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Vanessa Escopin Jul 2020
ᜃᜓᜋᜓᜐ᜔ᜆ᜶
ᜀᜌᜓᜐ᜔ ᜃ ᜉ ᜊ᜶
ᜑᜒᜈ᜔ᜇᜒ ᜃᜓ ᜀᜎᜋ᜔ ᜉᜀᜈᜓ ᜃ ᜃᜂᜐᜉᜒᜈ᜔

ᜐᜈ ᜋᜐᜌ ᜃ
ᜐᜈ ᜋᜄᜒᜅ᜔ ᜋᜀᜌᜓᜐ᜔ ᜃ

ᜉᜀᜎᜋ᜔
Don't know if my writing is correct. Hope someone will read this and correct if I did wrong. This is Baybayin
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
Anong laban ko sa babaeng mas uunahin mo kesa sakin?
Anong laban ko sa babaeng kahit huli **** nakilala pero nakasama mo ng matagal?
Anong laban ko sa babaeng laging nasa tabi mo pag kailangan mo ng karamay?
Anong laban ko sa babaeng mas kilala ang pamilya mo?
Anong laban ko sa babeng maraming alam tungkol sayo,
sa lahat ng bagay na gusto mo,
sa lahat ng bagay na ayaw mo?

Anong laban ko sa babae na kasabay mo sa lahat ng trip mo sa buhay?

Anong laban ko sa babaeng ngiti pa lang mamahalin mo na?

Anong laban ko sa bestfriend mo?
Vanessa Escopin Aug 2021
Do you know if you ask someone "Are you okay?" And their answer is,

Doing well - means they are trying to think positively.
Fine - means they don't want to talk about it, so stop asking.
Not Bad - means something is going on but they don't want to explain to you.

So, Are you okay?
#okay
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
Balang araw,
Hindi na ko masasaktan pag nakikita ko ang mga larawan nyong magkasama.
Balang araw,
Hindi na ko magseselos dahil lagi kayong magkasama.
Balang araw,
Ngingiti na lang ako pag makikita ko kayo.

Walang halong pait, selos at lungkot.

Dahil balang araw,
Hindi ko na rin kayo maaalala.
Hindi ko na kayo makikita.
Hindi na ko malulungkot dahil namimiss ko kayo.

Kasi una pa lang,
Kinalimutan nyo na ako.
Kinalimutan nyo ako, na kaibigan nyo noon.

Huwag kayong mag alala,
Hindi ko kayo makakalimutan dahil hindi ako madaling makalimot.
Pero darating din ang panahon na hinding-hindi na ko malulungkot dahil sa hindi ako naaalala ng mga kaibigan ko.

Balang araw mangyayari din yun. Balang araw.
Lagi kong nakikita ang mga kaibigan ko na magkasama. Malayo sila. At naiwan ako. Ang babaw ko para sa gantong bagay nagseselos at nalulungkot ako. Normal pa ba ako?
Vanessa Escopin Jul 2022
Who should I blame for my misery?
I blame her for everything
I blame her for my misery
I blame her that I didn't get the chance to be who I want
I blame her for giving me the responsibilities that I shouldn't have
I blame her that I don't have my freedom
I blame her that my life is ****** up
I blame her for what she did
I blame her for the family's problems
I blame her all because of what she did
I blame her that all she did is a mistake
But the results is lifetime
The effect cost me, the family, her children
I still blame her everyday,
Everytime I remember how my life is so ****** up
How can I not get out of my comfort zone
How can I not leave
Who should I blame for everything?
I think I should blame myself too.
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
Promises that you said
Promises that I held in to
Promises that I kept
Promises that you broke
Promises that vanished.

You said we'll spend forever together.
But where are you now?
You're with your new girl.

