I lost you, no we lost you
We have missed you, we will miss you.

We have lost your wiley, witty, sarcastic humor.
So creative, we lost your bass voice sound as deep and strong as Gabriel's trumpet.
Always time for us, even when there wasn't.

But why?
Why, why, why, why, WHY?!?
Why didn't you love yourself like we loved you?
You let it get bad, then worse, until it was too late.
You had left us...
I asked you for to see the doctor...
You put it off, not for a day. It was weeks...
I am hurt, you are missed so...
Missed so much...

I will go on, but the world is that much darker...

Wanting to be loved,
Kept secret,
Knowing it will not be returned,
Accepting,
Know that the love of a friend,
Is still a great gift,
Knowing they are there,
Knowing they care,
Enough love to be,
To be content,
To be secure,
To be...

Happy

License to **** other's work,
While you yet remain innocent.

Not a goddess,
More.

Not a fighter,
More.

Beyond a friend,
More.

Not just beautiful,
More.

Loving and,
More.

Sweetness and,
More.

When the time has come,
And the day is done,
Then all will see,
That she,
Is something,
More.

Regretting Some Past Mistakes
Realizing what's actually At stake
Feeling so helpless and confused
So many memories of your abuse
Screaming, kicking, punching
Just too much fighting
You always knew the best ways to hurt me
Now you wanna take away what means everything
Like your final play to torture me
For eternity
What right do you have to judge me?
To look down upon me?
I am only all that you've made of me
This so called monster that you love to hate
Is just the manifestation of what you helped create
You WILL regret this
In the end, you will lose
I won't let you win, not again
They'll realize what you're trying to do
Remembering the years of abuse
And they'll HATE you
You can never destroy a mother's love
Although I know you're willing to try
When I win this battle for what I hold dear
Don't come crawling to me with tears in your eyes
Cause I won't be here