"idc" poems
i cannot put into words what you have done for me but i will try
i was lost in the numbness of nothingness
the silence around it all was getting way too loud
and i hadn’t felt the excitement of another for way too long
you’ve been around for a while
in the back of my mind as a matter of fact.
it may have taken a while to get you to notice me
but i was willing to take the time, because you felt different
and as far as ‘felt’
it’s too early to tell but you make me feel
and it’s not just a spurt of feel, its a feel thats real
i almost gave up in all honesty
i didn’t want to put myself out there again
to then just be torn limb from limb, again
but you felt, right
you’re quiet… to others
but to me you’re you
and i can’t get enough of you
your voice is distinct-
your voice is yours, it levels me and i could listen to it all day
your eyes are deep-
your eyes are specific, they look at me not through me
your walk is confident-
your walk is purposeful, you don’t wander
your presence is home, its way too early but at the same time idc
your essence is irrational, idk why you’re here at this time
but i can’t second guess it cause nothing has ever felt so right
i look at you and i am in wonderment
your beauty is indescribable
and your being makes your beauty seem intolerable
you make me want to become a better me
you make me reevaluate my purpose
you make me pay attention
i cannot put into words what you have done for me but i will try
i was lost in the numbness of nothingness
the silence around it all was getting way too loud
and i hadn’t felt the excitement of another for way too long
idk why God has placed you in my life
but i hope that you are here to stay
no one has affected me the way you do
i have been so afraid of it all
to stay put
to move
to be happy
to love
to give myself up
but you make me anxious to do all of those things
you make me want to be happy
you make me want to try
you make me want to take risks
you make me want to move
but most importantly-
you make me want to
Sep 30, 2018
Sep 30, 2018 at 4:01 AM UTC
I'm turning into to this robot maniach,
This I don't give a **** attitude
This I got no feelings what so ever
Typer thing
I'm turning into this I don't care
What people say
I'm turning into this,I'll deal with it tommorow
I'm turning into this whatever happens happens
I'm turning into this IDC typer chick.
Dec 5, 2013
Dec 5, 2013 at 4:26 PM UTC
"SPOON FED"
BY Arcassin B
i use to dream of being famous,
i use to dream of having a car,
i use to dream of having,
anything,
that would build a better me,
people workin 9 to 5,
searching to be free,
but all you fear is yourself,
not me,
you thought you could put me down,
but i got right back up,
and said im stronger than your demons,
speaking in tounges , feeling stuck up,
preferably speaking,
but you know you cant ignore it,
all the people on the planet.
"Im On To You"
By Arcassin Burnham
blood drippin from your mouth,
i can smell ,
dangerous without a doubt,
hot as the fire , in hell,
im on to you,
if people say im foolish , idc,
im on to you,
its not just me its you and me,
im on to you
can i be the bee,
getting the nector out,
or can i be the misery,
May 16, 2014
May 16, 2014 at 5:46 PM UTC
I've always talked to myself,
but these days
I feel stereotypically crazy
the "I should be locked up for my own good"
kind of crazy.
I don't know how long
I spent in my room
laughing until
there were tears in my eyes.
Twice I made a move
to leave the room,
twice I collapsed laughing.
I wondered if I was actually crying,
But no,
it was laughter.
Laughter,
because my god,
it's all so **** funny.
I counted my Klonopin today.
She told me to ration them.
I took four on one day
three on another,
if I skip a day or two,
I'll be able to take
four on a different day.
It makes sense in my head.
Without the Klonopin,
I'm angry again.
She asks if I'm thinking
about eating today,
"not really idc"
An "I care" response
only elicits
"Sorry about that,"
too much of a coward to say
"That's not my problem"
or better yet,
**** you, leave me alone,
go tend to your partner,
or datemate,
or whatever the **** you call them."*
Maybe I don't really mean it,
but there's only
**** You"*
in my heart today.
I won't take the Klonopin today
so I can drink wine or a beer
or whatever is cheap.
It makes sense in my head,
as I continue to cackle to myself.
