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Jade Welch Apr 2020
It isn't you,
It's me.

I have said it time and again.
Each time more relevant than the last.

Because it really was me.
My overthinking.
My trust issues.
My insecurities.

I know there are prettier girls out there.
They all want you.
And I don't even want myself...


So why should you?
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I just want to feel wanted,
I want to be happy.
I want to love someone
and to actually feel loved back.
I want to feel appreciated.
And I want someone to look at me,
seeing not my past,
but seeing my heart
and the love I have to give.

I just want someone to tell me
that one day
it will all be ok!
Jade Welch Feb 2019
My head yearned for him.
But my heart...

just didn't?
Jade Welch Sep 2019
**** that boy/he ****** with your head/he's got another little pretty girl/laying in his bed.
Jade Welch Jan 2019
I craved the discipline
to march with the rest
in line.

But they told me no
for the second
****** time.

****.
Jade Welch Jan 2019
There was thunder in my hands,
lightning in his fists.

Thunder always claps,
but lightning always hits.
Jade Welch Sep 2019
find me on a hidden path

and my heart shall lead us home
Jade Welch Jan 2021
Your heart has been torn.
Shattered into pieces.

Yet still you are so fast to give it away.

There is strength in that.
Jade Welch Apr 2020
I cannot turn back clocks
Nor can I travel through time
So I smile when I think back
Not because you made me happy
But because I survived days darker than night
I have lived through horrors worse than those on screens
I have loved more than characters in books
And I have cried rivers longer than those surrounded by lovers

So I can smile really knowing that not all storms last through the night.
And I am alright.
Jade Welch Jan 2021
Selling my soul to strangers
For a love that never starts
Cannot lend me their words
On my pictures leaving hearts

Falling in love too quickly
With a man who knows me not
Am I coming off too keen
Does he know what he just lost
Jade Welch Feb 2019
So lucky to have you
I never noticed before
Sister I love you
It's you I am thankful for
N/A
Jade Welch Apr 2020
I found myself in the baron lands
Of love
Jade Welch Mar 2019
And his eyes will always show up where you least expect them...

In your dreams.
Jade Welch Jan 2019
And the devil will paint his words
in the style of a Da Vinci canvas.
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I opened my heart, and told him about the darkness;

now he has to sleep with the light on.
Jade Welch Nov 2016
The monsters
from beneath
my bed
have crawled
up into
my head.
#sad #depression #life #me #mind #nightmare #scary #poetry #poem #scarypoems #lifestory #dealwithit
Jade Welch Mar 2019
You see the smile
not the scars.

You see the beauty
not the beatings.

You see the present
not the past.

So why throw your words at me,
when you could throw your arms around me?
Jade Welch Jan 2019
He said he would make you his
Queen.

In reality he treats you like a
Scullery maid.
Jade Welch Feb 2019
Brother dear, wipe your eyes
it hurts my heart to see you cry.

Brother dear, have no fear
if she leaves I am always here.

Brother dear, careful with your heart
don't hand it to her at the very start.

Brother dear, I know it's hard
when your heart sits in your chest fragile and scarred.
Jade Welch Jan 2019
Baby,
don't give your whole heart
to someone
who gives you none of their kindness!
Jade Welch Aug 2018
I feel like death is calling me;
I find comfort in the thought.
But if I slit these ******* wrists,
would Mother be distraught?
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I didn't REALLY lose you.

The reality of it is, I never really held a single piece of you,
but you possessed my entire heart.
Jade Welch Jan 2018
My head is an ocean
My heart is a fire
Neither of the two
Can agree with eachother
Jade Welch Mar 2019
She picked up a pen,
and her soul spoke.
Jade Welch Mar 2019
He called me perfect,
and for a moment
all of my flaws disappeared.
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Some nights I fight
Others I fall
If only you were here
To pull me through it all
Jade Welch Apr 2020
"I hate you", I cry.
And the mirror shouts it back.
Jade Welch Mar 2019
I am closed off,
not because I am afraid of what you might do.

I fear I might scar your heart, in a way no lovers kiss may heal.

After all 'hurt people hurt people', right?
Jade Welch Feb 2019
And it only hurts more
because I cannot stop crying out
over someone who has never shed a tear for me
Jade Welch Mar 2019
And then he asked "but, how do you still find your smile when such dreaded things have happened?"



