I guess that didn't go the way I planned.
Even with the wheelhouse fully manned,
Here I stand,
With my goal underachieved.

I guess that didn't go the way I planned.
Even with my feet on the land,
I feel like I'm only standing on a strand
Of the ideas I had before.

I guess that didn't go the way I planned.
Even now my dreams turn to sand,
And all seem so bland,
Compared to the rest things that have happened since.

Even though it didn't go the way I planned,
The results of the effort are still grand.
Sometimes you need for life to give you a hand
In changing your aims for something better.

Sometimes you have to fall apart to fall back together

They think I'm a mocking bird
-Singing a false song

They think I'm a siren
-Leading men to their doom

They think I'm fools gold
-Too good to be true

That is why I'm all alone
Sitting in silence at night
Because no one believes that a gold rush
Is any where in sight

Everything nowadays is so dark and dreary
That now it's becoming tough to see clearly
Bitter tongues clash as swords
Some in the name of the lord
Others in the name of what can't be restored

Everything nowadays is so miserable and bleak
That now our bonds of love are growing weak
Talking becomes an act on a tightrope
Some no longer know how to cope
Others no longer know how to hope

I was set free
But not by a lock and a key
But by one little word
Just as I had always dreamed...

It's been so long since I could walk without the shackles
I'm finally happy...


I almost miss it.
Funny, I never thought I'd say that,
But it's true

Now that I'm finally out of the cage
I don't know what to do

I am water.
I mold to fit into your life
But you never really care for the flavor I add.

I am a chameleon.
I fade in and out of the existence you know and into another's.

I am clear.
I seem to be see through, but you never really know what's inside.

I see you
On the other side
Of the glass.

At least...
That's what I think it is.

Though even if it is glass
Why don't you turn to look at me
As I scream your name
And try to break it.

Overtime
I found
That there was glass
Just not where I thought it was.

And overtime
I found
That I wasn't the one who finally broke it.

I am a villainous heroine
Leaving my family brings me sweet sorrow
Marrying my kin’s murderer brings me miserable joy

I am a lucky wretch
Paris’s devotion gives me belittling flattery
Romeo’s adoration gives me obscured clarity

I am a guide lost
Society rejects this careless affection
My heart is open to this insensitive empathy

I am loved hatred
I am an accepted cast off
I am Juliet

Her eyes a pool of liquid jewels
Drunken by only the most foolish of fools
Draw me in and weaken my legs
As if I’d devoured several kegs

Her smile that of an angel
The kind found in the old fables
Greets me warmly and welcomes me home
As if it’s the only one I’ve ever known

Her heart purer than gold
No matter how young or old
Loves me undoubtly and makes me lucky
As if I’ve won the grandest of lottery

How such a saint love a pilgrim such as me
Shall forever remain a mystery
Her voice lifts me from life’s misery
And shows me that all along she was the key

What kind of an ungrateful brat
Trades her family like a hat

After keeping her from harm
Making sure she is warm

She married our only foe
Bringing us such grave woe

My once pride and joy
Leaves us like a toy

All because of a son of Montague
Her time in this family is through

Break me down bit by bit
See which foreign piece will fit
Hold me back with chains of ice
Notice how you didn't think twice
Of the unhumanity at hand  

Scatter my thought
Love me nought
Hold me back with iron grip
Notice the sides start to flip
As I begin to take a stand

You have hurt me so
In ways you'll never know
Held me back from the world
Notice how this unfurled
And how it didn't go as planned

Don't look that way at me
We'll only be another tragedy

Like Juliet and Romeo
Like Monroe and DiMaggio
Like Princess Anne and her lover Joe

All will end with broken glass
Because we both know
That we won't last

Those were the best times
The old times
Where we never laughed & mourned in a sitting

Only sunshine
No rainfall
Till caught up the hurricane

It destroyed our ritual
We couldn't make new
For too few of us made it out in one piece

Now we've been broken
Set apart
So far that no glue can fix us

All thanks to that hurricane
That revealed our differences
And hid the similarities

All thanks to that hurricane
That snuffed out our link
And our light

We are nothing but sunset and dusk
As ageless as a newborn's laugh

We are nothing but history and moments
As forget-less as heroes in legend

We are nothing but ash and flame
As timeless as a dying man's last days

I've got a fire in my soul
Behind this sheet of ice
And if you think to mess with me
You better think twice

I've got heaven on my mind
With hell in my veins
And if you ask how that can be
Well we all make mistakes

I've got the face of a doll
With a cloak of innocence
And if you ask what's underneath
You'll just have to wait and see

I've got gardens in my heart
With thorns as my fences
And if you ask to be let in
Just don't is my two cents

Please
Don't
Leave

After all this time
After all our struggles
After all these memories
After all these troubles

After 'I love you's
After all the tears
After all the victories
After all the fears

After all we have lost
I cannot lose you
Not after
Everyone else

Please
Don't
Leave

I need you.