*Who the ****
do you think you are,
Kerouac?*
It's all a joke to me.
I walk and walk and walk
and I buy a too sweet coffee,
instead of *****
which I tell myself
I'll buy later.
I can behave,
if I'm in public,
only emitting
a tiny chuckle
from time to time.
Everyone here
is absorbed in their lives.
No one will know the difference.
It's all a joke to me.
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 3:21 PM UTC
Like coffee in the morning
I grew used to you somehow
It started bitter and without warning
it is ending that way now
Like Gene Kelly or Sinatra
You have Marlon Brando class
Went to pop music from the opera
Now I cant stop thinking about ***
Like two stings out of tune
We always seem to clash
Bring your beauty to the room
Where the music doesn't match
Art is ever changing: lke w/e idc
People rearranging: Thrz no bEutY Ne wer3
(Jaha baha LOL
They prolly tlk like diz N h3L7 )
Apr 11, 2015
Apr 11, 2015 at 11:38 AM UTC
The game played no longer how it once was
No votes on new posts
don't check the trends
or check your own for views and comments
The substantive roaming data of broken WiFi connections
Mangle your jangling words, hide your swollen faces behind forced smiles, Rembrandt bastardisations or smeared oil paintings of the black soul(less) beasts that lurk in satiate tree shadows fawned over the lawnmower blue cycle rinse washed acid soaked daydream ***** slap nation
So you revere the works once read on poetical facsimile sites
only to smear words of younger wordsmith wrangled teen angst
and now in your age and ardor it seems advantageous to judge
But then that will leave you hollow inside
or in fact, you could jump from a tall building only to bounce off the concrete into a children's pool and drown there in three inches of **** coloured rain water
But so instead the workload decreases as your dementia bedpost nightmares
all come aflutter
The laced lily white throng of petal pinched patterns masks
the marked men on their dusty knees
There, watch how heads explode
or listen to foley artists rendering the lacquered finish of the watermelon headjuice
Make up words
or make up lies
Wear make-up daily, earn some prize
or don't
I don't care
idc
idk
Resemble rhyme or reason
Disassemble the times and season
Return to pejorative pretensions, rants in verse verse verse verse prose format and **** the rest
Or simply return to the old ways of playing the game
Upvote this, and maybe they'll take interest
Comment here
return one there
Use tags, hashtags, wash rags, fat slags, arm chair fat cats
But always separated by spaces, prettyblankspaces
No, I don't do slam poetry, I'm too white and not nearly rich enough to not care
Reassemble the times and season, maybe make sense of it
Maybe not
Just don't let them become a passing trend, please
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 12:23 PM UTC
The sun seems to rise,
When you looked at me
My happiness was a thread
Pulling me, forcing me towards you.
My smile was only present
When you talk to me.
You gave me light
You gave me joy
then you threw it away
breaking the thread
along with myself
no more light
no more happiness
with u gone
and now u
left me
to burn
in the dust
and i can’t pretend
like it was ok
my poison like qualities
spread to u
pushing u away
and who can
blame u
for wanting to get away
frm me
as i
rot
nto
nthing
bc
idc abt anythng
n e more
Dec 24, 2018
Dec 24, 2018 at 11:22 AM UTC
This is me
Just someone's daughter
But, someone else's disappointment
I can laugh louder than anyone in the room
And cry so silently, you'd never hear a tear drop
I want to be loved so badly
But, then not at all for fear of losin that love
I hate my past being thrown in my face
Don't hesitate to throw daggers in your face
I'm sometimes the worlds biggest hypocrite
Other times I stay true to what I firmly believe
I might interrupt your story a million times
But, I swear I care about each word you say
I'll be the best shoulder to sob on
But, get frustrated when it's not returned
I'm lazy as hell
But, always have so much on my mind I wanna do
I'm completely flawed to the max
But, am obsessed with perfection
I love surprises
But, ill do whatever it takes to ruin it
I'll speak with such heartfelt words
Then turn and spew venom in your face
I never want you to go
But , ill push and push until you break
I always hear when you speak to me
But, often I rarely take the advice
I scream "Why am I like this?!" Til my tvoice is hoarse
Then lay back in bed and not change a thing
I can be lead by a string to my breaking point
I never get out the knife and cut myself lose
I'll mutter what I really think about you
But, when you ask me to repeat it, I'll say "nothing"
Anyone can guilt trip me
Even when deep down inside I know I owe this person nothing
I see the devil in your grin
But, I want friends so bad I try to ignore it
You can break my heart with just one word
But, ill just hold the broken pieces in my hands til they bleed
I'm always willing to lend a helping hand
To anyone but myself
I've come so far and changed what I saw as impossible
Focus so much harder on where I've been then where I could be going
I'd give you the shirt off my back if you needed it
Flip a switch and Idc what you need, just what I do
Music is sometimes my best friend
So I'll ignore the one standing in the room
I say I'm over it
But, I never even started the climb
You can be in my corner 24/7
But, ill be stuck on who isn't rather than thank you
I'll never forget you
Even if you never remembered me
This is me
Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 9:41 PM UTC
I'm Craving Meths Euphoria flow
I'm Sorry Baby
if your reading this But I can't resist to hold this thought in.
