I sit here day by day
Wishing for different things
Things don't really mean anything
In the scheme of things
We are just here for a while
I want my loved ones to out number
my bank account-
And my life
to be more than a 9 to 5
Dying for things I 'love'
That will never hold me when I am sick
Or love me when I'm gone
My imprint on this world
Should be more than my belongings
and an amount of digits
To create something beautiful to leave behind
Or perhaps a kindness or love
Or wise words for someone who needs
That may just stick
Is all I could truly want
In a world like this

Does the anger ever consume you?
Do you ever feel the fire
build in your heart
pumping through your veins
to balled fists and a screaming head
making deals with the devil
to let the dam break

I love the sounds the rivers make
babbling,
sloshing
tumbling against rounded rocks
pushing yesterdays stream
into tomorrow
wading it away as if to say goodbye
for if the river does not move
it is bound to flood

The earth beneath my feet
Thrums with her heart beat
The tree branches sway
With the changing day
Hiding scars of days past
As did the last
When will you learn of past mistake?
Of avoiding demons come to take
Last few strands of sanity hanging on for my own sake.
After years of safe lies to yourself
Can you face your ownself
With courage for the next day?
To keep them at bay
To fight for my own rationality
For my memories have taken my reality

Streaks of the past
Wiped out of sight
As I open my mind
Anew
My surrenders to demons
cease with my own will
The realization of my own power
To stop these thoughts
And see life with grace
Have saved my heavy heart
The small blessings
Must be acknowledged
And misfortunes understood
For our souls to be content

You're eyes my favorite get away
My face mirrors yours
As the sides of your mouth turn to a grin
And I know
Your kindness and heart
Shine from within
As your spirit leads you
I know only good directions...
Oh how I love
Such a true soul
Who could make me radiate at my lowest points
And guided my through seas too rough
I don't know what I'd do without
My other half
To adventure these roads ahead
And keep me from losing myself again

Her eyes a whisper
Of melancoly tunes
While her cries rang out in
Waves of shock
Crash onto the shore
Of my ever present worries
Please cease the pain
Because
As the sun set
To meet the darkness
Sleep took her
And the stars looked on
In a looming somber
A blanketed peace
Soothed her dampened eyes
Even just for a little while

And I know
As the wind blows, blows
I will be carried home
As the forest inevitably
Always infatuated with life
As the gentle manner of the rabbit
Is always betrayed by the hawk
As the grass rooted to this earth
Will only experience life running past
And as the crickets sing
For the darkness coming near

She stopped, her lips open agape.
The winds howled as they enveloped her, rippling a grey Marled sweater against her back like a sinking ships flag as she glared at the sea.
Her stare was a devilish dream sinking you into a dark daze.
The waves screamed as they crashed and lightning flashed against her eyes.
What beautiful hazel eyes they were.
She then met my eyes
With the stealth of a hawk
A swift motion followed by a shocked expression came across her,
I just wanted to help,
I said in dispair,
Such awful thoughts in such a person.
No wonder nature created women, with such fierce and compassionate nature ******* into one.

Because like bait,
I am ****** to be consumed
By the ominous demons
Of the dark waters below
Why can the sun
Never graze my skin
And the fight of my heart
Is neglected by the eye
And taken for nothing
Why can't I
Be free as birds
Instead anxieties riddle my head
As I hear them
Pounding like my heartbeat
I no longer bare
The thought of a hope
As I continue to swim
With a predestined fate

My bones click
As I tediously live
day in and day out
through every gasp of breath
shocking my dyspeptic nerve endings
As the clock stares me down
With no escape
I know how this ends
Fall leaves bring
Winters of snow
In a continuous cycle
Playing in my head

Is this reality?
The raw emotions
The oceans falling down my cheeks
As my blood flows in my veins
delicate hairs on my head
Stand on end
As lazy fingers
Grasp for answers
With no hope of reply
Fluttering eyes
Search for what is the truth
When what is sought after
Is trapped within
A cruel world of loss

A gold dipped world
Still decays beneath
With a grotesque air
Of loss and death
As the wars wage through
The bombings ensue
How much hate can they take
With guns to pierce their loved
What a lovely place.

Oh what music
Hides behind
Such rosy puckered lips
Such sin in a smile
But the secrets kept
Cannot be seen
While we're both
Wrapped into a failing scene

How sweet and stirring
Are your humble eyes
They graze my skin
Like the shore and land
And fill my lungs with
Sweet breaths of summer
Whilst perfumes of past spring flowers
Entangle my spirits
With deep serenity

I felt the sun dip down
As the moon arose
And every pale streak
Of orange purple and pink hues
Clashed through my skin
And danced in my sins

Your heart matches mine
And the background is undefined
I lose my breath
The thudding in my veins is growing quicker
And I am filled with wander
Of how my soul could match
To another so

And I know I'll be okay
I will make it through another day
Every bone broken before
has healed stronger today
The river flowing from my eyes
has dried again
The hopelessness in my heart
has been regained
And I am stronger today
But will be more tomorrow
Nothing will stop
The grace in my step
The path I'm carving
Is only for the best

Even when my head spins
You bring me to a stop
My heart will race and pound
Your touch calms me
The days I am blue
You bring the sun out to shine
Just for me
When my eyes shed heavy tears
Your embrace brings me close
and takes them away
And when a smile is across my face
You have one too

A windy day
For whom portrayed
A past face of mine
It would say
With a whispering grace
Of all the times past
I fell to my knees
And finally believed
Angels roamed the earth
Thank god for windy days

I look up at the falling leaves
Crimson,
Sunshine,
Jealous greens,
mingling with chocolate browns
Look down at me
Their kaleidoscopes of beauty intrigue
My curious wandering soul
Crisp breezes of summer's past tickle my skin
To it's compelling caressing touch
I breathe it in as it seduces my senses
With joys of Autumn holding me close

Oh where did I go?
"What a shame!"
They'd all say as I'd sit
Waving my white flag
"I hope you feel better!"
One always blurts out
With eyes of pity and curiosity
Creeping over my being
What a terribly awful gesture
You see I too hope I'll feel better
Oh but please tell me
How can one do so
When all that surrounds are onlookers

As I sat still as death
I felt liquid dribble from my head
Oh my what a mess
How clumsy of me
But wait!
Stray words tumbled from my rosy lips
Before I could silence my tongue
The fighting in my head was over for a moment
The venom was released
Carried by a sigh
The truth is always set free
Oh!
But what has been done...

I know something you don't know
How to succeed another's cruelty
No one has the power to control how a person feels
Let the feeling of hatred and sorrow
Melt away by three words
Find inner peace with the demons of your past
Ruling your life and your every thought
The one way
To shatter another's power over you
I forgive you.

Love is a sharp pain in your chest
Burning with words unspoken
Kept deep within
Tied and tangled together by fear
Of another heart answers