I'll pray for you.
My friend' emotions I created it as a poetry.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
He's a broken man.
She's a complete woman.
He's broken by his anger.
She fixed him.
But by fixing him, she broke herself.
He broke her heart.
Funny that you once complete but there's someone who came whose broke and you fixed him. He became whole again, you complete him but you broke yourself. He broke you and you let him.
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
I put my earphones on and turn on the playlist.
Hard rock.
I need this.
My mind need to think something else.
That something is Myself.
No.
A child is crying on my right.
There's two people that keeps talking on my left side.
And all around me, I heard vehicles sound and every beep of each.
People shouting.
Cold night.
Traffic.
Lights of every post and every building I see.
I need this.
I need to distract myself.
Vanessa Escopin Jan 2023
I did cry yesterday cause I missed you but then you were just happy with your friends.

You don't really need me.

You're okay on your own.
You're happy on your own.

And sadly I'm not like you.
Cause

I am okay with you.
I'm happy with you.

But I guess I have to change that now.
Breakup, last
Vanessa Escopin Dec 2015
I always push people away
And wanted them back after
I always played cupid to the one I love
Cause I'm afraid he wont accept me
I always feel rejected
Or it was just me?
I'm afraid I'll ended up alone
Cause no one will accept the real me
Sometimes, I ask God,
"Do I deserve this?"
"Do I deserve this kind of treatment?"



But then I realized,



God wouldn't want me to suffer if I can't handle it.



Thanks be to God.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
He should feel what she actually feels.

To be ignored,
to assume things cos he gives motives,
to not explain things that he'd done,
and to be hurt like hell.

He'll chase her again
and she will definitely give him a hard time.

*He should feel what it feels to be hurt.
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
You're not my 3am thought
And definitely not my 2am nor 1am
You're just someone who makes me special
But I don't feel the same

Maybe they'll call it unrequitted love
Maybe I have thought of you, but not my 3am thought
I tried to love you back
But my heart just can't

I do feel happy everytime your name pops on my screen
I do feel special everytime you compliment me
But I'm not in love with you
I am just happy you're my friend and companion
Vanessa Escopin Apr 2016
Don't fall inlove with me
You're a light, i might turn your life into darkness.
You're a beautiful sunny day, I might turn you into a rainy day.
You're the milky way, I'm the blackhole.
I'm dangerous. I might **** you with my ai.
So just don't fall in love with me for I am a disaster.
Vanessa Escopin Nov 2015
Don’t fall in love with me.
There are days when I get sad without a reason and I just stare at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face.

Don’t fall in love with me.
On those days, I don’t talk to anyone. I just bury myself in my bed and think about how I became this mess of sadness.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will become attached to you and I will cry myself to sleep if you don’t text me good night before you go to sleep and I will convince myself that it’s because you got tired of me.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m too much. I will depend on you. I need attention, much more than other people. I’ll talk to you in metaphors and make you one. I’ll write poems about you and opening up my skin at 2 A.M.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I couldn’t stand you coming home to find me on the bathroom floor shaking and crying, with blood spilling from my wrists. I couldn’t stand seeing the disappointment in your eyes.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will pour everything I’ve left of me into you, every bit of love, until I have nothing to give. Until I become completely empty.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I’m scared that my sadness is contagious.

Don’t fall in love with me.
I will replay your sweet words in my head when I hate myself so much that I want to die. Your words will be the only thing that make me stay.

Don’t fall in love with me.
You will live in fear. You won’t be able to leave me, because you’d know if you did, I wouldn’t have anything to live for.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Before I met you, there wasn’t a single person who could’ve made me stay. You’re my reason now.