Knock knock
It's My Dealer At The door
delivering a Fat sack of
Crystal Rocks
Drop Some, Cut it, line it
One Line
Snort it Fast
Crushed Up Well, Burns like hell
Sniff After Sniffs
Eyes Turned Glossy, Shred A Tear. Seconds later
Felt the Drip Tingle
Down my Throat bitter taste
One Line Two Lines
I'm Beginning To Feel Heightened a sense of Pride and Self Worth Very Confident Awake and Alert.
One Line Two Lines Three Lines
I'm Feeling Amazing, energetic, Talkative
One Line Two Lines Three Lines four
I feel As if I Own And Accomplished Everything in This Word.
Unlimited Happiness all in Just
One Dose.
One Line
I Fell In Love With Its Every Effect.
I forever want to feel this way
One Line Two Lines
IDont Ever Want to stop I'm sprung
I want to continue on
One Line Two Lines Three Lines
I'll Keep Using, it's so strong Fantastic iDc if iOver Dose
One Line Two Lines Three Lines four.
I want More I Need More.
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 6:37 AM UTC
I guess I'm dying cause all my friends and family are crying but at the same time I'm happy idk why but its good someone other then me is beginning to cry I'm sorry i told you all these lies this is all i can say on my death bed i haven't said enough but idc anymore cause I'm alive right now and i don't give a **** what people are thinking or saying because I'm finally at peace with my self and i don't have any more mental anger ik now things in the past weren't my fault I'm sorry i treated you like **** I'm sorry i couldn't cope with myself and I'm mainly sorry i hurt you i can probably name a hundred people i have hurt physically and verbally and mentally I'm sorry i just hate myself not you and if your reading this i hope you know I'm getting my own consequents
Nov 13, 2014
Nov 13, 2014 at 9:17 AM UTC
We learn to say that we don't care,
As we begin to believe it.
We tell ourselves when we are hurt,
Not to share.
IDC...
Soon, we turn this ugly phrase, in upon ourselves,
A bad day, or treated badly?
Just remember those three,
Those deadly letters.
IDC...
What comes next is no surprise,
We use it for the smallest things,
A forgotten birthday,
Hopeful plea.
IDC...
How soon it becomes,
The easiest answer,
To each and every worry,
You need me?
IDC...
And then the fateful day does come,
When we have switched places,
We need assistance of some sort,
It falls upon deaf ears.
IDC...
We need to change,
This process we use,
And change the meaning,
Of three small letters.
IDC...
I don't care...
That's not true...
I give it thought...
Thus, I DO CARE!!!
IDC...
I DC...
I DO CARE!!!
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 9:28 PM UTC
"It is very important not to mistake hemlock for parsley, but to believe or not believe in God is not important at all."
-Denis Dedirot(idk who,some random old guy)
Jan 27, 2022
Jan 27, 2022 at 11:00 AM UTC
I don't really care about
Atoms, photons or parallel
Universes where you and I could've
worked out differently and existed
cause all we have is here and now
so I'm going to try my best to make
this life worth it, meaningful and
happy for you to live in.
