cas: Poems

burn

cas Mar 2020

burn

the sun is gazing at me
though tried, but still on me
i look away
i run away
still, the sun is smiling at me

#bright #sunny #sun #smile #gaze #love #self #running #away #monica

cat's meow

cas Mar 2020

cat's meow

it was a cold night.
    i have no shelter.
    cold, tired, and hungry.

you were so down.
    heart's been thrown,
    looking from afar,
    wishing on the stars.

it's already late.
    you, walking around,
    found me on the Nile.
    too blue,
    but happy to be found.

#cat #love #lost #tired #sad #depress #thrown #hooman #monica

cat’s meow pt. 2

cas Jun 2020

cat’s meow pt. 2

i found you,
  i found me in you.
  you don’t love me,
  but i love you.

i kissed your nose,
  you stare at me.
  i hugged you,
  and then you purr.

you meowed at me,
   so, i kissed you.
   you meowed at me,
   so, i opened the door.
   you meowed outside,
   so, i opened the door.
   you walked in,
   and then i hugged you.

you are my only happiness. orange please come back. mommy misses you so much, don’t you miss mommy?

#cat #orange #love #pet #happiness #sad #tired #hooman #monica

cold night

cas Mar 2020

cold night

a pillow is something i can lean on
suddenly, my favorite song played
i hugged my pillow
pouring all my strength in it
not realizing how many tears
i had let out

"i give up... i g-give up"
i repeated
tears continues to ran down
"i hate this... i hate this feeling-"
a scream echoed in an empty room
a scream of a sad
and lonely little girl...

#lonely #girl #sad #empty #cold #night #angst #hopelessness #monica

donggyeong

cas Apr 2020

donggyeong

Tokio desu, wearing a dress
Feel like a mess, making a mess
Wearing a dress, I was the best

#tokyo #donggyeong #mask #best #mess #monica

fire

cas Mar 2020

fire

you're my fire,
you give me life.

with you,
i will not die.

#fire #love #endless #life #death #monica

hands that never intertwined

cas Nov 2020

hands that never intertwined

birds are chirping,
flowers have bloomed
why is it so hard to reach you,
when i'm here—
ready to hold you?

it's been awhile

#monica #hands #love #flowers #you

hey... blue

cas Jan 2022

hey... blue

wearing blue
because i love blue
when i see you,
i feel blue

a vvv rough idea i had thought while scrolling through pinterest >:)

i just can't

cas Mar 2020

i just can't

i love you,
i want you,
but i can't have you.

will soon post the full poem hehe this is an old poem i made when i was in 10th grade though

#angst #love #lonely #sad #heartbroken #brokenhearted #cant #monica

it was the eyes

cas Mar 2020

it was the eyes

it was a crowded place
they were on their own world;
people are dancing and singing—
but your eyes found mine,
fixed and locked

this is the second part of "truthful eyes"

#eyes #love #people #smile #crowded #found #monica

key : peace

cas Apr 2020

key : peace

i pressed the key
a sad, yet sweet melody
i missed the key,
so does he

you are the piece
that completes the peace
you are the music
that gives me bliss

#piano #key #piece #peace #music #bliss #euphoria #him #monica

lonely night

cas Mar 2020

lonely night

it's an empty shed,
and my mind's been dead.
before you—
i was alone in bed.

#lonely #night #sad #angst #you #us #dead #empty #monica

love

cas Apr 2020

love

birds are chirping
flowers have bloomed
love is flowing
but yours is fading

#fade #yours #flowers #love #joy #happiness #sad #monica

moon

cas Apr 2020

moon

when moon rise,
      you will shine
      be who you are
      and you will shine

#moonlight #moon #cancer #shine #bright #self #happiness #monica

my boo

cas Mar 2020

my boo

you are my boo
  and i wish you knew
  you flew like an ooh
  then vanished with pew

#boo #sad #heartbroken #wish #hope #couple #love #monica

once upon a time

cas Mar 2020

once upon a time

you said,
    "love is war,
      i am your soldier".

i'm in pain,
     yet you never came.

you held my hand,
     and there's no spark;
     you pulled me close,
     but then you fall.

#love #war #soldier #pain #fall #spark #intertwined #hands #left #monica

path

cas Apr 2020

path

end means end
there's nothing we can do if it's dead
grab on and let it go
take the opportunity and let it grow
forget the unworthy,
find your victory

#path #maze #victory #grow #end #grab #happiness #monica

stories

cas Mar 2020

stories

stories are made for enchantment
our hearts are even meant
we hold hands
staring at each others eyes
and there's a spark
the hints of lies

#lies #story #enchantment #spark #eyes #hands #love #heart #hints #monica

that 24/25

cas Dec 2021

that 24/25

Jack Frost on the frame
Replaced to find another aim
A cold breeze touches the skin
Children play to feel the win

Christmas is on the way
Splattering colors on your way
Single color makes no sense
Various colors give more tense

Black, white, red, and blue
Doesn’t matter if it’s you
Single color makes no sense
Various colors give more tense

Paint that wall with pink, red, green, and blue
Things all matter if it means to you
Jack Frost on his way
Coming back with another aim

Pour all the colors
Put ‘em on a show
Love all the colors
And don’t go with the flow

a poem i was asked to do. for the reference, i used 24 to 25 and paint as my for this.

the conversion

cas Dec 2021

the conversion

Long have gone since that day
I still think ‘til this day
Nightmares may it be,
I suffer, so I plea
The girl whom we killed,
I spit on the ground, to have it live

211216

#gender #conversion #forced

TMT

cas Nov 2020

TMT

What do you want?
No, what do I want?
I'm almost there
Yet I'm still here,
Standing on the same page

I'm gonna keep going
This my dream,
This is my choice,
But now that I'm here
Why am trembling?

I want to be like a twinkling star
Not everyone can be a star
I'm afraid of falling
Like a falling star
I guess I'll never ever find out

Countless thoughts storms my head
Should I go or not?
I'm gonna keep going
This is my dream,
This is my choice

Did I choose the right one or not?
Honestly, I chose this, but am I wandering?
I want to be like a twinkling star
Should I go or not?
I ran as I look at the stars

I'm afraid of falling
Like a falling star
But can I be that star?
I guess I'll never ever find out

(too much thinking)

#tmt #dream #path #star #overthinking

truthful eyes

cas Mar 2020

truthful eyes

behind those sweet,
     and eye-catching smile.
     there's a story
     behind those eyes.

#eyes #story #love #smile #sweet #monica

two roads

cas Aug 2021

two roads

found you at your worst
lift you on your worst state of all

under the moonlight, hands are tied
your eyes are sparkling like the stars
and your smile illuminates the darkness where i am placed

i look at you one,
i look at you twice,
you are there wearing that smile
i look at you thrice,
the smile you used to wear is gone
i look at you for the fourth,
you’re no longer on my side
i closed my eyes and breathed in,
there i saw you on the other side of the road

#paths #eyes #sunshine

weary

cas Apr 2020

weary

too lonely to beat
too painful to bear

hold on tight
and make it right

take off the mask
and let them watch

they are the judge
to make things right

#watch #mask #judge #right #sad #weary #tired #beat #monica

you

cas Apr 2020

you

thoughts are dark as night
    hands are gently intertwined
    wanna hold you close
    but your heart already froze

#heart #froze #close #love #yours #monica

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