one million places I'd rather be

Fragile
Handle with care
    This way up  
^^

Corners of My Mind
Won't let me leave you behind

I want to move on
Now that you're gone

You chose to die
I still don't know why

But I am alive
and my empty life I will revive

But you still lurk there in the
corners of my mind
and of my pain you still constantly remind

Let me be
I so very tired you see
I am fed up with pain and tragedy

I will never forget you,
of that you can be sure
but, please, pain, I can no more endure

So please leave the
corners of my mind*
and let my weary soul unwind

I realise now...

I was the friendly face in your storm
the one you came to when you felt worn

Love  - what is it?
Without it they tell you that you can't be happy
when it leaves you, everyone tells you that you will find another "love"

I feel like your abused wife, always taking you back
after you apologise and it won't happen again

I am tired,  love, please pick on someone else

Your profile read "Separated with 3 kids",
Normally I would have run a mile
But you bombarded me with your words and made me smile

The more you talked the more your soft words curled themselves around my heart,
it was not long before, of you I became a part

Once you hooked me in and made me yours
the stories of your woes from your life before begins to out pour
I was your therapist, your lover and your teacher
one year passed and things only began to look bleaker

Anxiety, stress and you being generally depressed
did nothing to relieve the problems already compressed

you promised things of a life and future together
now looking back, that really wasn't clever

I believed you and prayed,
to live with you someday

To grow old and laugh
when in the evening sun we'd bask

Those were childish dreams
and it didn't take long for them to crack at the seams

Why do I call you the Time Thief?
You gave me false belief

Because you made me love you
Then you left me behind in this world with no clue
with what you were about to do

You stole my time, my heart, my soul
over which I now have no control

The narcissist asked the mirror......

Mirror mirror on the wall
who is the fairest of them all

Not you said the mirror
with brutal honesty

No amount of make up
will cover your "fake" up
your life needs a shake up
and you my dear, need to wake up

My dear the mirror went on,
You want to hide your ugly personality inside
I see you for who you really are
Not some bright shining star
That you always seem to think you are

Your poor husband who is dead
to whom your ******* was fed
worked his **** off to provide the daily bread
and YOU alone are responsible for his bloodshed

My dear as Reality bites
why don't you stop with these stupid fights
said the mirror

She's a Narcissistic *****,
I quite often call her the Witch
She ground a good man down
through her greed and selfish desires
she has no room for sympathy or compromise
if the outcome does not involve her.

Now that he is dead
She won't leave him be
and keeps slandering his memory
hate is too good a word for her
but my god I'd love to punch her