Don’t fall in love with me.
Because I will fall in love with you.
By: Unknown writer
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
Riding off into the sunset?*
We'll probably sitting on a mat and watching the sunset, talking our feelings out, and maybe we're laughing cos we still end up together.
Sounds great but I am just day dreaming.
I imagined what would be us, if ever we're together.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
Since then she never felt happy.
I mean she's happy sometimes but laughing is her escape to avoid someone to see what's the real emotions in her eyes.
She always ask herself, "When's the time I'll be happy again? Maybe the day I die. Because I'll see fake people cry for me and act like they love me."
She smiles as if no one hurts her.
She smiles as if nothing bothers her.
She smiles to avoid drama.
But sometimes she just can't hold those tears streaming down her face.
Sad life it is. Sad cruel life.
When?
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
She's bored to death
Death may be the solution
Solution to escape pain.
She badly want to escape.
Escape the pain.
Escape the hurt.
Escape everyone whom she think she might hurt.
She's not that particular selfish girl.
She's selfless in her own little world.
Vanessa Escopin Apr 2016
The more she smiles, the more he falls
The more she laugh, the more his heart beats fast
Love love love it is.
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
Why I always have to think of you?
When you don't even bother to ask me if I'm alright.
When you don't have much time for me.
Why am I hoping for something that you will never do.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2018
One day you'll realize that you lost a girl who's feelings for you wasn't told but she let you feel it.
One day you'll be frustrated 'cos you're wrong.
You take her for granted.
You loved her but then you lost her.
You let her go even though she doesn't want to.
You lost a girl who secretly cares for you.
A girl you used to loved and you're still loving. You lost the girl you can be trusted, a girl who have flaws, a girl who is broken but still managed to smile.
A girl who almost tell you what she really feels but time wasn't right yet.
A girl who you let wait for hours.
A girl who's patiently waiting and secretly loving you.
You lost the girl who's now ready to take the risk but you give her up.
She's tired to pretend anymore, she doesn't deserve someone who hurts her more than she was hurt.
You forget her. But she didn't.
-zxcvb
Lost in time
I forgot how to write..



But then I remember,



I write to express my feelings..



My unspoken feelings and emotions.
Sq
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
Drifting away like the clouds in the sky
Drifting away like the leaves on the ground
Drifting away like those planes in the sky
Drifting away like the raindrops on leaves
Drifting away like the light in the dark
Drifting away the girl whom once became their friend
Drifting away the woman who's strong but gone weak
She's drifting away...
Drifting away from everyone.
She's once so strong but everyone breaks her. Gone is the girl. Gone.
He
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
He
He looks at her like no one in this world but her
He admires her every move
He wants to know all about her
He's in love with her

But there came his first love and everything ruined

He lost her.
Vanessa Escopin Jul 2018
Oh my heart hurts
Cause all what he had said is true
I am not someone who's lovable
I am not someone who deserve a love
I am not someone who's needed
I am just someone who's temporary,
Not worth it,
A waste,
Undeserving,
Selfish brat,
Cruel,
And a *****.
I hated him because all he had said is true
And I am guilty as charge.
I don't know if there's someone
who's feeling the same **** as me.
I don't know what to do.
I hate myself.
Vanessa Escopin Oct 2017
I want people to ask me, "How are you?"
So I can tell them I'm not okay,
I'm doing everything to be okay,
That I can be okay.
But instead, I'm the one who asks them
"How are you?"
Just maybe they can ask me back.
"How are you?"
Vanessa Escopin Oct 2015
How many times you told me you love me?
I never believed.
How many times you always text me first?
I haven't replied.
How many times you show you cared?
I never noticed.
How many times did I tell you I'm not ready to love?
You never listen.
How many times I told you, that you should find another one.
You never give up.
*Why you're always like that?
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
I pause and think for awhile, I should've not let you in-in my life again.
I should've not let myself see you again. Because over and over again, theres one thing I always do- hurting you.