Some days
All that holds me is a thread
And there I stay dangling

Some days
The scissors close in
And nearly cut me down

Some days
I struggle to hold on
And sometimes I wish to slip
But I don't.

I hold on
To my little thread
As the scissors close in

Helpless
Stranded
Alone

But then I see a light at the end of the tunnel
It tells me to hold on
And it keeps my little thread away from the scissors

Though I'm stuck here
All alone
I've found something
To call home

Maybe I could walk a tightrope
Even when the strings all broke
And maybe I wouldnt fall
And maybe I didn't have to lose it all

Maybe I didn't have to dive so deep
Deeper than six feet
Maybe then someone could hear my screams
Maybe this time someone will save me

Maybe I'll learn to escape
As everything escalates
Maybe I can save my self
For I can't see anyone else

Maybe I'll wake up anew
With the sky so blue
And all the grays I've ever known
Fading away
For the sunshine is here to stay

But for now I'll walk my tightrope
As all the other strings break
But I'll do whatever it takes
To walk my way

I feel the walls around me cavin' in
We're in the deep end with out favorite friends
And in the dark we like to play pretend
As we struggle to make amends

The water here is pourin' in
Our time as kings almost spent
It ticks away with every grain of sand
Maybe one day we'll find land

Now here we're drownin' with our crown
Fighting those who try to bring us down
They think that all we do is mess around
They only see us as little clowns

But what they don't know is they got another thing comin'
We've all brought our knives do you better start runnin'
We don't thirst for blood we only fight for the title
Sick of being taught you're our idol

So you better be on your guard
We know that this war is hard
But be careful for we're wild fires
Especially as our situation dires

One day all the marble will crumble
And the next ruler will rise from the rubble
But we know that it's okay
For today is not that day

We know eventually we'll be replaced
But we won't let that scare us away
They say all we have to do is sit and wait
We know that our end is near
But also that we ha nothing to fear

Stay back
Don't get to close
The quietest of us
Fear the most

We fear
And fight our demons
While life passes by
But no one can hear a sound
No one sees enough to ask why

The prison of silence can be torture
Being here all alone
But for some of us it's a blessing
To not have someone asking if we're home

For me it's best to be kept away
So those around me don't hurt
For my heart is constructed of ice
But my mind is built of fire
Conflicting within me
Making my need for isolation more dire

Here in my kingdom of ice and fire
I am the queen
Ruling however I please
With a civil war on the horizon
Yet floating through time with ease

So you wonder why people ignore us
Well for some know all to well
That the quietest of us can be the most dangerous
The wild cards that can't be helped

But don't worry
Not all of us strike poison
So if you dare go greet them
Make sure to bring your knives

Drip
Drip
Drip
Is all you hear
In the dark silence
Of the night

You can feel their hot breath
Dancing on the back of your neck
And you turn and look behind you
To see nothing

You can smell the blood on their teeth
From their last ****
But your nose
Leads you no where

You reach out into the blackness
And feel nothing
But smoke and mirrors

You don't know where they are
What they are
Who they seem to be
Why they're after you
Or when they're coming to feast

All you can do
Is *wait
And wait
And wait
Until the beasts **strike

Remember when all the lights went out
And the snow drifted all over town
Remember when we let our hearts show off
And all that we had lost was found
Remember those moments
Where everything seemed
Like it could last
Forever

Maybe even though
Stars fall
We can all learn to
Stand tall
Maybe even though
Empires crumble
We can all last
Forever

Even when all the lights go
Out
And silence is the only
Sound
When everything is new and cold
Maybe we can break our bonds
Maybe we can bend our molds
Maybe we can make this last
Forever

The summer sun
Kisses my skin
Perfect time
To be young again

No more worries
No more doubts
No more cages
No more pouts

And here I am
Drifting about
Thinking of
What happens next

Of how we'll meet again
If we'll stay friends
If I am wrong and you are right
And if my black soul is still comparable with your pure

And while I spend
My time contemplating
The summer slips away
Leaving me here wishing it would stay

Isn't it so beautiful
To see something as simple as a heart beat
Come alive?

