I saw a butterfly dead in the middle of spring
And I cried, for I saw the end of our relationship.
I saw the end of our relationship in the height of life
With lilacs in bloom of purple, her favorite colour.
The butterfly had drowned in dark waters of my heart-
For I was drowning- and I know she was too.
My heart was under dark waters, so I guess I couldn't tell her
How much she means to me, how much I care.
My mistake holding so much dark water inside for so long
As she had to drown in my dark water as well as her own to save me.
I know I was too weak to help her much in my own saving;
I’m sorry I was too weak to help her with her dark water.
She was so busy trying to save me that she wouldn't let me save her
From her own dark water, which she has drowned in longer than me.
Yet she wouldn't let me help as much as she helped me
For she has drowned much longer than me.
And to open up to me would be to open up to my dark waters sometimes
When she only wants to bring brighter days to my heart.
I always want to say how she brightens my day, with a smile, with a hug,
But under the weight of the dark water I guess I didn't say it enough.
Now I’m under new dark water, made of her tears I caused her to shed
And of the pain knowing she has brighter days of summer without me.
I hope some day that she can come back to me, after the pain has eased
And that we can tame the dark waters together.