Dec 18, 2018
Dec 18, 2018 at 10:57 AM UTC
Once I read online
that poetry is becoming more popular
to tweet
even if you must write
in txt spk
this stanza shows you 140 characters
(it doesn't get you very far)
the internet is bad, boys & girls
always giving you something to compare yourself to
or something you wish you had
or someone you wish you had back
but what seems to drive people craziest is
messenger
Seen 12.23pm
k...
idc
my friend said once that one of the toughest things
about her breakup was
having to log out of her ex-boyfriend's
Netflix account
lucky her.
thanks for sharing.
sometimes Google writes poems for me
if I type in the first few words
I wonder if
we smile in our coffins
I wonder if
anyone misses me
I wonder if
I'm wasting my time
Feb 7, 2017
Feb 7, 2017 at 10:23 AM UTC
R ight there for me
H onest with me
I love her and wanna be with her
A n it hurts but idc
N othing will separate us
N ever in
O ne millon years
N ice to know she dont like me
Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 2:03 PM UTC
With everything going downhill,
The "one" leaving and making you sick,
And your favorite family member passing,
You have nothing else you can do,
Or say,
Or even think about at this point.
You tell yourself your fine,
When really your not,
The thought that she would call,
Or the family would be grand,
Or cry,
Or everything will fix itself.
This week has been horrid,
Nothing but heartache and pain,
But with family and friends,
They will always keep you sane.
-None of this makes sense to anyone, its horrible, idc.
Jan 9, 2011
Jan 9, 2011 at 5:49 PM UTC
You opened up my Pandora's box
And out sprang forth a geyser of forgotten traumas.
Years of hard work of disassociation,
Wasted.
You yell at me for not loving you better but I was loving you just fine before this and if I didn't then that's on you for never speaking up.
Your intimidation isn't my problem.
You yell and kick and scream
About abandonment
While I'm fighting off the demons
You activated for abandoning yourself and with that, your life.
You don't get to dictate how I handle the pain YOU opened up.
Idc about your half hearted attempts.
Admit that you're weak and you fell and you're knocked out and stop pretending to play confident king.
Delusional men who think they sit on a throne of truth but they sit upon half-truths, broken to pieces by your fractured perceptions.
Just admit it.
You are defeated and I refuse
to lie down and die in your coffin with you.
Aug 18, 2021
Aug 18, 2021 at 10:01 AM UTC
How will you feel when that day comes?
"CONGRATS..HOPE THAT THINGS TURN OUT THE WAY THAT YOU WANT THEM TO"-dad➡➡ my response to this, thanks for your typical "I don't really give a **** but I'll say it in a way that it appears I care." You make me so ****** angry!!!! You've crippled me my whole life and I let you! I never wanted or was gonna tell you cause I knew the ******** you'd say. And I'm sure Erin will let emily&Zach; know their going to be "half aunts and uncles" cause she had to make it clear, there was a difference. But, I'm just a ******** lying ****** so what do I know? It's not my fault the evil ***** let her brother **** himself in jail cause you guys are all about "tough love" and now she lives with the guilt and has taken it out on me. I'm sorry he died b/c ppl couldn't understand addiction is a disease, no one wants to live that way! But, I hope she has night terrors til the day she dies. And you, how could you be a grandfather when you weren't even a father?! You're just poison and that's all you'll ever be. My Father's Day card remains true. Cut me outta your will, as if we're or especially me are even in it! Idc! Uncle George wasn't on good terms with his son but he tried to fix it! And the son just couldn't spend more than two hrs with him and now he's gone forever. How will you feel when that day comes?