And it pains me. Really. ☺
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
If only life is that easy.
If only life is not that hard.
If only life is full of happiness.
If only people weren't judging.
If only there's no harm.
If only there's no crime.
If only people are considerate.
If only people is understanding.
If only people are good.
If only people are sensitive.
If only my life is no sadness.
If only if's were true.
If only people don't lie.
If only they understand me.
If only they care for me.
If only they love me.
If only my life is happy.
If only they understand life.
If only life is not irritating.
If only I am happy.
If only we are happy.
If only my family are happy.
If only ******* and ******* don't exist.
If only liars don't exist.
If only people understand each other.
If only my life is easy.
If only i didn't exist.
Their life will be easy, full of happiness, understanding and care.
If only I die.
If only you know how hard my life is.
I'm not trying to be selfish.
I'm just saying my side.
I love my creator but I hate my life,
I hate problems,
I hate pretending to be fine,
I hate forcing laughter,
I hate faking smiles.
I hate everything.
I must have continue my pretending after this.
Vanessa Escopin Oct 2015
If you really know me
You should know I worry
If you really know me
You should know I care
If you really know me
You should know I'm ******
If you really know me
You should know I'm not in the mood
If you really know me
You should know I'm mad at you
Only if you know me you should know by now.
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
I know I’m evil, I’m mean, I’m rude and that makes me a bad person. I know I make mistakes, sometimes I’m being sarcastic, I often cuss. My mouth is uncontrollable. I just realize how bad I am. I can’t be a perfect person, a perfect girl, a perfect child and a perfect friend to the people around me.
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
I know I’m not a good daughter. Little mistake I made, scolded. But it’s just not me who’s bad in here. I obey everything what they say. Yeah I sometimes disobey. I’m hurt unexpectedly and unconsciously. It feels like they don’t love me. They hate me every time I did wrong. Like I did a big mistake. I don’t lie. I say what I know, when someone asks. I know I lie, but I my lies are just little and plain. No one will hurt when I lie, I assure that always. Cause I don’t want to hurt someone. I am guilty of being guilty.
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
Everytime I felt alone, I write
Everytime I feel lonely, I write
Everytime I feel empty, I write

When my emotions were blur, I write
When my emotions were mixed, I write
When my emotions full of sadness, I write

Every sadness, lonely, empty feeling I felt, I write
Because in that way, I let my emotions out.
I do it in a way where I can tell it to myself.
Vanessa Escopin Oct 2015
Mahal mo ko, Hindi kita mahal
Sinaktan kita, Hinayaan mo ko

Sabi mo wala akong pake sayo, Meron
Hindi kita pinaasa, Minahal kita

Ngunit bilang kaibigan lamang.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
Isang taon na umaasa ako na ako ang uunahin mo kahit hindi mo pa nakuha ang matamis kung "Oo".
Pero sana mapatawad mo ako sa pangbabalewala ko noon.
Mahal kita pero hindi mo malalaman 'to.
To my almost. There were never be an us. Sad Story.
Vanessa Escopin Oct 2015
I'm blinded of being in love with you
I always wanted to be fair
But I always ******* up

I wanted to love you
The way you love me too
But I just couldn't?
Or I just deny it?

I always feel that you love me
I always feel I'm in love with you
But I'm confused
I think I'm not really in love with you.

Could you just let me fall?
Fall in love to you?
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2017
She'd rather lose with him, than to win without him.
Vanessa Escopin Dec 2017
You created the distance between us
You choose to forget what we had
You didn't even know you make'd me cry
You know nothing about my feelings

You said every single thing you'll remember
You said you're sorry
I forgave you
But I just hate the fact that memories still lingers

Everytime we see each other, you hug me
What contradicts you for telling the truth?
Our friendship that I treasure,
You just throw it away in one snap
-zxcv
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
When I was a kid my definition of the word love is,
Like a rosary full of mystery.
Yes it is.
But love is also selfless
love is not blind, it sees but it don't mind
love is unconditional
love is the most dangerous feeling.

Love is when you feel like crying cos he/she's mad at you.
Love don't mind the height, weight, age and level in life.
As long as you love a person, you love them.

But love is uncontrollable,
you feel hurt when you love.
Hurt, pain will always be there as long as you love.
There are lots of meaning in the world LOVE.
Love is unexplainable feeling.
Vanessa Escopin May 2019
She keeps talking
Then she stop
She was silent
Deeply thinking
Then she said,
"Can you call your father? Maybe he hasn't eaten yet."
With tears in her eyes.