Not just the steady thumping
The thumping that keeps you alive
But something more

The quickening pace
As you heart enters this race
That occur as soon as you see your lover's face

The little flutters it emits
Right from your soul
Making those empty spots whole

Isn't it incredible how it goes to your smile
Your eyes
Your very mood

Oh don't you wish
With all your heart
That you can see it again soon

Isn't it amazing
How smiles can be faked
How laughs can be plastic
How ****** expressions be unreal

Isn't it incredible
How good of actors
People can
And that no one can see

Isn't it sad
Being that person
Behind that mask
Longing for someone to see

But alas
You're all alone
And your screams
Only echo
Off the sides
Of your mask

You can't let someone in
You can't get out
You must stay
An imprisoned actor
Faking to the end

How we can be born from love
And filled with such hate
I shall never know

I have learned
Over the years
Is that demons are real
Just not where you think they are

I've found some
Oh yes
I truly have
They're more terrible than your wildest dreams

Where did I find them?
Why the answer is simple
I found them inside of me
For the demons we fear
Are inside us
And they come out to play
When we're afriad

Maybe in this old town
That those hipsters have run into the ground
We can find
That we’re so much more

Maybe we can be
Better than those people
Trying so hard to find the money in the ground
Maybe we can find that we can be something more

Maybe we can see
How life is suppose to be
Instead of wandering around blind with hate
Maybe we can find that we can be something more

Maybe we are
Better off than those low life
Who care nothing of the world
And maybe then we can become something more

What if I could be
What ever I want to be
Without you coming and crushing my dreams

What if I was free
From your misery
Without you hurting me again

To bad
That I'm stuck in this town
All alone

So sad,
That I'm forced to suffer
And keep getting pushed around

There’s a hole
In my heart
And it’s shaped
Like you

There’s a wound
In my lungs
And It feels
Like your touch

Because of you
Everyday is weighed down
Like I’m a prisoner

Because of you
Insanity for me is just around the corner
Like I’m lost in the labyrinth of your eyes all over again

Because of you
I’m not my own

Sitting in the dark
All alone
Wondering who else is home

Oh how you wish to roam
Those city streets tonight
Just hanging out and picking fights

But all your friends are out with lovers
Hitting the scene with style
You don't bother finding others
You know they'll come back in a while

Being left behind never hurt so much
Never before wished I was in love

I'm trapped inside these walls
I'm tied down to these halls
I cannot leave
I cannot be free

I just want to run away
Oh how I wish I could stay
But I can't stay caged any longer

I just want to run and hide
From these monsters in the wild
Who knew I could be so afraid
Of being trapped in this prison I've made

One day we'll out run the monsters,
One day we'll live without fear,
One day we won't have to keep running,
One day they'll all disappear

I don't know
How they
Can sleep at night
After hurting
One who is
Different
And laughing
Because they did

I don't know
How I
Can sleep at night
After knowing
That
Such horrible
People exist
Because they do

I look around
And all I see
Is Humans
Without Humanity

How will we survive
Without
Mercy
Caution
Love
Without hurting us all

What if we could walk the world
After having shed our masks
What would people think of us
After they see us how we really are
Will they go into shock?
Will they wish that they had believed us?
We shall never know.

For we are to afraid
To step out into the light
In fear that someone would take it
Far far away
And that we'd have to search for it all over again

Just close your eyes my brother,
Unless the demons come near.

Love with all your heart my kin,
I'll make sure that you have nothing to fear.

And stay by my side my friend,
Never shall they hurt you as long as I'm here.

I am
Only a shell
Of who I was

But when I look at him
Though I hate him
Something
Sparks

A spark ignites my soul
And my walls come crashing down
Though I've built them as high as they'll go
This impossibility becomes a reality

There's this boy
Of course there is
This is how it starts

Your eyes meet
Something changes in his face
Something you just can't place
Something special and new

You say you don't deserve him
When you do more than you know

So dear Marie
Listen to me when I say
You  deserve to be happy
In every way

Little wisp of hope
You're drifting away
And so soon

Little wisp of hope
I wish you would stay
And sing your little tune

Little wisp of hope
Why must you always leave in the end?
Without a farewell?

Little wisp of hope
Am I not allowed to have a forever real friend?
Instead only for a spell?

Little wisp of hope
Why must you torture me?

I almost wish
That you'd just leave me be.