Aug 27, 2013
Aug 27, 2013 at 10:57 PM UTC
im insane so **** me now put me out of my misery so i can smile just for a while ik things will never really be ok so stop caring for me thats not what i want i want some one to **** me so i can really be at peace idc where I'm going as long as i get there I'm living on pills and there not even giving me thrills so why should i live i don't want to any more I'm going fast cause i took a whole bottle of pills didn't even look at the name just took them all and washed it down with gin i don't give a **** about all the people laughing now all i see is a light and its saying you don't have to fight anymore just be at ease be at peace and guess what I'm dead (((((======
Nov 25, 2014
Nov 25, 2014 at 11:36 AM UTC
but baby I can be something you need
I'm blind and the liquid fire that goes down my throat taste better than any kiss I've ever had
or maybe it just taste better than the bitterness
I want your lips
I crave you
I want see the Sun for the first time
I can feel you but I can't see you
but how is it that you make me feel
electric eccentric ecstatic
how do you light flames so bright I still can see them even when my eyes are closed
the ocean doesn't have a fighting chance against the wildfire you started within me
mend me into a cup so when you drink you think of me
you bring wildflowers into my dull forest green grass
I've never seen peonies and sunflowers
and daisys and hyrdrogenias
look so in peace
and you make my heart beat in time in what seems like forever
I could smell these flowers even after they died
and the Sun decided she was done with them
but I never cared much for flowers
when you leave idc what I'm remembered for I just want to be remembered
if you go like the moon says good bye to his morning star
then please remember the way it felt at 21 to still believe some things would come back
and the Sun would say hello to her moon
before he left
trace the feel of your lips the way they form into smile
and remember the pattern
we're not ever getting 18 back
and I'll write you sweet nothings
on napkins I'll leave in a diner
where we once got ice cream
Dec 14, 2016
Dec 14, 2016 at 7:38 AM UTC
Tamara is slowly dying from aids
She got it passed down from Her ancestors that were enslaved
She quit easily because she had no one to come to her aid
No doctors no hospitals just a lonely maid
She's dying what to do?
She's alone without a clue..
She's scared, afraid of death
From inside , out there's close to nothing left
She closed her only eye and asked god why?!
"I'm innocent can't you hear my cry?!"
There's worse ppl out there why do I have to say goodbye..
It's not fair lifes not fair
My personality is way passed rare , but No one else cares
its just pointless
Your not a judge so try to point less..
She has feelings to she is even still god blessed
Just cursed from the devil to never let her soul rest..
No more im done wheres the rope
I'm not pushing on because I lost all hope
She heard the winds voice say nope
She asked again give me the rope I have no more hope,,
I'm alone and I need some to help me cope
Idc if I die just help me through this
I don't want to be alone through this
I don't have anyone but I still feel like I miss
Someone..
Just give me a kiss..
No one would take the risk
Except one..
Never thought exist
A powerful holy son
Gave her a kiss..
Now Tamara sleeps in heaven with nothing to miss.....
May 20, 2012
May 20, 2012 at 10:35 AM UTC
I'm floating on a dandelion
over dead dinos and growing grass
the world is so lovely now
I hope I never come down
from hazy days and frosted leaves
winter is approaching and
I'm feeling warm and dizzy
and bright.
Nov 27, 2016
Nov 27, 2016 at 4:30 AM UTC
*I used to stay up late w/you
Till I see the sun's light through the curtain
I used to share my secrets w/you
Even the things I could never explain
I used to eat my fav breakfast w/you
A croissant, no toppings but plain —
I used to eat a lotta dessert w/you
And Idc how many kilograms I could gain!
I used to listen to your voice
The happiness from it, I obtain —
The tone of your voice
Makes me feel no pain
On your lap, I used to cry
My tears were like a fountain —
But now, my tears have run dry
It seems that everything is vain
Don't you even try
You won't have me again
W/out you I won't die
w/out me, you're gonna be slain.*
Apr 9, 2016
Apr 9, 2016 at 7:30 AM UTC
w0t3va mum
idc
lyk srsly
g3t 0utta my hair
*****
i h8 it
whn u d0 dat
u tke ma fone
fgs mum
*****
u knw w0t
im gunna tweet bout u
u str355 m3 0ut
mum u knw w0t
*****
F U.
Feb 16, 2015
Feb 16, 2015 at 7:26 PM UTC