I don't know what she's thinking
I know she's strong,
But sometimes she has her breaking point.
We all do.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2018
Sometimes we think we already moved on.
Just because they don't see us and communicate with us anymore.
But one message, one glance.
You realize the feelings is still there.
You'll gotta say this, "Abi ko naka move on nako." ("I thought I have moved on.")
But you aren't, yet.
Yes, yet!
Because one day, maybe tomorrow or  the day after tomorrow or next week or next month or next year you will moved on.
You'll get over her/him.
You'll wake up smiling.
You'll realize things are much better without the burden of thinking about her/him.
You'll be thankful to God that He let you see things clearly.
That He let you move on.
You'll realize that this is His purpose.
He has a better purpose.
Maybe you won't see the right way but soon you will.
This is dedicated to my friend Jas. I hope you'll get over him. God bless you.
Vanessa Escopin Nov 2015
You're not my ex boyfriend. You're just my passing moment. An almost someone to be.
But that moment didn't happen.
But it feels like know you so much.
Like I know your hurtful past.
I know what rules your mom applied on you and your siblings.
I know whats your favorite leisure time. I know what you like.

We were an 'almost', 'maybe', 'someday'.
Inspired by my cousin
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
I don't have the right to whine nor rant.
I am just me.
Me, that trying to understand everybody
Trying to be good even if I wanted to yell at someone

Sometimes I just wished I'll just die
Coz I'm tired of ****
Tired to understand people's situation
Tired to cry everytime I get angry

I'm so tired.
Please let me rest in peace
Peace of mind or
Peace of soul.
Both will be in His favor.
Is it bad to wished I'll just die?
No
Vanessa Escopin May 2016
No
You will no longer be the one
I wrote my poetry for
Because you abandon me
In my darkest times

You give up
In the times I'm almost
Almost loving you,
You left my heart

I should not let you in
At first time I saw you
Cause you broke my whole heart
Without you knowing?

You let me feel insecure
You let me cry
You resist me
You give up on me

Yet I am still hoping for something.
But this time this is the last....
Vanessa Escopin Sep 2015
You know whats funny- being you in love with me?
Is you don't know how I  truly feels. You think I'm happy that you're hurting because of me?
NO.
I'm **** hurt that I wanna cry a river.
But I'm making it stop.
If you don't want to stop hurting me, we'll then I guess we're not meant to be.
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
I always loved to;
To be alone in the dark
But someone give light.
I love darkness because I'll be able to see light. It clears my mind.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
She's simple
She's someone you can go everywhere with on her birthday
She's someone who don't choose where to celebrate cos whatever it is she is happy
She's vulnerable but trying to be strong
She wanted to be appreciated but didn't
She just wanted to be greeted on her birthday
But it seems no one remembers.
It's Okay.
She's okay with it.
*I'm so okay with it.
Happy born day to me. It's funny that no one remembers your birthday if you hide your birthday on your facebook timeline. Why is that?
Vanessa Escopin Jan 2017
Our love story was unknown by many.
They never knew we used to love each other.
Maybe some of them notice us being in love.
But they keep it to theirselves.
Our love is not the strongest because we're weak.
We didn't say how much we love each other.
But we always smile like nothing's wrong.
I remember one time I was suddenly upset or just bored.
I'm moody but you never leave me.
We're lovers.
But we're not into commitment.
I don't know what the heck is called to us, being in love but no label.
Vanessa Escopin Feb 2016
Kung kailan nahulog na ko, saka ka lalayo.
Not a poem. Just a quote.
Vanessa Escopin Mar 2016
Minsan maiiyak ka na lang sa pagod.

Pagod sa lahat ng bagay.
Pagod sa pagiintindi sa mga tao.
Pagod gumalaw.

Hanggang gusto mo na lang mawala.
Mawala na walang bakas na namalagi ka sa mundong ito.
Pagod ka na kasi.

Dahil pagod ka na ring umiyak.
Titigil ka na din sa pag iyak dahil pagod kana.
Pagod na pagod kana.
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