"Darling, a tear wont change my past, but my smile can mould my future"
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Four leaf clover
Little black cat
Good luck bad luck
What's up with that?
Jade Welch Mar 2019
If only you could see
how your soul has captivated me;
maybe then you would love yourself the way I do.
Jade Welch Nov 2015
This point of time will be forever kept
Inside my mind, forever and a day:
Your greasy hair dragged cruelly by the wind.
Your mountainous nose, that gets in the way.

You do not speak the way you really should;
You speak the same as an old foreign man.
You hide dry skin beneath that tired blue hood -
To be with you would be no sane man's plan.

You're not a pretty sight which is a same
You shall never be a beautiful dame
But, oh, I love you, darling, all the same.

Your imperfections make you who you are:
A shining star not seen is still a star.
Inspired by Shakespeares sonnets! This sonnet is only 13 lines long, rather than the traditional 14 lines, just to make it as imperfect as the lady the poem is supposedly about, little differences to a traditional sonnet have been made, such as the 13 lines and some of these lines are not the traditional 10 syllables long.

I hope you enjoy reading just as much as i did writing it, ENJOY!
Jade Welch Feb 2019
My love for you came like the rain in spring...

Nothing at all.
Then all at once.
Jade Welch Feb 2019
Then you left
And it was finally safe to dance again
Jade Welch Feb 2019
She just wanted somebody
to share her weird with
Jade Welch Feb 2018
They all know you
Better than I ever could
They say you hid your feelings
Beneath a heavy hood

They say the rope took you
Or was it you who took the rope
As a child I'd sit at home
All I could do was hope

She says you left by your own accord
She screams it time and again
It is like your rope left her mind
Coated in red wine stains

When you left he came along
A temper in his fists
Like the thunder rumbled in his voice
And often she'd assist
~ I miss you Dad
Jade Welch Feb 2019
The ache was a parcel:

I knew it'd arrive soon,
but when it did,
it wasn't as great as I had expected.
Jade Welch Apr 2020
Hello?
Hi.
Who is this?
It is you.
It is me?
Yes, I am you just a few years from now.
What do you want?
To tell you this is not the way.
But, what other way is there?
Not his way.
But, what else, what other way?
Your way, the door way, any way but this.
Will it hurt?
Not as much as his way does.
But, what else, what other way?
The better way, leave a letter way, any way but this .
But what if he follows?
He will, but you can be strong, I know it.
But, what else, what is my way?
The strong way, do things wrong way, any way but his.
But, what if I can't?
What if I don't?
Jade Welch Nov 2018
You cannot heal me
for I am not a broken soul.
My spirit carries heavy burdens
but my colours never dull.

Pointed torches in my face
this light, it hurts my eyes.
I was led alone, I sobbed
thinking no one heard my cries.

I smile in the face of the enemy
and laugh in the face of a friend.
It is not that I am lying
but that I must pretend.
Jade Welch Aug 2023
What's wrong with me?
No, hunny...

What was wrong with my upbringing?
No, seriously... a joke
Jade Welch Aug 2023
And now I will look back and laugh
realising I gave my everything
I missed you when you were here
and loved you for longer than you deserved
I fought for you
defended you
I cared for you
gave myself up for you

I laugh because
I thought I had never seen anything like you
and the funny part is
I really thought you were the most beautiful thing
I would ever lay eyes on

But today I woke up
stood in front of the mirror
and finally...

I saw my soul
Jade Welch Jan 2019
Don't try to be strong for someone else,
when you aren't even strong enough
to love
YOURSELF!
Jade Welch Mar 2019
If you could walk a mile in my shoes,
you would need to sit for a while.
Jade Welch Nov 2018
You could have numbed the pain
but instead I turn to whiskey.

I drink away the sins and pain
I wonder if you miss me.

You left but it's unclear why
there is nobody here to get me through it all.

So I drink myself unholy
and pour my heart out onto the table.
Jade Welch Jun 2018
I said I'd see her later
so she'd think it wasn't planned
But all along I had the pills
gripped tightly in my hand
Jade Welch Aug 2023
To the next one,

Don't let my heart arrive at an empty home.

Love,
Me
Jade Welch Feb 2019
"Explain".
Thinking no words but 'pain'.
Depression.
"When you see the sun, I feel the rain".
Jade Welch Jan 2019
Some days I wish
I could bury you.
Other days I wish
I could share your grave
Jade Welch Mar 2019
And my heart was in too many pieces to be fixed.




But he still wanted to try!
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